9.7.14



         what did you give away
and not regret

what did you have in your hand
and then for some acid pipedream       batshit reason
think
by giving it away
youd incur a golden chit
an arcane bit of currency
which would indenture those   who You chose to benefit
and by it
derive some likeness or reflexaffectation
of that
which you gave
                         in return


         what were you thinking what possessed you
twisted your guts
stomped your heart
blew curly blue bubbles into your brain          (an aneurysm)
to make you act
as you did


                                                                                                         You dont get that
you dont deserve it
you should never have given it  thinking  something was coming back to you

 

Now
         what did you give away and not regret



2101,  Monday,  7  7. 14



         the cat stoked it
                                                                                                           it was utterly brilliant     
light radiating points  as on a compass   Up   Down   Left   Right
and no matter your approach
it seemed not to give you its back
but turned to face you 
 
Up   Down   Left   Right   a stabbing array
I hadnt a clue how he managed to aligned it

Dazzling

Blazoning

                                 half the Hermit was drenched in its light  like sticky syrup
his other half  nonexistent  drenched black  coal   absorbing its own shadow

one eye shone 
gazed  on the heavens
--   watch

the stars above suddenly quivered
like a dogs flank                                                                                                    
fireflies  
curious  and growing more curious
--   youre watching
he never once looked at me

a couple stars broke rank
shook their alignment
gravitated                                                                                                                            descending
towards the Hermits Light  his wily lantern
--   watch
nightbirds and bats twisted in the sky    then fled

the nearest star cast a dull tinpan shadow over its shoulder
a mildewed vagrant creeping along behind it
then   the bum recoiled
tried grabbing a handful of shoulder that the star violently shrugged off
mesmerized
--   soon

I was breathing high in my throat
pant pant pant
couldnt get enough oxygen
faint
the star came on
--   ah very Soon now

it didnt grow in size
rather in intensity   piquing
piquing piquing

no words   guttural laughter

an arclight twitched  spasmed
a braid of lightning ensued
embraced the two
I couldnt say which ray arced
the star twisted to vapor
dissipating shadow   smoke
laughter

the second star came on oblivious
wore the firsts glitter on its face
madlaughter
--   youre still watching  yes

I couldnt answer
--   yes  yes you are

a third star sighed
its face whitebrushed by the lanterns emitted light
working its thumbs  loosening its belt of gravity
then too  it slipped its orbit
descending into the vague wraith of the seconds shade
--   watching

the second star  closing  began to tremble
a scarce tremble  quivered   vibrated
I looked again
tearing my eyes from the star to behold the Hermit
half a cruel smile
--   watch
never  once  looking at me

a halo
bluerimmed
simmered
a sputter a crackle
lightning arcing between electrodes
madlaughter                                                                                                                          starkwhite gone glimmering starkblack

the air  space  groaned sickly
the second was gone

the Hermit turned away to stoke the points of his lantern
bait its hooks 
                                                                                                                                
the third star passed through the seconds whisper of ash
punching a neat hole in its gauze
trailing slender strands
muffledlaughter
his back still turned to me
 
                                              had he gone mad
had he finally decided because he could
he would

I couldnt
his actions werent mine to endure or witness
to fear and be made mute                                                                                                                

the third star came on
it seemed so expectant
so hopeful 
                                                                                                                                         
the lantern blazed                                                                                                                               its light
perhaps                                                                                                                                              
a portal
not devastating
perhaps

the Hermit didnt seem hear my steps

as I came up fast behind him
                                                                                                                     
or he ignored them
 
a seared taffy was forming at the stars edges
a plaintive hiss secreted

he didnt hear it
or ignored it
muffledlaughter

the lanterns torrent went black
squelched                                                                                                                                   stopped up by the Hermits body  and robe

                                                                   his head Up
feet Down
arms extended Left and Right

the light choked

and the star   confused
fled
returned
back
to its cold comfort
black womb



0121,  Monday morning,  7  7. 14