usually the afflicted disabled handicapped attracted him

being the eldest of nine kids forced his handhe couldnt help being a big brother he excelled at it                                                                                                                              must have been a born caregiver

walking into the supermarket parking lot off main street he saw a person perched in a wheelchair beside a curbed island near the crosswalk which lead to the markets threshold

traffic slowed as it neared them

they did not roll forward

the hesitating cars then cautiously proceeded across the angled yellowpainted crosswalk

his first thought was they needed helpwere possibly waiting on their attendant it was odd to see them solo

                                                                                                                he quickened his pace needed to quell his and traffics apparent discomfort 

their cap barely showed above the back of the wheelchair from between the wheels he could see their feet turned awkwardly on the rests

more cars rolledup passed gibberishly  confounded

closing to within fifteen meterscontinually looking for someone who might be their aide he pulled upstep stammered  stopped an enormous plume of vapesmoke roiled into the air above them

                                                                             they began puffing like a little locomotive 

The Little Engine That Could

Whellshit God helps those who help themselves

                                                   Aesop mused alike in his fable Hercules and the Wagoner or Hercules and the Carter “Put your shoulder to the wheel . . . urge on your horses. Do you really think you can move the wagon by simply looking at it and whining . . . ? Hercules really he spoke of himself in third person ill-eism ill-eist  Jesus will not help unless you make some effort to help yourself.”

from his deadstop he coursecorrected angled across the traffic lane passing to their left at two carwidths difference  she did not look well  worse with the vape pen stuck in her puss

from there he called loudly to her Maam are you in need of help

she heard him  

she feigned she didnt

he always kept his eyes on the belly button didnt fall for head fakes 

her belly button didnt answerdidnt say

she wasnt helping herself

he wouldnt either

that grated him

 

collected his items leaving the market  she was not there

had she smoked cigarettes butts would have verified her existence

                                                                      now absencegone he decided to believe his eyes despite their inconsistencies trickery

they would have had to work very hardOvertimeImaginatively to summons a gnarled gnome vaping in a wheelchair at a crosswalk

suntime,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

1119,  Monday,  13  6. 22

 

  Hypotheticals.

                      wanna give someone a shot in the armwake em up  Whaif?regurgitatedsplashed on their brand new blue suede shoes 

                   Horrors

awright hed play  he was pleasantly loaded 

                                                 Whaif wha

Whaif cautiously he scratched the end of his noseit was feeling Pinocchioish Whaif we deal in wha is . . not ifs?

Hard Dicks and scientists try 

Dicks? his nose felt funny but it hadnt grown

Detectives in pursuit of what is whawas The facts ma’am, please, just the facts. however deploying hypotheticals to hone their pursuit eliminate other courses or explanations 

                                                              Yasee cuz I believe you can the necessity an value despite your displeasure

Dicks and scientists . . I kinda like that. 

There ya have it yare halfway there 

                                      Youll excuse my interruption 

Sure. You’re excused.

Your nose feel okay

My nose?

Ya seemed concerned

Oh my nose . . . yes . my nose . .

. . You were trying to pick a fight

No . . I was trying to be stimulating.

                                        I didn’t succeed.

You did not

            You can appreciate they are a way of trying to pull the truth out asif telling the truth is somehow verboten ya tipped your hand If the playing field were simply being honest we woudnt have to try to game each other playGOTCHA

I like em

Politicians despise them.

There are two kinds of people

                                Human beings and politicians 

This wasnt as stimulating as I thought it would be.

Well smoke another bowl see whaelse presents 

                                                    Any other thoughts

I can’t say, I’m disappointed.

just before he fired it up

                          Give this a thought In the furnace of affliction I have chosen thee

Christ.

Close

         Banner of Heaven  

1823,  Sunday,  5  6. 22

1111,  Sunday,  12  6. 22

Zeppelin  Your Time Is Gonna Come  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cvEVivHVsU

Coldplay  Politik  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHlYLt7Vt2c

Ya cant unsee whaya saw

                                 wasnt pithy wise  commonsensical    

Why ya do that to yourself

Friends had . .

. . They arent friends 

                         They didnt want to suffer their selfinflicted grievances alone Misery loves company

I suspect yave heard that werent born yesterday

                                                     Though sometimes I wonder  Truly

I wasn’t thi . .

