27.3.18


Jesuschrist  the town turned itself inside out this righteous nest these salt of the earth grandchildren of pioneers he supposed that might be one name for land thieves who slaughtered Inian encampments or piecemeal taking scalps for bounty

from where he stood the communitys contortions writhing an conniptions were absolutely delicious  their sainted city fathers hadnt made laws to safeguard them from a devil in the flesh an entrepreneur who discovered it didnt have effective provisions to keep pornography from its groomed sacred Wild West confines                                       
Oops


their outrage blinded them

they spent hundreds of thousands of dollars to deny the entrepreneur his rights

they lost

they paid out hundreds of thousands of dollars in restitution  essentially affording Diamond Adult Worlds property and building and renovations and probably more stock and paraphernalia than they might stomach
hubris can get you that




since the porn shop sat nearly square between the high school and junior high their alcohol-free drug-free smoke-free weapon-free campuses FREE? the city campaigned and ultimately provided another property and building for Diamond to relocate

hundreds of thousands of dollars more

ostentatiously removing the business from plain sight

out of sight out of mind
                        just as the School Board and District officials did to the communitys pregnant teenage girls





he recognised one of the things he liked best about Diamond Adult World was its steep inclined driveway off the towns thoroughfare El Camino Real  The Kings Highway that as you drove up it or walked up your gaze went into the loose crown of very old digger pines and the blue sky through it

                                                               or in other words  at Diamond the sky was the limitduh


1430,  Monday,  26  3. 18
1058,  Twosday,  27  3. 18
TomPetty  Into The Great Wide Open  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yF0cqNFVyEM

26.3.18


Nash Crosby, 1972
Crosby, 1971

just sayinrepeatin Americas same old aged shit  we cant seem to get past it   unfortunately

1239,  Monday,  26  3. 18
1031 days remaining or less


the afternoon started out innocently enoughhe wasnt looking for trouble for love  not nothing

but things often have a way of rumbling on in a deaf dumb blind physics of their own  sweeping up or engulfing whatever happens to be in their way caught up in a maelstrom a riptide a revolving door with a sense of humour that recalls a motion picture clip of a white rat running inside a treadmill  whitewater pushing a mill wheel  perhaps the rodent hadnt sense enough to step off  however the glee it enjoyed was that it knew human beings had the sense not to go around and around and roundbut it wasnt going to give them a chance
round and round it goes when it stops nobody knows
it was so terribly pleased with itself


a small brewery opened in the neighbourhood several months ago and he delayed going in order to share the experience with his girlfriend 

unfortunately one thing had lead to another and she was unable to come

with no apparent end in sightshe couldnt say he leaned on her singlemindedness  which he admired  he admired her temerityfrankly encouraged it though given its on-an-on-an-onness he finally threw in the towel and called brotherinlaw asked him if hed been to Dead Oak yet

Dead Oak    Oh yes   No  I havent  Im curious why not

Then great  Care to join me for a beer

You free Thursday afternoon

Im free


his brotherinlaw Fourth Quarter called his eldest son and invited him

his nephew called a buddy he was familiar with who recently returned stateside from Afghanistan


when he and his brotherinlaw met for a beer they called itrather his brotherinlaw called it a putsch  the great Beer Hall Putsch happened in Munich in 1923  end result was Hitlers imprisonment then him writing Mein Kampf a deaf dumb blind physics of its own

he figured that Sam despite his recent military service wouldnt be a Nationalist  he was a best friend of his nephew and his nephew despite his service skewed left


their clutch arrived simultaneously from four different ways

very auspicious

though not as suspicious as after having ordered beers and taking seats that his nephew and Sam sat with their backs to the entry the plateglass frontage  that they would concede having their backs to door surprised him

hence his first point of discussion Why would sit with your back to the door

the seating was arranged by rows of long tables and benches parallel to the frontage

Sam said he took a seat across from him and his brotherinlaw because they sat first

If I were you he countered I would have sat at the bench behind us and turned on it so the four of us were facing out

