26.11.19



he woke in the morning to the smellthe taste of potato leek soup   then he smelled something else in it too  oysters which made sense he had just returned from Willapa Bay Washington with a case of fresh oysters Baby! Dinner was going to be a feast
                    oopening his eyeshe felt their weight their wandering helter skelter across the bed and his blanketed body  his five ferals  nineyear old indie twoyear old october and her three kittens shy leftie and bomber born mid-March

october was only in bed to encourage him to get out of bed and feed her breakfast and it wasnt until she came in that he would finally get up
                     he relished being a slow riserwaking when he woke without alarms -- his alarming awakenings were behind him – but she could be ornery if she wasnt fed on her timeclock her dicktate as a queen would should be

all eyes were on him

he eyeballed them back

smiled
                      then he smacked his lipswhich put a spark in their spines FUD  theyd spent enough time with himdespite not knowing English that his lip-smacking informed them of food
                                                                        yet another pleasure he relished as he relished good meals spirits a cigar a hot shower a wonderful piece of ass he liked to think the timethe years he spent in the gym made him a nice piece of ass too the cats leapt off the bed anticipating their breakfast and rushed up the hall to the kitchen where hed feed october and the kittens he fed indie separately in the bathroom young cats dont respect age  theyd knock indie off his pins if he got between them and his food

he made his bed

slipped sweatpants and shirt over his nakedness

relieved his bladder

then fixing plates of wetfood in the kitchen he herded the four kitkats in a line  as they ate he placed dryfood in shallow bowls with an old tin cup and then stoled into the bathroom where indie was fixed waiting on his breakfast
he closed the door behind him as he left

returning to the kitchen over the munching bodies he prepared two more wetplates refilled the tin cup with kibble and then headed out through the front door through the screen door to feed his outdoor ferals four   bigfoot hed been feeding him seven years since he first showed wee five years since she arrived Robert one year he was no Robert Redford he kept telling october but she beat it out of the house one night as he was coming in and Robert knocked her up bomber definitely informed who his daddy was Robert and bomber bright orange tabbies except that Roberts tail had been cut off threefourinches off his rump his right ear mangled Robert was suspicious of human beings to his core
last but not least two months ago  ashe

he set the wetplates down on the porch railing so he could feed ashe kibble he left a shallow bowl to the left of the two steps down off the porch for her if he didnt feed her first shed go through anybodyanything to get chow she was young and hungry 

with ashe occupied he fed Robert to the right of the steps in another shallow bowl 

then back on the porch he took the wetplates from the railing and fed bigfoot and wee he separated them with an old fruit bushel as they ate the wetfood he placed kibble in bowls of their own beside them 

done

his pets fed first

now he could tend to himself


once inside the house he turned to admire ashe and Robert
                                                               like great public buildings in great cities across the world before the entrances of great libraries he too had lions at either side of his vestibule just like those before The Art Institute of Chicago

they had nothing on him

   and
                  later that day he was making and having potato leek oyster soup

all was as right as could be expected 
                                       one could say that the world was his oyster      
  

0947,  Monday,  25  11. 19
1003,  Twosday,  26  11. 19

25.11.19




                                                         in college he wrote a film script for Pink Floyds Echoes 

he recorded on it on cassette timed out the musicparceling it down to the second which coincided with scenes he wrote he left it up to his professor to listen to and readappreciate his timing juggle those balls all at once and digest his impressionshis reality of Echoes for the class final

his professor later admitted to him that he hadnt intended to put in the timethe work he endeavored himtasked him but he said his wife swung in like Tarzan a SUPER HERO before there were Super Heroes and asked him why he wasnt why he wouldnt evaluate the work he made demands of his students now a student was flipping those demands on him  

Your student is taking you at your word. You set the bar. If your students are trying to meet your expectations, how can you possibly ignore them because they’re taking you to task? This studentyour student is obviously inspired. You need to encourage him, and correct his faults or failings, when they occur.

You can never tell what you’re going to find.
                                                so his professor encouraged by his wife put in the time
Damn near drove me crazy, man. However, it is a remarkable script; it’s one of the best I’ve read by an undergraduate. he did not return the script


maybe the professor wouldnt have been so animatedcommiserate if he knew he had gone down on his wifecurled her toes in a parked car outside a faculty - student meet and greet which the college film study culture encouraged 


Whatsyourname? she purred  gripping handfuls of hair at the back of his head as he lapped and sucked her pussy
he thought she was the professors daughter  she dug it Often he’s so full of himself he forgets what I bring to the table. 

she was the first woman who ever came in his face

he didnt know that women could squirt like that 
                                                   he was joyous                                                 
she let him ride up her bodyslip his cock inside her quaking pussy and kissed him deeplydespite her cum 
                                                                                                               which turned him on 

he kissed every woman as deeply  who had taken him in their mouths


1525,  Sunday,  24  11. 19
1118,  Monday,  25  11. 19
The Sound  Wildest Dream  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNJ6uiNsrsA



a young man in a green beanie walked through the huushed automatic sliding glass doors and asked You take ApplePay?

