hungry artists

like every other hungry worker

are manipulated by those who evidently have means and are mean take advantage because they can

                                                                                                             their rationale is their success it is how they retain their wealth the South fought the Civil War for exactly that reason didnt have to pay nigger slaves nothing

thats how he saw his employers

the more hungry someone is

the more desperate they are

employers like desperate employees

                                              until

an employer got brained

they don get brained often enough

they are upsetrepelled by violence prefer not getting dirty

they ignore they are the sourcethe provocation of it

they could have been fair

they did not have to be calculating  devious

                                              Ah the rub 

that is the nature of Business

first year college

                 he met a lot of people from around Chicagosurrounding states they coalescedwere thrilled being Out though few truly on their own

he enjoyed the classes discussions get-togethers parties bars

                                                                       ahem  poolhalls

one thing became apparent and consistent to him

                                                     Aw, come on man, they’re just trying to get to know you.

Then get to know me don ask me wha Im studying

later  So what do you do for a living? asif a job could define him 

inevitably inshortorder he found he immensely disliked business people 

he didnt feel bad beating one up

                                 who could possibly feel bad beating a psychopath

he liked to think that maybe the beating curtailed that thing he truly despised

when a psychopath gets their way too long they ascend  and ascending theyll fit themselves with the tingedhalo of a sociopath

he never tired of the equality of a fistfight

2226,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

1117,  Thursday – Veterans Day,  11  11. 21

Julie Andrews  Getting To Know You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbbYY-pAmlY

Christina Vantzou  Sister  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RC1Yjn7uKsI

 

cereal coldcereal

                    cold serial  to be canceled

   cold case archival storage

Take it awaytake it down to the morgue

he ate too many dry cereal dinners baked potato dinners in college to be enthusiastic about either

                                                                                                      only stepped in front of a dry cereal now when he visited family his granddaughters their eyes were either too big for their stomachs or they finished the cereal but went to dump a pint of organic milk down the kitchen sinkDESPITEdespite him telling them before they sat down to eat NOT to waste milk

                                        ridiculous he was one of eight kids waste was sacrilegious these two might be brought into the fold if they missed a couple of dinners at random through the week experienced hungerthey were always starving to death they hadnt a clue what hunger was

                                                      he truly couldnt say he knew real Hunger anhe was grateful

he was also grateful they werent allowed sugared cerealhed be tempted to dump the milk he either drank the milk from their bowls or if enough cereal was floating or sunk he add a bit more for proportionality

he didnt visit oftenhe wasnt a grandmother

                                            anhe didnt withstand their withering commentariestheir attempted chiding pointing fingers at him telling him he ought to spend more time with his grandchildren

                                                                                        he cut them to the quick  I did for my childrentheir grandparents were rarely around My children will do for theirs Theres things I want to do Ive earned my selfishness an Im enjoying it

theyd shake their headsmutter Pitiful, pitiful, absolutely pitiful.

                                                                          Awwell might be he was still getting laid Not a child born could replace that 

I have oatmeal every morning.

Good for you Hot cereals good never ate hot cereal for dinner

What do you eat for breakfast?

I don

You don’t, that’s not good.

According to who

I, I think I believe, that is commonly knowncommon knowledge.

According to who

                   Hate to sound like a broken record but I havent had breakfast religiouslythe only thing I might consider religiously since I was a boyteenager

Oh no, that’s not good.

My healths been better than yours . . agreed

Well, yes, but . .

. . Yes I agree there are a lot of factors at play Perhaps a smokescreen But breakfast every morning is obviously not a make-or-break proposition

                            Should I happen to be hungry on a given morning Ill eat three raw eggs Jumbo Organic should I be hungry I believe theres more protein  possibly easier to digest too

people facesexpressions always slip queasy

Fact  Cold cereal usually doesnt make people queasy

2217,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

1516,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  11. 21

 

he wasnt sure what the or if there were prerequisites for being clever

intelligence obviously would be in the mix

his friend insisted Quora made him smarter more clever

Cleverer

No, it is more clever.