. . No yawerent

                  I cant count the number of times yave pleaded that  When ya gonna start

he shook his head like a sad dog bad ears  You’d think I’d know better.

hed let it drift  a crappy rope of exhaled vape

  he had nothing furthur to say

                                    Im gonna leave you to your misery Got things to do

looked like he wanted to say something but cut him to the quick wagged a finger 

                                                                                     Got things to do  Catcha later man

he walked off  despair felt queer on his back

ISIL had posted beheadings online 

                                     why anyone would want to watch such horror  once in the hopper always in the hopper

cynically he hoped they dreamed it daydreamed it  that it fractured their waking hours at odd or inappropriate times

  he had no compassion  

1823,  Sunday,  5  6. 22

1258,  Saturday,  11  6. 22

the night before he dreamt he was walking down a wide flight of unmarredmarble steps 

he had no sense of where he had been immediately prior 

the stone felt cool through his leather solesfelt solemn belonged to an edifice 

unable to resistfeeling exuberant playful he descended themcrosscut them at an angle

                                                                                             they didnt feel inanimate    

descending into dappled shade cast by a grove of sycamores he felt shivers in the rock as he steppedSUDDENLYSUDDENLY tipped  disoriented

                                                        involuntarily his eyes snappedshut attempting to stave off a rising percolationdizziness  bile gathered at the back of his throat

he sighed  WAIT he didnt sigh   it sounded ancientnot in a long time uttered not in a very longlong time  cloaked in relief 

     then his sickness fled

he worked to reorient  tears blurred his vision he wiped them away with the heels of his hand

he lookedhe stood on an impossible shelf  to his left a wall towered  gingerly he approached the edge  sheer cliff  hundreds of feet to next shelf  toes at its edge he could feel a chilly updraft

                                                                                 looking left right   flat bare rock

seemed to run endlessly

SUDDENLYSUDDENLY he was exceptionally small 

                                                          the scale was perverse or comparatively he simply realised in the realm of all things he always had been 

                                            all things were taking him to task

left

right

he flipped a coin 

  maybe he could walkout

                                wouldnt know until he tried

      insignificance   tough to swallow

AM-ish,  Twosday,  7  6. 22

1152,  Saturday,  11  6. 22

he couldnt explain why it hadnt occurred to him earlier

he caught things out of the corner of his eyes frequently usually his lefthe was lefthanded rightbrain 

                                                                                                           science has tried to debunk it as myth although it acknowledgesconfirms that the right hemisphere controls attention  memory two go hand in hand reasoning  problem solving  he was cool living with the myth   he was living proof

what occurred was as he walkedreading

                                              Whahappens when that which occurs an is seen in the corner of ones eye walksround and stands frontancenter before ones face 

                                                          that something spooked him  but to have it strollround confront him made his Mariachi band recoil  quit roving  disband 

                                                           COWARDS COME BACK    YARE ON YOUR OWN MUTHAFUCKER   Motherfucker motherfucker housed provided for them all their friggin existences ADIOS adois  Ya kiddin me

Whahappens  a rhetorical question

                                       not a soul or soulless lingered to utter a reply  but it wasnt like him to put words in anyones mouth far better to have them say put their dirty foot in their mouth wha faces they made like when he swore and his parents energetically scrubbed his tongue with Fels Naptha a brown laundry soap bar tasty it wasnt  however their thorough application didnt stop him from liberally saltanpeppering his language with words as he saw fit 

   So whahappens 

                              after pondering the possibilities very likely he decided when it happened to him  whahed do  hed let herhim himher dance

                                            possibly cop a new move  enjoy a new partner

123preferred to 1323,  Reggaefriday,  10  6. 22

Stephen Marley Let Her Dance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAjudNmHNwk                                                          

 

  the question was innocent enough 

                                       but sometimesa lot of the time they propelled him to places hed rather not go but couldnt help himself he had a roving Mariachi band their feelers outlike an anemone feeling for food dragging it home relentlessly unapologetically   things gotta eat

she asked Have you heard of an organic cemetery?

  I have not

                 But I can easily imagine

What do you imagine?

War

War? That’s terse.  Not much of an answer.

I as you know try to be succinct

                                    Its a damn goodnear perfect descriptiondefinition

How so?

  Give it momentlet it simmer in your skull  You use your imagination its dark side

Nothing’s coming to light.

To light  Clever   Yawanna think mor . .

. . No. You obviously have a thoughtan explanation . and I’m impatient as you know.

I know yes 

             War   Battlegrounds  Killing fields Atrocities    Mass graves

                                                                                 Organic cemetery

That’s gruesome.

   It is

         Results the same save for the peace celebrant  ceremony

she shook her head  The way you think.

