. . . the perfectability of human beings.

Whahavya been smoking

You do not believe in the project?

The project everything sought to define itself as a project now of perfection No  How do you think that can be achieved

Without secrets from one another, without the orient of knowledge infiltrating, dictatin . .

. . Lemme guess

Guess?

Soitenly he felt very Three Stoogeish yes soitenly  Then we can realise our full potential

Yes, exactly.

              If we were fully transparen . .

. . NO Ya kiddin me

If we interacted with each other hones . .

. . Honestly

            Wed hurt each others feelings I hurt others feelingsdon pull punches for that I am avoided

                                                                                                            Which it is kinda perfect for me  but I don imagine thats the perfectability yare referring to

No, no, I’m not; begin with secrets as I mentioned . . secrets are lies. that was breathtaking  The orient of knowledge steps between us, separates us.

As it should

No, if we were more transparent . .

. . Thats a mindfuck

                     he sighed did he sigh Not everyone is as capable nothing can change thatwe can ofcourse strive to improve our societal circumstances help make a more level playing field however transparency implies an invasion of privacy we could not be anonymous in your perception I believe anonymity is a right I cannot invoke it if I accuse someonethey have a right to know who I am  but otherwise no

So you would throw your hands up and call the project impossible?

Perfection is impossible

                         Human perfection please  We struggle with right an wrong truth an lies fact an fiction

1929,  Day-between-TwoTs,  10  11. 21

1134,  Monday,  15  11. 21

he was grateful when he went into his mouth and pulled things out that didnt belong there

how they got there was beyond him

he didnt recognise them

some were hard

some were soft

              and hardened on paper to his left that he scribbled on to remember things he thought were worth remembering worth recording to fashion into something that he had no idea they would become like a thump of wet clay to turn on a wheel molten glass blown  like a boy facing a beating or running off

                                                                                            maybe he hadnt sense to run

he looked inside himself like he looked at what came out his mouth and not recognising it it made no sense to run off he also saw that that unnerved others he didnt make sense to them

it was then that he realised he was perverse

                                              his sympathetic nervous system fight or flight didnt hold sway with him

seemed there was fight and fight 

what might come out on the other side could be gruesome if someone cared

he didnt

he didnt press or pursue issues

however when laid at his feetwhen provoked

he stood

he wasnt going nowhere 

make a bed

sleep in it

                       this was one of those things that began on paper left of his hand

0007,  Monday,  15  11. 21

1037,  Monday,  15  11. 21

  

he missed Gore Vidal and was grateful to have been alive and reading while Vidal was

he found him scintillating accurate  and prescient

                                                      take for example this beaut from Myra Breckinridge pg40 1963  2nd printing Little Brown and Company edition

“Time and time again (writes Myra) have I heard the students speak wistfully of fighting and torturing the Vietcong, or rather of other young men fighting and torturing the Vietcong on their behalf. Not only are the male students drawn to violence (at second hand), they are also quite totalitarian-minded, even for Americans, and I am convinced that any attractive television personality who wanted to become our dictator would have their full support.”

such a succinct description of craven aholes currently grazingwandering the country

2016,  Sunday,  14  11. 21

The BeeGees  Lonely Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wa2_CL-2ZI4

she invoked Godliness  Omm

Awshucks

Godliness  Omm  where were her finger cymbals singing bowl  her wood striker

Jesus

she smiled beatifically at him

Don smile ya misunderstand Jesus I said Jeezus  Save that gorgeous smile of yours for someone desperate

she pouted beautifully

                      she was working ithad probably seducedmindfucked more than a handful of men women who thought they could ply herindulge her  possibly come away with tantric couplings that played in their minds  formed by youtube videos

Jeezus

Come, you shouldn’t be that way, let me help guide you.

To gawdliness I don think so

                               I have allergic reactions to holy guacamole so on so forth

she set him in her big beautiful brown eyes and whispered Let go.

                                                                     If you could let go, let love flow through yousweep you up . . you might find the happiness of His embrace.

