she said I wish I could get stirred up like a guy.

he was relatingcouldnt remember the sequewhat triggered the memory heAH  Charlize Theron Italian Job car Mini Cooper only automobile that intrigued himbriefly usually they did nothing for himright up there with men fortyeight percent of the populationmankind didnt registerhe didnt pay any attention to them which is why women impacted him funneledhoned his interest

                             he admitted he had to watch the film again before returning it because when it ended he had been so intently watching Theron that he had no idea what the movie was about

                                                                                           Theron  Cooper

You wish ya could getah turned on  like a  guy    By a guy

Yes.

Whamakes ya wet

she didnt blinkhe understood her to be frank Wet.  she mused

                                                                     I remember I was, last, maybe seventeen, when I got really wet.

Was it the guy or something he did

The guy.

Is your wetso I understand commiserate to a guy popping a bon . .

. . Yes. Exactly exactly.

                          In the vernacular, popping a boner.

Never thought to try to fuck a vernacular she was attractive  fit

                                                               brilliant graduated Stanford magna cum laude was pissed it wasnt summa cum laude Lotsa cumming believed metrics were skewed double major undergraduate psychology biology outspoken fearlessly challenged her professors

she was a practising psychiatrist

I wonder I can wonder out loud

Please.

You should understand Im more a product of the streetdropped out of college twice Really not my cup of tea proud to say a semester and a half shy of a degree

Proud?

Yah That I put up with it that long
                                    Longest four years of my life 

What were you studying?

Entered biology Then English  Then film study

                                                   I was bounced out of the first two programmes because of professors We disagreed violently

Violently?

Violently

            Still I wouldnt have it any other way Yaknow the school of hard knocks

But if I may

Wonder out loud?

Yes

I’m interested.

Possible that because you were so driven by academiayour sights set that maybe you were stirred cerebrally I know sex happens in the brain  but maybe you were so focused your glands went way back near the end of the line

Ya have many boyfriends

Boyfriends demand attention.

Smart boyfriends

she laughed wholeheartedly

                              Isn’t that an oxymoron?

Youre the doctor

Evasion.

Evasion  Choice

                 Perhaps youd pop a boner if you lusted like an animallet your pussy think like guys ohsofrequently think with their dicks

                       Own a good vibrator dildodon answer that

Practise

2138,  Sunday – Halloween,  31  10. 21

1508,  Twosday,  9  11. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw6jY3VuOcI

Whawas the difference between a knee slapper an a foot stomper

You asking me?

You were there

Why would I remember that?

Because you were there

Don’t you remember?

Not right now no Im not

                              Eventually I will

Then there you have it. 

There I have it  Yare not going to try

No, I know I won’t rememb . .

. . So you wont try

No.

    You said you’ll remember.

Cocksucker

           Thats the definition of a cocksuckertoo fuckin lazy to dig into their memory banks proclaim they cant wont try to remember

              Kindalike the shallow front pockets manufacturers put in womens jeansfuckin things cant hold a thingmaybe toenail clippings Wha a gyp

he remembered

              Hey man  I remembered the difference between a knee slapper and foot stomper

Yeah?

Yah It had to do with your sapiosexual declaration

My sapiosexual declaration? What are you talking about?

I told you that you were inaccuratenot precise hence opened a huge can of worms for yourself

What?

You saidagain like you need to remind me again  that you were sexually attracted to highly intelligence people

I am!

Wrong might wanna reconsider

Oh Hell no, I am sapiosexual. he looked so fuckin pleased with himself

Ya mean yare sexually attracted to highly intelligence women but ya opened the door for homosexuals gayswhaever ya wanna call emmakes your skin crawl  don tell me No  open to queer lovers

                                                                               Thats the difference between a knee slapper and a foot stomper

                     AnI stomped my foot 

No.

Yes

No, that wasn’t it.

Wasnt it

No.

Because you remember

crickets

Ya left it up to me to remember Aint got a leg to stand on man

                                                               Not a fuckin LEG  NADA

he cringed

           thankGawd he didnt smack his lips  had he that would have been about cocks  he wasnt keenNo way in Hell going down on women

2138,  Sunday,  31  10. 21

1552,  Monday,  8  11. 21

Jill Scott  Jill Intro  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xYY9Je-gO0Q 

 

he was high

an enormous man walked by 

his shirt yards of yellow material 

the shopkeeper stepped outside to enjoy some sun fresh air

                                                               How are you, Joe?

