3.4.17



theres very little to add to this 

                          Nazi SS Colonel Hans Landa (Christoph Waltz) impersonates President Donald Drumpf  I love rumours! Facts can be so misleading.
 



0030,  Monday,  3  4. 17

2.4.17




When a student is ready a teacher appears
                                   so much jactitation(the twitching of a limb or muscle)
(he preferred jactittation ­­– the heaving of breasts)

when When a student is ready a teacher appears is said  when he embraced itthoroughly imagined it  he wondered where his teacher was   he had always been a student-of-sorts but those he would justify as teachershis last teachers were long ago  Mr Wappler a well-known Chicago Blackstone Group painter  he asked him if he would teach him how to paint  but after three weeks in midstroke he took the paintbrush out of his hand  Boy he said as a-matter-of-fact Youre no painter  still their ensuing relationshipan odd go-between between a nine year old boy and a 73 year old man taught him worldly things that resonated today  it was a breathtaking relationship   he didnt have a teacher again until high school Mr Benthal his mechanical arts drafting teacher  Benthal(as he preferred) told him that he was astonished by his unique ideas regarding architecturethat he was thoroughly excited captivated and enthralled My God Im more your student than your teacher  Benthal told him he wasnt familiar with anyone in the field who drew sliding exterior walls walls lowered like drawbridges room partitions curtains hung from overhead tracks to alter or arranged new rooms in an otherwise static structure  Benthal called his architecture Organic   

he confided in Benthal that he wishedcould only wish he could manipulate some elementelements something like DNA
to incite pliable perhaps living domiciles  homes  cells aggregating  in the shadeand like of a human body


it had been a long time



apparently he wasnt ready




1317,  Saturday,  1  4. 17
1345, Sunday,  2  4. 17
1389 days remaining or fewer Russian by

quote from Nnedi Okorafor  The Book of Phoenix
Fela Kuti  Shuffering and Shmiling  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y--5IlljO78

1.4.17



the day descends(night descends – why this day)  ahthis day  because its the months end the day his family lefttheir stay at an end  its the day hes held hopefully onto ending a string of twentyfive weeks since hes seen his girlfriendhis partner(the terms girlfriend boyfriend never cut it to understand their commitment)
                                                                   the day descends
a countdown to a determined end

when something ends it descendsit  is in decline



he sat leaned back in his old Steelcase sec chair and looked at what he wrote

Dark he thought
             but his idealism was affected by his realism  he wore them at the same time  


hed never be a fanatic



when her text message arrived in the morning complaining that she wasnt feeling well  he tipped the scales she left uncommitted titter-tottering  he arraigned it NOitd been too many times 

when she called late that evening she was hurt that he was unsurprised

he didnt apologise 

she said she missed him badly(raising the stakes working leverage)

he replied Ah I miss you too love  Though its not what you say its what you do

What are you sayinYoure acting passive aggressive

Im not being passive aggressive  What would you say to mewhat would you say if I stood you up thirteen times consecutively over twentyfive weeks  Then I said I missed you badly . . .
. . . Im not well

Yes  Then dont make plans  And certainly dont tell me that you dont want to commit to a timeframea timeframe Ive set
I didnt  I asked a week in advance to meet Friday evening 

You abide timeframes every day of every week working   

That said your incentive is money 

Im not offering money 

Youll work unwellYou wont see me unwell despite us living together while you were unwell

When I say its not what you say its what you do Im making a simple statement of fact 

If youre irritated by that fact its your irritation


And youre not irritated

No 

Im realistic  I put my finger in my mouth wet it then hold it up to the wind to find out in what direction it blows  I also look around me for clues                                                                   

Im fine 

Ill not coerce you to spend time with me  You can or cant  Thus far you havent  Pretty simple arithmetic



0714,  Friday,  31  3. 17
2040,  Friday,  31  3. 17
1390 days remaining or fewer Russian by

Bob Marley  Waiting In Vain  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTG7ZxO3-sE