   Pretty handcuffs 

                        Im afraid love flows out the end of my cock Eve  aint the love yare speaking of  Eve  How inspired Let me leave you to the lambs who are ripe for slaughter

That is terrible; why should you talk of such violence.

                                                        Listen . . do not be deafened by your tongue.

Aww can you cite passage and verse

                                         I belief you mean Listen  do not let thy tongue make thee deaf  Thys and thees got plenty of legs in the Bible perhaps the Koran possibly whatever text you might choose to enunciate

                                                                                                            From where Im from that proverb belongs to the Cree

a queer tremble worked the corners of her eyes

                                                not quite a flinch  maybe her assuredness being shed

Lets say buhbye  you can go forth an try to encourage silent obedience consent You are a sweetlooking piece of ass if I were a pike I might rise hungrily to your allure however Im an old piker capable of backpedaling when I smell a trap

2147, Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  10. 21

1602,  Sunday,  14  11. 21

                                                                   inveterate inveterape

he was an inveterate fan of his eyes fooling him 

the book is called Pity the Beast 

his eyes tattled Pith the Beast 

Liz Cheney

Lynchening 

dimensionality

dementiaality 

CRT (critical race theory – he disliked acronyms – acrimoniousnimrods – thanks eyeballs)

CReTins  droll  white CReTins

                                  CRTs reductive definition – bogus – racial discrimination is nothing more than an explicit invocation of skin colour  a ripe Orwellian rewrite of HistoryHerstory

                                                   bogart the joint It’s mine, all mine! I don’t have to share with Them. hawks phlegm and spits

blowhards

          white Right in Britain and the US politically silencing CRT  the French espouse decolonial  ignore that decolonialisation decolonisation is a term a politics a field of study prior to CRT 

                                                                                 theyll connivedo anythingsay anything to disregard a deepdive into history to examine the truth  the South fought the Civil War to keep their slaves

                                                                                                               unfortunately Confederate military and political leaders traitors werent executed  the risk the Founding Fathers faced if they lost their war

he couldnt wait for the next visual obfuscation

earlier Day-between-Two-Ts,  10 11. 21

1121, Sunday,  14  11. 21

https://bostonreview.net/race-politics/david-theo-goldberg-war-critical-race-theory

Fraternity (Eternity) of Man  Don’t Bogart that Joint  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J-ifjIAoleI 

 

Mack said I really like Rovellis discussion on dimensionality . .

. . Dementia-ality he was cool to being lectured

Dementia-ality. Hmm, I like that.

Me too Wonder how its spelled if its hyphenated hypen (spelling the letters) ality or perhaps (spelling the letters) dementiality  then slipped off his tongue special specialty speciality British then (spelling the letters) dementialty dementiality he stopped Mack was staring at him apparently he may have an inside track  he had manic leaps and bounds

it also occurred to him while he was positing dimensionality dementiaality   dimenschionality mensch person of integrity and honour surprisingly its opposite is unmensch an utterly cruel or evil person he expected an entirely different wordhadnt expect mensch to be uned

What’s up, man?

he heard his voice

                  Mack actually disintegrated like a sugarcube in hot tea before his eyes  he reintegrated

Interior dialogue

                  A rude little habit I have but its too entertaining to avoid I placate it by listeningIve always placated it created lotsa crap for me in school turned off teachers slingshot off a parcel an insight they may or may not have muttered

Teachers muttered

                   So diligently I tried to obfuscateheel my inclinations by demanding I pleaseplease be allowed to sit front and center They couldnt possibly miss me going offfollowing paths that occurred to me

                                                                                                 Im sure you witnessedhave witnessed me do it  audibly ramble to you incoherent because I don leave breadcrumbs when I go

You were saying Dimensionality

Yes. I was speaking.

                      You interrupted.

You muttered

Excuse me?

Nothing

Do you understand dimensionality?

I do We can skip it and proceed Maybe youll say something I don know

his eyebrowMacks right eyebrow when peeved it arched  it actually pulled his facemade it lopsided

                                                                                                          You understand dimensionality? 

