9 for 9
100 percent over 11 weeks those were the statisTics of
their failed dates their sudden fastings
the misfortune forced on their relationship which twisted turned and skated on the
very thin surface of her frolic in the dark malaise of the relationship she contended with with
her mother
she was living with her because her mother couldnt live by herself(which he saw quite differently)
during these 11 weeks she and her
mother had visited the ER 5 times apiece
and during this stretch he also was finally emerging from a bout with an undefined auto-immune
condition that he vied against holistically rather than submit to his
rheumatologists recommendation a prescription of cancer drugs to suppress pain
he had been an athlete
learning to tolerate pain was intrinsic
so with 2001 Space Odyssey
monkey instincts and tool-making he was able to fashion work-arounds to hold
things open jars and cans and handle pots and pans that allowed him to feed and
manage his needs
amid this saga(or beguiling travesty)
his family at remove and elsewhere
across the country took offense(as families and cults usually do) that she wasnt with him tending and caring for
him
they furthur mistook his
reasoning and words(again) that he was defending her she didnt need to be defended she was doing exactly what she
needed for herself
The last fucking thing I
need he said is to be tended or mothered I got my hands at my pains throat Im exactly where I want and need to be
his family his parents siblings and daughters did not agree
they gave him short shrift
they tried to annihilate his decisions tried to second guess him rather than simply listening to him to his explanation which he felt was precise and clearcut
he told them he appreciated their concern but beyond it they had to recognise that as a mature man the eldest a father
he did not neglect them fail to care and provide for them therefore they should respect his the decisions
why would he now make deleterious
decisions for himself
Trust is implicit Works both ways
When youve made decisions I may
have asked your reasoning your thought-process but I never tried to change your minds or rework your decisions I trusted your abilities to do for yourself
Why dont you trust me
he told them they unfortunately had their backs to his movie screen I cant turn you around to see the cigarette burns flickering briefly in the upper righthand corner cues to help you recognise or portend dramatic moments youre missing or that a reel needs to be changed to keep and sustain my movie my continuity Not yours You do not attack yours
Ive heard all this before Youre beatin an old mule playing
a broken record Ive put on a new one
You aint listening
his and hers their current 9 for 9 paled literally in comparison with the
uncounted unknowable untoward numbers he had put up with with his family
they were a slew and whatever number a slew was sufficed
1757, Munday,
26 12. 16
1236, Toosmunday,
27 12. 16
The Heavy How Do You Like Me Now https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sVzvRsl4rEM