Check it out man use your everpresent smartphone

                                                       Yamay be surprised

More clever.

he loved when he dug in his heels he got a look on his puss that was like passing a hard turd or something smelled bad

wasnt an attractive look but he told him plenty of times and wasnt wasting his time any more

                                                                                                 couldnt resist  Cleverer

You want to flaunt your ignorance, have at it; who am I to stand in your way?

No one

        Thank you

clever didnt peeve him unless ofcourse it wasnt

                                                  earlier before cleverer he tried to cross him up when he casually mentioned query I donknow Id have to make a query

Queery?

Query I said query

What I said.

Not whaya said

Queery.

Ya mean queer theory  a portmanteau    a blendblending

What are you talking about?

You brought it up Im trying to clarify whaya meant If anyone can clear that up for me it would be you

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Queery You brought it up

                            I assume you know what yare talking about  or don

Listen ya might recall  or your tongue will make you deaf  Cree proverb

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Well  one of us knows wha were talking about

                                                Lets change things up before you hurt yourself  Whadid you have for breakfast  Cold cereal

1749,  Twosday,  2  11. 21

1147,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  11. 21

https://www.wikihow.com/Be-Clever

Queery:  literary and cultural study that rejects traditional categories of gender and sexuality

the much-hyped Liz Cheney quote today

"I love my party. But I love my country more."

but she doesnt love her country enough to vote YES on the Infrastructure Bill last Friday

granted  it is Wednesday

1641,  Day-between-TwoTs,  10  11. 21

he heard her

she was behind him

he didnt turn immediately to eye her

he wanted to play with what she saidher voice construct her in his mind before he looked a little game he played when the opportunity presented itself

she said again

that was quick

               like a foghornnot its timbre it didnt need to be sounded againhe understoodthought everyone understood  once they heard they would know where the shoals were

he was at a party 

it was held in banquet hall

a friend asked if hed like to attend it with her

                                               she was a friend he wanted to ask out but didnt dare  she was much younger than he  he did not want to jeopardise their friendshipthey got along too wellhad too much in common  YES he would be proud to be on her arm

Excellent! Then we have a date.

A date his voice rose a date

Yes, you think I’m gonna wait forever; I’m asking you out.  You aren’t square.

square why would square be in her lingo which is why he enjoyed her No not square  We have a date  date

she smiledsensational dimples Yes, a date date.

                                                 he felt like a kid  he was going out on a date with her

she took his hand  held it

                           she leaned her head to his a strand of her black hair tickled his face she said in his ear This is really nice. I like being with you, I like that you came with me.

Yare something else kiddo  I love spending time with you

she leaned back kept his hand

                                 Did you happen to hea . .

. . Whoa, give me a moment  If yasay wha I think yare gonnasay  Ill need a moment

amused she laughed in her throat it was musical

Awright  Please proceed

Did you happen to hear the woman behind us?

Hubby

OHmy, you did.

Yes I was building her in my head just before you took my hand

You didn’t look?

No Anno spoilers okay

                         I want to see if my contoursconstruction are correct

Not a hint.

              Do you do this often?

I mightI would  it doesnt happen often

I’ll be silent.

Thank you

I’ll undress you with my eyes, again.

Youve undressed me

You’ve undressed me.

I have

Me undressed isn’t going to mess with your effort?

Impossible  No way shes in your league baby

Flatterer. I won’t say.

       Hubby   again

                        it piqued him as Lover did  it was language that ought to remain at home  like religion not flaunted proselytising  keeping a Blessingoffering Grace in a restaurant silent

                                                                                  Gawd would hear

Awright  shall we

You shall; been there done that. I’m curious to see if you can pick her out.

he turned around

the room dimmed

a klieg light lit her etched her shadow darkly to the floor on peoples clothing

                                                                               There

Or should I say Thar she blows

she wasnt fat wasnt big

Thar she blows?

