he tended to frustrate friends family his buddy particularly

                                                                Who again, what did you say her name was?    

Simone Weil

And you know her why?

I read

Yes yesyes I know you read, but why, how, did you learn of her?

Im a curious reader . .

. . Jesus

he laughed heartily

                     then gathering his breath I stumbled upon her Cant say howkinda like hopping rock to rock across a wide creek some rocks flipping after I leapt from them I cant retrace my steps from where if I wanted

                                                                                                            But its about the trip the journey not arriving

I like destinations.

Ah your destiny

Destiny.  Always the smart ass.

                                    So what of . . his eyes darted around he was searchingdigging real hard . . . Simone?

Look at youya recalled This is a banner day

he screwed up his face looked like a fly having its wings tore off Just can’t let up can you?

Nope Wont  When you remember regularlyrecall regularly then Ill take my foot off your throat  But until then NOPE

Simone said pay attention man he chuckled to himselfcast his eyes down She said Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity. Which is ineffable I believe it unthought natural  or ought to be natural

Ought to be should be, you’re something else, you shouldHA say should . should, that’s your particular point of view, ought, I know you know, is that that is correct ethically, correct according to society.

Anwhy people ought to pay attention to others when theyre speaking And as long as they speak honestly Ill listen

You? I’ve not known you to listen too long.

I listen until Im handed a line No furthur

You're abrupt.

Who wants to invest in a sham any longer than necessary when its realised

Realized . . how is it you realize so quickly?

  I don know

              I wasnt quick when I was younger but I think its wha ya earn when you have children and parent  Apparently  unfortunately  Ive met a share of people who should have been named Sex because their parents either werent interested in raising them or they didnt have the intelligence intellect to do so 

                                                                                         Not everyone should have children

Not everyone should have children?

NO

    Raising children is selfless I was selfless for twentythree twentyfour years  Now Im selfish Im not as much abrupt as I am frank

Quite an admonishment.

he smiled wryly

                  Look at you paying attention.

2256,  Monday,  17  1. 22

1217,  Thursday,  24  2. 22

while walkingreadin his peripherals were engaged keenfilled to brimming with blood

                                                                                        people driving cars loved to fuck with him maybe maybe because they were drivingspewing carbonsshelling out more doughinflation per gallon than seen in years

         which must frost some peoples ass

not his

               he was walkingreadin

it was a filthy black car nothing looks filthier than a filthy black car cracked windshield

driver was disheveled  bearded   white

kids in the backseat werent wearing seatbelts

if he had to bethe wasnt a betting man though hed make an exception hed bet dollars to doughnuts there was a politicalbug planted deep up the mans ass

he readied to step on his left footcaught the blurshadow coming off the street on a clip up onto Johnny’s Repair and Rental driveway  outdoor equipment  propane refill service

                                                               he quickenedstood fast balancing on his right  not till the car passed did he step left

       pitiful 

             in the backseat at the right was a young girl peering through the window could have stood to have her long black hair brushed out she wasnt quite a teenagerclose

                                                                she waved   a deadpan apology as the car went past

he nodded smiled

deadpan went out of her face

she smiled back a soft light going off in her dark countenance

                                                                not unlike if she was captured in a game of flashlight tag

she was It

he didnt look right after the carheard it brake hard maybe maybe the prick thought he provoked somethingNAH he was reading Born in Blackness which laid out the reality that historical European wealth was provided off the backs and lifesblood of African slaves

                              Jamaican churnimagine CHURN  fresh off a slaver herded into the fields survival seven yearsNAH 

          NO  wasnt a damn thing the clown could do to incenseprovoke him more than that book in his hand did  had he been spoiling for a fight hed have ripped his head off and spit down his throat 

                                                                                     Sorry honey your old man had his head on wrong but its a free nation  he was welcome to a heaping helping of ignorance maybe  maybe

