1.2.17


fewer  or 1449 days



with the refreshing rains and punishing winds of this California winter he made of it a fond habit of walking down to the creek that bisected the town to witness its tumultuous flow take in its mad free churning appreciate it as a force of Nature

at one of the four crossbridges he visited however while luxuriating in the sight of the fast water he recognised with some dismay that the colony of feral cats which usually peered up at him from the overgrowth and vines the downed trees and fallen limbs on either bank were absent

it unsettled him 

crossing back to the east side of the suspension bridge he saw a homeless man making his way out from under it

no one ever looks up(though he often did)

the man was oblivious of him

the wary way he winded reminded him either of two things  he walked picking his way carefully so as not to catch his foot and fall   or he was hunting

it recalled to him when he walked across the frozen Des Plaines River as a boy  a risky shortcut to take to the bowling alley on Milwaukee Avenue his heart beating in his ears distracting sliding his feet listening to the ice whisper if he was only heavier that it would buckle snap and drag him down and under glassy sheaves under crystal panes of broken ice 
but also when he was a young man and hunted elk in the Bitterroot Mountains keenly aware of the winds direction that it would reveal his scent give him up to the bulls  but also the deliberateness of hunting with a Remington chambered rifle whose accuracy he honed to one hundred yards  a bush rifle

several in the party he hunted with had Weatherbys sighted to fourhundred yards

where was the skill or sport in that hunt

the old Nez Perce Indians hunted the Bitterroot with bows and arrows  stealth was their wary companion

he had no companionship with these men and wasnt fool enough to believe he did or ever would  that was particularly set when returned to the chinked cabin one evening they admitted to throwing shots at a fleeing elk and where the animal had stumbled they found blood  not a carcass

they quit their hunt then rather than track the wounded animal

endurance  elks were known for their wild endurance

he was appalled

his first season he shot an elk in the skull  a head-on shot

it was hiding in a copse its antlers angled distinguishing themselves from the upright stalks of the brush 

he quietly went to his hip then the ground and sighting the elk between the eyes he squeezed the trigger 

its head and the copse bucked

excited he strode the seventy yards to the animal but as he neared it he was downwind he smelled rot  and upon the animal he realised it was gutshot and crawled off into the brush to die 

the rented tangle of branches held up its head after it drew its last tormenting breath

the unknown hunter dishonored the bull and dishonored and disgraced themselves   


he watched the homeless man suddenly paused  then he squatted to something at his feet

from his vantage point it appeared to be a scrap of mottled cloth

he fingered it briefly  then standing wiped his hand on his pantleg

then he kept walking  picking his way as he did


after a bit the man stopped this curious manner  he came across an animal trail that backtracked up the wash to the street and took it

he didnt move as he watched him 

the man remained oblivious to his presence

when he made the street he turned left and headed up the cross street that would take him to another bridge downcreek


he walked to the corner and stood awhile watching the homeless mans receding back  then he went down the animal trail and close to the brown water he worked his way upcreek towards the bridge  the scrap homeless fingered had made him curious for some untold a fierce untoward reason

when he squatted  and looked   he recognised what he feared it might be


a skinned out pelt attached to the head of a cat


homeless was eating feral cats 

there were other tatters about him  but he averted his eye knowing where there was one there would be others

he didnt want more of this horror in his day 


while some might ruthlessly applaud his initiative  though those cunts would never dine on cats  he had a feral cat indoor and one outdoor that he Cared for



he doublebacked to the trail and up to the side street 

he would track homeless in short order

he was downwind





conceived 1529,  Twosday,  24  1. 17
1321,  Sunday,  29  1. 17
1144,  Tuesday,  31  1. 17



last day of January 2017end of its first month

Man  got out of it without him fingering his asshole then absently wiping it off on the nuclear button
some bright soul was keeping it at least out of arms length

Awright
     so why was he hearing strains of Maurice Chevaliers Thank Heaven for Little Girls?the two things obviously werent unrelated
             an amateur a misogynist an accused molesterpossible rapist  read about deviantsHell  a pedophile couldnt be lurking traipsing too far behind in the trailing yellow dust in his wake  trailing him like the miasma of a thick moist fart

1727,  Twosday,  31  1. 17
fewer than 1449 to go

31.1.17

1450 days remain or less




he thought only his family -- he had that habit of thinking ‘only’ a sneaking prejudice -- he thought only his family had conceived of Reggae Friday and celebrated it by playing its its the music and scribbling at the onset of penned letters or in light-transmissions on the internet and through texts
                                             Happy Reggae Friday! 
                                                                his ‘only’ thought became a shambles when he walked into the health club(yes he honored their perception – to him it was a gym) after a lengthy absence and Bob Marley greeted him singing Jammin over the PA systemWha?

he crossed the wide lobby to the check-in desk and as he scanned his membership card he said to the clerk  Mornin Andrew  Whats with the reggae

You dont care for it

On the contrary I dig it

Ya mon its Reggae Friday

(damn  should have patented it ten years ago) Yeah man  It is

Where you been mon  Its been awhile

Yeah  Dont remind me Im no Houdini Fought my way out of a web of ill health but held up the gym in my mind throughout it as a goal to get back to   And here I am  Been a tough climb   Really wish Id been Houdini

