15.3.14

Atlast



The Atlas of the World by the National Geographic Society

was always a volume  -  he preferred it  a folio for some reason  -  he coveted

hed coveted it since he was a boy   a Midwestern landlocked boy  of a large family

the first one he owned was a hand-me-down of sorts

he bought at an Estate Sale


EVERYTHING MUST GO!

EVERY REASONABLE OFFER CONSIDERED!

                                                                            
                                                                                  the sale reeked . . . aint my shit and   
I dont mind turning a quick buck . . .
                                                                                                    ah . . . Family                        

the sale included old black-and-white family photographs  rare daguerreotypes and  
stereoscopic cards
                                                                                                                                   maybe 
because he had little knowledge of where he was from
                                                                                         all his grandparents arrived    
in-country during the early Twentieth Century wearing the clothes on their backs and 
clutching strapped-shut valises
                                                     their families disappeared during the Second War

                                                                                               the sale offended him

so relentlessly   morbidly   obnoxiously  he jewed and jewed and pursued each and 
every seller until they tired of his bitching presence and sold it to him to get his crewcut and skinny wise-ass out the door 
 
               he was affecting the attitude of other buyers

                                                                                          REASONABLE  he supposed      
is in the eye of the beholder

he certainly didnt see himself as unreasonable

although he did see himself as some small solace for the decedent 
                                                                                                             for their memory  
their cherished things pricetagged  gypped  and knowing full well they would not have 
parted with a single possession                                                                                    
 
they were wear-worn   heart-worn


this Atlas of the World was lost in a fire  lost beside two other editions  companions    
he purchased when first they were issued                                                                
because he could afford them
                                                             he didnt have to jew   there was no one to harass*

the latest Atlas  -  a First Edition  -  was nicely timed to the fire and the first thing he 
immediately replaced  -  before the Insurance money  -  before the fighting for the 
Insurance money ensued  -  the niggling  -  nickel and diming
                                                                                                           yes   the jewing
  

he had no choice but to keep up with the World   because without paying attention   It 
changed constantly before his very eyes

It haunted him

how human constructs rendered borders and geographies and countries names

after the fire he bitterly realized   recognized    there were always going to be Atlases
                                                                       
                                                                                                                  and NEVER
   
                                                                                                          The Atlast of the World



1708,  Friday,  14  3. 14

* misspelled on purpose  -  the luxury of harassing anyone who can spell correctly

14.3.14

a simple thank-you would suffice



were all gonna need help some-day
so put away that deadpanned look
of a fish yanked from the sea
its flanks and fins all-dried in the sunlight

I aint extending my hand expecting a thing
if your working works
thinking charity a devise of some reward
my help is help and nothing more
it aint docking an I-O-U
you aint incurring a debt owed or a debt overdue

Im extending my hand empty
not to rifle your pockets for cash or coin
its a hand out
a boost up
an unaccounted concern

its because I happen to be here
I am nothing more than here
so if you need a heft to-day  Im here
a simple thank-you would suffice

but  again  if your working works around some other way
you can struggle unheeded
unhelped
and Ill walk away






1849,  Friday,  29  7. 11

13.3.14

Silence



an overwhelming silence
                                                                                  
                                                                                   as leaves and slender tree limbs bob 
without accompaniment
                                                              a hawk wheels in the blue gulf of a cloudless sky 
turning on points over a sharp brown ridge
               
                  a telephone wire stropped between its metallic box mounted on a timber pole 
to a yellow adobe house twists tan-gray to black  quivering with resonate motion

but no sound
              
                                                                                          
                                                                                    heat scribbles off a shingled roof   
pours like hot salt off corrugated stingy metal                           
                                         
                                         a stained-white net hanging from a basketball hoop slips stiffly

apricots blush

radiant purple charges of smoketree nettles nod                                                                            

blades of grass push their neighbors from behind and they in turn push theirs

the deep green shiny orange leaves stare  and tendrils of lavender beside them moan



everythings silent

deaf                                                                                                                    
though not blind


Sunnyday afternoon,  21  4. 13