2024,  2sday,  2  1. 2024

                             Really

like hed let tha time day an date get away fromim 

fat chance

            like a chance a piece of chocolate escapes a kid

was talking on the telephone with his daughter commiserating  a difficult date January2  for them

people remember anniversaries  Hallmark dates  birthdays

                                                                deathdates   not readily

Apple doesnt fall far from the tree concerning us babe

                                              HA

The pair of us

Apple pear Attempt at humour

   Thank you for tryin’.

Today Ill try anything

                       Anything

Did you have a . . good . . . yaknow . not good . . a . ah reasonable day?

I did I managedYou

I did. I bought a small bouquet of Stargazer lilies.

How do you spell tha

she laughed

You remember

Yes I remember. Even after you went into the shop and told them they misspelled the word they didn’t change it.

Ahweel  Some people refuse to admit their wrong

                                                     B O K A Y bouquet

she laughed again heartily

Good to hear you laugh sweetpea

Thank you. Thank you, Papa.

   Youre welcome his voice cracked

                                       We keep trying

she muffled a sob

                    through her hand said We keep trying.

 

later

             I had a thought about themselves

About themselves?

                     Was this a distraction?

It was

       Monkey was on my backat my throat I was clutching at straws   A good clutch I thought

Well. You’ve distracted me.

                               What . . possibly . was . about themselves that was a good clutch?

   Thas a crazy question

Itis.

Themselves  Themcells T H E M C E L L S

                                               Selves locked in themcells

Distracting.

Tremendously

                 Monkey dropped off like a sated leech

Papa.

       You have a way with words.

she laughed merrily 

I do I have my way with words

You do. she sighed

                    I miss you. I wish we lived closer.

I wish so too I love you

I love you.

1249,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

“Beauty Within”  Cello Music  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDhkPQvUnT8&t=6609s

. . . so a couple times a year I go into townnot saying what town . . I go and I pretend I’m someone else.

Pretend disturbed   Youre

                            You are someone else incredulous

What? sensing his discomfort

he sensed she sensed his disease I wont say interesting as interesting says nothing its ambivalent I dislike ambivalence

   Thas odd  Odd because Ive not ever considered being other than who I am

Which, albeit knowing you only briefly, though intensely, I sense being you is full time job.

Nailed it

          Thank you for being frank

   No pun intended?

You coudnt be Frank ifya tried  Too many curves

Curves?

Yaknow wha I mean

a wily smile Thank you.

he smiled  not guileless No

                             Pleasures all mine

Wouldya stop, you’re making me blush. she was

In the deliv . .

. . her big eyes wide The whole package . . packaging.

Good still got the stuff   But thas me

                                          But you  Ifyawoud the roles you play

Yes. My roles my parts. Advantage mine.

                                            Before teaching I wanted to be an actor, grew up watching movies playing parts I liked, entered a performing academy, high school, I received significant accolades, press bemused  anger swept her countenance   I didn’t like the business.

I wouldn’t play the game.

he nodded sympathetically

Thank you for not pressing.

Youre welcome

she smiled he dug her dimples I can hear you saying this.

Hear me

Yes.  You can take the girl out of acting but you can’t take acting out of the girl.

I woud say tha

                    Am I tha transparent

No.  Not transparent.

                        You walk your talk she laughed loud harddidnt cover her mouth  he dug tha about her too  Look who’s frank.

Careful

Or what?

   Wha  We can make thaup as we go along

2147,  Monday,  1  1. 24

1118,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  1. 24

be careful whaya wish for . . .

                        if the Supremes in their partisan manner – those Right-leaning – confer presidential immunity to the former 

then they will give President Biden the exact same immunity

which can allow Biden to imprison the former as a Clear and Present Danger to the United States

which woud also allow Biden the option to become a democratic dictator

                                                                               shoud he choose

and even  shoud he choose  to pronounce anoint his Vice-President Kamala Harris to govern in his wake whenever he decides to leave office

   there woud be no 2024 elections

   

1659,  2sday,  2  1. 24

Ari Melber  begin at 16:20 minute-mark regarding farcical formers Presidential Immunity  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLWwLJwxkvQ 

Jack Smith 12/30/23 filing

https://storage.courtlistener.com/recap/gov.uscourts.cadc.40415/gov.uscourts.cadc.40415.1208583920.0.pdf 

Gil Scots-Heron  Revolution Will Not Be Televised  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vwSRqaZGsPw

it was recorded years ago by HBO

he watched it on-line

                     an no wayNONE in Hell an algorithm woud be tipped off woud be able to drop those freshwater pearls  two characters who in separate dialogues testimonies perfectly fit aligned with his fragile emotions today

   Crazy man crazycrazy  perfect jigsaw puzzle

although  occasionally  Life no algorithms hands them to you on a silver platter

                                                                                   pure serendipity serene pity the Cosmos listening in writtentranscribed during the Big Bang  Jungs collective unconscious

a child murdered another missing  their father sobs in the backseat of a police cruiser 

                                                                                           “I can’t go to sleep. I can’t wake up.”

a Vietnam vet questioned in an interrogation room

                                                     “You ever been someplace you couldn’t leave, and you couldn’t stay, both at the same time.”

