eyes fucked with him

though hes grown accustom to their betrayal 

they think theyre funny

but its spreading his other senses are wanting playdays too

his ears went off earlier today during a radio advertisement

he was riding with a friend who plays the radio whenever he drives

on the other hand he didnt 

when hes in the car with someone he preferred conversation chitchat  rather than listen to lyrics butchered in a bad voice

Hey man yamay sound good to yourself in the shower but we aint an you aint

                                                                                   Coudya hush it

Don’t like my voice?

Voice Whoever told you you had a voice

                                          No  I don like it

or maybe he was just getting older

but while his buddy croonedstill desperate with the songs refrain despite it ended and a commercial was playing

"Working at a harem isn’t a full-time job."

Wha

     that hung him upthats what his ears played  it couldnt be right   Harems  America    Fat chance 

because he was riffing he missed the rest of the commercialdidnt hear what it advertised

   his takeaway  harems werent twentyfourseven

he couldnt help but wonder about the eunuch gig eunuchs   lotsa entriesaccesses that needed to be manned

thats not accurate

                      eunuched

it was unlikely but

                    Did you hear that

Hear what?

The commercial that was just on

No, I was singin . .

. . Yawerent singing Get over that

                                       Ya didnt get any of that advertisement

I was singing.

Apparently in America  working at a harem isnt a full-time job.

off to a side he could hear his senses snickering

suntime,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

234 preferred,  Monday,  20  6. 22

Jim was ambitious

                   laid a look on her  it said Wanna try out the backseat of my Prius?

he couldnt help but roll his eyes

                                   Lemme get this right  a look said try out the backseat of his Prius

Yes. Girls learn these kind of looks . . they get it they understand . particular looks.

We give looks entreaties

                         Does a Prius even have a backseatya sure he wasnt offering a ride on his priapism  Prius possibly shorthand 

                      with a loose fist he briefly motioned jacking off   

Jaysus Joe . . how your head works.

Head

Would you stop.

Thas on you All I did was ask about your morning together

                                                                This was a cat at Grossly Market . .

. . It's called Grocery Outlet.  Moby didnt find his christening humourous

I wasnt talkin to you

A little respect huh? It’s my market. 

Whoareyou  Prince Charming Knight in Shining Armor Tarzan swinging in on a vine  Maybelle can handle herself

It’s my mar . .

. . Yasaid

           he returned his attention to her  This was the same cat trying to sell you on a Riesling

Jim . . his name is Jim.

He introduced himself or ya read his name tag Id bet introduced

Yes he introduced himself, but it was also on his name tag.

So he Jim offered you a ride Priuspriapism an a Rielsing  A rising

                                                                          Thas customer care par excellence

she scrunched her nose

                           Jim wouldn’t take no for an answer.

No can mean yes according to some guys

Keep it up Joe, you’ll deplete your bag of tricks . .

. . Not me its depths are unplumbed

You ought to take him at his word said Moby you haven’t spent time in many years with him like I have. Something's always percolatinglying in wait . I don’t know how . . drives me nuts.

 

    Are you standing down Maybelle

                                             Ya bought a Riesling didntya

I did.

So did I said Moby

You two made Jims day

Maybelle briefly shook her head  Might suppose we did.

Prius Priapism Rielsings Risings all packed inside a mornings grocery shopping

                                                                                    I cant say Im sorry I turned down your offered excursion

A real wingman, this one said Moby  he motioned his thumb over his shoulder like an effete umpire

Im not your wingman yer Huckleberry Debbie Dingellberry although I agree with her politics

See, politics or sex . . can’t shut him up . .

