3.10.16



editorialeyes 1  10. 16 post


                          “he supposed Los abandonment was simple animal logic
indie and his remaining sister and brother Sevvy and Bentley benefited by Los exclusion   a lost cause is lost cause
big brains are antagonised by simple premises  their emotions aroused . . .



Shes going to die

She is


she mumbled over her weeping And you wont save her

I am not stepping in between what Los mother did according to her instincts  I accept her decision”





if women had six tits(play the game – I know theyre teats) and could bear a litter they might resort to rummaging among it and make the no-longer-so-hard decision to exit one two or possibly off the whole damn mess  sired by a degenerate male  and saddle up for another try
                              because(Id lay hardearned cash down on the barrelhead) there are men who would have no qualms and love having a barbed cock to make a woman scream as they fucked



before 1640 and after 1545 in the bathtub,  Saturday,  1  10. 16

Jasmine Thompson  Mad World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENJUB5thpB4

2.10.16



he had this thing this . .  .  interruption  that tapped his cheek as his niece did while she sat in his lap

hed fall into deep conversation with his brothers sisters their spouses and friends and feeling ignored she turned in his lap faced him and then shed reach up and ever-so-gently tap tap tap his cheek

Ohmygoodness  Sorry sweetheart  I havent forgotten you   You have been so very patient

he excused himself from the conversation


his family and friends seemed always to be put out when he acknowledged her    used offended eyes

Aw comon Who are the adults here Check where were atOkay Ill checked where were at and well pick it up later


later when he did because they never did they said it was water under the bridge they werent interested in discussing it furthur

No he pointed to his head tapped his temple Its right here its not sluffed off down a river  Ill remind you if you prefer

We dont
       one always said for the rest of them


Okay



it was only one of the reasons why he preferred talking to children than adults

adults forgot how to play

apparently they were entitled

he never grasped their sense of entitlement over childrenHell  their children  but he knew there had always existed perpetuated by his parents their parents that selfish premise that children should be seen not heard that somehow smaller human beings had nothing worthwhile or of interest to say and share  perhaps forgetting that they were just larger scaled beings and their bigness alone wasnt sufficient to overwhelm a childs imagination thoughts interpretations or frankly their worthiness

in his youth he was consistently overrode quieted by adults
except 
      in the company of older wiser adults who – for the most part – werent his relatives

he learned and followed their lead he got down as they did so when they spoke with him they were at his height and equality

why wouldnt what a child said be interesting  given half a chance these pint-size people had very interesting perceptions even if they lacked the words to properly express them but an engaged adult could offer words suggest possibilities help them wrangle what they wanted to share

their acuity astounded and perplexed him
                               Tabula rasaOh horseshit Theyre scribbled all over

he sought their company because he preferred their utter originality lack of indoctrination and pedagogy


hed met two savants in his life and neither was taller than his bellybutton




this thing this interruption tapping at his cheek always sought his attention and pulled him away from whatever it was that he was doing 
           and always to his pleasure discomfort and amusement

he was reading two books going back and forth between them when he tired of he entertained the other and since their genera was similar his back and forth was subtle

not that it always was

he often read books side by side that were disparate and the leap from one to the other was jarring  but invigorating

the book he wasnt reading lay open a bookmarker rested between its pages in case a breeze lapped it and turned it from where he stopped

but what captured his attention  interrupted him  out of the corner of his eye he saw an o was filled in  a dot though immaterial   and looking closer he recognised that inside the o something wiggled moved

he bookmarked the book he was reading to take this interruption
the smallest spider he ever laid eyes on crept out of the o

he tapped his fingernail on the page behind it and it crouched  tapping a second time it scurried then stopped reared around and charged

it pulled up short of his tapping  crouched again  then deftly spun and beat a hasty retreat across the lettered page
One-onethousand two-onethousand three-onethousand four  touch football  hed be coming across the line of scrimmage

the spider continued to flee


it was the teeniest tiniest spider he ever laid eyes on

fit inside an o



perhaps his teeniest tiniest interruption ever




making the edge of the page it seemed to slide down the pages hed read and making the white painted porch railing exposed it sought refuge under a broken edge the shell of a paint blister

he tried to image that optick(sometimes his interruptions ran roughshod over each other)

a hummingbird rushed up into his face

he could feel the fan of its wings on his cheek

it reminded him of the sonorous hum the early afternoon tinged by bees working the rosemary blossoms  he wondered where their wild hive was hidden


Ah he sighed  My glorious interruptions
                                   imagined and made
    

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Stravinsky said I had only my ear to help me; I heard and I wrote what I heard. I am the vessel through which The Rite (of Spring) passed.

he was getting a lot of that recently reading it hearing it

he said it  wrote it   deferred to it


vessel



it sounded nice



a vessel(vassal eruiopted in his ears  someone accusing him)(he even looked around for who may have howled it  his eyes falling on his housecat who wandered into the study out the hallway)
Givin me a hard time indie

oblivious indie continued in up to him then jumped up into his lap and laid down

every cat he ever had preferred his lap  and when there were five in the houseWHEN he was left with five cats he literally had to dole his lap out and it wasnt unlike them once he set them down they begrudged him and went around to the end of a nonexistent line  though a line it was

always first up was Stormy the dame  

she was the runt of her litter and he might have called her a runt if they all werent
but they were
each and every one
Storm Smellycat Bajus Puka Tigger
he came home from work and the cattery that was their house adopted another without asking him or for his input argument or benediction   

then what is now that bitched common precept  It is what it is  that spat-harangue he wished had a neck so he could grab it by its throat and choke and shake it to death


Yes    I resent it  


it was what it was as long as he didnt have to share his bed with them


and he didnt



though very curiouslyand hed admit as much   indie slipped into bed or beat him to bed at night and he didnt mind
Whaddafuck was that

maybe because he was one animal  and he wasnt the runt

his sister Lo was the runt and their first-time mother Link took off with her the second day Lo was alive

the next door neighbours little girl found Lo three days later dying nestled in some ivy groundcover under bushes not twenty meters from their house

out of cat earshot


Link cared for her other three kittens extremely well 

he supposed Los abandonment was simple animal logic  indie and his remaining sister and brother Sevvy and Bentley benefited by Los exclusion  a lost cause is lost cause  big brains are antagonised by simple premises  their emotions aroused

he took Lo from the little girl set her in his lap(as undoubted she would prefer) and sat with her until she died a couple of hours later

Arent you going to take her to the vet the little girl asked tears in her eyes

No 

You wont save her

No

Why wont you save her

Because something inside her is wrong  And while this seems cruel(A learning lesson passed in his thoughts) this is only another aspect of living and Life

Shes going to die

She is


she mumbled over her weeping And you wont save her

I am not stepping in between what Los mother did according to her instincts  I accept her decision




maybe it was because he could accept an animals decision that he was benefited being a vessel a creative


a hearer of words occurring to him from somewhere



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