The Real Me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2h1MY70uag

Hey mister!  a hollow call from behind him  a boys voice weakly managing pubertystill unbrokenstill feminine

Thats jaywalking

he walked on disregarded the crythe fakeness  disregarded the little twat

just another punk they were plentiful these days who figured he might impress some of those among the little clan he was attached gathered with at the bus stop

he didnt give a rats ass for the kids keen observation  it wasnt worth doublingback or even looking over his shoulder acknowledging the bray

he had no thought to point out that when he was a kid had he chipped an adult in the same manner hed be picking himself up off the streethave his ass handed to him

No Fear 

       the apparel line  had festered and promulgated a fearlessness in kids  they bought into it and acted like their shit didnt stink    apparently their parents couldnt smell it either

the last time he paid attentionand he would again if it was truly warranted he physically had to trouble himself not to throw the little cunts sixthgraders fat little boys over a constructed embankment that fell twenty feet into a restaurants bricked courtyard

instead he went to the police the following day to inform them of the kids offensive language and manner 

the police said they were looking for him yesterday

Here I am

unfortunately for the little idiots they recorded their foul antics on their smartphones and hadnt the good sense to delete them  video  and  audio   the little cocksuckers hung themselves

learned  he stayed himself 

he let the little boy behind him puff out his chest  he admonished an adult

hed been jaywalking saving himself time for wha four lifetimes of this magpie

he hoped the kid enjoyed whatever it was that he got out of it 

but he wasnt playing

if he played

well   they werent but a hop skip and a jump away from the embankment and bricked patio below

hed have dropped the ignoramus on his head hopefully saving mankind from his insipid offspring

whats the matter with kids today 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3edtd9AkWg

the matter was their parents neglected them and soothed the disconnect the disparition(close enough  disparention) with thingswith technology  a sixthgrader doesnt need a smartphone

their parents should simply have named their children SEX  given the rest of humanity a heads up  they had their heads up their assesostriches  their heads buried in the sand  

if they didnt know it their kids were going to be trouble until one or the other died

the kids were without a clue

                       and then theyd breed  and their offspring would utterly be at the mercy of the sterile interface of the technology that was at our throats

he was conscious of itbeyond its thrall  its interrupt and neglect

he could see these sixthgraders later having relationships with Japanese sex dolls     

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmS6FJKpEQI

which might be the best he could hope

                             dispensing sperm in a latexbody that couldnt reproduce

1552,  Friday,  6  10. 17

1246,  Saturday,  7  10. 17

The Who  The Real Me

Bye Bye Birdie

Niia  Made for You

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2017/oct/05/smartphone-addiction-silicon-valley-dystopia 

he saw it rising in her facedarkening her featuresdimming her eyes  a shade a blind closing inside of her  and outside of her her body hyperventilating sucking air preparing to go under unsure if it could possibly hold its breath long enoughlong enough to emerge from the surface that was closing over her head 

she looked into his eyes  frightened   he held out his hand to her    her eyes turned fierce  resentful  she slapped his hand aside You miserable cuntyou like to think you know what this is  I ought to die and leave you with the horror of not knowingWouldnt like that would youNot that I was deadyoull go ongo ahead survive like you did before  but just so you wouldnt knowcouldnt know definitively  for certain                                                                   

he lifted his hand to her again  Take hold of my handlove

Hold your handIf I wont hold your cock why would I hold your slimy hand

Take my hand   Take my hand so you know Im hereI wont let go  I can be your rope  Ill hold you  I wont let go

You miserable CUNT!

when things seem to make no sense at all   they make most sense

when she woke early the following morningin the darkin their bed   she couldnt help wonder if it was the next morning or the morning following that  what morning 

he was holding her  

he held her hand in hishis thumb hooked and locked with hers  her thumb was lax extended

Hey
he spoke

Are you awakewaking up

I  think . . I think I am

Good morningbaby

Would you let go of meI have to go to the bathroom

he lessened his gripthe steel going out of his muscles  faintly she thought she heard a jail door lock release

he rolled off his side onto his back

he didnt like to lay on his lefthe had too many shoulder surgeries  it stiffened up on him

there was swelling on his face

had she hit him againslammed the back of her head into him

she acted like she didnt see

she had to pee

she closed the bathroom door turned on the fan

she walked over to the window and saw the handle of the Big Dipper still above the horizon

she turned to the sinkran the cold water tapshe didnt brush her hair aside  she cupped her hand under the water and sippedguzzled thirstily from it

she stood upright 

her hair dripped on her t-shirthis t-shirt  he had taken her out of her clothes slipped his oversize t-shirt on her a pair of boxer over her hips

she had to pee

the toilet seat was down

she never knew a time when he hadnt put the toilet seat downnot ever

she peed long and hard

her sound covered her weeping and sniffles

she put her hair into her mouth to gag her from betraying her tears

it had been one more time 

she realised itanother time on top of anotheran another    on top of another

she couldnt stop them

Maybe you cant stop them now  but you know them now    You didnt know them before    Thatlove is progress
the beginning  baby steps

Its not happening fast enough

Hey 

    As a babe it took me two years to walk  All in due timein the time you need    All in the time that you need
This isnt magic

What did he say  what did he say that irritated her    Yes  He absolutely bitched her   she recalled  Its the darkest just before the dawn

Can you refute that

she couldnt 

she despisedshe hated his calm his patience   If he would just come unhooked 

I wontI cant  I did   You remember she did   If I come undone once more  theres no going backtheres no us

she remembered

she couldnt restrain him

she hadnt the strength he had now 

                            he could hold her fiercely  gently

how did he find solace in when things seem to make no sense at all  they made most sense

how couldhow did he make sensesee sense in her daft crazed   her chaos

I love you  maybe because I can see you objectively   I know your hard lessons and fortunately for youan me Im a quick study

You dont mean your violence  Your violence is a reaction of your confusionyour stressit makes perfect sense 

Curiously  Ive learned to turn my cheek

Thats funny she said Cant imagine you finding Gawd

I havent  Im repurposing quotes   Im damn sure they stole them from someone else   Im tweaking them to serve my purpose  And you are my purpose

Its darkest before the dawn

When things seem to make no sense at all they made the most sense

she shook her head  she was either in love with someone who had their shit together or who was a saint

she kept that to herself

1432, Friday,  29  9. 17

0137, Saturday,  30  9. 17

Three Dog Night  Circle for a Landing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiYEYL5aWpU