. . Religion too

suntime,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

1117,  Monday,  20  6. 22

Hollies  Look Through Any Window  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXCbDICvoxk 

when youre tired enough

                         fuckwhenyouare   nawh  when hewhen he was tired  tired enough

                                                                                                   when he got tired enough early morning  on occasion he went after the calluses on the bottom of his feeton his heels they remainedARE Ohshit brother are they they remained attached to nerve endings tacitly surprising him as he tuggedpeeled  the bleeding surprised him Hohohehehaha ahOuch 

                                         pickingtearing them free brieflyuncomfortable hed lay the irregular strips on his desk  flensedflesh in no time at all they driedwent brittle jerky 

                                                                    tickled him to think how to commodify them some kind of transubstantiation Body of Christ Blood of Christ but wayward of his baptism Church such transubstantiation made him think of Cannibals of Christ Vampires of Christ

                                                         Shoudnt think that wa . .

. . Please woudya shaddup

All Im saying is whaif theres a heaven

It woudnt have me I woudnt go even if I coud slip Peter a Benjamin an hed take it  My eye  him the first in an unbroken succession of popes

                               When women become popes I might pay attention

Yare a blasphemer . .

. . An yer one of my many interior parsons personsMariachi band members  Aware  Lively   Only cuz Im alive

Whereya gonna go when I cash in my chips

an audible gulp

              a deflating sigh   Whamakes ya think Im going anywhere

Parasite You a parasite

No

No

I said no

   An the rest of your cohorts Hanging with me all these years through thick and thin

                                                                                            I believe I believe were all going back to where I came from  Anit aint heaven

shaking their head  Blasphemer

Thawas good

Thank you I like ithavent used it in a long time

The others either

No they woudnt  Its my bit

Bit

We have our bits

                     Comon  yave noticed

Yes I have

Weve figured as much

Yes quite the cadre motley crew

Mariachis

Maraschino cherries

Real maraschinos  not jarred

Not jarred  Real McCoys

Are you flattering us

   I don flatter Yaknow tha

We do we do

                    Where were we

Picking my feet in Poughkeepsie

Awyes A bad habit

They heal up real quick My tenderfoot days are long gone

Were you ever a tenderfoot

his head slipped sidewaysscarcely a noticeable nod

                                                       Hardly My tabula rasa was scribbled all over  which is more than half the reason youse didnt surprise me

Didnthuh

Nah

    Did not

We don know where we came from either

Woudnt think so Spose well go back to from where we came   Ill miss ya if were untethered

Im gettin mistyeyed  Lets not talkbout it

0158,  Sunday – Father’s Day – Juneteenth,  19  6. 22

1139,  Father’s Day

Manson

Gacey

Dahmer

Epstein

          committed to prisonjail for heinous crimes

                                                     DYING there      Amen

this aint haiku

              aint three lines  five syllables first line seven second five in the final an third

 

  but lovely nevertheless 

                          Tenuous Really yes

Tenuous humans erased by other tenuous human beings 

                                                               Righteousness exists

Aint haiku

           But mebbe oughta be

after 1414,  Sunday,  12  6. 22

1300,  Saturday,  18  6. 22

 

   a chrysalis

              definitely a chrysalis not a cocoon    butterfly  not moth

crazyway hed admit for his deceased wife to appear to him twenty years later when it was her habit to rarely appear an rarely appear as herself 

                           she would come to him as other women but she couldnt hide her eyesher manner from him  he knew herloved her too well

they played her game in different historical settings 

                                                        then when he left he had to go she left him departing he would look in her facesay her name shed be flummoxed eversosurprised he recognised her 

                                                                                     Cant fool me babe  I love you

the chrysalis was uglyshabby made of stainedruinous cardboard folded aroundbout her like a failing burrito

to talk with her he pulledunfurled it desperately he was trying to reach other family he knew she could help share access

she did not want to

he begged he wasnt one to beg

she did not care 

                 an when she tired of his entreaties his violations she insinuated lazily disinterested she closed her eyes an telepathically folded the ruinous chrysalis aroundbout her

  the dream was episodic 

                           throughout the whole night with small variations he struggledunfolded the fleshy elastic cardboard to reveal her to her obvious dismay  Please he begged how do I reach them   I know you know

adamantly she refused

try as he may augmenting his reasoning he could not budge her 

                                                                     then dismissing him she folded the chrysalis stymieing his pleas that became more and more pitiful with each attempt

overlaying the reoccurring futility played the Stones Out of Time

he did not know if it played for him or her

 

when he woke in the morning he still did not know for who the song played

the dream would stay with him a long time 

a memory more than a dream

dreams are memories whether we he like it or not they are part of our collective unconsciousness our experiences

                           

early AMish and through sleepingdreaming,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  6. 22

1234,  Reggaefriday,  17  6. 22

Stones  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1xR8GglEh8

. . . random meat

Awman really . . random meat?  Maybe you ought to start your own religion.

