freshawake relaxed living alone emptying his tankscratching his head he farted Aw ferChristssake he hadnt even cleared his throat yet sounded like Donald Duck was irate snuck up behind him https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NoLdlmr-v2w but sometimes like Popeye yuckyuckyucking https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBdqk5uhM7g an othertimes Toodys UUU UUU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVk9jR0tYec (from Car 54, Where are you?) but then there were times he couldnt say what he sounded like   otherworldly 

                                                                    a bathroom vocalist

on occasionhumoured by an odd dialect he was tempted to say over his shoulder Speak up say again didnt quite catch that but he figured hed be tempting Fate anrather than sayingblowing gas hed shit himself

                                                                                                discretion is the better part of valour he didnt wanna be cleaning valour off his ass legs an the floor

though no matter it always made for an innaresting beginning to the start of his day

he felt light  buoyantboyant    like a beauty coloured balloon

 

1857,  ReggaeFriday,  19  11. 21

0931,  Saturday,  20  11. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBdqk5uhM7g

 

25 February 1956

                    Nikita Khrushchev the Soviet Unions First secretary denounced Stalin in a secret speech before 20th Congress of the Communist Party it became known as The Personality Cult and its Consequences  might wanna pay mighty keen attention to that title  victims of Stalins Great Purge were posthumously exonerated of their crime really helpful for the executed

19 November 2021

                    Manhattan judge Ellen Biben exonerated Muhammad A. Aziz who died in 2009 and Khalil Islam of their convictions for murdering Malcolm X they maintained their innocence throughout the trial and while imprisoned

the USSR got around to denouncement and exoneration decades before the USA did

1040,  Saturday,  20  11. 21

https://digitalarchive.wilsoncenter.org/document/115995.pdf?v=3c22b71b65bcbbe9fdfadead9419c995

https://www.historytoday.com/archive/stalin-denounced-nikita-khrushchev  https://repository.upenn.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=4510&context=edissertations

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/11/17/nyregion/malcolm-x-killing-exonerated.html https://abcnews.go.com/US/wireStory/exonerations-men-convicted-malcolm-xs-1965-death-81249311

he had many mugs threeshelves full in an overhead cupboard

one his girlfriendlater wife gave him an outlandishmoustachioed face it was her mug

                                                                                         You appreciate it more than me. he was genuinely touched

one his daughter gave him a buffalo etched in its clay and facing left

                                                                         I know how you prefer the buffalo faces left she was so freaking observant  he was genuinely touched 

should anyoneafter he was gone aside from his daughters see them or the others each having their own story  they would have no ideano imagination  probably wouldnt give a moments noticetry to imagine what the simple pottery meant to him  he had thoroughly enjoyed them now fifty years  thirty years

pottery doesnt betray it age

                            anif they could speak  as with women  itd be rude to ask their age ask if they had secrets to share

       for they overheard frank conversations while dinners were being prepared mixed drinks made wine decantedhad witnessed frenetic sex begun under the guise of doing dishes together witnessed maulings on the counters before them taken from behind or blatantly fucking on the kitchen table

                                                               it would be rude to ask

so many mugs

              so many coffees teas hot chocolates hot toddies  so many lips pressed to them so many words spoke over them

so much life

Do you mind? she asked

Wha

Do you mind if I ask what you wished for when you blew out the birthday candles on your lemon meringue pie?

Wha I wish for every year

Every year?   It doesn’t change?

Hasnt changed since I first conceived of itmy nineteenth birthday living then on my own nearly a year

Unchanged?

The same every year

Do you mind?

Nah  Im not superstitious

                           I wish that when I die my mugs disintegrate turn to dust blown awayasunder by an idiot wind  After Im dead they wont be appreciated        

0012,  ReggaeFriday,  19  11. 21

1700,  ReggaeFriday,  19  11. 21

Bob Dylan  Idiot Wind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eBLViMLws10 

 

STUPID IS AS STUPID DOES

Rittenhouse

Wisconsin judge & jury 

He could be doxxed

He could be.

             Would that be right?

Right

          Its richly deserved

Ah yes, do unto others as you would have others do unto you. Matthew 7:12

Oh you little Bible-thumper you

                               yawanna drop that superior look off your face

You’re funny.

Funny  How

I’ll give you a moment, I’ve given you a plenty big hint.

Aaah    HA Thanks for letting me dig out from under

Carry on.