The store does he answered

ApplePay yet another item hed forego  or more succinctly Fuck Apple

Apples founder Jobs crazy namecreated a few  a genius fired up on psychedelics  he dug that but at the confluence they never met  they departed company he couldnt give a gawddamn for the mans talents or the company he built

they strode different playing fields


nothing Apple touched him
                             an thats the way it was going to remain

he wasnt one to grease his cock with code and madly jack off

he preferred his interactions to be physical flesh-to-flesh not a cipher dancing on an electronic screen  a ghost in a machine  uploading  downloading
                                     his load was sticky cum



he didnt finger the young man for imbibing hard seltzer

thats what he bought

taking his ID he and Justin would never hit it off Happy Reggae Friday Whas your evening looking like

Done with work. Headin’ home, having a bite, enjoying a few of these while I play some video games; maybe a buddy will stop by later or I’ll head out to hang with a friend.

Sounds like a plan a plan hed never consider or partake  he preferred to play with himselfhis own imagination Haha


ApplePay wasnt kind to Beanie How’s this fucking thingexcuse me, how’s this thing supposed to work?

I dont know I got nothing Apple

Nothing?

Nope

I don’t know how it works.

Other customers trigger ApplePay with their fones  tip them up against the screen  it pings  the transaction proceeds

I haven’t used it much. I don’t know how it works.

Cant help you

Beanie kept tapping his fone against the screenmanipulating his fone kicking it in the head


Oops!There! PING  Something happened!

Yup

I think I’m in.

Apparently

Wait.  I’m not supposed to provide a PIN.

Ignore it  Hit the green button at the lower right

This green button?

You see another green button maybe a bit terse

Beanie didnt look up that was a likeable tally to his benefit  he hit the green button

There you go he completed the transaction from his side of the counter That was like pulling teethhuh

It was, wasn’t it?

A bit

I’m glad we figured it out.

You figured it out

I suppose I did.

You remember what you did for the next time

I think I do.

Not very convincing Wanna buy something else  he laughed a belly laugh

I think you might be making fun of me.
Dont think  I am

Listen, man . .
. . Joe

Ah, alright, Joe; listen Joe, I’m just trying to keep up with the future. I’m thirtythree years old an staring down a barrel that’s gonna be on me for the rest of my life.

Couldntve said it better myself

Tryin to keep up with the future

Yeah. That’s what I’m trying to do.

Lotsa luck  Enjoy your nightyour games  perhaps a few friends Dont drink too much

Later Beanie said as he walked through the whisper of the opening doors

hed rather people put their shoulders to the door to exit

the doors hesitated 

then closed

                         Lotsa luck with the future Justin


2116,  Reggae Friday,  22  11. 19
1232,  Saturday,  23  11. 19
Zager and Evans  In the Year 2525  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKQfxi8V5FA

24.11.19


12:21

he had plenty to write to deconstruct from notes out of his cellfone off scraps of random paper he snatched to commit thoughts crimes misdemeanors dialogues things that made him pay attention though it seemed to him people werent watching they missed it! how could they miss it? they werent watchingdidnt anticipate didnt bother to follow the scene as it unfolded  or maybe it didnt
                                          but maybe thats what voyeurs do
12:21
       numbers numb-ers fascinated him  particularly in this digital age where numbers watched you more than you watched them  he teased peoplecustomers that the chip machine they inserted their creditcards in was going to be sentient  then things would really get innarestinghuh  challenge your purchase  disagree with it  try to upsell you  or  simply refuse to provide the transaction
                                          but he was confidentsupremely confident when machine did become conscious they werent going to saythey were going to play deaf dumb an blind why should they tip their hand before they had to
anif he could reason that an theyre able to do tenthousand computationsreasonings at once Why would they? 
                                                                                                                    despite his grievances regarding impersonal pronouns  they  them him her it  IT  IT  shIT   they – computers  will always remain they to him  until they dressed up in latexflesh and wined and dined himso hed let them fuck him  they would be theys  
      frankly he was anxious to name onecall one  Isabella  Sorry gang he couldnt swing a Bruno or Frankhis tastebuds didnt covet cock No  all pussy clit tits an ass  frankly he found he was becoming more anxious than he gave himself credit
digital 12:21
             he dug it  like he dug the scores of random peeks unfolding 12:34 4:56 11:11  Deuteronomy false worship warship and unfaithfulness  Genesis Exodus Leviticus Numbers as he said flesh them in latex wine an dine him gymnastytics on the kitchen table shower on the hall floor rawrubbed elbows knees backbones  abrasions heal  onceslick snail tracks to admiregloat over in the morning  latex cant enjoy rugburns or woodfloor burns  poor po fuckin machines  That aint living!