300preferred to 1500,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  2. 22

he had ideas about some professional football cameramen they were of his ilk possibly  perhaps voyeurs too

ostensibly theyre there to filmcapture the game

                                                 but over the years a few cats directors must have agreed put up shots of women from the audience and of the professional cheerleaders not Catholic high school girls the Minnesota Vikings sufferedmaybe  maybe for years but tithes went up Catholic girls caved unwedded were giving birthNAH maybe  maybe

         admittedly its hard to resist a woman in uniform

WAHBAM

           suddenly there she was a ravishing shapely redhead smilingshe knewshe saw dancing seductivelyNAH maybe  maybe   erotic    shakingthrusting her pompoms  grinning playful having a good time

he and the cameraman had similar tastes

his buddy sitting beside him at the bar before the mounted TV screen rapped him on the arm

                                                                                                  Has that train left the station?

Huh Red was still on the screen unbelievable  not the usual flash she was working it cameraman and director were on his side mesmerised  when they cut away he would be sad he anticipated his cockWha the fuck?Whered she go?Bring her back! he and his cock brokehearted how was he going to console himThere there buddy Don cry Wait till we get home I promise

Train left the station?

Train

  they cut away

                he continued watching her on the vapour in his eyes  dissipating dissipating  diss . . . gone

Yes.  Has that train left the station?

he took a sip of his beer his mouth still dry  he took a deep draught anwhile drinking caught the bartenders eye held up two fingers ordered pints 

                           setting his glass down Aah   Train  News for ya babe You saw Red her his cock tugged at him Train would never have been in either of our stations were not in her leagu . .

. . heated Speak for yourself

Okay Ill speak for myself

                            Yare delusional Not even on your best day ever would you have turned her head or captured her attention with some youbelieved  witty line

the bartender set the pints before him On your tab?

No  jabbed his thumb at his sidekick  on him names Little Thank you

he slid a pint to his buddy with the back of his hand  An thank you

Well what the hell?

Price of delusion man

You really think that?  Not a shot?

Not ever

         Gonna run with Dirty Harrys line A mans got to know his limitations

he shivered a bitlooked crestfallen

                                     What about you? 

                 

Me Ha

       Slide over cowboy  Were both riding the bench finding slivers  cobwebs up our fannies

Jesus.

Jesus woudnt have a chance either not even with his mumbojumbo

approximately 2052,  Monday,  17  1. 22

1111,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  23  2. 22

he relished the smell of fruit through their skin

                                                  reminded him of women

he smelled them like a doghowled dogmadly while at their heels tracking them

absorbing their scent

the luxurious feeel of their skin

                                 firmdimpled flesh of melons oranges tangerines slickskinned watermelon honeydew thinskinned apple guava pear papaya furry kiwi coconuts turgid bananas plumpexplosive grapes plum blue an huckleberry defensive jackbootfruit pineapple contemptuous seedystrawberry raspberry blackberry

                                                                                                      holding them to his face he salivated and was anxious to splitspread them wide bury his nose and tongue deep inside

2128,  Monday,  17  1. 22

244preferred to 1444,  Twosday,  22  2. 22

     two words

                he liked to be concise it madeup for the times when he wasntwas longwinded sometimes he was longwindednot that he knew when he opened his mouth but rather as he spoke thugs at the back of the room pushed the crowd forced them up an onto the stage into the bright light he didnt mind sharing they exited out the wings or backstage

by the time the thugs arrived at his feet they usually forgot what had incited them

he preferred concise

                     liked it because whenever he thought in that vein he also thought cuntcise cuntsighs cuntsize Oohgrow up thighs thighssigh he sighed he loved playing withfingering words so many playtoys   playtugs

     two words

                     Richard Pryor

he had a friend who divorced got out his nose not too bloodiedit could have been worse now he wanted to get back in the saddle again

                    saddle was his he liked euphemism   I’m getting old, I wanna get laid again.

Last fourfive years of your marriage you werent getting lai . .

. . You want to shaddup? I was still in love, working on it . .

. . By yourself

Not always . .