Im breezin

Writing again?

Writing  reading

                          Thinking

What are you thinking?

Yawouldnt believe it

Try me, I’ve an open mind.

Mines a gaping wound

                           Awright  awright  one opened mind to another

Do fat men have lovehandles

Paul looked immediately after the man in the yellowshirt who had passed as he stepped outside

                                                                                                     Lovehandles.  Hmm.  It isn’t apparent, is it?

NO not at all

              Hence why I wonderedwhy it occurred to me

Can’t help you with thatwouldn’t want to help you with that.

You and me both 

                   Just a curious thoughtgot caught on a snag in my brain   But then  theres so many lovehandles to be held

he closed his eyes

Paul took a breath

                     I only came out here for some fresh air. Now the things going through my head.

he opened his eyes

                     I hear ya the things running across the back of my eyelids  Whawas I thinking

Lovehandles, Joe, lovehandles.

Bettie Page in blackanwhite

1610,  Saturday,  6  1. 21

1103,  Monday,  8  11. 21

Fireflies  She’s My Witch  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWbm44AYoEk

 

he was a lousy storyteller

Comon man its yoursown it embellish it Give it some coloursome senses paint a picture 

I’m telling you . .

. . Yah Joe Fridayish Just the facts maamjust the facts fuckin reportage When ya tell a story tell it not some bloodless notification

Like what?

Yasaid ya took an elevatorya kissed her in the elevator

                                                          Wha music was playing

I don’t know, I wasn’t listening.

Okay that said what musicits your story whawould you have playing

What do you mean What would I have playing?

Yare in the elevator with a woman you find attractive a couple drinks under your belt suggestive conversation during the drinks your soundtrack wha music would you like to be kissing her to

I don’t know.

Its your story Wha music

I don’t know, I think saying I don’t know ought to be sufficient, ought to suggest I DON’T KNOW.

Jesus Rod Stewart Maggie May From Every Picture Tells a FUCKINfuckin Story Its late September and I really should be back at school  I know I keep you amused but I feel Im being used . .

No. Not Maggie May . .

. . WHA

I don’t know; but not that.

Ohman yare a lost cause deaf dumb blind   Insensate

I’m not insensate, while we were seated, sitting side by side in the booth having drinks I felt frisson in my leg, my groin.

he looked suddenlysuperior

Ya have your cellphone

My cellphone, yes; what’s that got to do with anything.

Ya muted itset it to vibrate That wasnt frisson it was your phone

1546,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

1020,  Monday,  8  11. 21

Rod Stewart  Maggie May  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOl7dh7a-6g

 

 

Gosar fantasises about Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez

                                                 NO not how one might imagine a redblooded boy might fantasise  hes a real piece of work a freakin retard

apologises to authentic mentally deficient individuals  

                                                   he was elected by Arizonas Fourth Congressional District a sizable rural district (pop. 825,763) he looks rurallooks like hed snort gasoline fumes from a tractor or dune buggy gas tank

one would seriously hope his supporters are not thrilled with him  how he speaks and comports himself

                                                                                                               they ought to recall him for being mentally unfit  unless ofcourse they prefer the association with him  

0939,  Monday,  8  11. 21

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/paul-gosar-posts-anime-video-showing-him-killing-alexandria-ocasio-cortez/ar-AAQsknq?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz 

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/gop-eager-to-punish-defectors-on-infrastructure-gosar-death-fantasies-go-unaddressed-125838917716?cid=eml_mra_20211110&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

he watched an enormous man in a brightyellow shirt black shortwhat appeared to be weighted backpack gymshoes walking across the street

                             a really enormous man

he figured he better say something to his cousin who happened through town on her way to LA from Esalen she was there for a welldeserved retreat a treat there for massages and the nude hot tub

                                                                                     she was telling him about this guy who asked if he could share the hot tub  he had the biggest dick shed ever seen

                                                                                      Ya let him in

                                                                                                     In? I wish. No. He would have split me in half, I didn’t want to be nursing my pussy afterwards. I was there to relax not get laid. I did however share the tub.