Body of Christ

                 it was too bad he didnt have a camera to snap her expression an speechless  Good idear huh A rhotic accent  her expression twisted furthur still hadnt a camera

    finally  I have no words. actually once upon a time she did she just didnt remember like he did 

                                                                                                            he said Theyre Witnesses

I dont know shitbout em except they dont celebrate their birthdays because its paganand THATS a fucking sin  That an that they believe a little flock of exactly onehundredfortyfour thousand selected humans will go to Heaven when Armageddon befalls us All these fuckin End-of-Dayers theyd do us a favor if they thought like those with Heaven’s Gate  strap on some Nikes follow Hale-Bop Bop Bu Do Wop in an alien spacecraft hidden behind it into a higher existence  though to be fair most of the Heaven-Gaters came from Oregon an I know theyd argue it was suicide  Suicides a sin  But whaif suicide is the ticket to the A train  I dont know

The only thing I have in common with them is that they believe death is a state of non-existencethough Id refute their belief that there would be no consciousness  I like the thought of death as a holding pattern filled with dreaming

exasperated she had said then Maybe you ought to start your own religion.

she didnt remember

no matter he did why he did he hadnt a clue 

                                                 some things when you throw them at a wall to see if they stick they stick far longer than ya imagined   It stuck

random meat

awful offal

               so some say

he grewup eating offal  he was offally grateful 

                                                still  watching her expression he wondered what she was imaginingshe didntwouldnt eat organ meat   Xcept

You be comfortable being a canniba . .

. . Raised one I woudnt know the difference woud I

  No.  I suppose you wouldn’t.

I woud not

             Ill try anything twice Im just saying I believe it is inappropriate to malign or deny something if you havent tried ithavent had the experience  Were quick to judge  Prejudiced

                                                                       Thas wha I mean by random meat not literally

Why didn’t you say that earlier?

Wha an deny myself the extraordinary pleasure of your overthetop response reactionya jumped the gun

                                                                                                             No way in hell

You’re a real shit.

Im your shit ya love me

 

445preferred,  Sunday,  12  6. 22

1159,  Thursday,  16  6. 22

Moby said it  he had his moments

    Yes I like that a lot

You like that? clueless   not a freakinclue  tabularasa face

Yes

What?

had to let the cat out of the bag  Your sentence making sense

My . . my sentence making sense.

Yes thamade sense although Id augment it sensetence  he said it deliberately enunciating it

Sensetence?

Verygood pronounced it spot on

Great . . what do you mean?It makes no sense.

It certainly does

Saying it does doesn’t make it so.

Sure it doesfollow me

                       If it didnt then your sentence would be moronic ya don wanna be moronic  iconic moron  moronicon

Moron-icon?

Yah an going a step furthur  moroniconic

Moby tilted his head to one side doggiestyle he looked around the coffee shop people in earshot werent paying attention to their drivel

Woudya quit looking around Yare on your own

                                                 No one is going to swing in on a vinepull your ass out of the fire If yare going to feed me lines Im gonna twist thembraid em like seaweed seagrass into strands of fishing line Pacific Northwest First People caught fish halibut on them for thousands of years

                                                                    Thousands

Sensetence  

Moroniconic

Welcome my friend to mosaics English Exercising it opens ones mind to the possibility of new words Be grateful youve been graced to puzzle over their pronunciations definitions

                                                             Words can be anything ya wantanything ya make them mean

Hence sensetence

Mobys doggieness remained

he wasnt making headway

his turn to shake his head

                                 Free your mind En Vogue  an the rest will follow

looked into the same old same old tabularasa face

445preferred not 1645,  Sunday,  12  6. 22

1010,  Thursday,  16  6. 22

It’s a Beautiful Day  Wasted Union Blues  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQHtLK4JYRg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i7iQbBbMAFE

