--   Theyre funny  spilling their guts like that

--   And nobody put the screws to them  or twisted them

Why would they do that

--   Dumb

I suppose dumb dumb

 

Dont know no better

--   Gosh

I almost feel sorry for them

Theyll be short work out here

--   Yeah

Chewed up and spat out

Or  mebbe    

                  theyll surprise us

--   Have you ever been surprised

--   Rarely

But I have been surprised

--   And in your heart of hearts

Whats it saying

--   They aint

--   Aint surprising us

--   Yeah

Chewed up

                                                                                      

And swallowed

--   Did you ever think youd be

--   I dont think theres a person out here who didnt think one time or another they were

gone

Not one time or another

he looked up  longing  at the sky

Ive done some ugly things

Very ugly

 

Im not proud of

But the streets arent proud

I hate it  its that   Is what it is

I wished it wasnt

Wished it wasnt  

                            but it is

--   Are you okay

--   I will be

And you

--   I try to be

--   Yeah

--   You got anything to drink

he laughed roughly

--   So much for foreplay

--   You know me

I loves gettin down to it

--   You do

Hell  I do too

--   Do

--   Have a drink

for getting down

--   Good

Save me just a touch for gargle huh

--   I suppose its the least I can do

--   If you could do more  we ought to

--   Then wed find those kids

Those dumb kids

--   No

I dont want no part of that

No part

--   Bad joke

But a bad joke is better than no joke at all huh

--   There is that

How bout that drink

--   I got it hid

Shall we take a walk

--   We  Shall

Youre fuckin crazy

--   It helps  donit

 

1313,  Twosday,  2  12. 14

sluts

I pushed and rode her up the bed to the wall where other girls I knew had headboards

I can still hear

her fingernails at the wall

like kids nails dragged down the Elementary school chalkboards of my childhood

they stopped

and started      according to her thighs

warm and fleshy

at my cheeks

stopped and started

dictated by her thrusting hips

earnestly wrought

I admired the strength in her hands and arms  clutching my head    pulling my hair

at a sudden  twisting  

                                    she came

I was under her

ground under her hips

her fucking my face

when the last shudder went out of her spine

I toppled her over onto her back and stretched her legs apart like a wishbone

I thrusted

              I runted                                                                                                                               

I came gasping  FUCK fuck     fuc . . . ka

we hung like two dogs

exhausted 

                                                                                                                             

 

unaccounted

lost

I didnt revive until she at once gasped 

                                                           found my cock again      and choked herself on it

me now  holding handfuls of hair

and thrusting

I didnt care

if she couldnt breathe

I followed her mad  tenacious lead

                                                     fed her lust      her hunger

I came

 

           we collapsed again

later  bathed in flickering yellow candlelight   we didnt talk of love 

                                                                                                           or need

--   Its so nice   just to fuck

So nice to have a cock in me   a cock my hands

Nice   to be filled

I wasnt in a place to talk   let alone think

I grunted

I had to trust the sound I emitted  to say

a sound fulfilled     

                           spent

 

You wanna know the nicest thing

--   Yah

--   Oh    You are conscious

--   Yah

Dont get carried away with yourself alright

she laughed

--   Yes

 

You wanna know the nicest thing

--   Yah

--   A confession

You dont make me feel like a slut

I dont feel like a slut

--   You shouldnt

Why would you 

Because you like to fuck
 

Thats horseshit

--   Yes 

I dont feel like a slut

--   Then good  

Hell thats better than good  thats excellent

--   Yes

I havent any shame either

I dont feel like a slut

You dont feel like a slut  do you

--   Me

 

A slut

--   Yes  You dont feel like a slut

--   Fuck no

--   And you dont

Because you like to fuck too

--   I do

--   Then 

Like me

--   Ya know I do

I like to fuck

I like fucking you

 

she laughed

--   Then like me

That makes you a slut too                                                                                                               

--   Yah  I suppose that makes me a slut too  Like you

--   Were sluts

--   We are

Were sluts

--   Fuck  Thats liberating

--   Ill do you better  Its the honest ta Gawds truth 

One slut to another

 

she climbed up me and kissed me deeply

I didnt mind our cum  sticky on our faces

or the taste of my mine in her mouth

I suppose we supposed sluts are like that

                                                                  Suzey died five weeks later in a car wreck

a week out from our Graduation

When I think I havent any innocence left

I remember Suzey

                              and she ekes out my remaining traces

and when I cum ferociously  

                                             beastly

her face flickers like flame  across my lovers faces

2230,  Friday,  28  11. 14