I cant take credit

                   I have a horde to help

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

1156,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

Edwin Starr  War  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZJRJpbGkG4  maybe not absolutely nothing

Zeppelin  No Quarter  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdqDmJbm2eY

redlettered dimlylit EXIT floated in the chiaroscuroatmosphere of a darkened movie theatre

                                                                                                    or thats what he was lead to believe

dreams are like that

sometimes they suggest

other times they demand

this one was a real bitch

one in heat

pulled on the chilired collar around his throatYah he was cool

                                                                  she snickered when she reminded him if she pulled too tight he might not be able to say the safeword

No sweat I trust you

A lot of dead man have trusted women.

Theyre not us ya got my back You get too carried awaytoo enthralled Ill wake an your enthusiastic tugging will dump you on your ass

                  An I don want you bruising your beautiful ass

she chuckled reached outstroke his cheek with her thumb fingers under his chin

                                                                                      You’re so sweet to think of my ass. Got a great ass babe

What’s our safeword?

Fuck if I can remember

2248,  Friday,  3  6. 22

1240,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

Moby remembered his high school colours 

                                            Silver, blue and gold. he mentioned it  said it somewhat boastfully

he was impressed Thas breathtaking gottasay for someone who usually struggles with memory  Im impressed I resist the urge to verify youll be my unimpeachable source  should someone ask  he laughed

Why are you laughing?

Thaya know your school colours

Whatwere yours?

I don know  Donremember

You don’t remember  wasnt a questionrather a statement asif he was incredulous

   I do not

How could you not? You played sports.

I played sports but as Ive told ya competition was roughusually hunredfifty guys vying for a team

                                                                                                        My concentration effort was on making a team colours didnt matter

I find that hard to believ . .

. . Yawoud school wasnt my thing I struggled to get by  last thing in the world Id post up on unlike you but thats whaya get difference between rural an urban upbringing

Got nothing . . except . silver, blue and gold, baby!

Awhell  maybe someday my ship will come in  My rainbows overdue HAH 

                                                                                         Say  yaever listen to Bruce Springsteen

Notmuch. Why?

Nothing  Was curious

suntime,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

1114,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

Bruce Springsteen  Glory Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nvUOgIgLqOQ

Emmylou Harris  Someday My Ship Will Sail  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TMRs97vLMwo

Tme to get back on track . .

. . I hear ya

that peeved him wasnt up for discussion a statement of fact  Whamakesya think I was talking to you

You missed yesterday

I did Im aware  Im not asleep at the whee . .

. . Im aware  shouldnt have to remind you

  We  We shouldnt have to remind me

Sometimes it feels like we ought to

  Ya kiddin me 

                No me no you

You wouldnt be as interesting if it wasnt for us

Im not denying that as a matter of fact . .

. . Fact . again . .

. . Hear me out  listen heshe shehe settled back on their haunches  Thank you

                                                                                Should a diamond speak itd say it appreciates its facets realises they gussy it up However a faceted diamond is for anyonewhod care to see  would see its imperfections also Nothings perfect   Thas not my burden

                                                                   My distinct fortune people cant see you

Were working on it.

Have had a lot of time an I donsay to be condescending   

No heshe shehe smirked  Fact

                                   Admittedly

No shame None

                 Yare my roving Mariachi band dressed in full regalia Its hard to hit a moving target  Were a good team despite my benevolent autocracy

As I said . .

. . Yare speaking for the band today Leader spokesman . .

. . Today . . Yes

Excuse me  I interruptedyou were saying

I was saying As I said  were working on it

I approve Shows grit stamina diligence but Im copping the Stones  Times on my Side

324 preferred to 1524,  Twosday,  7  6. 22

0927,  Thursday,  9  6. 22

Stones  Time is on my Side  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jOxHsuV83KA

ever pith a frog

to be fair an amphibians facial expressions are pretty unexpressive to begin with  eyes bulge as needle penetrates they really bulged when he wasnt as practised but latter frogs benefitted as he was a terribly quick learner maybe those may have expressed a longdelayed tear but by all facialreading their expressions were utterly flaccid 

                                                                                                              why the intro

because when Moby didnt follow him

his face fell into a flaccidamphibious mask

                                                he looked   vacant      dumb 

his throat swelleddistended

hed croak What do you mean?I’m not following you.

Whas not to follow

Your clarified butter analogy . or metaphor . simile . . whatever.

Whadonya follow

                   People are either nuanced or simple thas your assessmentcorrect  People are the pound of butter   Okay

Okay.

