1.6.15



he felt set upon
                           assaulted and peppered
pounded out like flank steak
by conniving  conspirital  actors(ready for ghosts choruses and Greek Tragedy)

tiring him out  he tried to temper its maleficence
running gradients through it  striping it top to bottom  so he might better manage it                          

though his first inclination was to punch it in the mouth 
                                                                                            split its cruel curled lips                 

and trying to temper it
he remembered back to the clear high hills of his good health(he never took for granted)

suddenly trumped by pain

healing 

health trumping it

then trumped again suddenly by pain


if he cared to really remember  they were a series of painted images splashed haphazardly on the walls of his cave  

resembling explosions of himself running headlong into it or a brick wall decloaked before he could brake or swerve around it  no matter his agility 
                                                  and he was

he was tough to get off his feet

though  perhaps  thats why It used a ball peen hammer against him



he wondered what the Greeks would say  their explanation
they  like the Jews and Germans always had an explanation for Everything
whether in a word  or Most Dramatick 

and he discovered as he thought he would  the Greeks  who had their Plato and Aristotle  ran the table of the Human brain trust  had the myth of Epimetheus(literally  Afterthinker) Father of Excuses husband of Pandora(the first woman) and twin brother of Prometheus(literally  forethinker)(Whodda thought)

in his dialogue Protagorus Plato said
                                                            Epimetheus, the being in whom thought follows production, represents nature in the sense of materialism, according to which thought comes later than thoughtless bodies and their thoughtless motions(muthafucker must have had a crystal ball and stared into the Twenty-First Century)

(in Greek  --  dig it)  Επιμηθέας, το ον στο οποίο σκέψη εξής παραγωγής, αντιπροσωπεύει χαρακτήρα υπό την έννοια του υλισμού, σύμφωνα με την οποία η σκέψη έρχεται αργότερα από ό, τι αλόγιστη φορείς και απερίσκεπτη κινήσεις τους.

the Yiddish  more thrifty  had trepverter  --  staircase words

the Germans took a loan borrowing  treppenwitz

and Diderot  the French philosopher  scribbled l'esprit d'escalier writing
                                                                                                                    a sensitive man, such as myself, overwhelmed by the argument leveled against him, becomes confused and can only think clearly again (when he reaches) the bottom of the stairs

sadly the Americas or English withers pales in comparison
                                                                                               afterwit


Hammered 
                   the only thing to do  again  was to mend  dust himself off  and start all over

he threw away his towel long ago when he saw during a Golden Gloves tournament a boxers Corner could throw it
into the ring over the ropes and stop the fight
watching boxers cry   because the decision was taken out of their hands

damn near broke his heart



Who the fuck was bleeding





0057,  Saturday,  30  5. 15
1554,  Saturday,  30 5. 15

31.5.15



he had been listening going back and forth between SPKs Information Overload Unit and From Ritual to Science
but decided to ante up balls to the wall and play them concurrentlYEOW!

submit to their throbbing grinding mesmerising risingRising thewholedamnmess amesmerising Throb

SPK was an Australian industrial music noise music band and something he liked very much to listen to as he wrote 

song lyrics were the last fuckin things he wanted to hear
he didnt need more words stuffed or tucked in his ears
unless 
            as he mentioned more than a several times in passing
their lyrics were sang in a foreign language
which he knew none
the TrueBlue American he is
                                               though he challenged his starry TrueBlueness  using the Metric Systems Measures
and Weights 

he wouldnt throw its more exacting measures under an Amtrak train even if he wanted

and even if he did  Amtrak couldnt trample or sever them
Hell  it couldnt even catch them
High-Speed Rails didnt exist in America  and thereby  realistically  it should be very hard for the Country to hang its hat on its declared Exceptionalism  unless  of course
that Exceptionalism defines what the Country doesnt have
                                                                                                which ought to stick in its kraw
(he used the k because it was far more brazen in regards to American Exceptionalism) which had stuck in his craw
for as long as he could remember


he had been talking with a friend who was knowledgeable of US Foreign Policy
specifically about its historical interpretations  ideations  regarding multilateralism unilateralism and hegemony
and after a blunderbuss shot in the face  compleat with attributed quotes and footnotes
he realised he was even more idealistic than he thought himself to be
                                                                                                                 time  Again  to blame his teachers as he grew up 
hed almost bitched outloud  scapegoating them  Again
as his History classes and Current Events failed to put in place a healthy dose of skepticism

then his humanity would strike him(always two sides to a coin)
                         
frankly  Nam was the rage and the Draft needed young bodies who were unable to duck-and-cover(plainly said  afford) in the hallways and dorms of Higher Education

which wasnt to say that Educations hallways and dorms realistically ensconced the Generations Brain Trust

among other things it ensconced its financial continuity
(curiously as he wrote concluding the last sentience  on From Ritual to Science at the 21:39 minute-mark and the 1:54 mark of Information Overload Units fifth track Ground Zero Infinity Dose  human voices began HAHAHAing roaring like lions sputtering gibberish   ---   he couldnt have said it better himself)flesmih retteb ti dias evah tndluoc eh
(tracks were often played backwards)
 
then Epilept Convulse concluded
                                                      leaving From Ritual to Science to finish out soulo


he had it on the good authority  draft dodgers  not to step forward when commanded to at the Draft Board
it was better to contend with Americas Military Might and Government outside their confines than argue CO(Conscientious Objector) or anything inside them

he appreciated their sound advise
they were his peers

his parents  awkwardly  were horribly embarrassed he refused to fight for their Country

Cuntry  he said correcting them
I am sorry for your embarrassment
but  at the very least

you cant die from it


when they started to moan
he couldnt consoule them

he despaired                                                                                                                                         
                      only because he hadnt the forethought to record them

then play them backwards





late evening,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  27  5. 15
 1434,  Thursday,  28  5. 15