Ah the three Cs
he never bought
into them
stress kills
they were life-sucking soul-sucking vampires
he saw it as a boy
a teacher not the first informed
his parents He’s not . . how should I
say this ambitious He isnt motivated. He sidesteps competition.
attending the teachers conference
together which was rare they pushed back He’s terribly competitive, athletically better than most boys, despite him being small. He battles, his coaches say he plays big.
Academically . . academically, he
isn’t competitive. He’s interested in what he’s interested in and refuses to follow the lesson, he disrupts
the class with cockamamie posits.
Then he is competitive, ambitious, however
not within the narrow confines you're providing, the school provides. Correct?
You are incorrect. If he doesn’t,
if he refuses to come into the fold, he will be an average boy, person,
an average man.
Frankly his father said you’re not telling us something we haven’t
heard before. Why don’t you entertain his questions?
I am not paid to address his
questions. I’m paid to teach him; all the students.
He is not ambitious.
the teacher most of his teachers were correct in their
assessment
but if athletic violence could be moulded in the classroom theyd see his ambition
to beat or be beat wasntnot an
iota stressful it was exciting
instinctively he was involved
against another and when the game was finished it was over
either you won or you lost
and either
way wounds would need to heal
that sense secured the oftused robust
ancient line You ought to see the other
guy dripping from his
mouth it always tickled him
their wounds didnt differentiate the winner from the loser
he had thrown down his gauntlet he didnt entertain the mind games his
teachers elaborated
if
anyone wanted to fuck with him Lets take
it outsideout back we can discuss things
in the freedom of fresh air
his teachers said he didnt know the meaning of respect
however as a nine year old boy he knew respect was a two-way street Mr. WapplerEdwin Wappler taught him he said
You do not have to respect your elders. You do not have to respect authority.
They are obliged equally to respect you. If they do not; then you do not.
Mr. Wappler was in is seventies he figured that he knew a thing or two
according to many Mr. Wappler as he cited his name again and
again believed he
created a monster
the three Cs
he refused to pursue them
the first obviously was Curriculum
which some remote august body made decisions for children theyd never meet
the teachers were shackled by it
their jobs depended upon it
liberally educated
suddenly illiberal
he learned of curriculum from
Miss Galworthy so
fucking appropriate a first–year English teacher twentytwo
years old seven years his senior legitimately of the same generation
she taught him he became the best English student of the
freshman classes she instructed
he taught her a thing or two
at the years end at the years end after he achieved four consecutive A+
quarters she was fired for suborning the curriculum despite her success not only for him but for others as well
the second C
Career
he never saw himself doing one thing for his whole life
he wouldnt acquire a pension
he
would not retire
when he turned forty his father
asked him what he was most proud of regarding his forty years on the planet
he replied I have continued to elude a career I dont own a suit
when he was fortyfive his fathers
company was shuttered he retired early was provided a substantial pension he served it for fortyseven years
fortyseven
years
his father stayed in one place longer doing one thing longer than hed
been alive
the third C
Cuntesses male or female
the barthe standard he
upheld he never thought was too demanding
Common sense Compassion he bought into
them
he knew his intrinsic worth he knew hed have to sell a portion of himself
to make a living but that wasnt to say he could be
bought
theyd get their forty hours beyond that his time wasnt for sale he told the companies he worked for they
couldnt afford him beyond the forty hours they required
he conceded that
apparentlyhowever his actions tempted coworkers
to follow his lead
the companies mistakenly believed his strategy
was to tempt them to try and tempt him he
couldnt be without temptation
he replied clearly he wasnt
however
only a cunt would be foolish enough to try and tempt him
either they were deaf or without
a pea to rattle in their skull
cuntesses cunts one and all
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