Gale had an enormous rackthey were kissing cousins as kids occasionally she let him play with her tits sometimes some things a bit more intimate

                                  So the pair of you just eyeballed each other

                                                                                To be sure we eyeballed, but didnt ball.

Gale bought some nice weed while she was in San Francisco

                                                                they got stoned at his place before they walked over to a coffee shop he knew  out of the way  quiet  excellent vantage point to watch the world go round  afterwards they were going to dinner at a Mediterranean place that just opened  friends said they were very pleased with the food

Im stoned he admitted

Me too she said

Say that saidyasee that huge man in the brightyellow shirt across the parkway

she looked OHmy hes the size of a billboard

Yes  Enormous

                 I was thinkin . . 

. . Oh no, thinking one of your usual stoned thoughts that come from places unknown, fresh out of bizarro world?

Not bizarre

Oh, bizarre, go ahead make my point. Something about the yellow billboard?

Yes

You’re not going to belittle him for his weight.

No I wouldnt do that I have no idea whas caused his circumstance

No, you’ve always been good about not judging people; I wish I didnt half as well as you.

Judge not lest ye be judged

Should have had you up in Esalen.

No no  Had you invited me had we done the hot tubyour tits Im not a swinging dick so we may have been tempted  then smitten really made a mess of their hot tub

she laughed Possibly

                          Alright, what are you thinking?

Do you think a lethal military drone could strike him without causing collateral damage saveperhaps bruised by body parts

         Gentleman is rotund Round a ton

And thank you, proved my point. You don’t think that’s bizarre.

No

Okay. Let’s go eat before I lose my appetite. 

                                            standing up  Man, the way you think.

1606,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

1234,  Sunday,  7  11. 21

 

Would you quit

               he imagined himself squeezing him by the throat like a Panic Pete Squeeze toyeyes bugging tongue unfurled eardrums inverted  looked hilarious painful he bought several for his daughters when they were young because he couldnt quit playing with them and eventually exhausting their elasticity

                                                                                         What’s that about? his wife asked he said they were made by the ChineseWhadaya expect planned obsolescence  also somewhat akin to a rubber made to be tossed when exhaustedNot me baby Ive got more rubbers and oodles of lust for you   Get away from me, I’ve got things to do.   Maybe one thing called Joe he wiggled his eyebrows  he usually scooped her up and headed to the bathroom Girls! Mom and Dad are taking a shower  Out in a while

                                                                       if she had things to do he felt he ought to be first on her list

Would you quit

               he disgusted himhis one way of looking at things You recognise how sexist that is

It’s not sexist.

Saying it isnt doesnt make it true

                                  Thats a load of crap Two way street cat Whas good for the goose is good for the gander

What does that mean anyway?

I spared you I could have gone with the 1670s proverb What sauce for the goose is sauce for the gander Wha is acceptable for a man is acceptable for a woman In your particular case if a woman dyes her hair for you because you like itmakes them look youngerArtifice then you ought to dye your hair for her if she prefers  anything that can help you look younger ya definitely oughta pursue man

No. Not at all. I disagree.

I take ya at your word Unfortunate  

                                        Ya might wanna get ahead of thisbe proactive not reactive  Let her know nowup front  you wont dye for her

1600,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

1137,  Sunday,  7  11. 21

Eurythmics  Would I Lie to You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpSE9WF8Tjg

the Infrastructure bill passed the House

kindalike the beginnings again of the Eisenhower Administration building the interstate

13 Republicans voted to pass the bill which will go to the president to sign

6 Democrats voted against it

the 13 are Andrew Garbarino NY; Adam Kinzinger IL; Nicole Malliotakis NY; David McKinley WV; Fred Upton MI; Tom Reed NY; Chris Smith NJ; Don Bacon NE; Jefferson Van Drew NJ; Anthony Gonzalez OH; Don Young AK; Brian Fitzpatrick PA; and John Katko NY

the 6 are Alexandra Ocasio-Cortez NY; Ayanna Pressley MA; Jamaal Bowman NY; Cori Bush MO; Ilhan Omar MN; and Rashida Talib MI 