As a whaler lookout cries when he spots his prey

You’re right, unbelievable; how did you do that?

                                                   I happened to be turned in her direction when she spoke he was happy she didnt say I was surprised when she did

Ive been doing this a long time

Like your walking and reading?

Yes as a matter of fact

                        Little games Ive played with myself since a boy  Entertaining

You have games for me to play with you?

More games than youll be able to count

2138,  Sunday -- Halloween,  31  10. 21

1127,  Twosday,  9  11. 21

Iron Butterfly  Most Anything You Want  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QZdITJX6I0 

majority Republicans are bellyaching about the Infrastructure bill that passed which nineteen Republican senators voted in favour of

House Minority Leader Kevin McCarthy (R-CA) called the package a “Social Spending Scam.”  Representative Andy Biggs (R-AZ)  he leads the House Freedumb Caucus  tweeted “Republicans who voted for the Democrats’ socialist spending bill are the very reason why Americans don’t trust Congress.”

a simple solution

                   these politicians can employcan state disambiguous their districts will not accept socialist money senators their states will not accept socialist money

they voted NO

let them mean NO

thats not how the dispersal will work  it is Americas infrastructure far and wide

1012,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  11. 21

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/local-papers-celebrate-infrastructure-bill-s-benefits-name-and-shame-republican-opponents-125838405634?cid=eml_mra_20211110&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

 

she said I wish I could get stirred up like a guy.

he was relatingcouldnt remember the sequewhat triggered the memory heAH  Charlize Theron Italian Job car Mini Cooper only automobile that intrigued himbriefly usually they did nothing for himright up there with men fortyeight percent of the populationmankind didnt registerhe didnt pay any attention to them which is why women impacted him funneledhoned his interest

                             he admitted he had to watch the film again before returning it because when it ended he had been so intently watching Theron that he had no idea what the movie was about

                                                                                           Theron  Cooper

You wish ya could getah turned on  like a  guy    By a guy

Yes.

Whamakes ya wet

she didnt blinkhe understood her to be frank Wet.  she mused

                                                                     I remember I was, last, maybe seventeen, when I got really wet.

Was it the guy or something he did

The guy.

Is your wetso I understand commiserate to a guy popping a bon . .

. . Yes. Exactly exactly.

                          In the vernacular, popping a boner.

Never thought to try to fuck a vernacular she was attractive  fit

                                                               brilliant graduated Stanford magna cum laude was pissed it wasnt summa cum laude Lotsa cumming believed metrics were skewed double major undergraduate psychology biology outspoken fearlessly challenged her professors

she was a practising psychiatrist

I wonder I can wonder out loud

Please.

You should understand Im more a product of the streetdropped out of college twice Really not my cup of tea proud to say a semester and a half shy of a degree

Proud?

Yah That I put up with it that long
                                    Longest four years of my life 

What were you studying?

Entered biology Then English  Then film study

                                                   I was bounced out of the first two programmes because of professors We disagreed violently

Violently?

Violently

            Still I wouldnt have it any other way Yaknow the school of hard knocks

But if I may

Wonder out loud?

Yes

I’m interested.

Possible that because you were so driven by academiayour sights set that maybe you were stirred cerebrally I know sex happens in the brain  but maybe you were so focused your glands went way back near the end of the line

Ya have many boyfriends

Boyfriends demand attention.

Smart boyfriends

she laughed wholeheartedly

                              Isn’t that an oxymoron?

Youre the doctor

Evasion.

Evasion  Choice

                 Perhaps youd pop a boner if you lusted like an animallet your pussy think like guys ohsofrequently think with their dicks

                       Own a good vibrator dildodon answer that

Practise

2138,  Sunday – Halloween,  31  10. 21

1508,  Twosday,  9  11. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw6jY3VuOcI

Whawas the difference between a knee slapper an a foot stomper

You asking me?