Sorry to hear that  But welcome back mon

JesusAndrew he laughed  Ya gotta brush up on your Jamaican

Andrew laughed

Not irie

he laughed again  No Im not just having a little fun

Yes  I follow

Oh  by the way  would you please stop over at membership before you go upstairs  Something funny flashed on the screen when you scanned-in

Funny

Im sure its no problem  Read that your account is on freeze

Isnt freeze something Id request

Yes it is

I havent

Im sure Jennie in membership . .
. . The blonde

Yes  But theyre all blondes

Yeah he feigned his head to the bank of offices across the lobby  The blonde in the office

Yes  Jennie is the blonde in the office  Thats her

Okay Andrew Ill talk with Jennie  So good to see you again

Good seeing you too


he crossed the lobby between café tables and chairs and behind the first wall at his left holding a flat screen televising non-stop sports was Membership

Jennies office door was partially opened  not that he couldnt see her bent over her desk at paperwork through its glass panel 

he rapped softly on the glass

she didnt start  she wouldnt  she lifted her head let her eyes focus then nodded for him to enter

Jennie

Yes

Hi  Im . .
. . I know who you are

Oh  he was surprised  Andrew said I should speak to you about a freeze on my account

Hmm   she turned quickly to her computer her fingers faster and breezed his name in   I see

I dont  I didnt request my account be frozen

No  It seems not  Theres usually a ten dollar fee is associated with a freeze request  and you havent been assessed a fee

Nor would I pay for something I didnt ask for

You  No  I suspect you wouldnt

Correct  Does it say who froze it and when

Thats not important

Its important to me

Okay   Kathy

I know Kathy  Workman Comp Kathy  Yes

Yes

And when

Mid-December

Okay  Thank you  So were good now Jennie  I can go workout

Yes  Were good

Great  Im backBack in the Saddle again

Jennie blinked

Back in the Saddle Aerosmith

she shook her head  Im sorry I dont know it

Ah  A generational thing Im sure

Yes  Probably

Anyway thank you for your help Jennie  Its good to see you again

Youre welcome  Nice to see you too

Thanks  Soon to be an eyesore again

she laughed out loud  
              Oh goodness  the ice-queen has thawed a touch  shed always been for as long as hed known of her closed  unreceptive  odd attributes he thought particularly since she headed up membership  she obviously prefers cloistered in her office  she certainly wasnt the face of the health club 

And for a blonde not his cup of tea she was attractive

as he began up the staircase to the mens lockerroom what he recognised the most about her during their interaction wasnt her taciturn way  but rather how gaunt she was  someone may think slender  the last he saw her she was pleasantly fleshy  had round soft curves  womanly  though now she was angular 

changing into his workout shorts and tshirt he entertained  I wonder if she hasnt been well too


it was a good beginning

he was deliberate 
 
         he refamiliarised himself with the Nautilus equipment worked out its manipulation and set weights he was comfortable beginning at again as he had so many times before  some might say too many times before  and those he considered pessimists or fatalists and had little tolerance for  Comon he taunted them Lifes a fuckin game hurtles are part of it some you see and leap over others cut your legs out from under you and you go down hard  So you fuckin get up dont whine about it  he gave pessimists almost as wide a berth as he gave businessmen  he had no time to waste with either


then exhausted  a good exhaustion  he returned down the stairs into the lobby and casting a look towards membership he saw another gal he knew Christy sitting at one of the two exposed desks

she saw him

they waved to each other at the same time

she stood as he crossed again through the café tables and chairs(the glass-paneled door was shut) and he saw too that she was gaunt(hmm  Andrew now that he thought about it was slimmer than he remembered)

Christy  How are you he said  he shook her hand

Im fine  Its so good seeing you again  Its been awhile

It has  Ive not been well  I hope that will suffice  Either Andrew or Jennie can fill you in if youd like  Youll excuse me but youre trimnot that I didnt like what I saw before

I have  Everyone here has been so supportive   It was a business decision she said

Business

Wellyes  This is a health club  You would expect a health club to portray  her hands worked the air between them . .
. . Healthy people

Yes Exactly

Christy was pleasantly fleshy  had the round soft curves as Jennie did
So corporate decided across the board all employees . .
. . Are to be healthy or fit  as they saw

Yes

Hmm   Anyway  I saw you so I wanted to say hello and well be seeing more of each other again

Oh wonderful  I have to say your absence was glaring  We talked among ourselves here if anyone had seen youFacebook  you dont have Facebookyour not on social media  nobody knew anything about you

No Im not on book of faces  Did anybody check the obits

her face went slack

he laughed  Oh dont be upset  Obits are social media too Im sure you could have entered my name and not seeing it rest assured that no news is good news even if you languish not knowing

I suppose

Well  for future purposes perhapsand therell be next times  Im brushing myself off

Good for you

Thank you  So nice to see you again Christy


Christ he thought as he walked home  Business has gotten too gawddamn intrusive telling people what to do in their private lives 
          And people swallow it                       

Suggest  yeah   by all means
But otherwise back off 

Whats good for business isnt necessarily whats good for Americans* 
  


1339,  Friday,  27  1. 17
0941,  Sunday,  29  1. 17
1014,  Monday,  30  1. 17
Aerosmith  Back in the Saddle  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lX8GG3dnsp8
*Cool  Cal, President Calvin Coolidge:  “ . . the chief business of the American people is business.”