. . Nahalways

               Yare the same cat who told meonce in particular that while trying to work things out she said she said  What’s love got to do with it?

                              That was your wife man

Christ, you got to remind me? I’d almost forgotte . .

. . Anwhy I remind ya

                        Mindfulness  Not your forte   With eyes to the future

he was dating setting things upparlaying through twothree on-line dating apps JESUSCHRIST  that was also his

                                                                                                                       hed been telling him to forego the apps quit dropping cold hard cash on dates Get your rocks off get laid  Your cabin in Tahoe Family nosey yare heading up for some selftime then Go East young man Go East  Im your own personal Horace Greeley whoI believe  you must recall espoused Go East referencing the concept of Manifest Destiny Ill be your Whore Greedy Take your manhood in fist an fullfill thats two Ls each  fullfill your destiny   Go East

Would you quit?

he sighedshook his head

                           I have two words for you

Again?

Yes

     Areya ready  Its a big fuckin hint Im givinggivin ya a hint because your mindfulness tends to lack fuckin evaporates Id like you to remember on your own not me telling you  again

I’m listening.

Good  Two words

                          Richard Pryor

he squeezed his eyes tightnearly shut looked like it hurt  Richard  Pryor.

Yes

Richard Pryor.

Yes

What’s Richard Pryor?

he tried hard not to emote failed  a deeper sigh than even he thought he was going to emit 

                                                                                                Theyre two words

I’ll need more than that.

Yes  Apparently

                  I hope it occurs to you during my telling

I hope so too

as he related the bit he didnt see any glimmer of recognition in his eyes

finally he leapt ahead  The different between white and black men

no glimmer dead cold ashes

                               The difference between white and black men.

exasperatedYES  Difference

                                 some day he was going to lose his mind  The difference

What’s the difference?

Pryor said a white man will go out wine and dine a woman spend seventy dollars on her  get a real nice kiss good night on the doorstep and leave

                                  he said I drop seventy dollars on a woman Im fucking something, if not her . . her dog, cats, fish, birds . . Im fucking something.  he laughed  its remained funny even having told it twentythirty times he liked to tell it at partiesplant seeds

                                     also humourously informing his date whawas in store she wasnt keen  catch a ride home with someone else

the other day he stopped over and found blueballs talking with his sons they had taken a woodburning stove out onto his porch he was replacing it with an ecofriendly burning-some-kind-of-briquette stove

his eldest was telling him whoever he bought the new stove from ought to take away the old one

he was telling his son he didnt think he wanted to impose on the retailer

thus he interrupted

                     I have two words

that confounded his eldest the younger son seemed piqued

Two words? blue balls said  Again?

Yes

Fuck, open your mouth and say.  his son obviously peeved him

Pre  Nup

his son laughedpickedup on it quicker than his father and younger brother

                                                                               the reason his fathers divorce didnt bloody his nose too badly was because he suggestedstrongly that his dad have a pre nup the way he saw it Forgive me for saying so, but I don’t see any reason why me and my brothers should share what you and Mom accrued over a lifetime with a woman whose been married thrice before.   Did you really say thrice   I did.   OHwow thrice                                                                                         

afteraround 1720hrs,  Saturday,  19  2. 22

449 preferred to 1649,  Monday,  21  2. 22

afterwards he learned other concise two words  realeyesed hed have to keep an eye out for more  

the second word was preceded by ex and former

                                                    once a Marine always a Marine he wasnt fond of the military  he didnt respect those who fought wars of choice  the soldiers he celebrated fought in the last true existential war  Youah expect me to respect mob muscle or hitmen I don think so

Marines prefer former to ex Marine

he asked his divorced friend  blueballs

                                          So I gotta ask ya got an ex wife  or a former wife 

when someone begins to believe their own propaganda  disinformation  misinformation  

become a sycophant  sickophant rather

                                            theyre in trouble

Putins believed history is hysterical

there will be no Chamberlains

thus misfortunate Ukrainians

misfortunate Russians

misfortunate World

1754,  Monday,  21  2. 22

1052,  Twosday,  22  2. 22

https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2022/02/munich-security-conference-chamberlain/622872/