You were there

Why would I remember that?

Because you were there

Don’t you remember?

Not right now no Im not

                              Eventually I will

Then there you have it. 

There I have it  Yare not going to try

No, I know I won’t rememb . .

. . So you wont try

No.

    You said you’ll remember.

Cocksucker

           Thats the definition of a cocksuckertoo fuckin lazy to dig into their memory banks proclaim they cant wont try to remember

              Kindalike the shallow front pockets manufacturers put in womens jeansfuckin things cant hold a thingmaybe toenail clippings Wha a gyp

he remembered

              Hey man  I remembered the difference between a knee slapper and foot stomper

Yeah?

Yah It had to do with your sapiosexual declaration

My sapiosexual declaration? What are you talking about?

I told you that you were inaccuratenot precise hence opened a huge can of worms for yourself

What?

You saidagain like you need to remind me again  that you were sexually attracted to highly intelligence people

I am!

Wrong might wanna reconsider

Oh Hell no, I am sapiosexual. he looked so fuckin pleased with himself

Ya mean yare sexually attracted to highly intelligence women but ya opened the door for homosexuals gayswhaever ya wanna call emmakes your skin crawl  don tell me No  open to queer lovers

                                                                               Thats the difference between a knee slapper and a foot stomper

                     AnI stomped my foot 

No.

Yes

No, that wasn’t it.

Wasnt it

No.

Because you remember

crickets

Ya left it up to me to remember Aint got a leg to stand on man

                                                               Not a fuckin LEG  NADA

he cringed

           thankGawd he didnt smack his lips  had he that would have been about cocks  he wasnt keenNo way in Hell going down on women

2138,  Sunday,  31  10. 21

1552,  Monday,  8  11. 21

Jill Scott  Jill Intro  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYY9Je-gO0Q 

 

he was high

an enormous man walked by 

his shirt yards of yellow material 

the shopkeeper stepped outside to enjoy some sun fresh air

                                                               How are you, Joe?

Im breezin

Writing again?

Writing  reading

                          Thinking

What are you thinking?

Yawouldnt believe it

Try me, I’ve an open mind.

Mines a gaping wound

                           Awright  awright  one opened mind to another

Do fat men have lovehandles

Paul looked immediately after the man in the yellowshirt who had passed as he stepped outside

                                                                                                     Lovehandles.  Hmm.  It isn’t apparent, is it?

NO not at all

              Hence why I wonderedwhy it occurred to me

Can’t help you with thatwouldn’t want to help you with that.

You and me both 

                   Just a curious thoughtgot caught on a snag in my brain   But then  theres so many lovehandles to be held

he closed his eyes

Paul took a breath

                     I only came out here for some fresh air. Now the things going through my head.

he opened his eyes

                     I hear ya the things running across the back of my eyelids  Whawas I thinking

Lovehandles, Joe, lovehandles.

Bettie Page in blackanwhite

1610,  Saturday,  6  1. 21

1103,  Monday,  8  11. 21

Fireflies  She’s My Witch  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWbm44AYoEk

 

he was a lousy storyteller

Comon man its yoursown it embellish it Give it some coloursome senses paint a picture 

I’m telling you . .

. . Yah Joe Fridayish Just the facts maamjust the facts fuckin reportage When ya tell a story tell it not some bloodless notification

Like what?

Yasaid ya took an elevatorya kissed her in the elevator

                                                          Wha music was playing

I don’t know, I wasn’t listening.

Okay that said what musicits your story whawould you have playing

What do you mean What would I have playing?

Yare in the elevator with a woman you find attractive a couple drinks under your belt suggestive conversation during the drinks your soundtrack wha music would you like to be kissing her to

I don’t know.

Its your story Wha music

I don’t know, I think saying I don’t know ought to be sufficient, ought to suggest I DON’T KNOW.

