30.4.15



A black corpse came up to his door and asked to come in 

if he couldnt see his way to let him in hed melt on the Welcome mat and the redwood slats making up the front porch
--   Ever smell a rotting corpse up close
On a hot day
it asked

this didnt seem  a negotiation
--   If I say You arent really offering me a choice  are you
Youd say You always have a choice
wouldnt you 

--   Up front  I like that you know a game is fixed
Want to toss a coin
or if youd rather  we could throw die for it

--   Die for it
Charming
Why dont you come in 

--   I thought youd never ask

as it crept in  creaking  over the sound of pliant rubber bands dragged across dry wood
and deeper yet 
                          deeper inside  it   a sound     a slosh      scarcely congealed jelly

it crept in  offering no small talk congenial comments on the mismatched furniture
incise remarks about the original art on the walls


thump      thump 
                                      thump
hobnail boots of yesteryear
  
he almost let slip  they were boots to die for  to offset the oppressive silence since their repartee at the door
but thought better of it
--   Yes  Better not to tempt fate
it said 

--   Youre reading my thoughts                                                                                 
--   No
but if places were reversed and the only thing worth admiring   perhaps  admiring  is too strong a word
if places were reversed the only thing worth   looking at   would be these boots
I always sought to afford the finest footgear I could 

I was always on my feet 

As you can see
that penchant remains 

--   Restless feet   or legs    physicians call it now
A syndrome
--   I call it a crock
Too much booze too little sleep 

I call it too much time watching over my shoulder
  

HA

for the inevitable




Nothing 

--   No

No  and I dont dare offer you a seat I dont want you to sit
--   Afraid Ill spill something you cant clean out of the upholstery
--   Exactly
--   Growing impatient
Not a good talent for a good host

--   A host suggests an invitation
No choice is not an invitation no matter how you see it   its eyes looked like dusty raisins
if you can see 

--   Ah  finally beginning to look me over  Good   Look real good take a good look   Take me in   Im not something youll ever forget
Or dare remember

--   At last
Something we can agree upon                                      

--   This neednt be distasteful

--   I dont even know what this is 

Closest I can imagine is Dickens A Christmas Carol  if youre familiar  This boy is Ignorance. This girl is Want.  

They are Man’s.



--   Dickens

Yes

I recall

Spirits
Ghosts

Do you think I am a spirit

--   No

I think youre dead

You know youre dead
Otherwise you wouldnt have threatened the welcome mat porch or my upholstery


--   Cant fool you

--   Nor can I fool you


Your  business   if you would

I find myself
                     fascinated


--   No business
Seeing how the other half   ha  lives
is all

I do it on occasion

Rise out of the earth after laying in it for   Time

Time   a funny attribute dont you think
of living  I mean

Rushrush
   
                    Rush
And for all the rushing 
                                     not really going anywhere
so surprised when death comes No matter ones age
Too soon Not soon enough 

Assuming death stops them 

Some   yes

Others
No Obviously



I like to think of myself as a sober   reckoning    
that might have otherwise
    
escaped you


        
       
I havent escaped you


--   No


--   Good  

I didnt think I would




--   This leaves us          where



--   Where
Here


Then elsewhere



But a stop


--   A stop
--   I thought Id be welcome   but a short while

Abruptly welcome 
                                                                                                                                 

It stood in the livingroom
he before it
then 
         as casual as a corpse may
it craned its neck  turned its head  appearing to look around through eyes he knew no longer saw anything

It is a nice home   A far cry better  than a mouth full of dirt

Youll remember I said so                                                                                                
wont you

--   I will

--   I will


Thats why Im here


It turned back towards the door

Would you mind

the door  it meant the door

--   Yes
he opened the black metal screen door
it shrieked as it usually did

--   You wont oil it will you

--   No  It seems its nature  so I dont

--   Yes
Wise not to tamper with anythings nature


It strode past him onto the Welcome mat the redwood slats  stepped down to bitumen drive
without turning back It raised its hand  a departing salute

the clouds broke

shards of brilliant sunlight snapped off the wetted drive into his eyes
he brought his hand up to shade their reflection

the black corpse was gone



momentarily
                      he froze  wondering if he conjured a waking dream  his hand still upraised
he didnt

he concluded
he waved
to nothing
and hoped nothing recognised his salute





evening,  Saturday,  25  4. 15 
 1150,  Monday,  27  4. 15 

29.4.15



Everything begins
                   is Begat(tossing Biblical language around like sloppy baled hay  randomly  either feed or ground-covering)

Begat by an idea(an id - each  id - piece  odd - piece  a flimsey codspiece)

then terribly overthrown by cringing lists outlines  then more detailed outlines
generating clever powerpoints
red pindots cast from across darkened rooms by a slim penlight
removed from its fit  nicely  between an array of fountain pens and mechanical pencils held in a vinyl geek breast pocket protector

Hurrah  Enthusiasts  Take a bow


though hed rather hold his ideachion tight
still ramshackle
and build off it as things evolved presented themselves  spinning off other orbits  ad hoc 

he knew better than making a hard list or attempting to adhere to one
and rather than drawing hard lines
he kept things in flux

because  tragically  lists were often lost or  accidentally  left behind
                                                                          and as Time
fashioned itself as a critical element to the planning and execution
for these lists  lost or left behind
someone had to suffer its degression and learn to neigh meh-meh like a bearded scapegoat
and assume  everyone involved  their sins iniquities and transgressions

then according to Moses(Bible busting out again) set free to roam the wilderness as an Azazel goat

neighing meh-meh wasnt a forte he wanted



Everything begins
  
                       how it ends is up to you




1575,  Saturday,  25  4. 15