12.6.20


@realDonaldTrump
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hmm apparently somethings gone off the rails  if a former employee of Liberty University its former athletics director  Bob Good – not even Robert -- a born-again evangelical Christian – how many times can you be born-again – he didnt knowhe was askingreligion could take it in the ass for all he cared  challenges a man whose considered fault is that he respects and honors his fellow man
                                   its gone off the rails if humanity people  arent served and provided for unless they kowtow to Christ 
1511,  Friday,  12  6. 20
David Bowie  Space Oddity  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5PgdZDXg0z0


the crunch of grey dead snowrotting snow underfoot

he disliked walking on its corpse

too cold to melt

once intact now its dragged pushed piled an unrecognisable mix of grey and clots of dirt sod sand and lumped gravel although he did enjoy its resurrection heated by the sun the snow melts runs off then freezes again at night people slip on its ice drop hurt themselves cars spin out crash  it seemed he was the only person who knew that melted dead snow refroze into ice

he knew irrefutablyhad evidence his fellow man was an idiot

that was when he was a boy  

education has worsened

more idiots

it was cold comfort knowing that he couldnt trust anyone other than himself
he didnt even bother to test the water

fool me once that old adage stopped dead right there


at least the rotting snow eventually melted and was absorbed or evaporated it would be refreshed next winter
it goes he hated this bit without saying  men would not




as a boy when snowstorms came in he went out
                                                   he imagined himself walking among log cabins smoking stone chimneys split rail fences large dullshining-from-within white canvas tents  and under the winds brisk breath he heard creeks seizing up with ice caked with snow and the lake they fed its edges moving center freezing snow dusting them snow dying without protest in the black quiet undulating water  

0550,  Twosday,  25  12. 18
0911,  Thursday,  11  6. 20



Ohbrutha it was second time in a couple of days hed authored an Ohbrutha piece

Arkansas senator Tom Cotton who turned his stomach when he first appeared in Washington politickles a lapdogthe epitome of a lapdog  a cocklapping dog ranted on the Senate floor about the Obelisk of Wokeness his renaming of the Washington Monument
                      he whined about the presidents daughter Ivanka her speech cancelled at Wichita State he echoed her shrill accusation Cancel Culture which Cotton fit his mouth around who knew Ivanka had a dick when in fact her speech was made a MENU item not required
Cancel Culture
              evidently the president and Ivankas dicks fit in Cottons mouth which is really nothing any more than a modest sitting-Republican trick
                               had to take his hat off to them he preferred punany and tits

OHBRUTHA! theyre craven political animals which he didnt think were possible in America amoral animals who didnt care about truth or honesty or political lens beyond their own myopic selfinterest selfserving

Cotton was shit had been shit is shit
                                      he wouldnt have expected anything less

1417,  Friday,  12  6. 20 


Major Travis Yates  Tulsa Oklahoma  PIG
                                           remember when cops were called PIGS! hes earned it

apparently he argues according to statistics MORE African-Americans ought to be shot

its hardreally hard to elaborate on that quote
                                              and harder yet to imagine an American president going to Tulsa to deliver a political address on Juneteenth the anniversary of the end of slavery  the anniversary of 19 June 1921 when 300 people died in Tulsa during a race riot most who were Black
     1245,  Friday,  12  6. 20

11.6.20

$115K -- Killed



anallyappeased by the president he smiles perhaps grateful for the fit  Kentuckys cancer just cant do whats right

1647, Thursday,  11  6. 20


a honeyblonde streaked tangerine cool sherbet waft through his vision at least three times he definitely took his eye off the ball to glimpse her and was maddened that he couldnt get an angle on hersee her better
                                                                                                 asif she knew he wasknew exactly when to turn her headher back squat raise her hands to her face like blinders 
                                                                                           her laughter was like music he could listen to allday everyday

fuckin tease 
              or maybe itd happened before  he was in the wrong place at the wrong timeback to back to back to back
it wasnt impossible  
                     itd happened a handful of times before

it bugged him he was gonna have to use two hands


he caught her briefly in profileshe turned her head away what were the odds   Yahoo 50/50

he saw her from behindhe dropped a heavy book on the floor everyone else jumped and turned she didnt what were the odds she was deaf he dated two deaf girls

she was coming up stairshe recognised her hairhe was walking down the flight above her  at least nah she veered when she reached the floor she disappeared into one office or another solid hardwood doors
he even tried to pickup her scent in the air
hed have made a lousy bloodhound

he was stymied

shut down

shut out



sometimes hed be better off just staying in bed


early morning,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  17  10. 18
1304,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20





he was dreaming a lot
                           making up for lost  uh    dreams
lost Time

he equated dreams and Time
                               when he woke in the morning and beat ass to his daughters bedside if she was awake immediately after their Good morningstheir I love yous shed ask Did you dream, Dad? No baby no dreams Oh, I’m sorry. No  Please dont be sorry Its not on you  In time baby in time



