1.4.14



ah   crying guitar weeping violin melancholy viola and cello
                                                                                                              Macabre                  

setting the tone                                                                                                                
percolating his inherent violence                                                                                       
widening the bare offset that struggled to belay  heel  his derangement and keep his                        irrationale at bay

they cast odorous smoke and irritating ash in his face   smarting his eyes  insulting his nostrils                                                                                                                     
provoking him
the hardwood he clutched grew more dense   it smelled of raw blood and senselessness                             


he committed a bludgeoning

                                             freeing             
happily dystopian                                                                                                                             
happily disconnected

                                   he left the truncheon beside the cooling body and before leaving he 
casually admired the traces  splashes  and flung drippings 
                                           he admired the pooling blood  brittle teeth  bone and brainbits
had he been utterly devoid of pity he would have taken their hands                                                                                                          
                                                       which was all there was left for the next of kin for an ID                                                                                                                     
though recently tats helped tell their tale


during quiet nights                                                                                                                       
he imagined if he could shake the music  if he could bring himself to pierce his eardrums

maybe the senselessness might expire

but he couldnt be sure

his brain was spinning record sides separate of him


Obviously the separateness vied for his attention                                                                 
                                                                                he could hear a machine work his 
cloth  -  stitching him together   hear the clatter of a zipper  -  drawing him together  -  or 
coming undone


its Undone or Done was baked into his cake

from the inside he couldnt use a toothpick to test it


and every murder performed   ah   informed his knowing

                                                                                           informed him that if he had 
been found out earlier and killed   -   Take No Prisoners   -   his marbling or perfection 
would never have been



               some Wolves grew old                                            
and danced alone in the dark under an ochre moon or wildly in the eviserating yellow 
glazed sunlight 

                                                                                           Enormously happy they were
Never Discovered



1754,  Moanday,  13  1. 14 

31.3.14



he stood under a mad flurry of something
                                                          descending from above
he stood gathered and erect 
his arms outheld and palms tilted up   and things he couldnt distinguish as yet  fell and
swirled around
they seemed tickertape or warmcolored leaves  generous snowflakes  chattering
confetti or sullen ash
and whether cupped in his hands lying on his wrists sleeves or shoulders  they
flickered with light and life of their own
while some static
others stuttering   and revealing

and then
             above their visual stimuli   they began to sound  
                                                                                           mewling insistently harping
direct
but there was no sorting one out from their concert and cacophony  unless a singular
uncoiling image were paid strict attention  paid costly time             Devotion
and that  he knew  an empty term
Sacred is lonely
he knew Sacred  though in his own life he rarely felt breathless heart-arrested
                                                                                            even under this Improbable
Shower
    his mind didnt look to the Sacred  
he wondered its Reasoning  its reverse-engineering  and if Unexplainable  then
Unexplained
though before reveling in his unmitigated ignorance  -  choice  -  he surely relished the
Evidence and its Howling and Screaming
                                                                 the flashbulb memories flickering silent films
and talkies

History
wherein lay another void of Devotion




he was grateful for what he had


1530,  Thursday,  29  8. 13