Judge said to the prosecutor “Is there something I’m saying that’s caused the face you’re making?” Prosecutor started to speak but the judge cut him off “Go ahead, say what you were going to say.” The prosecutor said “Your honor, no” you must have caught my bitchy resting face

1211,  ReggaeFriday,  19  11. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3v98CPXNiSk

cowardlyKevin speaks

                      https://www.republicanleader.gov/leader-kevin-mccarthy-dismantles-democrats-socialist-spending-scam/

to be fair he set a new record for the longest spiel ever heard in the House

                                                                              prior Speaker of the House Nancy Pelosi had made the longest speech  although that might have been the point

spiel  speech  

potato  patato

                  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LOILZ_D3aRg

definitely a spiel

after reading McCarthys rambling text he scratched his head unable not to wonder were Californias Kern County constituents truly that ignorant

1227,  ReggaeFriday,  19  11. 21

 

D K  really

           he told him timeanagain to quit with acronyms   he played stupid D K whas that

You know.

Perhaps if you used it in context I can recall  however you said yawere talking with Annamarie who he thought would be a great name for a nuclear submarine about D K  she know wha yawere talking about

                                                                                        If I were a woman and you shorthanded D K I might think it stood for dick  which I would think inappropriate for someone youve only recently met  Yare not me

he exhaledhis lips beat together most inaudible JesusChrist he didnt hear but see Man, you’re such a pain in the ass. D K. You know damn well.

Remind me I havent been on a date in a whilenot in this climate of Trump virus so I dont know wha might pass for wha would yasay  legitimate conversation Is dick legit his inner devils howled and hounded him Dick Lick it

                                                                                                                     Back off Boys

still exasperated You say something?

No Not to you

                Sos dick legit  they backed off

Dick. Dick. Really?

                    D K. he missed the third Dick to render the typical epizeuxis   

Two Dicks a company three Dicks a smorgasbord 

                                                    I said Back off Boys  Just open your mouth an say woudya

Dunning – Kruger.

Ah why didnt yasay that

You remember?

Yes save your breath cognitive bias people of low ability at a task overestimate their ability while people of higher ability underestimate theirs

                              Your favourite scenario driving a car 

Yareally talked to a date about Dunning – Kruger lemme guess lemme   ya also sketched it on a cocktail napkin x-axis horizontal y vertical  x is experience zero to perhaps expert y assuredness perceived competence

Yes. Precisely.

                What a prick.

Anthenya sketched the curve the vertiginous early peakthe Mountain of Ignorance  the plummet freefall to valley of despair then the gradual uptick fortyfive degree angle if Im not mistaken  of enlightenment  then the satisfying plateau   sustainability

                           That go over well

It did, it did . . it did. Now he gets it  Wha a moron

Boys

     Anyaknow how

She didn’t walk out on me.

Ah  might I assume dick came up during your second drink dinner was ordered coming soon

Not dick.

Dick didnt come up

D K.

Tell me then  if dick didnt come up did ya experience any frisson  asya also like to say

                                                                                                     the Boys howled

before 0709,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  11. 21

1332,  Thursday,  18  11. 21

https://www.quora.com/Is-someone-with-an-IQ-of-130-typically-aware-that-they-have-gifted-intelligence/answer/Susanna-Viljanen?ch=8&oid=141578726&share=403bb778&srid=IcBTA&target_type=answer

 Republicans = Republicants = COWARDS

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=snDOWwI3Q-c

if underlyinglesser COWARDS don understand that those above them are going to shit down their throats 

                                                                                                            thatll be on them

1802,  Thursday,  18  11. 21

 

Where’s my fone? he turned violently leftright cast his eye Where the fuck’s my fone?

uhoh all hell was going to break loose this man without his fone was like baby without his binky 

                                                                                                    Ya leave it in the car

I didn’t thin . . 

               his voice trailedhe was suddenlyup walking to his car in the parking lot

uhoh forgot his keys on the table he wasnt going to get in the middle of this 

threequarters way to his car he recognised he didnt have his keys

                                                                     he pivoted like a welltrained marching soldier his step quick

JesusChrist, I forgot my keys, why didn’t you say something?

One thing at a time

                     Haste makes waste dig 

he didnt hear himhed already pivoted sharply again good thing he was too old to serve

he picked up Anti-Intellectualism in American Life Hofstadter off the café table refusing to witness the seething and upset that he could feel from where he sat he always had a book around to help him exercise his patience letem take all the time he needs

 

YOU DON’T HAVE IT?YOU’RE NOT FUCKIN WITH ME ARE YOU?

he looked up calmly

                      Why would I do that  Juvenile tempted to slide into senilespikes high

You don’t like fones.

However I know where mine is

At home at home at home I know; lot of good it’s doing you there.

That was a stupid comment

I gotta goif you had your fone you could have called me; you want a lift home.

No thanks Go sooner you find your fone your sanity will return

I can’t believe this.