Perhaps  Though thats not really conducive to conversationnot face to face

All conversation needs are mouths and ears not faces  We aint solving any world problems or crises todaythen almost as if to punctuate the moment over Sams shoulder through the glass window a young woman appeared she wrestled with an A-frame sign for the baby boutique next door that was tormented by a rising wind at the head of an oncoming storm

what initially caught his eye was her hair  bluestreaked  a colour as if looking out off a board through the crash and cascade of an ocean curl 

it was thick  an long  an swung with her movementswas whipped and disturbedfrantically fingered by the air 

he considered helping her but suddenly the wind lifted her hair and revealed the rest of her he was arrested she was petite he didnt expect shed be statuesque  her breasts moved like pair of playful puppies under her sweater
come on now  chivalry isnt dead

his was being patient

he didnt want to step into the fray unnecessarily  impugn her efforts

he would wait

if she looked desperate

then hed be chivalrous


after a minute more of wrestling she collapsed the sign down on itself  obviously frustrated but not desperate leaving it on the pavement   

her expression through her blue hair was fetching

then standing upright she ran her fingers through her hair cut a fantastic imprint on their collective mind and exited stage right returning to the Baby Babble boutique he managed to read that from the A-frame during her struggle


he returned his attention to his beer their conversation his comrades and realised nothing was being said  theyd been as attentive to her as he had That was unexpected he remarked

Yeeah  was conceded

Boys  your necks okay 

Theyre young their necks are rubbery yet Fourth Quarter said

the boyslater than he  turned back into their touted face to face rubbing the right sides of their necks Couldnt say something to ushuh just looked past us

I didnt say because you could have been facing the window too

You know her

No  If I did I probably still wouldnt have stood to help  That was too good a show  Id only have been an interruption an I would have had to throw away my male chauvinist pig card  I dont know if you two ever got heat for being pigsbut nevertheless were all pigs to one degree or another a deaf dumb blind physics of its own

I wish I knew her said Sam

Shes next door

Nah Couldn’t do that

Couldnt admit you watched her struggle but really liked it  My names Sam

Nah Not at all

he turned to his brotherinlaw  Whats that old lineyouth is wasted on the young
I think thats it

There you have Evidence Youth is wasted on the young Take a shot You miss every shot you dont take

Nah That’s a little too ballsy for me

Ballsy Arent you the same guy who volunteered for the military and did tours in Afghanistan


I am

But you havent balls enough to go next door and introduce yourself

It’d be forced

through the window he saw the wind had backed off and Baby Babble Blue had returned to the signyanking it up from its layspreading its legsher breasts getting in the way

he didnt say a thing

by the time the boys turned she had stomped it into position and was returning to the shop

Still not a word the boys chorused

Still sitting with your backs to the door


Well  if you mooks are going to sit tight Im going next door to say hi  Be back in a minute

his nephew laughed  My brother calls our uncle the Silver Fox

they turned on their bench and watched him go out through the door  the A-frame shivered


a deaf dumb blind physics of its own ensued




late Thursday afternoon,  15  3. 18
1150,  Monday,  26  3. 18

24.3.18



IS
    written in black permanent marker enclosed by a near perfect circle

he was very taken by the freehand circle


IS  denotes being

IS encapsulated by a circle the circle like skin concrete skin  the only way to remove concrete is to destroy itcut it up into manageable pieces or crush it under sledgehammer blows

this IS wasnt likely to put up with either the sawblade or hammer  take them in hand is tantamount to threatening IS 

he thought IS would be terrifying in that confrontation



IS was written on a risers face on the upper right hand side

he looked around for hints to who IS was it was on a secluded staircase leading up or going down from the library parking lot 

it was typically a haven for the homeless  for disaffected teens whose antisocial tendencies he had firsthand knowledge of  he offended them by telling them Shutup he didnt want to hear the filth coming out of their mouths   

the four bigmouths somehow forged a band of teens that converged on him but aside from their vile words they were smart enoughat least  not to touch him 

their words didnt touch him 

he strolled oblivious at their head at his leisure 

someone fearing for his safety called the police


the staircase was littered with detritus partially eaten food containers empty liquor bottles drug paraphernalia clothing sweaters tattered blankets feces

once a week someone with the librarys maintenance staff threw the things away scrubbed the waste hosed down the long concrete staircase

IS remained  slightly faded 

he didnt think maintenance played with sulfuric acid

sulfuric acid has a way with permanence


IS  inclined him to use those steps whenever he was passing to the libraryheading over to the grocerystore 

the homeless moved aside made a gap so he could step through them 

the teens usually got up off their asses stood let him pass 

apparently they had heard of him

he always said Thank you as he went


IS

Being



we are all beings 

circumstances beyond our control can have deleterious affects

youd think someone would want to understand a person rather than cast the wide net of stereotyping

as a youth he read Yevgeny Yevtushenko a Russian poet: No people are uninteresting . . . if someone lives in obscurity, / befriending that obscurity, / he is interesting to people / by his very obscurity.

that was written in 1961

he carried a clipboard in the cloth bag that hung from his shoulder as he walked

in among the wastepaper one side used the other side free held by the board he kept Yevushenkos poem inside a plastic slip he copied the poem on a typewriter  whaszat?

he figured the weighted bagwhat might be inside it  concealed   probably provided him unmolested passage between the homeless and teens

no one dared ask Whats in the bag, man?