Do you want to die? 

                      she asked him in black deathly earnest

her questionquestion bumrushed him

                                     doused his sensibilities in slick icewater surged his Aries defiance quickened his mad heart curled the bluegas aura that tided his brain shivered the ghostlywhite mitochondrial sheath cloaking his nervous system stemtostern

wasnt a question you want to field if youre not in the drivers seat

she was driving

                all sorts of exit strategies littered the highway concrete embankments overpasses railroad tracks bridges jumps rollovers perhaps a spectacular fiery crash that snuffs innocent lives thats a joke son a joke few who drive are innocent

she had the wheel

he ragedwas furious inside

poker face

            No I do not want to die  that opened a door he knew it 

                                                                       but whats he to say Yah sure  Commit suicide take me with you because I wanna go    nothing in the affirmative

if he killed her later no one would believe he was provokedhow she provoked him 

                                                                                      Do you want to die?

he didnt ever want to die

Lifes a good gig most of the time

shed been ill too longillegitimately tampered with to remember

                                                                 no matter how he babied her tried to humour her tried anyfuckinthing that occurred to him that might be joyous  redeeming

 

I see a red door and I want to paint it black.  

 

1320approximately,  Twosday,  14  6. 22

Beatles  Tomorrow Never Knows  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHNbHn3i9S4

Stones  Paint It Black  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmmCwSqNbl4

Wow look at thatthat lizard there  crazy small tail   Stumpy

Awcomon . . I know you know that these lizards can lose their tail to escape a predator. Tail comes off, twitches, the cat whahavyou fixates on it, the lizard makes a getaway, saves itself.

he took a breathrolled his eyes  Yah I know

Pretty phenomenal . . Nature’s way . crazy.

An amazing adaption Woudlove to see how it evolved

Ain’t that the truth.

   Yes it exited flat   he was distracted

That was a queer yes.

he nodded

Thinking on somethingsomething's occurred to you?

he nodded again

he sat back  Something . I’m going to find . . ridiculous?

his eyes clearedwas present again laundry washed rinsed hung out to dry  Not necessarily

Do tell.

 Yes  Intend to

                    Adaptation  Evolution

Which we acknowledg . .

. . Better yet

Better yet? Your betters tend to be strange.

I colour outside the lines

You had coloring books?  incredulous

I did not for long

                  Too confining

A coloring book confin . .

. . Lines borders bondage  Confining

I loved coloring.

I betya did

                Wanna hear me out givinya a choice

I’m trying to decide.

                       I appreciate you asking rather than your usual bumrush.           

Might suppose it depends on the bum  he smiled broadly

he didnt smile  Thanks.

Yabetcha

           Here we go . .

. . Can’t wait . .

. . Don be a pill

  Pill?  Who says that?

Just didEVOLUTION  Hear me out

I hear you out more often than you hear me.

Indeed

        But its not often ya have imaginings worth listening to

his face went slack

Quit with the Im dead look Reiterating isnt magical thinking wondering  Recitation Ya havent taught in years

possibly his face went more slack

Jaysus

          Evolution

Ya with me

I hear ya. 

 

Testing one two three . .

. . I said I hear ya. mirthless  humorless

Its unfortunate women havent the ability lizards do Creep at a bar hit on them boozeemboldened gets handsy feely touchy  grabs ass

                    Woman steps aside tail comes off fuck fascinated fixates  predacious  Anoff she goes to the powder room out the door leaves creep to the brief artifice of twitch

Problem solved

Standinground with a dead tail at your feet is damning 

                                                           Doncha think

I don’t think.

              I’m not even sure what you're saying qualifies as thinking.

Not thinking Imagining

Imagining with all your secret little cretins?

My roving Mariachi band banditsYah

                                        Imagining Yaoughta try it some time  Get the bug out of yer ass

suntime,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

1121,  Twosday,  14  6. 22