Yes

Let me hear it.

You understand it I understand it like discussing that a coin has two sides heads and tails common knowledge Please  Lets move on

Macks face grew more lopsided looked like it hurt

                                                    Awright Dimensionality Measure of spatial extent extent magnitude scope width height length perceived dimensions Dimension actual three-dimensional measurements a line one dimension a square two dimensions a cube three-dimensions

                                                                   Can we move on Have I made your point for you

the lopsidedness fell away

Plancks time the shortest time measurement possible is ten to the negative fortyfour power

                                                                                               Can we move on please 

1709,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  11. 21

1144,  Saturday,  13  11. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6rWqJhDv7M

 

I’ve never heard of him, what did he write? He nonfiction, fiction, I don’t read much fiction.

Why wouldnt you read fiction

It’s not real, I prefer to learn something when I read.

Ya don think fiction scifi fantasy mysteries are based in realityagainst backdrops based in legitimate interactions  hard facts

Hard facts. No.

he tried to restrain himselfhe wasnt any good at that Yare an ass

Why would you say tha . .

. . Lifes as real as it getsthat someone is improvising does not minimise or negate emotions that are drawn from the same well                                                                                                                              Yaknow Emotions  Right   Your well isnt deep

And what’s with that remark?

Nothing Tellinya like it is

Then you don . .

. . Knowya inside and out ya fail to understand how obvious you are Besides  emotion is not your strong suit Hence your doting concern over IQ why you minimise EQ

I wouldn’t say that.

No you wouldnt That why I do

                                But not to belabour our conversation He wrote a book had it bound on the right side so when read one began from the back front It disturbed a lot of people  A backwardsbound book 

                                                                                                      he thought it a riot laughed at American culture whose vanity is second to none The Japanese Middle East read their text in that manner  That an hes lefthanded  Writing was problematic reading was backwards The righthand world was a pain in the ass He just wanted to share his discomfort with the more than ninety percent of readers 

 

1956, Thursday – Veterans Day,  11  11. 21

1547,  ReggaeFriday,  12  11. 21

Christina Vantzou & JAB  Pungent Lake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Wp_pUTlx5o

 

he knew many people who displayed their pleasure with sighs or hmms as they ate  like children  utterly absorbedunembarrassed if someone were to point it out to them  he enjoyed their pleasure and was never the one who may have sought to belittle them for what purpose

                                                         however recently he attended at dinner party at a friends home  he heard it was ostentatious he hadnt been invited before an thought it odd  Wear a tie and jacket, please . .

he wore the requested  others wore sharp suits a few dressed in tuxedos 

he was seated across an enormous table white linen lit table candelabras china silver their kitchen was run by a chef dinner served by waiters hed remind himself to never do this again  he was seated across from a gentleman who throughout dinner while not sighing or hmming declared the delicacydeliciousness of each course by sharply averting his eyesleft wait  wait    wait for it then sharply avert his eyesright  perhaps twothree times every course  he did not engage in conversation during his shifty eyes despite on more than one occasion he carried the weight of the discussion  

he  was   fascinated

when dinner was over the ladies adjourned to a parlour  the gentlemen went outdoors onto a broad tiled veranda that overlooked gardens fountains sculptures and acres of lawn for brandy and cigars So this kind of stuff actually happens he thought  hed remind himself if asked again to decline 

                                                         he listened to differing conversations subject matters volleys as he walked between clutches although he didnt spend enough times in them to form an opinion 

                                                                                                he was far tooinvolved with the Cuba cigar he savoured also he had opted for Irish whiskey the waiter excused himself when he returned he carried a single leadcrystal tumbler on the silver serving tray the whiskey threw a caramelcoloured halo on it the tumbler had a fantastic weight  it was pleasurable in its own right

he kept to himself

at the partys conclusion he thanked his friends

                                                  Did you have a good time? Some people remarked you proved elusive.