Go Drive safe

               Youll find it

apparently on the ride home someone calledhe heard it ring  it was in the trunk beside his gymbag that he took out of the car because it was a ripe from repeated basketball outings and he hadnt laundered his gear

                                                                                                   he had to park in the sun it was a hot day

he didnt turn around return to the coffee shop

he called his cellphone to let him know he found it

                                                     left a voicemail

he heard the message the next day

1904,  Monday,  15  11. 21

1218.  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  11. 21

 

My God you’re a critical motherfucker.

Ya don think thats oddI think its odd

Apparently.

               But a dealbreaker?

Very possibly

                 But before Id break it Id ask if it was the norm

You’re serious, that could be a deal breaker?

I didnt hear a fan running inside

                                  Thatd be a legit excuse . .  or reason Whas the difference  Lemme think

You don’t know?

Yaknow

I’d . . I’d have to think abou . .

. . Oh excuse me all to hell

                               Reason he groped   not to justify but explain take accountabili . .

. . You’re certainly all about accountability.

I am

     An excuse is reasons opposite  exists to justify to blame or defend a fault  the intent to absolve oneself of accountability

                Id ask point blank what the reason was that the bathroom door was closed

                                                                                                 As a matter of fact thinking about it now  all her doors were shut

She might be a private person.

Or shes hiding something

                          None of your interior doors are closed

he paused probably running the floorplan of his house under his unblinking eyes  You’re right, all my doors are open.

Mine too

Hmmm.
        That could possibly be a dealbreaker. I’d expect any door you went through you’d have to close it immediately behind you.

Id suspect as much

She goodlooking?

That has nothing to do with it Looks arent everything

Man, you’re a queer duck.

Not so  just observant

                          An Im keen of things that run contrary to me

1807,  Monday,  15  11. 21

1116,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  11. 21

 

There were the little thingsthe hints

                                    Ohfuck you . . you’ve had enough to drinkya think setting your shotglass down on the counter and going to fill it from an empty coffee carafe isn’t a LITTLE FUCKIN hint

Ah but I caught myself

Caught yourself! ya caught yourself? I was horrified

                                                        from within I watched your machinationsthe whirling gearsgnashing teeth You were thinking whisky yet you set your glass under a coffee carafe

I was I  was   distracted

Distracted. Really? You went into the kitchen to pour yourself another whisky and you grabbed the coffee carafe  Go ahead tell me how distracted  what were you thinking to swing so wide and miss?

Comon We were watching the Christie interview it had just ended I was thinking of the horseshit hes trying to pedal to the MSNBC audience hes a sane Republican cut of Cheneys cloth Christie who coddled the former . pedaling a book . I was thinking hes a disgraced politicianhe lied about closing the lanes to George Washington Bridge in ‘16 in retribution of a perceived slight . for him to sell a book is tantamount to hawking snake oil  I don forget little things

                                                                                                           Canya forgive me

I can. Should be grateful that only we witnessed it; but you’re going to have to forgive me when I tease you about it.

Yes ofcourse  It was a little ridiculous

Little?  The little things, right? 

1647,  Twosday,  16  11. 21

1031,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  11. 21

https://www.nytimes.com/2016/09/20/nyregion/bridgegate-trial.html

 

Mack was always fingering his fonethumbing itfondling it like a rabbits foot a dismembered good luck charm

What is that irritated him to no end Dont leave home without it

                                                                     Like an American Express card huhMack

Mack was distracted up to something

                                          What? looks up doe-eyes I didn’t catch that, what? 

No yadidnt

I’m busy.

We met to have coffee a kibitz

                                Cant keep your nose out of it  Turn the damn thing off

No

   I like being accessible; that you don’t is your business.

It didnt make a sound No one reached out to you

No, but something occurred to me, I want to be accurate; around you if I’m wrong you hang me out to dry.

Ya afraid of making a mistake

When I do you you’re all over me.

I knock you in good fun Theres always the possibility I also don know an Im the first to say

                                                                                                  If its worthwhile well learn it from home doesnt have to be in the moment

Why should we wait? I have the information at my fingertips.

We werent discussing anything when your Siren beckoned

No no, but if I know for a fact we don’t have to go back and forth.

Id make you state your source

You would, you don’t trust anyone, take them at their word.

Your source

I like using Wikipedia.

Why

Why wouldn’t you?

I wouldnt I prefer learned sources Thats the point of the internet Im not a fan of crowdsourcing

                                                                                                      Wikipedia is that It is comprised of citationscorrect

Yes, I suppose you might construe it as crowdsourcing, but what’s not to like about that? Ask one hundred people, they can probably provide you the answer you seek, certainly more informed than asking a few.

Gotta disagree Seems today people dont want to determine things for themselvesnot expedient A slippery slope

I now ask when someone asks me something Do you intend to ask others If they say yes I say Well ask them please

I aint saying

Why wouldn’t you say?

I don participate in opinion polls

                                  Its a dilution I don dilute things I ingest I prefer them straight If I want an opinion I ask someone I trust  It goes no furthur

Well, to each his own.