Chamberlain = appeasement 

https://www.cnn.com/2022/02/21/europe/russia-ukraine-tensions-monday-intl/index.html 

https://newrepublic.com/article/145953/stalin-starved-ukraine 

https://www.c-span.org/video/?518097-2/russian-president-putin-recognizes-independence-donetsk-luhansk-ukraines-donbas-region

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-25182830

      . . . but I digress

                         he was a digressorcouldnt help himself it was a natural channelnot an unforced error however what marveled most Marveled me that no matter how farflung ridiculous often kneeslapping footstomping hilarious he digressed with  . . . but I digress he snapped back to the subject he had been eliciting

                                                                                            asif the sidestep had been nothing more than passing scenery outside a car window

I watched him

he had stretchedwas all warmed up

I knew him better than most

he began a bit Id heard before

it incensed himhe thought it was a horrible embarrassment

then he surprised me  I didnt see it coming

I don know if he did either

he said

         I just read this statistic a couplethree weeks agoblew me away Maybe that had something to do with it  blew fiftyfour percent of American adults between the ages ofget this ages of sixteen . . now now . this is where I must take exception Sixteen An American adult If sixteen is adult then why the hell should I be charged risk prosecution if I had sex with a sixteenyear oldmind you . mind you thoughtfully he stroked his beard  Id prefer fucking a literate sixteenyear old one who had a brain inside her skull . not some maudlin tartNOT . not . . not that a thoughtless tart wouldnt bring something delectable to the tableIm sure . perhaps attractive . perhaps undeveloped wiles Didnt see this coming but rather a womanShes sixteen . . who would appreciatevalue . the give an take tug an twist pinch hairpulling crack on the ass cosplayIll be the anime she can be an animal if she wishes a dragon mermaid Alice in WonderlandBrother wha a rabbithole fingers an toes an tongues  . . . but I digress 

                                                           between the ages of sixteen to seventyfour who cannotCANNOT read at a sixth grade level . . a fucking sixth grade level . how old is a sixth graderI can tell you Ive a niece whos in sixth grade . . shes twelve . twelve . . American adults cannot read elementary books . . too fucking busy busied with social media perhaps Book of FacesHA Meta Twitter too busy being told wha to thinkhanded a line  horseshit gobbling it with a spoon horseshit horseshit horseshit oodles an oodles

he stopped stroked his beard

no one in the small clutch said anything

there was a lot there

maybe we were digesting

then he said

              Food for thought  Read a book

afteraround 1720hrs,  Saturday,  19  2. 22

1212,  Monday,  21  2. 22

https://www.forbes.com/sites/michaeltnietzel/2020/09/09/low-literacy-levels-among-us-adults-could-be-costing-the-economy-22-trillion-a-year/?sh=7ba842864c90 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4h2MoP3Llk

Putin

blitzkrieg

Ukraine

          maybe hePutin might want to revisit History Repeats Itself  how it went down the last time

          an maybe Russian oligarchs will have to act to protect their pocketbooks

1729,  Monday,  21  2. 22

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kAhOO_UhxSo 

https://morningshots.thebulwark.com/p/putins-right-wing-shills?utm_source=url 

https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2022/02/munich-security-conference-chamberlain/622872/

Media has to step upI mean really step stepup hard no nonsense  it needs to embrace tout affirm it is Americas Fourth Estate  utter scepticism ought to be its default  either side of a dispute hammered questioned interrogated  

What's informing you?

It screwed the poochI recognised it then during Bushs rampup to Afghanistan Iraq  with us or against us it let a terrorist act September Eleven dictatelead them around by their nose  an again when the fat orange one ran they were making too much money  thus deferreddid not to challenge his obscenities  spread his lies

Yesyes, reasoned, I hear you.