Yasee the pound of butter

                             Or a stick or tenpound cake    See butter

I see the butter.

Fine  An people humanity every human being on the planet is represented by the butterokay

Every human bein . .

. . All of us

             Were that gob or cake or stick

   Okay.

We place it in a receptacle an the receptacle in a hot water bath to melt the butterseparate it separate the butterfat clarified butter from the residual milk solids an water the milkycloudy residue 

                                                                                       Can yasee that

Yes. I’m following you . .

. . Good boy he almost reached out an patted him on the head like a dog 

                                                                               Now  Were still aligned seeing the same thing

Yes.

So the butterthe people have been separated 

                                                Fewer people makeup the clarified butter more people makeup the residue Now heres the leaptake my hand figuratively people who see situations problems solutions as nuanced are the clarified butter those who prefer things simple or simplified unnuanced are not clarified butterare residual milk solids and water 

         But were all butter

Moby sparked  then began looking amphibious again

before he lost himhad to endure explaining again because he would 

                                                                          LISTEN TO ME

If you were to get a blowjob would you prefer a clarified a nuanced blowjob or a tendollar money-up-front NEXT! blowjob

Aaah . . . I gotcha . I follow . .

. . Fantastic

              Its not afterall that hard to follow  was it

No, no notonce you honed it into sexual terms.

See Men do think with their dicks

1430,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

1638,  Twosday,  7  6. 22

they haggledsplit hairs

                        the steam that powered their locomotive trains of thought  turned their wheels

Com’on, you must agree things are nuanced, not simple, shades of gray, not black and white . .

. . The blackest white whitest blackyes

                                          However one must have the intellecthad the education curiosity which allows them to be nuanced

Of course peo . .

. . Aw hold your horses

                        We mayyou trouble me I know I do  but no matter we had good educations and parents behind us  

Ill say it again fiftyfour percenters  fiftyfour percent of American adults sixteen to seventyfour cant read at a sixth grade level Now whether that statistic is due to socialsocietal circumstances family situationsno one riding them or their disinterest I cant say  Fiftfour percent is dismal Likely they are simple  prefer things black an white have limited choices or are lazy lack the skillsetscomprehension to be nuanced

The whole of people are like a pound of butter heated in water bath clarified butter butterfat separates  is on top nuanced  The remainingthe milk solids an water are simple

                                                                Would you rather be nuanced or simple  

Nuanced.

I agree However you must appreciate that you are I am that we relish this luxury the timeentitlement to debate issues

debase issues

                Many do not An I believe of that many a big portion were denied They didnt have the choices we did Yasee it wasnt their choice who they were born where they were raised

                                                                            They are part an parcel of that economy you return to so often It isnt much of an economy if one is living hand to mouth

1430,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  6. 22

120preferred,  Twosday,  7  6. 22

https://www.forbes.com/sites/michaeltnietzel/2020/09/09/low-literacy-levels-among-us-adults-could-be-costing-the-economy-22-trillion-a-year/?sh=33446b4d4c90

 

 S E C woke him gently

                         floated across the widescreen his dreams buzzedflickered on had he been coming out of sleep

hypnopompic itd have played on the backs of his eyelids

                                                               this wasnt that

he consideredknew his thinking as the letters appeared one at a time

                                                                           S  E  C  O  N  D  S 

the seconds in a minute

minutes in an hour 

hours in a day 

days in a week

weeks in a year 

  the YEARS

             he witnessed     Seeing  Every  Cause

causes and effects that bitched himbroke his heart

                                                    made him muse  smile laugh weep that visitedreplayed  tipped off by his terribly long memory  memorials   anniversaries

he laid still  wideawake 

he heard leftie run up the hall to the bedroom threshold  but stop

                                                                      she was fucking with him

Comhere leftie

she leapt up onto the foot of the bed effortlessly  

                                                 feline agility  forever breathtaking

Hey sweet girl

she rushed him squatted on his chest on all fours their beating hearts inches apart

he nuzzledscratched her earsback of her neck with his thumbs fingers

she purred gloriously

Good morning leftie D-Day today  Nineteenfortyfour  

                                                       I lost two uncles uncles Ben an Ray Ive seen photos of them I wasnt born but familys told me all about them   I remember 

                                                                I like that you remember too

their routine

AMish,  Monday,  6  6. 22

1531, Monday

White Stripes  Effect and Cause  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STSkGSTMr9Y

Cant blame the baby for her pregnant Mom