I agree

        Can you put away the fone talk to me like people did before the asinine things were created We were better off before them

             Anif you think Im being nostalgic its the second reflective not the first restorative

Damn, knew I was gonna ask?

Yup

Reflective is?

Allows us to accept and enjoy our memories for exactly what they were

And restorative, inspires us to go back, try to change, recreate our past.

Yup

     OH one last thing regarding Wikipedia I understand it posts citation needed  lackscitation lactation had to get that off my chest

after 1438,  Thursday,  11  11. 21

1105,  Twosday,  16  11. 21

nostalgia  https://romancesphere.fas.harvard.edu/news/future-nostalgia

he learned a new wordhe was tickled when he did

                                                         hereditarians  read it immediatelyknew what it was

what they would understand was implacable  impossible to alter

Jeremy Bentham wasnt a fan of all things from his mouth but he was applicable in the face of hereditarians kinda like space aliens 

       “The plea of impossibility offers itself in every step, in justification of injustice in all its forms.”

hereditarians

              read of their species in Harriet Washingtons A Terrible Thing to Waste: Environmental Racism and Its Assault on the American Mind

“They claim that intelligence is innate and immutable and insist that nothing – not better health, not education, not reducing poverty, and presumably not removing the assortments of poisons assailing the bodies and brains of children – can be done to raise the IQs of ethnic groups.”

                                                 hed bet hard money majority hereditarians were whitecoloured  affluent and likely werent raised next door or in a neighbourhood with a factory or chemical plant

they would insist an individuals tabula rasa was scribbled onFIXED that new experiences could not transfigure their chalkboards erase errors  inform them anew

Ignorance

           forms without the blue oxygen of curiosity

“Nearly all (hereditarians) specifically argue that investing in solutions to the IQ gap is a waste of money and resources, ignoring the successes like complete lead abatement . . or pre-K enrichment programs . .”

                                                                                              he would assume he preferred not assuming that they served kneeledbefore kowtowed certain political agendas  not many politicians are leaders  anif they were they mightNO they would prefer to lead constituents who would not pause and question them

IQ  defined as Intelligence quotient

he defined it as I question

hereditarians  a new word describing old tacticians

1438,  Thursday,  11  11. 21

1400,  Monday,  15  11. 21

 

. . . the perfectability of human beings.

Whahavya been smoking

You do not believe in the project?

The project everything sought to define itself as a project now of perfection No  How do you think that can be achieved

Without secrets from one another, without the orient of knowledge infiltrating, dictatin . .

. . Lemme guess

Guess?

Soitenly he felt very Three Stoogeish yes soitenly  Then we can realise our full potential

Yes, exactly.

              If we were fully transparen . .

. . NO Ya kiddin me

If we interacted with each other hones . .

. . Honestly

            Wed hurt each others feelings I hurt others feelingsdon pull punches for that I am avoided

                                                                                                            Which it is kinda perfect for me  but I don imagine thats the perfectability yare referring to

No, no, I’m not; begin with secrets as I mentioned . . secrets are lies. that was breathtaking  The orient of knowledge steps between us, separates us.

As it should

No, if we were more transparent . .

. . Thats a mindfuck

                     he sighed did he sigh Not everyone is as capable nothing can change thatwe can ofcourse strive to improve our societal circumstances help make a more level playing field however transparency implies an invasion of privacy we could not be anonymous in your perception I believe anonymity is a right I cannot invoke it if I accuse someonethey have a right to know who I am  but otherwise no

So you would throw your hands up and call the project impossible?

Perfection is impossible

                         Human perfection please  We struggle with right an wrong truth an lies fact an fiction

1929,  Day-between-TwoTs,  10  11. 21

1134,  Monday,  15  11. 21

he was grateful when he went into his mouth and pulled things out that didnt belong there

how they got there was beyond him

he didnt recognise them

some were hard

some were soft

              and hardened on paper to his left that he scribbled on to remember things he thought were worth remembering worth recording to fashion into something that he had no idea they would become like a thump of wet clay to turn on a wheel molten glass blown  like a boy facing a beating or running off

                                                                                            maybe he hadnt sense to run

he looked inside himself like he looked at what came out his mouth and not recognising it it made no sense to run off he also saw that that unnerved others he didnt make sense to them

it was then that he realised he was perverse

                                              his sympathetic nervous system fight or flight didnt hold sway with him

seemed there was fight and fight 

what might come out on the other side could be gruesome if someone cared

he didnt

he didnt press or pursue issues

however when laid at his feetwhen provoked

he stood

he wasnt going nowhere 

make a bed

sleep in it

                       this was one of those things that began on paper left of his hand

0007,  Monday,  15  11. 21

1037,  Monday,  15  11. 21