1457 days remaining or less

he tried to convince her that everything was better in the sunYouve heard sunlight is the best disinfectant 

she didnt say  

Eventually it erases everythinganything that causes you distress

she listenedhe assumed

For example he said body shaming her breath caughtshe was listening  You have a lovely body Beautiful  And you know how desperately I want to experience you in the light of day   And we know that shyness isnt one of your attributes If anyone is forthcoming in your face  its you

Youre brave

You have a stoic mind

Youre not one who usually is easily swayed or manipulated

So whats the hubbub bub                             

                   she burst out laughing tickled by his remark(perhaps her solemnity eroding)  then she laughed demurely though sustained    then she insisted My dislike or reticence if you would of exposing my body to you is that
I would be less embarrassed if I was in better shape  Perhaps in shape then Id feel more inclined to have you see me
in the light of day

he was failing again

he could never get across to her have her buy into her beauty her loveliness how her inner beauty informed her overall beauty informed his forever aching-desire for her like a child after candy   not ever

                                                                     no  not ever

and as they slipped apart as their love became less and less a bond  I love you  words  not love  he anguished that she would never see herself as he saw her anguished that she limited herself and those limitations were wholly hers inveighed by her impressions by the derelict upbringing and loathing she suffered at her mothers feet a mother who always sought more for herself than her daughter  inflicted on her a perverse mothering

and that repression and violation went deeper deeper than her intellect  a seemingly impermeable stain       

if she couldnt love herself how could she love him or anyone

he couldnt hurt over her any more

his body was resistant to pain 

unfortunately his heart wasnt

that archaic line and truth occurred to him  You can lead a horse to water but you cant make it drink   

he couldnt strangle it

his intentions were plain he never minced words

he was understanding that her mind and heart werent capable of shaking the leash or harness she pulled in all her life its labor wasnt something she could put down she could violate

(he never said she was mind-fucked)

he wouldnt be able to pursue her sunlight without her

1324,  Monday,  16  1. 17

1025,  Twosday,  17  1. 17

he was reading Isaiah Berlins The Crooked Timber of Humanity and happened upon a quote on page 15(not deep into any book) which had that whiffthat effluviumthat rot of Drumpf through and through:

                                                                   “Since (only) I know the . . . true path to the ultimate solution of the problems of (America), I know which way to drive the human caravan, and since you are ignorant of what I know, you cannot be allowed to have liberty of choice even in the narrowest limits, if the goal is to be reached.”

anyone can provide words out of context

                            the politically-minded and -active people(operatives) prefer to do exactly that in order to persuade and cajole and intimidate the milling sheep who follow their words and finger-pointing

however he wanted to tamp down and arrest the hyperbole in the sentence that preceded it although remarked of the proverbial number of eggs needed to be broken to make an omelet . . . “(in) the faith of Lenin, of Trotsky, of Mao . . . of Pol Pot(do your homework!)  and also the sentence that concluded the paragraph: “What choice have we, who have the knowledge, but to be willing to sacrifice them all(. . . (the resistance based on ignorance or malfeasance) must be broken and hundreds of thousands may have to perish to make millions happy for all time.”

Yes  he provided context although jimmied its order

but since only Drumpf knows  pay no attention to the man or men behind the curtain*

Drumpf  the yakidock  the humbug

 

                              for the remaining 1458 days(or less) it wasnt going to get any better

1400,  Monday,  23  1. 17

2105,  Monday,  23  1. 17

* The Wizard of Oz: Pay No Attention  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZR64EF3OpA

1458 days remain or fewer

Meat whoreswhyja  whyja call em meat whores  Isnt whore sufficient

No  

No     Youre very adamant

Yes

Yes

   Care to expoundI know yaknow what expound means

Yes I do

Yes

        Im waiting

I simply wanted to distinguish them from you and I

You and I Us

Yes

Yawanna extrapolate

                Yaknow what extrapolate means

I do

You do

I doWhats with the short leash

Im yankin it to hear you say exactly what you meannot these soundbites few syllables  Expound dammit

Awright  Where the hells your notorious patience

Spent  Now open your mouth and say

AwrightMeat whores  I held them up as meat whores to distinguish them from you or I If we were meat whores wed be gaythats its parlance gay not homosexualright  Like I dont knowI really dont know  Like I dont know if a black person prefers black Negro AfroAmerican  King referred to them as Negro  Id defer to King

I dont know

Well King was unfortunately murdered a long time ago  If Black Lives Matter I believe a black person prefers being called black

Yeah  Well there you go

There we go   And . . .

And  Really   Stop please  Were whores too

Ahh  So you want to distinguish between whores between us whores

Yes

I hadnt considered that

Well now you may

Christ  The way your mind works

Uhhmm

1653,  Monday,  16  1. 17