IS
    reminded him every time he passed it 

No people are uninteresting . . What do we know of brothers, of friends? / What do we know of our one and only? / And about our own fathers, / knowing everything, we know nothing.


0926,  Monday,  12  3. 18
1300,  Saturday,  24  3. 18


23.3.18


standing above her as she sat comfortably at the front desk he almost commented on the attractive design woven into her black silk blouse

however recognising what she worewhat they were he held his tongue

shes a small town librarian ferChristssake
                                                 yet somehowand she isnt alone 
shed bought into Americas new death culture
celebrated with whitebone skulls boiled and peroxided their gazing vacant eye sockets lightningbolt fissures

what was that about
                     used to be skulls were decorativeonly prominent during Halloween

now theyre oxymoronic  babies are toted around on their parents backs and chests and are dressed in garments that have skulls on them  queer that new life and Death should bump heads



her white skulls were intricately stitched and hung together across the face of her blouse topsyturvy suspended on spiderwebs

it was early March


maybe he was thickmaybe he missed the anniversary of one holocaust or another some epic slaughter maybe he was just ignorant  

though  as a species  were nearly stand alones  unmatched  stratospheric  killing our own kind

maybe it should be that we cant kick a can down an alley or a stone down a street without kicking a skull too hed have to buy himself some stout boots  flipflops werent gonna cut it


maybe the answer to every little disagreement is violencekill whoever disagrees with you


the echochamber unneeded is destroyed


everything is same-old same-old
and fucking boring




the librarian wears skulls

hed be sure not to ask her adviselet her manage the nuts and bolts of his account with the library 

like  say    oh       firing up the incinerator to burn books  or maybe the people who refuse to let go of them




1449,  Twosday,  6  3. 18 
1220,  Friday,  23  3. 18 


Christ   the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse who knew one was a woman 

a cunt
“I am the Walrus”
Pompeii  if Republicans in Congress cant get their heads out of their asses
Gina the Impaler  yes . . .  if Republicans in Congress . . .

he wasnt going to watch politics last night but something compelled him  JESUS  FOXs Boltonhes not FOXs  hes one of the founders of the Project for the New American Century (PNAC) the neocons who gave us Iraq and are still giving us Afghanistan  he supposed one could argue people are typically greedy when theyre using someone elses money

0942,  Friday,  23  3. 18
1034 days remaining or fewer

22.3.18



sometimes dreams come in off the street rudely  

theyre pungent unkempttheyll take up anything youve left vacant or unaccounted for  never mind that you had plans for them or didnt expect anyone or anything to challenge you

thats your mistake  

dreams move in righteously and they demand your concession  obviously you have plenty of space  its no matter to them that you carved it out for yourself

why would they or should they heed you

theyve gotten this far


they gloat



you have to realise that only violence will move them
                                                              their violence is extraterrestrial
it is from a realm a province you have no experience with and you will lose a myriad of painful battles before you can take back ground

whoever is most formidable will prevail


the battles are psychic horrific  gruesome

your dreams attempt to overwhelm you  they seek devises that make you squeamish then too embittered raw and consumedtoo embattled to recognise what hangs in the balance


his dreams devastated the people and places of his youth those fierce memories and touchstones  they were flayed horribly tortured murdered they were dismembered a piece at a time all the while begging the ruthless things to stop they were quilled with blasted glass slivers and shards they were set on fire and like burning paper ash or leaves they screamed as they waft into the air their fat smoking black they were penetratedpunched full of holes  sighed like bone flutes

then it was stopped

he was awakened

he fell back to sleep

and it began again in a different place the people tortured again slivered bludgeoned joints pulled apart hooked hung boiled drowned in shallow puddles thickened with coagulated blood feces and humours

then it was stopped

he was awakened

but before he fell back to sleep he found weapons and took them in with him

he couldnt save them all

but the ones he did save he armedthen

stopped

awakened

falling back to sleep

he returned with bulging sacks of brutal armament  

the tide was turning

they didnt stop until the dreams concededuntil they fled


these dreams didnt return didnt seek revenge



dreams have memories to corrupt too


recurring dream all last night,  Thursday,  22  3. 18

21.3.18




its funnyits funny he writes its funny when the subject hes consideringmulling over  isnt