when his moviereel finally spins dry of dreams and he wakes
                                                                  he wakes to discomfort 

seems all his birds were coming home to roosteverything he had broken or cut or split or smashedeverything every lil bit was coming home to roost

if he were a telephone line strung between two posts his wire would stretch down and belly in the dirt which would make his birds very unhappy
                                who would obviously increased his discomfort
a day at a time

he was a jokester

it made perfect sense that his body would fuck with him

1244,  Sunday,  7  6. 20
1224,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20
Allman Brothers  Whipping Post  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZSNs6H-HDI


whenya take yer eye off the ball it gets away from ya
                                                          as the Stock Market prudently sincerely insists

this is the Federal government Republicans under Drumpfs husbandry  hes too busy demonising BLM liberal POC female reporters rioters cant quit squawking his phony intifa  not demonising police violence – aint allowing euphemisms – not demonizing white racists not declaring systematic racism  disrespecting the novel coronavirus  NO SECOND WAVE  its coming its comingitscoming as sure as he cant take hardball questions

opened too soon
                  then looked away
either eye on the prize or not                                                                                                               
dont get it without work

1336,  Thursday,  11  6. 20
The Chamber Brothers  Time Has Come Today  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIqwzQ7g-Cc
https://www.thenation.com/article/society/tom-cotton-new-york-times/


Jenna Ellis selfdescribed evangelical conservative Trump attorney quaffed the Kool-Aid assailed coloured and female White House reporters for asking “stupid questions” of the president which evidently hurt his feelings and made him run away from the podium later he hid behind her skirt  

she also mocked Dr.Fauci saying shed trust local weather forecasts more than the nations leading (one of the worlds leading) infectious disease expert
                                   she does have God to heal her there is that

Ellis refuses to comment on what counsel she provides the crybaby rather she says her conversations with him are confidential
              the Republican varietal I can’t breathe  which when they say it sounds like I can’t speak negatively about the president.

10.6.20


he wasnt often awakened from his sleep by dreaming  

usually the culprit is having to take a leakshouldnt have drank all that tea before bed

he wasnt usually awakened by dreams because he could manipulate hisif he wanted  rather than act in themwitness them and also react between being the witness and the actor conferees

hed been doing it for so long he took it for granted

sex dreams were a kickhe could be on the bottom he could be the aggressor and take it anywhere he wanted or he could be taken anywhere she wanted  or they wanted hed had orgy dreams where more than half the partners were him male and female
                       he woke from those exhausted and usually napped the following afternoon
but he didnt wake up during sex dreams 
                                           no coitus interruptus and no onehimself included ever got knocked up
often the bummer of sex Youre wha Awman  not Amen


his daughter had been waking him up as she did when she was a little girl Daddy. I have to go potty. You can go pottyhoney Youre a big girl  Yes. But would you take me, please?

he got up out of bed and took her every time she ever asked him

standing in the bathroomunder the coloured nightlife he watched her pee her little heart out or they talked and talked  antalked

Baby I thought you had to go potty

I do. I do.  I will.

Some time  tonight

You’re funny, Daddy. Yes. Tonight.

no matter how quickly or how long it took he was going to be there
                                                                       because
a time would come when she wouldnt wake himwhen she go to potty by herself when she was a big girl and hed miss her waking him

You’re the best Dad.



she died

he wakes from his dreams when either his dreamed-self or his dreaming-self remembers she did remembers the gift of being with her the last three months she was alive caring for her

she believed she could beat her illness

he stuffed his reality and convinced himself that she could too

he would be reeling that she died

they didnt believe she would


curiously he woke last nightthis morningthe sun wasnt up yet his bedroom windows face east he didnt hang blinds or curtains to hide it

what woke him was his dreamed-self berating someone who had given him a tablet to read  he was very direct he was evidently upset with the writer  the writer handed him the tablet 

Are you hiding from somethingfrom someone he demanded My Gawd the script Its so smallits timid The ink is faintits blue  Why as he read  WHY are you uncommittedwhy are you vacillating  Commit   JUST COMMIT 

the writer his dreaming-self recognised was backing away from his dreamed-self as his dreamed-self read and spoke  

he threw the tablet at the retreating writer

he was wakinghe was hypnagogic he heard the pages flutter as he threw the paper tablet My Gawdman he was incensed his dreaming-self stood as a mute witness That was exactly a pomegranate filled with shriveled arid fruit  seeds like stale raisins Colourless


he was awake

his dreamed-self wasnt harsh

harsh is hard for him to determine because he is severe

0702 & 1044,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20
Doris Day  Dream a Little Dream of Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7j8wa9sWOE


Woodcreek Texas mayor Gloria Whitehead called Black Lives Matter “a threat to our life.” an insisted “I’m not a racist.”


five times Ms Whitehead insisted she was not a racist      
                                                        Hell  Peter only thrice denied Jesus

1734,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20


Ohbrutha yet another I can’t breathe. white moment which is enunciatedpronounced I can’t speak negatively about the president.