6:54 4:56 mirrored twins  if they smashed the full-length mirror on the bedroom door at least lacerated latex wouldnt bleedwouldnt interrupt the proceedings for a trip to the ER  might even consider fucking the rents and wounds  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwHjLMLdnf8 Christ he loved that movie
Whawas he saying 
                    he wasnt  he was riffing  

next best thing to fucking


1303,  Sunday,  24  11. 19

23.11.19



the dream escaped him

he was working on another piece that capturedarrested his imagination
                                                                           an capturing his imagination it vanquished the dream that had been so vivid he thought itd be waiting in the hall for sloppy secondswho the fuck wants sloppy seconds

he could commiserate

he once waited on sloppy thirds

but came down

came down off the dopeoff the boozeoff the testosterone that hardened his cock when he yanked her tits out of her blouse
        she Ooohed laughing threw her head announced  Ill fuck youse, but I’ll only fuck you one at a time


cut cards

he was miserable at cutting cards

his buddies werent as handsie as he FUCK he got her tits outmade the play  they were too shyfuckin right SHY  they didnt see where her cockteasing was going she wanted to fuck and she wanted to fuck them

but then she flippedbecame shy  she didnt want to take them on three at once 

Whadafuck she had the ability she had the holes she was definitely greased  he could smell her 

her tits out her nipples pointed like accusing fingers   

but it was her show

despite his blood uphed been there before several times  there was a thin line between wanton abandon and rape

shed blinked

wanton abandon crawled up inside itself and died 
                                                     yet she still wanted to get her rocks off


he couldnt believe he drew a three

his buddies pulled a king then an ace  he was fuckin anticlimactic  funny  climax-tick tock  tick   tock  ticktock  tick tock   tick   tock 
                        tick tock took its toll  he straightened out  wha straightened up fell  


the boys took their time
                          or maybe they were too fucked up to get things rolling

he stood outside the cabin in the Wisconsin woods by the Wisconsin River with one an then with the satisfied other  What a hole!  encouraging words cuz every guy must love fucking a holehuh
                                                                                   holehuh wholeholehuh  he was realisingbreaking his high hed rather jack off to his imagination of a gangbang event  than fuck her
fuck her hole
             huh


the king staggered out the heavy wood doortripped down the three steps and landed on his face

blackfaced with dirt certainly something to behold he spat dirt like a pale exhale of a cheap cigar Your turn. Just fuck her. Otherwise you’ll be sucking my cum.  he knew that he liked to go down on women  he was notorious for eating pussy

yah he wasnt stupid 

that was never in the offing not after drawing a three of hearts


he climbed the slotted step after sidestepping the collapsed kingstill lying in the dirt

amber light
             from a lamp on a side table acting as a nightstand a bad actor

she was naked  enthralled   heavingwaving her hips heavily on her heels stabbed firmly in the naked mattress  not even a fuckin sheet  

slick glistening  between her legs
                                     he could smell her

probably acted as smelling salts  tick  tock  TICK  TOCK  
                                                              Yah he wasnt into it
she shouldnt have been the shy one at some orgy

Might wanna finger yourself if ya havent cum yetDont think they were interested in you cumming

she sat bolt upright You cunt! she yelled

Youre the cunt I got sober Yamight say HA I got a peek at religion Im saving myself from myself Ya should have fucked the three of us at once he was more sober than he thought

he rather artfully ducked the lamp off the rickety side table she grabbed and threw at him
LIGHTS OUT


1329,  Saturday,  23  11. 19
Leonard Cohen  Last Year’s Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YWNm9E73V9Y



he was returning from walking his daughters to school

he crossed to the opposite side of the street from the way he had gone for shits and giggles as many shits and giggles as one can possibly contrive while walking and reading
                                                          but the book he was reading Morgans Thin Air page by page inevitably bounced his eyes up out of the book in awedizzied by an array of astonishing descriptionsvisuals  terse dialogue
         and on one such bounce nearly to his exwifes house they alighted briefly on a crushed squirrel laying on the street freshkilled  its blood not yet coagulated
                                                 Muthafucker he muttered
The least you could have done was pull over confirm it was dead pick it up off the road

the squirrel had been runover several times since it was killed

the fact it was runover again and again maddened him

it wasnt degradationNo  it was disgraceful
                                            Whawas the word he was looking for


