Tarzan didnt say as much

                          but he was certainly leading him to it  

he knew Tarzan was too kindtoo reserved to say as much to hurt – nobody could hurt his feelings  he didnt have any – to hurt his feelings

                   which unfortunately was a deficit in Tarzans makeup he couldnt bring himself to offend anyone – ifya cant say something nice say nothing at all   which was horseshit – people need to be dressed downneed to be heldup to scrutiny heldup to derision heldup to scepticism

                                                     otherwise they skate away quickly feel free to neglect questions or challenges or opposition  and then too far away from the point they interjected they aint doublingback to offer any explanation or defence

which is why people called him rude   rude to deflect his interruption and try to rally polite listeners to their defence

that ploy didnt work either

and thats when in fact he became rude

he could be as rude as the smell of freshcrushed dogshit on someones sole

so . . Tarzan didnt say

                       an hed have to say it for him holdup Tarzans gun to his head

I think what it is you want to sayare trying to say is that either Im perverted or what comes out of my mouth you find to be perverted at least in regards to your sensibilitiesyour . gentle . sensibilities kind sensibilities of which I have no patience for

Am I accurate

he looked like a worm twisting on a hook impaled  fearful to be feed to largemouthed toothed denizens of the deep

still no reply

hed let him off the hook

                       he looked pale looked uncomfortable despite his joy in making comfortable people uncomfortable

Tarzan if pressed Id concede that I write – as I speak – pervert prose and poetry

Yaought to give it a try sometime

                                   It is liberating

Anif anyones worth liberating you are

I couldn’t. It’d be rude.

Sometimes nicety ought to be fucked in its nice clean white teeth

2137,  Friday,  7  8. 20

1354,  Monday,  10  8. 20

Wolffe  Fuck with Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i8y5kD3qUoA  

$163K -- killed

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1711,  Monday,  10  8. 20

when Tarzan thats what he calls him said it the first time it went off in his ears like a Fourth of July rocket firecracker  

he didnt say anything thenhe could imagine he wasnt hearing right they were pretty fucked up maybe they didnt need that third bowl but the shit taste great like smoking flowerslike creamybutter melting in their mouths seeping down their throats filling their lungs and exhaleddrifting like lazy smoke from a censer

                                                                              anhe was a bit distracted by the two chicas who sat across the street in the park on a blanket in skirts facing him with their knees drawnup 

it was a warm day and a slight breeze tickled the hems of their colourful skirts

maybe they were giving him a show

or maybe they werent

hed take them either way

white cotton pants the backs of ambercoloured thighs shins

                                                                reminded him of being a gradeschooler pleasant memories

AGAIN

       jarring  he heard him clearly  clearly the first time   it snatched him out of his prepubescent flashback

Comon Tarzan  Check it

Check it? he was obviously perplexed 

                                         he could see it in his face  Tarzan was telling a story and he really didnt want to interrupt him but . yareally gotta tell it right . . inaccuracies distrack  inaccuracies mar the Imagination thats kicked backshoes offwigglin its toes goin with a remembered flow a humourous tale

Tarzan wasnt a storyteller

for him  it was as easy as letting the air out of a blownup coloured toy balloon

maybe for others it wasnt that easy

he had to allow that

Im sorry

Fuck, man . . don't, I’ll lose my train of thought.

Fuck  A runaway train

I don’t know what you’re talkin about.

he wasnt going to waste his time he wanted to enjoy his high

I said I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Check it Stow it  Fuckin stop it  Youre veering me off the tracks train of thought runaway train Full set of hair

Whas a full set of hair

A full set of hair. It’s a full set of hair.

Saying three then fourfive times aint saying what it isI know what it is or what youre trying to say . . but its disrupting the story youre trying to tell me

I don’t know what to tell you, man.

                                     It’s a full set of hair.

Okay You mean . a full head of hair a full head of hair because a full set of hairIm seeing simian tits and cleavage tits covered with coarse Neanderthal hair .a full set of hair A full head of hair

Ohyeah.  Yeah. That’s what I meant.

I figured Cant tell you how disrupting your imagery was

                                                            Maybe you can start again

I don’t remember what I was talking about.

Fuckin guy 

it wasnt just because he was stoned  taken off point he often misplaced his point

Maybe itll come back

                       Yadont want me to say cuz youll kick yourself

No. Please say.

River float college-aged girls in thong swimsuits  but you cant hardly take your eyes of their full luxurious manes  the sunlight playing in them

Ohyeah.

Thong swimsuits They could have been bald for all the fuck I would have cared

the white cotton pants were still peeking at him

3-ishafternoon,  Friday,  7  8. 20

1143,  Sunday,  9  8. 20

Daisy Gray  Wicked Games  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4VU-AwxzSY    

        Sum sum   sumsum  mus – ic  he was stonedhavin a hard time gettin the words out

                              https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4t8M-Kvhfs                      

Anthen Im off to bed Anthem  off to be . .

Whashe talkinbout?

Dontink itsard to figur

Whaya talkinbout?

Christ

Christwha?

awJesus Christ  Lisen to harwords not hard to figur

I cabarely understand yerwords.