Jesus Rod Stewart Maggie May From Every Picture Tells a FUCKINfuckin Story Its late September and I really should be back at school  I know I keep you amused but I feel Im being used . .

No. Not Maggie May . .

. . WHA

I don’t know; but not that.

Ohman yare a lost cause deaf dumb blind   Insensate

I’m not insensate, while we were seated, sitting side by side in the booth having drinks I felt frisson in my leg, my groin.

he looked suddenlysuperior

Ya have your cellphone

My cellphone, yes; what’s that got to do with anything.

Ya muted itset it to vibrate That wasnt frisson it was your phone

1546,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

1020,  Monday,  8  11. 21

Rod Stewart  Maggie May  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOl7dh7a-6g

 

 

Gosar fantasises about Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez

                                                 NO not how one might imagine a redblooded boy might fantasise  hes a real piece of work a freakin retard

apologises to authentic mentally deficient individuals  

                                                   he was elected by Arizonas Fourth Congressional District a sizable rural district (pop. 825,763) he looks rurallooks like hed snort gasoline fumes from a tractor or dune buggy gas tank

one would seriously hope his supporters are not thrilled with him  how he speaks and comports himself

                                                                                                               they ought to recall him for being mentally unfit  unless ofcourse they prefer the association with him  

0939,  Monday,  8  11. 21

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/paul-gosar-posts-anime-video-showing-him-killing-alexandria-ocasio-cortez/ar-AAQsknq?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz 

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/gop-eager-to-punish-defectors-on-infrastructure-gosar-death-fantasies-go-unaddressed-125838917716?cid=eml_mra_20211110&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

he watched an enormous man in a brightyellow shirt black shortwhat appeared to be weighted backpack gymshoes walking across the street

                             a really enormous man

he figured he better say something to his cousin who happened through town on her way to LA from Esalen she was there for a welldeserved retreat a treat there for massages and the nude hot tub

                                                                                     she was telling him about this guy who asked if he could share the hot tub  he had the biggest dick shed ever seen

                                                                                      Ya let him in

                                                                                                     In? I wish. No. He would have split me in half, I didn’t want to be nursing my pussy afterwards. I was there to relax not get laid. I did however share the tub.

Gale had an enormous rackthey were kissing cousins as kids occasionally she let him play with her tits sometimes some things a bit more intimate

                                  So the pair of you just eyeballed each other

                                                                                To be sure we eyeballed, but didnt ball.

Gale bought some nice weed while she was in San Francisco

                                                                they got stoned at his place before they walked over to a coffee shop he knew  out of the way  quiet  excellent vantage point to watch the world go round  afterwards they were going to dinner at a Mediterranean place that just opened  friends said they were very pleased with the food

Im stoned he admitted

Me too she said

Say that saidyasee that huge man in the brightyellow shirt across the parkway

she looked OHmy hes the size of a billboard

Yes  Enormous

                 I was thinkin . . 

. . Oh no, thinking one of your usual stoned thoughts that come from places unknown, fresh out of bizarro world?

Not bizarre

Oh, bizarre, go ahead make my point. Something about the yellow billboard?

Yes

You’re not going to belittle him for his weight.

No I wouldnt do that I have no idea whas caused his circumstance

No, you’ve always been good about not judging people; I wish I didnt half as well as you.

Judge not lest ye be judged

Should have had you up in Esalen.

No no  Had you invited me had we done the hot tubyour tits Im not a swinging dick so we may have been tempted  then smitten really made a mess of their hot tub

she laughed Possibly

                          Alright, what are you thinking?

Do you think a lethal military drone could strike him without causing collateral damage saveperhaps bruised by body parts

         Gentleman is rotund Round a ton

And thank you, proved my point. You don’t think that’s bizarre.

No

Okay. Let’s go eat before I lose my appetite. 

                                            standing up  Man, the way you think.

1606,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

1234,  Sunday,  7  11. 21