he doesnt know what that is

he assumes a defense mechanism 


in defense of what



he forgot now what initiated his its funny  sidetracked by cunt feeling empowered by McCabes firing to go after the special counsel Muellerhe didnt know what to liken that to  then feeling empowered cunt goes it aloneagainst his advisors recommendations(he knows better – he can identify his asshole from a hole in the ground) to congratulate Putin on his electoral victory in Russias sham presidential election – to a fourth term – Putin aint no Franklin Delano Roosevelt unlessof course  Roosevelt framed or murdered political social adversaries and journalists

he was beginning to wonder what color cunts panties were


he was placing his trust in an unmolested Mueller prosecution(which cunt evidently relishes)



Vegas had given him real long odds on his one thousand dollar bet that cunt an Pence would be impeached (he apologised to the fruit for its defamation) the House was going Democratic with their victories in the 2018 elections
then the Speaker of the House in 2019 would be elevated to serve as president until the 2020 election


Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  3. 18
1036 days or fewer remaining

postscript  once cunts in prison stripes(not flattering to his bulbous figure) wrioter will be free to be creative: riot          

16.3.18




cunt  our sshhsecret wannabe President for Life spoke haltinglyincoherently to fundraisers in Missouri on Wednesday (theyd like to unseat Senator Claire McCaskill)

So last year with China, we lost 500 billion dollars, would you say that? Not million, 500 million, that's a lot. 500 billion dollars. And it's been that way for years, from 200 to 504 billion dollars, every year.

We rebuilt China, we actually did. You take that money away from China.

I mean we rebuilt it, and it all started with the World Trade Organization (WTO). If you look at China, it's like this for many, many centuries.

World trade, it's like a rocket ship, and much of it came right out of this country, got to stop it. And I'm very friendly with the (Chinese) president (Xi Jinping), he's a great guy (who seeks to make himself President for Life; Putin negates his opposition one way or another in an attempt to do the same). We have a great chemistry, a great relationship. But he's for China and I'm for the good old USA. [Applause.]”


the (Applause.) at the end of that portion of cunts talented remarks bothered him

where in there was there anything to applaud . . it all started with the WTO. If you look at China, it’s like this for many, many centuries. 

what is  like this for many, many centuries

painfully he read the entirety of his remarksstill marveling the man is president

the only solace he mustered for the day was from an article he read in South China Morning Post  political commentator Cary Huang  who said that Xis attempt to become Chinas “de facto monarch” could have pitfalls: “History has shown that many political leaders who sought lifelong service have not managed to realize their vision . . Some have been deposed . . others have been assassinated by political enemies”.


its curious that the sunshine to his day came up only after he read of politicians deposed or assassinated


Friday,  16  3. 18
1041 days remaining or less


15.3.18

Psalve 23


Psalm 23 crowded him right on a rainy highway also beset by groundfog an gale  

he was in the righthand lanehis foot off the gasbearing down on semitrailer rig a scarcelyrevealed phantom throwing and shedding sheets of rainwater like a fastFORWARDED snake sheds skin

CHRIST he said under his breath glancing down at his speedometer  53  

Psalm 23 were the words on the sticker on the righthand formedbumper of a babyblue Nissan Rogue which didnt strike him particularly religious that had him boxed in for nearly a mile apparently the driver having passed him briskly suddenlyeased up braked to entertain their animated frontseat passenger who was wowed by stacks of creosote ties on the blackened shoulder immediately above the railroad tracks immediately overlooking the chopped bowl of the rocking Pacific

if 23 was so desperate to be a sightseer they should have begged out of the lefthand lane slipped in behind him and thrown On their hazards
                          highways posted 70

their rudeness inconsideration provoked him to absently consider various things regarding the babyblue riders minor irritations why would someone paste a sticker on the extreme righthand of a bumper EXTREMELY RIGHT? why is it when he sees psalm he thinks psalve why should the driver and their occupant Shall not want are Righteous theyre oblivious however that theyre treading near the Valley of Death if he were to met them off road  at least the stony Valley of Hurt where THY immaterial Rod and Staff would be little or sufficient protection in the presence of their enemy Ohbrother he really really wanted to help them dwell in the House of the Lord today  then perhaps Forever
he could fashion it if they truly wanted to join Him

he had access to plenty of wood  




or maybe he was just being facetious


1427,  Friday,  9  3. 18
1514,  Twosday,  13  3. 18