Shoudhav taken a tab  ya pussy

0108,  Saturday,  8  8. 20

1030,  Sunday,  9  8. 20

JT Coldfire  She’s Crazy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UiHmeHZAc0s

a couple of teenage female nitwits ambled up onto the coffee shop porch shaded by an immense onehunred year old live oak to flaunt or tout or whanaught their nubile bodiesthrow caution to the wind trying to play with or tempt a couple of older men

hed seen them coming

they saw he saw

what attracted his lookfollowed his glance were their left eyes
                                                                  they had orbs of startlingsparkling makeup over them different colours their individualism he supposed 

they werent original 
                      hed seen like-circles on black ‘n white Pete the PupPetey from Spanky and Our Gang then more recently sported by a pop singer named Halsey
                                                  an artist starves if they cant separate themselves from the chaff
 Age  Old  Crap                      

maybe they thought he couldnt possibly know who Halsey was maybe they thought he wasnt woke 

he never went to sleep


poor dumb cunts

                   age didnt cut it not by his measure wha a cunt was
                                                                           some things dont change they thought they were givin him a rise playin with their long t-shirt pullin down on their necks pullin em up to pull up their tight shorts
exaggerated silent film shit

                             if he was fifteen hed have taken them down to the creek bed an fucked em raw the vibration off their skateboards as they rolled home would have driven them crazy theyd have to dismount not to lose their minds and walk deliberately taking long languid strides to not irritate not chaff their pussies any more

                                                                                                                   long long akimbo steps so their lips wouldnt rub and turn em inside out

as a teenager a friend a fuckbuddy Susie called him a slut

she hurt his feelings

Youre a slut Susie  Only girls are sluts

Because we put out, because we like to fuck? Sumptin wrong with that?  Fuck you, Joe, you’re every bit a slut as I am.


she was right
                she was the bellwether that put his hat on straight

he didnt say so but he thought it Keep rollin grrls Ya aint got shit on me only think you do only think youre the first ever  Might wannar read Hemingway

1521,  Friday,  7  8. 20
1826,  Saturday,  8  8. 20

Pete the Pup  Petey  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V6vwl1amjPk
Halsey  You Should Be Sad  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V6vwl1amjPk

he walked up a long hill beside a line of whiny electric cars containing an adulthe assumed the parent and usually one child

      that child their issue into the future  their indelible stamp of having existed  for if not for them then no child

the line of cars moved slower than he walked 

they were making a right into the elementary school where a crossing guard was managing traffic in both directions and children crossing the parking lot apron

he made a habit of picking out one car several carsforty metres ahead

                                                                          he catches it passes it and sometimes watches it turning into the lot after hes dropped off his grandkids and is walking home

his displeasure with the lined up cars was nicely alleviated by an old bastard in a rusty V-8 GROWLING up on their rearsthreatening to be a bug up their ass its GRRRowl emasculating the electric carsexascerbating their detached thoughapparent agony  a proud stud striding among tepid geldings

his daughter knowingly once teased him Yaknow, Dadu, the next car you buy you probably won’t have to drive; it’ll drive itself.

he smiled  amused

                     then asked her  Wha next car

0748,  Twosday,  11  2. 20

1449,  Saturday,  8  8. 20

Hello

Yawa.

Yawa is away Can I take a message

I wanna talk with Yawa.

Yawas away

Who is this?

You dont get to ask Can I take a message

Yawa is away

                                         Hello

Hello?

Yes

I wanna talk with Yawa.

You said

Yawas away Can I take a message

Could you tell Yawa . . I miss her?

I could  Who should I sa . . 

. . Whoelse would it be?

I wouldnt know I can take a message  Im not a confidante If ya want me . to take a message . . name an message

Name?

Simple aint it

Maybe Ill call back.

Call back your choice

Who is this?

None of your busi . .

. . Lemme talk with Yawa.

Shes away

                                   Hello

Hello

Buhbye

2146,  Reggae Friday,  7  8. 20

0042,  Saturday,  8  8. 20

SAYGRACE  You Don’t Own Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8SeRU_ZPDkE  

To whom this may concern

                             or rather Into whomevers hands this may fall

as he did

              falling out of nowhere

he was Joe Stanley

born in Chicago Illinois

when he was young he only wanted to be happy

Not very ambitious, are you?