                                                                                                                          however the article he read also found it necessary to cite the butthurt the turd Republicans who do what theyre told shameless seek notoriety and do not perform the oath they swore

                                                                     a real pip maybe an up-and-comer Mary Miller IL: “ . . . thirteen spineless ‘Republicans’ decided to tag-team with Democrats and helped Pass their five trillion dollar socialist takeover of our country.”

he found it necessary to know the motivations of a politician  he took them at their word: “ I’m a wife, mother of seven, grandmother of seventeen, and Illinois grain and cattle farmer (he didnt think she would accept socialist farm subsidies – would she). My family and faith in God always come first. I’m a conservative and I’m proud to stand with President Trump.”

         also “I’m the (representative) that will take our Midwest values to Washington DC to fight against radical, left-wing Democrats who want to destroy America.”

then ofcourse there was the usual braying inchoate suspects

                                                                Lauren Boebert CO: she called the her thirteen colleagues RINOs (Republicans in name only): “Pelosi did not have the votes in her party to pass this garbage (a real class act). Time to name names and hold these fake republicans accountable (to her credit a fake might recognise a fake).”

“I can’t believe Republicans just gave the Democrats their socialism bill.” Matt Gaetz FA

the Houses real gem who has no committee assignments  they were stripped from her (a real tumbleweed  looks RHPAW ridden-hard-put-away-wet) Marjorie Taylor Greene GA: “ . . . the Republicans who voted with Democrats ‘handed over their voting cards’ to Pelosi to pass Biden’s ‘Communist takeover of America via so-called infrastructure.’ (what would she call it)”

0930,  Sunday,  6  11. 21

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/house-gop-members-who-voted-for-infrastructure-bill-face-backlash-from-republican-colleagues/ar-AAQoVO5?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz 

 

theywho are they

                    they were a triggerTHEY  anoff hed go

who was he  to use theyhe knew who they werethey knew who they were

                                                                                they backed off when he went after them acted butthurt when he wouldnt relentdismembered their arguments 

                                                                         they hadnt reasoned through them had they they would have kept their mouths shut

they enjoyed tragedy other peoples tragedies

                                               he called it pornographicmore pornographic than porn

did they think it was going to end any different for them

they were content  they werent the one who attempted suicide

                                                                  seemed however they had contempt for themfor the attempt  he couldnt help wonder if they held in esteem someone who was committed to suicide  who grappled that in the next moment that they were successful they were inextricably lost 

                                                                           nonexistent    who knew what nonexistent was

they  loved  their  drauma

You understand this isnt going to end wellyou arent going to vanish Be  then Not Be    Never was meant to end well

Are you taunting us?

Im not taunting  inevitability cant be taunted

                                               Life is tragic   a tragedy hopefully interspersedlacedladled with humour

2102,  ReggaeFriday,  29  10. 21

1416,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

 

  Listen, or your tongue will make you deaf.

                                               a Cree proverb

then along comes the louts who cant leave well enough alone Listen, or thy tongue will make thee deaf. 

Really junk it up with thy and theeChristianise it try an claim it

think it through

                proselytising advocating converting coercing lipservice oral  when one sits before a pulpit the celebrant rants he or she hears nothing he knew that irrefutably when he was a young teenager  he took exception to a priests remarks during Sunday Mass

                                 as at school he sat up front because he was easily distractionknew it he was sitting in the second pew directly before the lectern he raised his hand to be recognised

the priest continuedglared at himpeople to either side of him shifted they too glaredhe could feel their electricityvibe they desperately wanted to pull his arm down but didnt dare

                                                            he felt their delicious Who do you think you are?

push comes to shove

                      slowly he began waving his arm the circumstance degrading from sermon to circus to carnival

when the cotton candy of cobwebs was apparentthe church didnt employ bouncers he quit waving he stood quietly excused himself worked his way to the aisle then rather than exit to the rearretreat he crossed in front of the pulpit the yammering Father under crucified Christs hanging head and took a side Fire door

that was the last he was in a church except for weddings and funerals

Cree  Nehiyawak in their tongue

                                      had their shit together

Listen, or your tongue will make you deaf.

