24.7.15

hello



Tull
Aqualung
                                                                                                                                            
he  anyone  would be at a loss if they attempted to affix any other I D to him


he lifted up his eyes glimpsing forward from his Algren  so not to walk through anyone
                                                                                     
doing so he saw this ungainly wraith walking directly towards him
staring back at him from the diminishing sidewalk between them
 

his black eyes were set deep in his skull
peering from anguished hollows

he was a stark man   unsettling

knotted tight at his forehead he wore a marl-colored bandanna
it held his greasy hair up out of his sunburnt face and crosshatched eyebrows  

under his wanton eyes  sharp cheeks  pocked with blackheads and many pustules   which also rode the drawn gauntness at either side of his sucked-in broken-tooth face

uneven whiskers ran under his broke hawkish nose  and thickened at his pointy chin



it was impossible he might ever have been an attractive man



he wore a military khaki jacket  it was soiled and hung off his rail-thin body as if off a wire hanger
liver-spotted ulcerated hands hung limp and near-lifeless out of its sleeves



his filthy pants   he had no idea what color they were originally   bagged at his knees and ridiculed what he dare call shoes  bits of cracked and broken leather held together with black electricians tape and silver straps of duct tape

and even as he returned to read his book   these  details  reappeared to him seamlessly  held fast in a raw snapshot that roiled madly in his astonished eyes

reading  he could feel the old mans glare scald the top of his head  taking his measure  as it were  with laserish intensity and circumspect

when the distance he determined between them had eroded and he readied to pass inside him  to his wizened left  leaving him the riot of street traffic  he again lifted his eyes to the old mans as he intended

Good morning  he said to the gentleman  boldly taking in his lackluster blackblue eyes with his own  unashamed

Hello
the old man replied

they passed


he couldnt quite understand  digest  or identify the timbre in the old mans somber hello

it seemed a hello 
as if the old man wasnt sure he would understand English

a hopeful hello


then it seemed a haunted hello  as if the old man wasnt flesh and blood  but something else  that the old man didnt pass him  but passed a phantom in his imagination


a fearful hello

 
a dont-hurt-me hello


a haunting echo of a hello   a hello      hello           that was never returned





he walked on nearly the entire block looking at a sudden page of senseless hieroglyphs
his mind beckoning him  bitching him with every footfall to stop walking and turn and look to see if he really passed anyone

he turned 
the old mans disheveled form hobbled and staggered in the long blue distance


inside his throat there croaked a hello that he refused to emit

he tried hard not say hello
otherwise trying to encourage or invoke a goodness  for the day  
Good morning
Good afternoon
Good evening

hello  had never inspired him


but then he never heard a hello  like the old mans hello



he strangled it in his throat  hello  and hawked it out onto the ground with a companion of green snot and yellowish phlegm


he spat out Aqualung




morning,  Day-Between-two-Ts,  22  7. 15
0034,  Friday,  24  7. 15

23.7.15



Sometimes you see shit in your dreams  the garden-variety   not clever shit
and waking in the morning   stuck like chewinggum to your soul  It lingers
you remember . . .
                               Its right there  smiling  making you think youre suddenly
clandestinely  in on something that you cant possibly say No to
as if It was just some negligible parcel

you carried It out of lalaland

you must have carried It out for a reason

                                                                   into Reality



he had done that more times than he cared to admit

so  Out  Grinning   he pushed It onto a cold backburner
outasight  outamind
                                    for days and days on end 
                                                                               
and over those consecutive following mornings when he came into the kitchen to make coffee
scratching his balls as he walked down the hallway from the bedroom
he remembered It  just as he circled around the edge of the purring fridge

It   sat on the backburner
     bright-eyed  enthusiastic
     Fuck coffee!  did a big ol fat line and didnt bother to wipe the excess off its nose or upper lip
HIYA!

Yeah  Hiya  Chill  Havent had my coffee  you know

YUP!  DO!  WE PLAYIN TODAY!


That ought to be a question we playin today  not an endorsement

TODAY!


A question 
                  You ought to be thoughtful    tender it as a question

BEEN WAITIN!


You have 
               Patiently
                              I appreciate that

TODAY!


Let me have my coffee

he continued scratching his balls
his dreams had seen worse




It laid on the small white leather benchseat of an improbable ‘65 red Thunderbird coupe

beside him  wearing an equally improbable blonde bouffant a loose-neck red-and-white horizontal-striped cotton pullover and tight jet black capri pants  sat his girlfriend

he eyed her ample cleavage unashamed(recognizing she was his girlfriend despite her dreamy theatrical get-up  --  no guilt inspired)

laying on Its face  a brown leather tome
stamped low on Its rear
                                      Three Feathers Press


it was tough to shake an enthusiastic Three Feathers done-up in whiteface comprised of cocaine   real tough . . .


It  however  proved itself enduringly patient    

which he found was an attractive  very desirable  singular attribute  that drew and compelled him
what could he possibly do with a Three Feathers Press




Ahem  she said as if she was reading his mind

Yes baby  Dont mean to ignore you you look sensational a tad confused   distracted

Really  she said

Yes   really

Baby  Youre sitting beside me Im dressed like Im dressed and you havent a clue want to do with Three Feathers Press

Open the book


he didnt mind taking orders from her(particularly when he was dreaming)  so he obliged her
opening It he found between its vellum sheets three pressed eagle feathers

Have any ideas what you might like to do with those feathers  baby  she said as she leaned forward  her breasts rising
exaggerated  swelling between the gentle pressure she applied with her biceps


he didnt mind she could read his mind or mind taking orders or suggestions from her

the coupe vibrated shook and sighed on its high-performance steel-belted radials


two would have worked
                                        but three were   well     Ecstasy . . .




0941,  Twosday,  21  7. 15
0209,  Thursday,  23 7. 15