13.6.14



He sat again  --  it was a succession of days now  overlapping Memorial Day  providing him 
a keen solace  --  on a heavy dull battleship-gray painted wooden bench outside the 
Loaves and Fishes

                            the immediacy of his butt sharing the seat where anxious or more desperate moments skinnier butts had tried to manage with some tenor aplomb or distinction  was palpable

their unique renderings
either by circumstances deeply formed by their own hands or minds or those who utterly and simply were beyond their abilities to alter or influence them   seemingly a divined course

                                                                                       by either their own fault or faultlessness   
their base dignity was badly beaten up

                                         and even the ball and peen hammer of the Loaves and Fishes wasnt going to be able to beat out or straighten up their troubles or sorrows
                                                                                                                   though it would help 
and that was all they were asking for
                                                         they had come for help

so the grimy nails clutching the tails of reused plastic bags containing a few staples or provisions for the matter of a couple three days 
                                                            or those hard-aged   or those unfortunate youthful hands 
not yet turned by experience
what they share 
is what most of us dont understand

                                                                 empty bellys

and its hard to do most things
when youre starved

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12.6.14



the silhouette of digger pines
and dead diggers  clawed  interspersed with live oak
                                                                                      console me
etched
up against mauve plum purple grey skies
                                                                they console me

                                                                                               black bats furrow the dusk 
the first evening star blinks   then is suddenly shrouded by a crawling marine layer         
eight leagues inland from the sea
these are natural consolations I cant ignore
  
                                                                                                      soon the star reappears 
its cold burning light is a steadyfast companion  she offers me her shoulder  her embrace           she is unlike  anything else
                               there is nothing and no one who can compete with these consolations 
when I suffer                                                 
                        or when I am troubled 


their nature has always provide me comfort   has always encouraged my willfulness and unnerving adamancy
and yet  while I know one day my eyes will be taken from them
                                                                                              they will never be taken from me

is there a more perfect solace     anything more confiding            or more unquestioning

                                                           
                                                                         this night the trees the bats the star       found me



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11.6.14

blue lines



He admitted he
was a hardy fan,
addicted,
Obsessed.

And She, so keen,
so completely
On her mark,
drove home her point,
Deeper,
inexorably so,
more than even he
could ever have imagined;

and spiked,
riven to his very core,
he was putty,
a mere plaything,
in her hands.


Since before he understood
what they were
he had followed them,
these blue lines,
Instinctively,
resolute.

And at her first tug
on the button
at the throat
of her blouse

the sheer cotton unfurling
her neckline faltering
falling free
bone button by
bone button

her breath seizes, swells
swelling her bosom
laid bare and

the lines
the lines
the faint blue courses
bubbling warm
just
beneath her skin

his pneumatics unwind
his musculature scintillates
e er so   so
gently he reached and
laid a warm finger
at the side of her neck.
He plucked at
the plum the cherry
the peach of her pulse and
it rose Excited!

and through his fingertip
he heard her heart
slip and vibrate
across his friction ridges

and sloowly
deliberately
unconsciously
deliciously
he began tracing
o er the top
of the faint blue lines
by either hand,
by either fingers faintly
the pressure the touch of
an angel-eye butterfly wing,
its talcum modestly
dusting the way
until

She
under his touch
transfigures herself
unwinding
sighing,
sighs a temptress,
the Rapture of Odysseus
Circe, the Sirens,
Skylla and Charybdis piqued,
Calypso, the nymph,
Generous

Consorts
Constellations
Contortionists
writhing wondrous
rain-boned
slick
seaserpents
arresting him
as if
he Gazed
on Gorgon

his fingers cease and
he lay listening
on her
to the Talk
of Her
the Talk
Inside of Her,
words drawn
without breath

Communing
Intoning
Unmistakable
Unerring and
tied together
Their Silence Chimed
Their full Vessels Struck
are Deafening,
Roaring

and
The
Blue
Lines

quiver and
dance and
tremble
under
his quiet
Listening
fingers
  
He wakes
to the gibberish of
small birds rousing
in the ironworks
of the awning
above the gas pumps
as the sun readies
to shake its mangy head

he wakes
sitting at the wheel
of his car
his seat reclined
a roadmap sprawled
across his lap
like a wanton
desperate woman

it was dark when he pulled in
creeping on gravel and sand
that still relaxed from the winter storms
he was on Empty
and grateful he made it that far

it is a small town
a long way from anywhere
a rural town that once was more
and now reduced to an awkward oasis

a small town where
he would stick out
like a sore thumb of a hitch hiker
if he did not have a ride

a rural town pruned
by the relentless hum,
somewhere unseen, but close by,
of a super highway

an irritated town ticking
ticking
away
under the hands of
the clock in the cupola
erected above City Hall

When digital clocks
without hands believe
they have a Stranglehold
on Everyone’s soul,
but the birds do not buy it

an old man in greasy
bib overalls and greasy hair
wiping the sleep out of his eye
with one hand and toting in the other
a stained white
ironstone coffee mug
with Buddy etched on one side and
the Sinclair dinosaur stenciled on the other
stops walking to stare at him through
his windshield

He rolls his window down
and holds his hand out
good morning!

Buddy replies ya made it
in full possession of
what it is
to make it

I did

He erects his seat
the map in his lap
cringes and he
quiets it
touching it gently with a finger
tracing from its fold,
at the right,
from where they came
to where they were
confirming where they stopped
Where Buddy said
they made it

I got to throw the electricity inside
to bring the pumps up
said Buddy
just a moment

and He loved how the
blue lines and
moments on them
stretched out absently,
allowing him a good look-see around
or sniff his breath to determine if it had gone bad
from breathing the whole night through his mouth
like a brutish Neanderthal,
how these moments stretched absently and
stirred his bladder
as he sat upright now
and Gravity fingered and undid
its button

a hot-red Neon light flickered
behind the tall plate glass face
of the dingy white-and-green tiled
station
as Buddy busied himself above
a metallic Bunn coffee machine and
errant water dribbled on it
following ghost discolorations of
other dribbles from
other sloppy pours

Buddy's tongue worked between the gaps
in his teeth and with it he pointed
around, out back,
the key’s hanging here
the coffeell be ready by the time
youve relieved yourself
washed your face
brushed your teeth
and shook up your hair

and it was
and it smelled black
a black that wouldn’t forgive cream
a black the octane he would pump
into his Empty tank

Buddy’s no filter cigarette
was almost smoked down to his lip
when he came back in for his change.
A good ride ahead of you?

Taking my time.

Bout seven miles out of town, east side,
just passed the billboard Doc’s
an old apple orchard,
then half-mile up the dirt road there
an old quarry filled with artesian water
a refreshin swim to
get the blood up, getcha rollin
if ya got the mind to
I would if I wasnt workin

Thank you very much

youre welcome I appreciate the business
nice to see folks roamin the wilds
seein stuff aint probably seen in forty years
except by us
and because you aint lost

no. I aint lost.

Ah, them blue lines
I sure love the blue lines
they can make you dream
dream wonderful things
the most wonderful things

yes

yeah
I dreamed here
thats how I got here
I was dreamin


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