                                             he asked a friend what he thought the proverb meant

What is says.

Whadoes it say to you

To listen.

Care to elaborate

                   The word or is a conjunctionconnective junction confluence where two or more events things occur at the same point in time or space  Coexist

Jesus, man, how you read things; nothing's ever simple to you.

Simple Meaning black an white

                                  Yareally don think things are black an white                                     

Not black and white, but simpler than you make things out to be.

Listen  Or

Listen listen, I’ve already agreed with you.

                                             he put a puss onthe puss he wore when he dug his heels in 

he was deaf

             didnt have to use his tongue

  

0941,  Sunday,  31  10. 21

1211,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

 

ex cathedra   ex Latin  without  ‘out of’

                                           technically he was ex catheter  justsayin  have to play

ex cathedra meansNO easyduzit not from a cathedral he went there too which seemed obvious even if he didnt know Latin but it isnt rather its  from the chair ‘out of’  according to Roman Catholic doctrine when a Pope speaks ex cathedra on issues of faith morals he is infallible HMM  he felt likewise honestly he felt his authority  streetwise exceeded a Popes a cloisteredhierarchical man he used man loosely he wasnt sure a man who had not played in a womans pants was was a man certainly not a practising man he wouldnt let Gawd get between him and hers

                                                                                                                    irksome

to play follow the leader

                          he got to know his grade school principal well he wouldnt join in the reindeer gameshis allusion to Rudolph who was upset because he wasnt allowed to play with the others THEN PLAY BY YOURSELF   Sir the same kids always lead If I didnt follow them before why would I now   Joe, you play nicely to get along others.   No thank you sir

               he was polite the telephone call was made his mother informed Mr. Sweat, if he doesn’t want to play with the others I don’t think it would be wise to insist he does, or try and force him. He can certainly play by himself in view of the playground teachers. Maybe some of the children will join him.

other children did

they took turns leading

they had fun

words and things he didnt know always took him places

     

1634,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

1054,  Saturday,  6  11. 21

 

they cut down the weightlifter

he hadnt been to the south end of town in a month  had hoped the parcel service would get its shit together and reestablish its ability to accept utility payments

                                                   they had not   hed have to stamp and mail it

doubling back up the towns main thoroughfare he went righttook a dirt hill ignored the new white concrete steps that were poured three months prior

                                  the dirtway took him up to a bank parking lotthe market around the corner

twothree steps up the loose dirt he pulled up short 

the weightlifter was gone

                          a mature tree he had affection forhad walked past for better than twenty years they gouged its stump out so he couldnt count it rings

weightlifter had dislodged the last concrete walksnapped its back biology bettering manmade the parking lot and stepsSCABS should have been laid giving the tree a wide berth one would be stupid not to know that at some point the tree would throw off its shackles its confinement

                                                     this was nothing short of a lynching how dare it defy the landlords

1344,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

1603,  ReggaeFriday,  5  11. 21

 

Buddhists we aint

                     like wed ever consider an insect a sentient being

most the time half of us don think the other half is sentient  worthwhile   one half thinks the colour of their skin makes them superior  and of that half men believe they are superior to women

Twentyfirst Century

                     half of us still got their heads tucked safely out of harms way up their ass  he fullywished theyd sit down and break their necks

Whas going on man

                     one of his many within asked

Aint nothing knew Was remembering the atomic nuclear testing done in the Pacific Nevada above ground underground

Can you imagine the animal fish insect plant reef decimationannihilation we incurred                                                                                                                                MAN Almighty

Godzilla did ithuh

Godzilla did ityah

You never feel like he or other monsters kill enough people or destroy enough cities

I do not

Ever gotta ask see yourself in the mixthe humans fleeing ahead of the monster only to be stomped to death

Never flee aheadgo left or right  No

                                     I wouldnt run     HAH Id count coup  It is also a matter of proportionalitywe believe in disproportionate responses Therefore why should we expect anything less or empathy   Slaughter the two-legged everencroaching virus

But yaknow that

I do I do

         It was my turn to exercise youtap your kneescheck your reflexes  Determine if the same old is the same old

It is

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Puff Daddy  Come with Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aC4BC-Hxq9g