he wasnt anal
never cared much for that
remark assessment(didnt care for the word) for anyone
least of all himself
his distinct sense his
overwhelming sense of space level equilibrium and balance were perceptions he
developed and honed from years bent over drafting boards and tables working t-squares
and triangles creating mechanical and architectural drawings for school
he saw things differently than
people who were unaccustomed to seeing hidden details
it was a matter of perspective
not anal
but he could supposed
one persons anal was anothers pain in the ass
usually the accusation of being
anal was rudely proffered and by someone who tended towards sloppy
likely if they kept their mouths
shut their work wouldnt then have been compared or their sloppiness more apparent
but they just couldnt help
themselves
their attempt to embarrass and/or
shame the other dumped the embarrassment and/or shame on them
they projected
virtually all the work he did during
his twenties thirties and forties were rarely compared to others
the idea or the personification
of projection was alien
he had difficulty wrapping his
head around it
it didnt go off like a starburst
for some time but when it did unfortunately it didnt blind him it swept clean
his vision as a laser corrected nearsightedness farsightedness
and/or astigmatism
sadly
once having gone there he couldnt
come back and not see
he struggled with not
being naïve not being ignorant
he was harsh to begin with
he became harsher
he habitualised the phrase I am sorry to say
then he proceeded to say
he didnt win very many friends
he wasnt looking for friends
fact was friendly
0003, Thursday,
20 10. 16
Sona Jobarteh Saya https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=muKYuDVs_kk