Larry Kudlow might be a ventriloquist or rather hes keenly able to speak so clearly “There is no systematic racism . .” with the presidents dick stuck in his mouth https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/a-top-trump-adviser-says-the-us-suffers-no-systemic-racism/ar-BB15j2DA?li=BBnb7Kz&ocid=mailsignout

hes almost as good at it as Pence
1641,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20


he saw the white-nationalist hand signal JesusChristguys and girls  whacha thinkin

either hand is optional he supposed not unlike coloured handkerchiefs carried in the back pockets of ones jeans

the hand signal is thumbindex finger form a circle above it the remaining fingers are extended  looked to him  like er  well Heres my asshole I can take three  https://www.dailykos.com/stories/2020/6/9/1951844/--Antifa-buses-Panicked-armed-men-hit-small-town-streets-across-America-to-fend-off-imagined-hordes?detail=emaildkre
1540,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20


Hey hey   Hey

Yeah.

Happy to grab your attention

You got it. What’s up?


I knowI discovered what a white personmind you an entitled white person says instead of I Can’t Breathe.


Do I really want to hear?

Ohyah yawanna hear.

Okay.

No  You have to play the game

What’s the game?

You have to repeat my statement as a question

Really?

Yesreally  Itll be funnier that way

Funnier?

Yes

What I understand then is, it’ll be funnier to you.

You can laugh

I think I’ll groan.

Comon try it on for size

Oka . . 
. . Youllplay

Okay. Yes, yes. . I’ll play.

Goody-goody

Relax. You start jumping up and down an all about, I’m walking away.

Sorry  Im exciteda little excited

Okay. Here goes.  What does a white person, an entitled white person, say instead of I Can’t Breathe.

They say “I can’t speak negatively about the president.”GET IT  an he howledfuckin howled at his own joke

as he said he would he groaned
1500,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20



too many shoulder surgery one artificial shoulder

when the weather got coldwhen it got moist the cold and wet got inside him and played havoc with his joints fuckin uncomfortable

You’re taking a shower without me, baby?

Sorry babe Middle of the daydidnt think you might want to Im running hot water on my shoulders takin advantage of that pulsating showerhead you bought us

Your shoulders are bothering you?

Yah fuckinuncomfortable

Uncomfortable?

Yah

But not painful?

No

You ever notice you’re never in pain? You’re just uncomfortable.

I am uncomfortable

But you’re not in pain?

Pain doesnt live in my body

You’re crazy, Joe.

No Just uncomfortable But if youd like to join me  me an my shoulders would love to have you

Just you and your shoulders?

Im sure I can get everyone else on board too

he stood at the bathrooms threshold in the hall naked  Appears I have a significant Yea vote babe

she stepped out of the kitchen into the hall and laughed That is a significant vote. she reached down and grabbed his cock Howbout a raincheck? Tonight we can take a bath, candles, scented bathsalts, music . . and.

no woman he ever made love with had ands like hers

Sold

she laughedshe didnt cover her mouth I was working on dinner anyways. You enjoy your shower, love. she leaned in and gave him a soft kiss More where that came from. she whispered and winked and backed back into the kitchen

he and his significant vote watched her back away

Youre killing us

I’ll kill youse tonight!


he ran the water and showered in a lukewarm quiet spray washed his hair rinsed  it sounded like someone said something BABY You say something  NO.

he put conditioner in his hair soaped up rinsed then rinsed his hair sounded like someone said something to him BABE Talkin to me  NO.  NO  NO.  YOU feelin the roommates  NO.  he thought Huh not the roommates they were mischievous he wouldnt put it past them to try and talk while his head was underwater  Hey gang sumptin to say say it when I can hear you undisturbed without water in my ears

                                                                    No  Nothing   Not the roommatesnot their three ghosts

he cranked up the heat and turned the showerhead to massage

left shoulder  Yah   

right shoulder  Yah

back of his neckback of his head somethingsomebody was talking he heard itheard it like he could hear the sea in a seashell something was talking to him he was having trouble picking it uppicking uppicking out words a voice he listened he couldnt understandcouldnt pick up on the voice either  although it was distinctly female


shoulders again  no voice

back of his neck  no voice

back of his head Joe.

he heard it  Joe  

Yes

Joe.

Right here Im right here

I  am  too.

Who please  Who are you

Im  here.


Who Please

Im  here.

he stepped forward out of the showerspray on his head  Who please 


Please


he backed into the water and asked Youre here


Here.

0956,  Sunday,  13  1. 19
1613,  Twosday,  9  6. 20