I had a fine evening it was exquisite literally a once-in-a-lifetime event Thank you very much for the invitation

to his disappointment he wasnt able to get the gentleman to a side and ask him about his eyes

                                                                                                   he was a soughtafter guest

1949,  Thursday – Veterans Day,  11  11. 21

1057,  ReggaeFriday,  12  11. 21

       Bannon abandoned swinging for the bleachers but he aint no Babe nada BAMbino  aint got no illgotten calvary coming to his rescue no Chinese yacht divining the Seven Seas

                                                                  hell have to spend a portion of the millions he defrauded allegedly Americans of for his defense

1634,  ReggaeFriday,  12  11. 21

https://www.npr.org/2021/11/12/1054309797/steve-bannon-contempt-congress-justice-department

 

he has a huge male tabby

                            Bomber

he was sired by a feral tornup tabby who was torturedhis tail broken cutoff if praying worked hed pray that he could get his hands on whoever mistreated Robert he called him Robert short for Robert Redford his indoor feral took a shine to him Robert would come up on the front screen door and spray He aint no Robert Redford baby

                                                                                                he had to go out of town  asked a friend to please stop and care for her  october  and indie  another feral he took in seven years prior  his friend wasnt savvy  october got out

                              hence Bomber  also hence shy and leftie  theyre girls

Bomber has a thing for all things he enjoyshandles and caresses  his books his old glass bottles pens shells bones sperm whale teeth

                   but Bomber really has a thing for a piece of white shale that is shaped like a sperm whale which he keeps atop his highboy cradled on a bookend  immediately inside the bookend is a 1930 illustrated by Rockwell Kent edition of Moby Dick

Bomber and indie relate to him as a fellow male

                                                  when he goes to sleep at nightwhen he says goodnight to each of his cats they often beat him to bed

they sleep together

occasionally the girls will join them and on a rare occasions the queen october also joins them

                                                                                                     years earlier he gifted his daughter a gravity blanket  he called her one winter evening to let her know that he should have given her his cats  Theyd sleep on top of you  Youd have your gravity blanket

                                                               AwDad, you are so thoughtful, so sweet Here it comes he thought but you know, I don’t have to feed my blanket.  she had a good point  anhe was terribly grateful she didnt bring up cleaning cat boxes   she let him off easy

however Bomber really has a thing for his white shale sperm whale and usually in the middle of the daysometimes night whenever it strikes his fancy hell jump up onto the dresser and get the whale in his mouthjump down and hide it then he has to wait for Bomber to forget himself and begin batting it around on the carpet in order for him to find it tell Bomber NO and put it back on the bookend

                                         LET THE GAME BEGIN . . AGAIN

Bomber was tireless

fortunately he was equally tireless

they exercised each other

if it wasnt for his ministrationscaring for his cats hed wonder who was whos pet

2323,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

1234,  Thursday – Veterans Day,  11  11. 21

 

hungry artists

like every other hungry worker

are manipulated by those who evidently have means and are mean take advantage because they can

                                                                                                             their rationale is their success it is how they retain their wealth the South fought the Civil War for exactly that reason didnt have to pay nigger slaves nothing

thats how he saw his employers

the more hungry someone is

the more desperate they are

employers like desperate employees

                                              until

an employer got brained

they don get brained often enough

they are upsetrepelled by violence prefer not getting dirty

they ignore they are the sourcethe provocation of it

they could have been fair

they did not have to be calculating  devious

                                              Ah the rub 

that is the nature of Business

first year college

                 he met a lot of people from around Chicagosurrounding states they coalescedwere thrilled being Out though few truly on their own

he enjoyed the classes discussions get-togethers parties bars

                                                                       ahem  poolhalls

one thing became apparent and consistent to him

                                                     Aw, come on man, they’re just trying to get to know you.