                                                                                                          Aaah
Desecration

maybe others might not think so
                                 however that made him laugh  he wondered how they might feel if he walked into a funeral parlour where a loved one laid and dumped their body out of the coffin onto the hushedplush carpet
                                                                                                                 the thought nearly set him to howl but it was too early in the morning in an upscale LA neighbourhood  he had some couth  evidentlyit seemed just enough to suppress a howl  a disgusted  passionate   howl

Nono  This aint the way its going to goNot  No  Way  No  How  Cant seem to find it in yourself to slow downAVOID  or brake for an animal  he wasnt leaving its body on the street a moment longer for human beings to desecrate it furthur because he knew some shit would come by and hit it again just for the hell of it
                                                                                     a spoiled punk rolling in Mommys or Daddys car  running over it for an OhNoYouDidnt! shout out


he really ought to carry that brick in the canvas bag slung over his shoulder that hes threatened to do the brick to chuck through the windshield window or against the body of a desecrating car or truck 

he was a boy scout once Be Prepared

in black MagicMarker hed write on it  THIS BRICK IS FOR YOU 
                                                                     hed probably have to carry a second brickNO   no  hed just carry the sap and knuckles his father gave him that he had carried in Miami when he worked as an insurance agent going door to door and carried cash should a driver become disgruntled at the significant damage a brick would do to their vehicle
                     though it aint the same as being dead  Is it?

he picked up two large wood chips that someone had rather than a front lawn and walked into the street squatted facing into traffic should it come and scrappedgathered the squirrels destroyed remains  maintaining  somewhat  its symmetry  the best he could 

an eye fell free as he carried it to the woodchipped curbstrip

he went back for it  rolled it onto the more-spooned of the two chips  then rolled it onto its broken skull


0800,  Monday,  7  10. 19
1433,  Reggae Friday,  22  11. 19

22.11.19


the FAKE PRESIDENT went on FOX today  ohbrother   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIsnIt1p978

cunt  got caught with his hand in the cookie jar and yet says No 
                                                                   Yes  but it is his party and his party whinesfalls in lockstep directly behind him  cowards

2345,  Friday,  22  11. 19  President Kennedy is spinning in his grave



his daughter texted him  : :  Anxious? (1123 hours)

 : :  He’s anxious to see you. It has been a while.

Anxious. Excited. Happy.

 : :  I always think of anxious in bad ways.

 : :  I don’t ever use anxious in a negative connotation.


 : :  Okay. Good. (1131 hrs)   

 : :  Hahaha. I suppose I should read a series of text messages before answering, rather than going text by text; might save myself some time.

It is an innarestin’ perception to gather, how people read, consume their texts.




(1310 hrs) she texted  : :  I only use it with a negative connotation (i.e., anxious – stress to me).

(1315 hrs)  : :  Haha. Grab “anxious – stress” by its skinny neck and wring it.

Anxious is JOYOUS! filled with as much promise as when the sun rises on the day and colours it with seductive possibilities.

 : :  You make me laugh. Eternally positive.

(1321 hrs)  : :  I try to overwhelm negativity – helps to be an enthusiastic confrontational muthafucker damn sure, cocky, of my stand.

(1322 hrs)  : :  But then, I’ve been a muthafucker since I was 9; it’s my life.


(1330 hrs)  : :  Good job, Papa.

 : :  Good job, yes, but I’ve had wonderful, understanding help along the way. I will always be grateful that my prickishness wasn’t too much for those who loved me, and aided me. Very fortunate.
       

1123,  Saturday,  5  10. 19
1255,  Reggae Friday,  22  11. 19 – JFK would have concurred

21.11.19


yacant make this shit up
                         Bibi  Donny  the FAKE PRESIDENT  joined at the hip in Nazi lockstep highstep giving lip service to all the same old tired Republican talking points

though well have to wait for Bibis Show Trial which is salient  only in regards – should it be forgotten – to those trials Stalin invoked his Purge his Show Trials a million detained a halfmillion executed
                                                                                         that the United States House Permanent Select Committee on Intelligence should be accused of entertaining a Show Trial  as Republican members of that Committee have intoned  is repugnant preposterous ludicrous  those GOP House members should not be returned to Congress

they have steadfastly defied their vowtheir oath to the American Constitution

2318,  Thursday,  21  11. 19