he held a genetically-modified miniature purewhite lamb in his hand

I shouldnt be holding this he said into the long mirror in the interrogation room facing him

he was strapped to the chairhis arms were strapped to the tabletop

I know that damn things two-ways  Whoever ya are or yous are ya ought to come in here an take this monstrosity away

Bleat  Bleat . .

. . Shaddup  Fuckin things yanking my chainIm tellinya get yer ass in here an take this abomination away

Bleat  Bleat . . 

. . Shaddup ya little Frankenstein monster  Whos the twist that decided they wanted to play Gawdfuckin degenerate  Did it because you could   ya fuckin twistI got an idea outthere whoever the fuck ya are  bring the twist in here an put his balls in my hand or her cunt within fistfuckin distance an lemme play Gawdlemme get revenge for this miserable little lamb its got about as much of a chance of survival as a bloodbloated mosquito or a fruitflytwentyfour crazy hours an dead   Nothing fucks for twentyfour hours even if it knew it was dead with the sunrise of the next day a sunshined vampireSOMEONE DA FUCK GET IN HERE AN TAKE THIS MONSTER AWAY

Bleat  Bleat . . 

. . Shaddup please  he closed his eyes

Bleat  Bleat . .

 . . Please     Shaddup   his forearm began to quiver

Bleat  Bleat  Bleat . .

 . . squish
  

Ya couldnt fuckin help a guy outcould you  Just  couldnt  do  it    Had to know this was how it was going to end

2025,  Monday,  11  12. 17

Sparklehorse  Everytime I’m with You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiCXqUWHSWw

Ohboy ...

( Ohboy   no worse for wear approaching four years 

                                              to put it in perspectiveOHSHIT

THAT shoved him from behind into perspective  he began wrioting 18 February 2014

thirteen hundred ninetyfour days ago  

he posted #1394 today 

                           suppose when you put your head down every morning an dig in  then later peek at what youve unearthed  you lose perspective from high overhead  dont see the all holes for the hole youre standing in

PAT   PAT   PAT  since aint a soul around Im contorting and patting myself on the back

1800,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  12. 17 )

Frank Turner  The Way I Tend To Be  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cf5O2M5GaEA

three raw organic Jumbo eggs  date seed tea  Medjool dates(an Algerian taxi driver told him so)  black coffee  Irish whiskey 

        his morning diet an elixirs

not a diet Bob Richards Mr. Wheaties would have endorsed  but then he wouldnt have endorsed Richards 1984 presidential run at the head of the far Right Populist Party that four years later backed white nationalist David Duke   oh  hed be chagrined if he didnt mention Duke was the KKKKs(yes he didnt stutter  Knights of the Ku(less) Klux Klan) Grand Wizard  he supposed Duke did magick tricks at late night cockantail parties in the South  LSUhe hated acronyms  Louisiana State University  must be awful proud of the Duke  Hail White Pride?  Heil White Pride?  Awgotohell   Did you know heil meant Salvation? he hadnt  but then he was never ashamed of his ignorance because he learned to correct it  he never held his Ignorance as a blunt staff or a lofty banner of pridehow is it possible to be proud of being Ignorant  but  it helps if your White  when youre White in America you dont have to apologeez for your entitlementyou just ride it as you would ride a horse to death or beat a dog to death  horse  dog  they aint human  an Gawd knows White Man is superior to all beastsparticularly othercoloured lesser human beasts

he wouldnt have the keen ability to retell that posit if his father didnt blindly buy wholesale into his fathers ignorance 

his grandfather bragged of participating in the 1919 Chicago race riot  he didnt say how he participated  but he was a returned World War 1 vet who fought in the trenches of France

he might gleam that a man who worked in a slaughterhouse isnt upset by the sight of blood or killing an animal   

now if he was stupid he would be proud of his paternal family heritage

unfortunately or fortunately his grandfather died when he was a boy 

he couldnt take his father to task for the sins of his father

but nevertheless he was relentless in attacking his fathers racism  an ignorance

2008  a telephone call

                   You must be mighty happy you got your nigger president

Im mighty happy a capable an thoughtful man is president

2016  a telephone call

                   You must be nighty happy you got your whitey president

You can say that again

                   You must be mighty happy you got your whitey president

sometimes he wondered what the Algerian taxi driver would say to his father

1107,  Monday,  11  12. 17

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