Was he astonished or astounded

Astounded!

                    he was ever astounded by the carelessness of men

their carelessness towards even the most simple thing to do

a thought crossed his mind

if had they commonsense  a Big Order

or perhaps if their act were touted  an achievement

though  an abysmal breadth exists between commonsense and achievement

it put him off

furthur fortifying his opinion

                                                                    Men were slovenly  and lazy

it reminded him when he was a boy and dared to wonder out loud Why do I have to 

learn these womanly chores

which was met with a brisk stinging slap to the side of his head   struck on his ear

--   Because Im not raising a bum to be pawned off onto another woman  Youll learn and

youll shaddup about it

Did his mother just call him a bum

as always  with anything in regards to the physical realm  he learned quickly and ably retained it 

 

and leaving home  later than he wanted  he hadnt accumulated the cash reserves

out on his own he disadvantaged the women he met

he didnt need them to cook or clean or mend for him

dote on  or mother him

 

he was as mothered as he ever wanted to be

they had only two things he wanted

their sex  bodies

their brains

sex was enticing

but without a formidable curious mind   sex wears thin

sexual forays hed heard confounded him  cheating men and women  they ought to clutch
their genitals  masturbate  relieve their itches than destroy their relationships

or be honest                                                                                                                                       

                       --   I got an itch I gotta scratch and you aint cuttin it

hurtful  yes  but honest

and a dose of honesty outweighs of a dose  perhaps  of something else

he was graced genetically

fortunately formed

told he was good-looking

he could play their games

but only curious well-shaped minds  not practised housekeeping  appealed to him

So yes   he was Astounded!  by chewing gum in the bottom of the Standard urinal

cleansed by blue metallic-smelling fluid to mask the scent of urine  ammonia

a companion to the pleasant-smelling disinfectants used to hide their body odor

                                                                                                                     

they made him wonder of the mothering they received

okay  boys will be boys  but theyre supposed to grow up

and seemingly  few boys became men or coveted the kind of manhood he aspired to

chewing gum in urinals

piss on the floor

how the hell do you miss anything standing deadstill directly in front of you                                                                                                                                              

and carelessly dropping their damp towels on lockerroom benches and its tiled floor

and leaving them lay

yes  people are paid to clean up after them

attendants

but they dont have to be slobs because they pay for memberships   perhaps they forget

their privilege

                        and so they embarrass him without noticing they were an embarrassment

or that their inconsiderateness mock him and his consideration

he was irrevocably tied to them by his sex

they were slobs

men were slobs

effectively   he was a bum

1649,  Tuesday,  4  11. 14

--   Deep dance conjures a sensibility informed . . . by light . .

--   Excuse me . . . deep dance  please  what is it

               

I am  Im afraid  unfamiliar with its terminology or contextualisation

--   Fair

 

It is difficult to say what it is

as it should be

                                                             

Rather  deep dance should influence or affect you as it may  as a personal experience

and not revealed to you by me

or frankly anyone

                                                       

It is yours alone

  

--   Sounds very esoteric

--   No

rubbing his whiskered chin

Not truly esoteric  Confounding perhaps  initially

though not really once it is revealed  and understood 

Or rather sense is made of it

Maybe you are familiar with the Archiepiscopal Chapel at Ravenna  in Italy

-- 

 

--   No aye  Within the chapel there is a Latin inscription  by the fragments of mosaic

"Either light was born here or it was captured, [either way, here it] reigns freely" 

 

Deep dance moves to light

Cryptic  yes  But its meaning is for you to recognise   then realise

I hope   you can make some sense of what I am saying

--   I . . . I cant say

--   Perhaps the only thing you can say is   if it interests you or not

--   Are you purposefully being vague   trying to entice me

--   No

 

Are you interested  or not

--   And what is the proposition

--   If you are interested or not

--   I . . . I cant say

--   Then

 

You are not interested

--   I did not say that

--   No  You did not

However                                                                                                                                          you cant say

 

That is correct  isnt it

--   That is correct

--   Then Ill leave you with this  “Aut lux hic nata est, aut capta hic libera regnat”

The Latin verse  earlier in our conversation

he thoughtfully rubbed the whiskers on his chin

I appreciate your time

before he could answer   a shock of light interrupted his eyes

it flashed

it burnt his retinas black

when his vision oozed into his eyes again

the bearded man was gone

in the blackness his ears piqued

he hadnt heard his heavy boots cross the wood floor to the door

he hadnt heard anything

except the last exhalation of his breath with the word  time

Light  and Time  weighed heavily on his mind for a long time

he expected the stranger again

who never returned

0024,  Tuesday,  4  11. 14   V O T E!