Happiness is utterly ambitious

                                  and aside from the necessity of Deaththe death of family and friends his heartaches were few

          until recently his health had been very good

however entropy prevails

                           but entropy wasnt going to diminish his happiness

physically hed decline

psychically physics couldnt touch or impair or inhibit him

first law of thermodynamics the Law of Conservation  energy cannot be created or destroyed

he was curious what hed become

0954,  Monday,  10  2. 20

1316,  Reggae Friday,  7  8. 20

wellshit  it was 2233 hourswha were the chances it was   wait    wait 22:33:44

                                                                                      whyknot

whyknot was his
                     his mantra

he was confident

women told him they found confidence attractive

mebbe they blew smoke up his ass

on the other hand hed known guys who did not like confidence in a woman

perhapsthough disliking those women who had what they didnt

  whyknot

             things didnt need to become more than a casual flirt if a woman didnt want to know himNoed him she wasnt going to break his hearthe wasnt troubled 

he didnt take it personal

he lost more than he won

if one won more than they lost

hed suspect they were cheating  or lying

some people cheated as a matter of fact

hed be an idiot if he didnt know that

he recognised it

then he culled them from his orbithe wouldnt tolerate cheating  lying

he had no time for cheats and liars

they werent clever

they were transparent

often and he was surprised while they were apparent to him they werent to others

perhapshe supposed blinded by the light

                                           the hot white light overcoming the whiff of horseshit

obviously they didnt smell it

he smelled like himself he didnt wear scents

he didnt like perfumes or colognes

what were they trying to hide

he liked freshscrubbed soap and water tea-tree shampoo modest tea tree oil peppermint and lavender  brushed teeth

seemed anything more was hiding something

                               

cheating and lying began there

Sunday,  9  2. 20

1234,  Reggae Friday,  7  8. 20

never ever  everever   come up on a woman from behind after doing a fat line of THC at a party whose guests are unfamiliar

                he couldnt resist her

it was at a palatial home on the Intercoastal

he knew somebody who knew somebody whoknewsomebody
                                                                 though he couldnt remember now who left his name at the door

had he been in the neighbourhood unlikely an seen the goings-on they couldnt have kept him out Land of the Free Home of the Brave
                     he took that shit to heart  and when it came to Private Property he was an Indian  nobody owns the Land despite what some twist with a piece of paper in their hand says
                                                                                ID? I live here! I see the name on the piece of paper man but I dont know who you are  ID

frustrated the cat leaves the notarised warranty deed on the coffee table and he tosses it into the yawning fireplace
maybe the cat can get a copy in the morning  was it really worth all that to try and keep him out

                                                                                                      Fuck man he was cooler than the cat no matter how much money the cat fucked people out of   bottom-line  bottom-feeder

besides  he was emboldened
                                Big Steve was coming with him  a manmoutain whose red afro took him to seven feet blueblood lineage South Carolinian familys word was they fought alongside Francis Marion  Swamp Fox
hed dare anyone to call Big Steve a liar

Big Steve had the THC he often treated him to exotic drugs  opiates peyote Thia sticks hashish 

when he called Big Steve feelin him out if he had time or not Yah, got time. Yawanme to bring some things? Bring em all man bring em all Well tear down walls

it was in a wealthy Coral Gables enclave yachts bobbing in the waterway behind the houses boat houses bigger than his apartment and slips or parallel to docks tied off bows and sterns  and when heading to sea slow  slowly showy canal processions


he staggered outside

they tasted a line of THC inside

                                  some cats were throwing darts in the game room had two bowling lanes and pool tables in it the clutch of cats innarested in THC followed him in

he asked the dart-throwers if he could briefly interrupt their game One heartbeat guys

he turned to the clutch with three darts in hand 
                                                  Big Steve sells on the next bulls-eye You gentleman might wanna turn aroundcash in hand Fact of the matter  I aint got a fuck clue why I have three darts

one laid a C-note on a twelvefoot shuffleboard table  I bet you don’t.

Big Steve covered him
                        the bill looked insignificant tiny in his ham-fist

Big Steve  
           he had his back to the board
Yah?

Youre stashs goin byebye gentleman was kind enough to buy me a hunred worth

C-note laughed

he turned around looked  the bulls-eye was as big as a wall he felt he could close his eyes and hit it

no pussy wrist toss he hurled a fastball that socked the boardbounced it Bulls-eye! Big Steve howled his hair growing taller  the two years they hung together in Miami Big Steve touted that night as The Night he said hed never turned a bigger score
             the slapsting of the dart was accompanied by The 5th Dimensions on the whole house audio system  Aquarius  When the moon is in the Seventh House and Jupiter aligns with Mars  
                                                                                    fucking right
thats what lifes about
                        opportunities

unfortunately its inverse has recriminations the wrong placewrong times often tough results  so one swings with their rare little victories and is grateful not greedy then maybe reversals arent dire

he staggered outside

never ever  everever   come up on a woman from behind whos on all fours
                                                                                 despite her nakedness in a frothy hot tub  its bubbly whippedsurface at her belly and breasts and hips

he should have gone around in front of her to see who she was rather than be enticed by the spread and sway of her hips  her pale pursed anus peeking blindly at him

instead he slipped out of his clothes to join her  caressed the inside of her thighs kissed the stem of her spinethe small of her back enticed by her coos her sighs her willingness  he kissedworked his way to her fanny his warmth the firm of his cock at the outside of her thigh  her turning to it leaning on it her legs widening  accepting his finger  accepting his nearfrantic tongue  taking his rhythmic thrusts
                                                         his cousin Rachel

Whadaya doin here

Evidently having sex with you.

1358,  Friday,  7  2. 20
1706,  75 th anniversary of Hiroshina -- Thursday,   6  8. 20

The 5th Dimension  Aquarius  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILSr9BbhoJQ