28.2.14



I rarely wait for something queer to creep into my mind


a cold white cube

a gleamingwhite antiseptic surface
a naked mewling baby shivering atop it  radiant under stark surgical lighting
eccentric blacksilked parents stand at its head and place their fingertips on the 
surfaces edge like a ouijaboard
their fingernails are glazed pink and undisturbed unworried by anxious pressure 
as their baby ratchets into a cry
a white doctor in clinical garb peering over his tautpulled facemask enters on 
sharp black heels that mar the pearl linoleum
his oiled hair is slick obvious at his temples and cloistered beneath a surgical cap
he raps the table at the babes feet to attract the couples attention 
Were ready  Shall we commence
the male parent nods solemnly
Excellent
the white doctor sets the draped surgical tray he held down beside the babe
takes up a syringe from it and displaces the cloudywhite plastic sheath from over 
its long silver needle
the eccentrics with a halo of whitelight across their hips do not blink
with one large hand the doctor restrains the babe  his fingers splay over its belly 
and hip  his thumb crooked and pressed at the table 
artfully he slips the needle into the babys femoral artery at the inside of its groin
he descends the plunger its contents are excreted
the babe tenses is stunned but before it can catch its breath the syringe slips out
Very Good
a freckle of blood marks the puncture
the doctor blots it with an antiseptic gauze applies firm pressure the bleeding halts
Very Good  Very Good  Any questions
the haloed eccentrics shake their heads no
the baby shudders
That is expected
the baby shudders and its skin rouges
the white doctor folds his arms across his chest his right thumb quietly thumps at 
his bicep meting out an allotment of seconds
the baby shudders cranes its neck arches spastically and emits a bark from deep 
in its throat
Very good
the reddened skin stretches to plum the babes nipples harden it urinates a bead 
at a time as if constricted and relaxed constricted and relaxed
the plumcolouring fades and a robinegg blue sheen fills
Very good
the eccentrics nod their affirmation
the baby gasps  then utterly relaxes
Exactly so  This is exactly what we were expecting  Excellent
the baby coos
the eccentrics coo
the doctor nods solemnly to them and retreats
a black nurse enters and wraps the baby in a thin sheetblanket
unbuttoning her bodice with one hand she reveals an ample breast and suckles 
the babe
in a cradle of light their black and blue are vivid and astonishing

a sharp whitelaced black pear pressed to a soft whiteribboned blue melon


                                                                                         
                                                                                          1255,  Saturday,  24  11. 12

27.2.14

the hard full moon




the hard full moon threw shadows to the ground and if they tried to move
it kicked them in the ribs and face until they submitted
and lie still

beneath this hewed black and white glare
disoriented by sips of wine and hashish
very slowly he disrobed her
deliberately relishing her exquisiteness
her shape her rounds and hollows and curves

he gently rolled her over onto her belly
her willingness holy
and knotted her elbows with white jute
cinching them as one  and wound the strand and knotted it down to her ethereal 
wrists
with her shoulders pulled back her breasts swelled beneath her like jealous half 
melons against the cool suspecting earth and warmed blades of grass
cupping her cheek in his palm he turned her head and caressing her ear
with his lips he whispered to her to bend her knees
she submitted
he drew the strand through the cuffs of her blue vein wrists and ran it taut
up between her ankles and looped them together in dizzy close figure-eights
then ran the jute down her calf to the inside of her knees
one leg at a time
parting her thighs gently and holding them fast
with the web running up and over her shoulders and forming a halter where her 
elbows were joined
when this intricate framework was fashioned
he adorned the jute with small symmetric knots
titillating rondelles or baguettes to accent the dazzling gem her ivory body had 
become
under his full eye
and the moons




2233,  Sunday,  29  10. 12




Id seen that damn cat run across her skull too many times for her own good
and each fuckin time
despite the bone flint picked out by its claws gripped and running
she thought its hurtling body preternaturally determined her next great thing
ya gonna fight a big old word like that
gawddamnright ya are
ya might not be able to pronounce it  but ya were gonna stand up in front of her
throw yer arms straight out of yer shoulders and holler  back down girl 
ya were gonna try and stop her
and like that damn whatever cat
shed extend those claws and go up and over around or through ya
no matter how many times yad grab her by the scruff of her neck and hurtle her 
bodily back from where she come
shed bounce like a fuckin rubber ball off a wall gaining centrifugal force and 
weight and speed
till
eventually
it wouldnt matter
no restraint would
ya were a nonentity the moment that natty cat brokered her mind and convinced 
her of whatever it was she was thinking

the only thing that really hurt ya  was the hurt she was feeling when she come 
back defeated
when she come back crying
inconsolable
ya couldnt lift an edge of that black moon
eventually
only time offered her the consolation shed accept


hey
hey
how ya doing to-day
aint half bad
good
you
me Im better for you aint half bad
youre sweet
I am Im like honey

Id say honey and not sugar cuz I was sticky like she needed and she didnt have to worry about keeping honey  it keep itself



0055,  Wednesday,  31  10. 12