13.9.17





in ’70 he didnt get aboard Claptons blue-eyed blues trainhe didnt even turn to wave goodbye as it left the station
Good riddance  

Clapton jumped the Yardbirds the Bluesbreakers Cream            

a real whore

           although he was sure Clapton would think otherwise
Clapton the Purist 
willfully hanging his hat from that peg




he likened purists to fundamentalistsand Gawd knows he never got along with their ilk

yet
   there was something about After Midnight that always spoke to him  mumbled  never explicit  like quicksandwhich he found himself in up to his knees before he realised it  

he had no idea how that happenedand he was an antsy muthafuckeralways at the bitchiding Its harder to hit a moving target

he resented Clapton the Purist(who was desperately trying to cop Lennons look: dark sunglasses burns center-parted long hair) wouldnt a purist have pulled together black backup vocalists and have them sing behind the band  he thought Clapton had  when he learned Clapton hadnt he free-ranged imagining smearing Delaney and Bonnie Coolidge Stills Whitlock(Americanised at Ellis from Wetcock – Immigration had no intentions of contending with Wetcocks trying to assimilate into their veritable White Christian nation) and Allisons faces with black shine as Hollywood did shining White actors and actresses red for Westerns because they didnt want to hire Indian extras to play Indians 

he wished he had the Jewish moxie and money to make a movie of red and brown and black people done up in white face for Ku Klux Klan and White Nationalists roles  genius  nothing compliments better than copying an original  say Birth of an Illegitimate Nation after W D-40 Griffiths(yes  he wasnt an eidget  he knew it was D W) infamous film and particular to Woodrow Wilsons racist White House  Couldnt you smell tar boiling under the smell and pop of popcornhear the hemp ropes twisted into nooses bellicose bloodhounds hankering for the chase Bubbas and Bums and Bulls(hed like to see a black man not in whiteface playing Alabamas Commissioner of Public Safety wearing a cheap 50s hat) bellowing southernly Sic em!
                          fundamentalists ranging scot-free  unblemished tabula rasas on the scent of the Word passed down from-on-high always wound him up tight



Aw man youre real dark

No no hellno  Im not  I play a mean tambourine( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S5Vz-z4PEkk )


1859,  Saturday,  2  9. 17
0948,  Twosday,  12 9. 17
Eric Clapton  After Midnight
Bull Connor https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9kT1yO4MGg Birmingham Alabamas Commissioner of Public Safety
Lemon Pipers  Green Tambourine

12.9.17






sometimes his granddaughter was an ornery cuss

when she got dug inan she dug in real quickfixed her mind she didnt take account of any argument which antagonised hers that provided counterballast or questioned holes in her reason

she just knew

and knowing she was ruthless


she said that she wanted to write her own message to her teacher

I didnt say that you couldntI . . I was offering to help with words if you needed them

No  I dont think I need your help



Youre welcome


Excuse me

I said youre welcome  Youre thick sometimes babywhich always astonishes me given your intelligence  If someone offers you helpdespite whether or not you asked you should always thank them for their consideration  They dont have to consider a damn thing for you  Usually people offer out of the kindness of their heart
So you say . . . what


Thank you
Not like thatnot begrudgingly  The only reason Im taking my time with you now and not walking away is because Ill not let you be rude  and if you persist Ill make your life hell  Because I can  Because Im your grandfather and Ill not have you suffer words that make you to be less than who you can be  and more often are
Dont challenge me when Im trying to help you
Im not doing it for me
Im doing it for you


Im sorry

If youre truly sorry you dont say youre sorrythose are empty words mere reflex said without thought  If youre truly saying youre sorry to me  then you apologise to me




Grampa  Im . . I . . . I apologise

What are you apologising for

What

Why are you apologising to me

Im apologising to you because I said Thank you bu  . . what was the word

Ill tell you the word after you use your own word  Thats what you want to do on your own correct


Yes  My own words

Then use your own words to apologise


I . . I apologise for saying Thank you meanly

Yes  You were being mean    Thank you for saying so  And thank you for your apology 

The word I used was begrudgingly  When you begrudge you resent it you feel bitter about it you are annoyed  you take exception  You begrudge   A good vocabulary is a very good thing  It provides you many options


I understand


Dont burn bridges love  In this life we need all the help we can get   We cant do it on our own
If you burn bridges between yourself and others youll find youll have a lonely life  Now if thats what you want  then keep up how youre acting and talking  I begrudge no one the life they want to leadto live  However youre still a bit too young to make that choice so youll have to suffer me for your poor manners and words
Got me

Yes  I got you Grampa

Best you do  I can be an ugly thorn in your side if you dont relent




later she showed him her note to her new second grade teacher 

she sounded out words she didnt know

she spelled phonetically

Benjamin Franklin would be very proud of you sweetheart

Benjamin Franklin

Yes  Ill explain later   One thingits a fine note  I think youre teacher will sincerely enjoy it  just one word thats throwing me  If you dont mind please

Which word

This one here he pointed  U – M – A – S – E – N

Really Grampa

Dont be incredulous surprised baby

I am  Sorry 

Sorrys okay now  But dont be   Just please help me

Oh Grampa  Thats amazing shes umasen  

Youre fortunate to have an usamen teacher

I am  Thank you very much

Youre welcome



Early September, 2017
0941,  Monday,  11  9. 17
Smog  Butterflies Drown in Wine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tLyMCL_GpyU