Thank you

            It should not equate our political parties theyre ont mirror images  Treating them as equals is garbage  Hell if I were anI would refuse use Republican terminology nomenclature epitaph  theyve fingered Democrats as the enemy  Youll recall Former called mediathe press  enemies of the people

                                                                     since  virtually all Republicans have publically embraced the notionthat crude mentality  they havent a platform havent an agenda  they stand for nothing   Nada 

Except obstruction. Celebrity.  Power.

Celebrity Christ

                Politicians arent celebrities  Celebrities don take oathsnot to God  Vow  to God   Bow  to God

Majority of Republicans embrace lies  Are contemptible   Corrupt

Say it loud  Print it

                     Media ought to be the last organ to fear truth

0125,  Twosday,  18  1. 22

1333,  Sunday,  20  2. 22

https://www.esquire.com/news-politics/politics/a39091753/trump-organization-mazars-accountants-unreliable-statements/ 

959,412 DEAD  Trump virus  https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/ 

Whas a crumpet

Why?

Damn thing is driving me nuts afternoon tea an crumpetsnot that I would

                                                                               Yaever eat one

A crumpet?

Yah

Don’t know, may have, but didn’t know it was.

eating something that you didnt know what it was  novel 

                                                            he liked knowing what he was eating no chicanery none because he was consummate chicanerer its not a word he made it up he liked to fill voids left by actual words

Ya often don know wha yare eatin 

Don’t you think it’s rude, asking what is being served?

In the US  perhaps not 

                             Orient  Africa catch my drift 

I don’t travel outside the country.

     Ah

           Ignorance is bliss

You calling me ignorant?

Yasaid May have but I didnt know wha it was

                                                    Not knowing wha something is is the hallmark of ignorance isnt it Granted it is a wide brushstroke  however I like knowing wha or who Im eatin

What or . . who?

Thas a whole other avenue  Tha said  what do you think a crumpet is 

I don’t know. Something to have with tea.

Jesus

Where’s all this coming from?

Curiosity My own ignorance   I gambled maybe you did

You don’t gamble.  You know don’t you . .

. . I do

So why the fuck are you ask me?

Perhaps entertainment value

Entertainment?

Ya don think yare entertaining

Ignorance is entertaining?

Donya think

Jesus.

Sometimes one has to be like an attorney  Don ask a question ya don know the answer to

he was miffedshook his head like a dog before it scratches after fleas behind its ear with its hindleg  he was always jealous of that  that an how a dog can lick his balls

                                                       What is a crumpet?

Like an English muffinHAR Nooks and crannies appear on the top of crumpets to see them ya have to slice an English muffin

       Slather with butter jelly jam preserves  Whas the difference between jam and preserves

Fuck.  You.

             Tell me.  You’re driving me nuts.

Jam  Mashed fruit  Preserves have whole or large pieces of fruit  I dig apricot preserves

So where did this whole expose begin?

Strudel

Strudel?

Yes

What about strudel?

I like fruit strudelprobably warm apple strudel the best

                                                            Its not streusel

Streusel?

Maddening isnt it

Which?

Both

Shit or get off the pot . .

. . When was the last time you considered streusel

I haven’t.

Me neither

You neither . .

. . No

You wanna tie up the loose ends? You’re killing me . .

. . Theres a D an an E S between em

A D and an E S . .

. . Spell em . .

. . I’m not, I’ll take your word for it.

                                       What’s the deal?

I thought strudel was German

                                  Its not Austrian  The difference between Nuremberg and Vienna

Jesus.

Invoking Jesus seems your go-to today

Ought to be, didn't see this coming . .

. . Unexpectedness The spice of life

Spice.   Please, put me out of my misery.  Conclude this.

Strudel fruit filled pastry  not filo dough

                                            Streusel  A crumble cake

I don’t bake.

Me neither 

Jesus.  Sowha was this conversation about?

An exercise in futility  

Jesus.

made him wonder if He might have a preference

sometime after 1918,  Saturday,  19  2. 22

556 preferred to 1756,  Sunday,  20  2. 22