5.1.17




Stones  Sister Morphine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C39kQoprfP0



he hadnt noticed before  had not come in from the cold outdoors blowing warm breath into his cupped hands  walked in with his head down 

if he hadnt he wouldnt have seen its reflection in the glass of the antique vanity they had in the diningroom sharing space to eat and keeping her studio  

she loved the natural light which filled the room and worked mornings and afternoons when she was home


                                                                      home   when she was home



itd been awhile


atop the vanity she placed a Caribbean blue colored-glass Ball jar filled with colored art pens and pencils

it lay on its side just under the glass

the reflection and the jar formed a perfect chevron bisected by the glasss soft-curved beveled woodframe

the jar wasnt violently upset

simply turned on its side off its wide bottom 

it lay as if in repose


the violence would have been niceanything other than the sameness of every day would have been nice



violence appealed to him




their cat must have been scratching his chin on the pens and pencils and turned the jar onto its side

he didnt belong on the vanity

try telling a cat where it belongs

if a cat had a tongue to say itd say I go anywhere I damn well please

he liked that she did too about cats

they were unfettered  independent   Shaddup  Feed me  Clean my litterbox  Treat me

that was on their Direction label in fine print


there were days he wished he was a cat  although not for the seemingly endless cat-naps interrupted by eating and shitting and pissing(he said pissing for her – the term upset him – pissing – piss – it seemed so vulgar  derogatory  particularly when coming out of her well-formed beautiful mouth)(he thought it said it because he missed her and anything to engender her presence was keen to him)



he wished the Ball jar was violently on its side because he pushed her against the vanity her hands atop it her fingers curled at its edge as he yanked her skirt up yanked her panties down and took her from behind  rutting  pleasuring himself  a hand at her hip pulling its knob of bone the other hand up her blouse shoved roughly under her bra grabbing her tit squeezing it pinching her nipple she barks in pain both hands at her tits her blouse ripped bone buttons scatter

he bites her ear tells her Tell me Fuck me

Fuck me she echoes thrills Fuck me Fuckme

they fuckthe Ball jar topples scattering pens and pencils the vanity rocks when he comes close to cumming he pulls out of heryanks her around by a shoulder and titslams her ass against the vanityfucks her

                                           he pulls out
to her exasperation
to a snarl formed on her lips 
he smiles into it  shoves her down onto her knees fucks her snarl his cock wet with her pussy hecums! his legs give outhe drops to his knees  he kisses her  kisses her deeply tastes her and him in her mouth  kissing her he grabs her hair the back of her neck  with his other hand he fingers hertwo fingers her clit quivers shecums! he pulls her head back kisses and bites her throat  he shoves her over onto her back pulls her legs apart  then laying down with her he spreads her pussy with his fngers an laps her an sucks an sups

their cat sits off to a side watching tail twitching readied to flee

she gasps gasps panicks shecums!again unmercifully she grinds his face against her clit thrusts her pelvisEat it! her hands yanking on his hair an ears  shes directing now



violence appealed to them




 1303,  Monday,  2  1. 17


 

4.1.17






bugs suicide still haunts him

appleseed remains as quiet as The Sphinx up in her corner  


she didnt accuse him



she remains perfectly still  and fragile   and lethal                                                                          
how long can a spider survive without sustenance

he couldnt remember the last time she silked an insect and sucked out its melted innards

hed been with her every morning afternoon evening at the end of every bath every day as he pursued his health


she quivered to acknowledge his puffed breaths up into her corner raised a foreleg or two  then went still again

he wished her good mornings good afternoons good nights




                                             he found himself missing her now 
every living thing dies

and he alone would bear witness to her death



bugs suicide still haunts him



1629,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  12. 16