He was accused by literature  --  fiction others called it: How can anyone waste their 

time with fiction?  --  accused by Gaddis Sandburg Jeffers Miller Lautréamont and Sade

of distractions and sifting time idle in his hands

of avoiding his talent

theyd be happy to step up for him

if he would kindly lay in their mouldy clothes and meat rot

theyd be back  of course  when theyd finished

fuckin liars

theyd no more be back than hed lay in their graves or swap places with Christ for His

Resurrection

rolling the stone from the opening to his tomb

--   Gentlemen  gentlemen  And I use the term loosely

Christ took offense 

Youve had yours and now I Have mine

So quit pointing your fingers and disparaging my words

                                                                       

You cant see them  I know your eyes have rotted out

  

So whoever youre listening to

youre badly informed

 

They couldnt afford to shrug

to refute him

nor say anything

because their jaws became unhinged when their coffins unceremoniously  unexpectedly

banged home at the hard uneven earth at the bottom of their graves

there may have been some acknowledgment  in their hands

an eversoslight distension of their palms

but since he wasnt looking

refused to look

he wouldnt have seen that

No

                            

his eyes were occupied by other things

who worked themselves around and around like hot rivets and mad rollercoasters

defying tracks and gravity

his eyes dreamed

and he could only try to keep up

distractions and idle times were only his breathers

He thought theyd get it

and maybe they did

maybe they were only playing a gambit in hopes that some unfortunate sod might agree

and grab ahold

To Be Notorious

seeking it on his own terms

he had already defied a god

a bristlingwhite ethereal god   mobbed in a blue purple and black aura

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When they forced his hand

he Demanded

no longer Asked

for answers to his questions 

he Quit  the deferred gray declarative Yes or No syllables

                                                                                                  of course they barked No

if they agreed with him he wouldnt be assailing them

                                                                 

and Challenging them

they Demoned him 

demonized him for troubling them for explicit explanations

 

they were the Experts

and apparently Experts arent Experts if they have to answer a laypersons questions

or

a layperson holds sway to question their learned opinions

This                                                                                                                                                 despite him fiercely reminding them

he was no ones idiot

and he was also a purseholder who could withhold their Expert fees

they were beholding

as Experts

to reply demonstrably   per requisite  any question he preferred or insisted of them

in its finest detail

crafted by artisan hands

 

he sent two packing

filing suits at their retreating backs

which werent hard to distinguish

at any distance

for the bright yellow streaks running down their spines

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I

cant

shake it out of my eyes

or rub it out

it will have to go of its own accord

in its own time

and Im okay with that

Im okay with anything it wants

I am beholding to it 

I owe it my life   and I do not say this dramatically or melodramatically

 

I

simply

admit it

I have seen remarkable things 

although I have a habit to look for them

 

I see things most people havent the patience to look to see

and if it werent for this practised and learned   

                                                                          Obsession

I might not be writing these words

tapping them out  key by key  on the keyboard on my desk under the eyes of my favorite

books for you

to read

Please

take the most remarkable thing you have ever seen

and ante it up to the nth degree

it wont evaporate in your eyes because you want it to

it will live there

and it will live there until it is good and ready to depart

and departed

leaving you alone

I dare say a length of its shadow

will linger 

                                                                                                      

and it too

will leech out at its very pleasure

and

                                                              

you will not complain

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