Then get to know me don ask me wha Im studying

later  So what do you do for a living? asif a job could define him 

inevitably inshortorder he found he immensely disliked business people 

he didnt feel bad beating one up

                                 who could possibly feel bad beating a psychopath

he liked to think that maybe the beating curtailed that thing he truly despised

when a psychopath gets their way too long they ascend  and ascending theyll fit themselves with the tingedhalo of a sociopath

he never tired of the equality of a fistfight

2226,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

1117,  Thursday – Veterans Day,  11  11. 21

Julie Andrews  Getting To Know You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbbYY-pAmlY

Christina Vantzou  Sister  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RC1Yjn7uKsI

 

cereal coldcereal

                    cold serial  to be canceled

   cold case archival storage

Take it awaytake it down to the morgue

he ate too many dry cereal dinners baked potato dinners in college to be enthusiastic about either

                                                                                                      only stepped in front of a dry cereal now when he visited family his granddaughters their eyes were either too big for their stomachs or they finished the cereal but went to dump a pint of organic milk down the kitchen sinkDESPITEdespite him telling them before they sat down to eat NOT to waste milk

                                        ridiculous he was one of eight kids waste was sacrilegious these two might be brought into the fold if they missed a couple of dinners at random through the week experienced hungerthey were always starving to death they hadnt a clue what hunger was

                                                      he truly couldnt say he knew real Hunger anhe was grateful

he was also grateful they werent allowed sugared cerealhed be tempted to dump the milk he either drank the milk from their bowls or if enough cereal was floating or sunk he add a bit more for proportionality

he didnt visit oftenhe wasnt a grandmother

                                            anhe didnt withstand their withering commentariestheir attempted chiding pointing fingers at him telling him he ought to spend more time with his grandchildren

                                                                                        he cut them to the quick  I did for my childrentheir grandparents were rarely around My children will do for theirs Theres things I want to do Ive earned my selfishness an Im enjoying it

theyd shake their headsmutter Pitiful, pitiful, absolutely pitiful.

                                                                          Awwell might be he was still getting laid Not a child born could replace that 

I have oatmeal every morning.

Good for you Hot cereals good never ate hot cereal for dinner

What do you eat for breakfast?

I don

You don’t, that’s not good.

According to who

I, I think I believe, that is commonly knowncommon knowledge.

According to who

                   Hate to sound like a broken record but I havent had breakfast religiouslythe only thing I might consider religiously since I was a boyteenager

Oh no, that’s not good.

My healths been better than yours . . agreed

Well, yes, but . .

. . Yes I agree there are a lot of factors at play Perhaps a smokescreen But breakfast every morning is obviously not a make-or-break proposition

                            Should I happen to be hungry on a given morning Ill eat three raw eggs Jumbo Organic should I be hungry I believe theres more protein  possibly easier to digest too

people facesexpressions always slip queasy

Fact  Cold cereal usually doesnt make people queasy

2217,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

1516,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  11. 21

 

he wasnt sure what the or if there were prerequisites for being clever

intelligence obviously would be in the mix

his friend insisted Quora made him smarter more clever

Cleverer

No, it is more clever.

Check it out man use your everpresent smartphone

                                                       Yamay be surprised

More clever.

he loved when he dug in his heels he got a look on his puss that was like passing a hard turd or something smelled bad

wasnt an attractive look but he told him plenty of times and wasnt wasting his time any more

                                                                                                 couldnt resist  Cleverer

You want to flaunt your ignorance, have at it; who am I to stand in your way?

No one

        Thank you

clever didnt peeve him unless ofcourse it wasnt

                                                  earlier before cleverer he tried to cross him up when he casually mentioned query I donknow Id have to make a query

Queery?

Query I said query

What I said.

Not whaya said

Queery.

Ya mean queer theory  a portmanteau    a blendblending

What are you talking about?

You brought it up Im trying to clarify whaya meant If anyone can clear that up for me it would be you

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Queery You brought it up

                            I assume you know what yare talking about  or don

Listen ya might recall  or your tongue will make you deaf  Cree proverb

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Well  one of us knows wha were talking about

                                                Lets change things up before you hurt yourself  Whadid you have for breakfast  Cold cereal

1749,  Twosday,  2  11. 21

1147,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  11. 21

https://www.wikihow.com/Be-Clever

Queery:  literary and cultural study that rejects traditional categories of gender and sexuality