2130,  Monday,  1  1. 24

1552,  2sday,  2  1. 24

   hurtle hurtles

                  twentytwo years later he still hasnt learned to negotiate them

goes through them rather than around or over

it hurt

its ugly

gets beatup

sports welts deepbruises cuts

                                  however

their existence reveals he managed

to those who cared  it seemed his intent was to doggedly persist

                                                                   he didnt want to learn

and they didnt dare ask

   wisely

               wiser than they could realise

despite knowing its coming hes blindsided

                                              and because he relishes cherishes life its beauty its joys he believes understands that he everyone  must suffer to a degree to keep balance

2200,  Monday,  1  1. 24

1130,  2sday,  2  1. 24

Marta  Today (False Idols)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOFAgc9UJWw

The POINT! is . . . .

                      there is no point

to each thing an opposite

somewhere in him

is exactly otherwise

   and thats me

                   believing in me somewhere  -- here --  exactly

otherwise

            him

or

            her

the more we wrest with standing under

                                           we stand over 

we cannot see under foot

over head

every answer has questions

every question answers

                           and amid uncertainty

a desire to dictate control

the point is . . . . there is no point

   LET . . . .

             GO . . . .

Tuesday evening,  25  9. 07  before Toots and the Maytals

2025,  Monday – New Year,  1  1. 24

   he wanted to Romeomance Juliets snapbox

he was trying very hard to gentlypry from her  

the particularpeculiar chant

                              to relax her

take out the stiffbones in her neck

relax her shoulders spine hips

turn her into warm jelly

when they met

                  Juliet?

   Yes.

Named for Shakespeare’s Juliet?

she smiled warmlyher nose wrinkled very slightly

                                                     My father’s a huge fan read the onehundredfiftyfour sonnets in order then begin again finish begin again. I know some kids who learned English from their parents’ recitation of the Bible; I, I learned it at my Father’s knee as he read Shakespeare.

Yes.

Juliet.

he tried very hardwas mad to learn her abrəkəˈdabrə

Open sesame

                learn

her KNOCKKNOCK Who’s there?

                                  so she would answer  open the door

   unsnap

May, 2007

1942,  Monday,  1  1. 24

Is there something wrong with your hearing?

No Ive had it tested it tested well

                                     I can hear

I think however I hearfor lack of a better way of saying it   I hear wha I want

You chum the water

I rise to wha appeals

   I hear you. But I don't follow you.

Awright A week or so back we were discussing space You mentioned Halleys Comet  I heard Halleys Comment thamade me curious what Halley thought

                                              which spun me reminded me of Mark Twains coming in an leaving with it

“The Almighty has said, no doubt, ‘Now there are these two unaccountable freaks; they came in together, they must go out together.’”  Twain died on the Twentyfirst of April Nineteenten  a day after Halley reached its perihelion

I learned later Halley didnt name the comet It was named in honour of him by Abbe Nicolas-Louis de Lacaille in 1759 after it returned as predicted by Halley who used Newtonian physics determining it woud Thus an affirmation of physics

You triggered that

   Odd, don’t you think?

No

The same afternoon we discussed American slavery thait triggered the Civil War and someone woud have to be an idiot a turd you said to think it didnt You said chattel slavery distinguishing it fro . .

. . Indentured slavery . .

. . Precisely

             An when you said chattel I heard shadow thought shadow slavery  which really appealed to me presenting possibilities attributes definitions I hadnt considered prior

I do hear you

                But then a wholeother vein appears an I gotta run with it

You run with it.

I do

      Rather I track it How many times am I scribbling while you keep talkin . .

. . And carry on the conversation we're having.

                                                    Like you were a chick.

Multitasking

Yes. Exactly.

Which is why I have but you never will

Careful. Never’s an absolutewhich I know you adore.

                                                         Which is why I will never what?

Be in a menage a trois

                         Youre limited as you often say Can only do one thing at a time

NEVER

1813,  Thursday,  28  12. 23

1452,  Monday,  1  1. 24

there are two things one can provide someone who is older tha maybe hed be someday if hes lucky

   Nuts  can only remember one right now 

                                              crossing his fingers that as he writes the other will come to him its decidedlydarker which is probably why on the first day of a New Year his brain is tamping it interfering

the one he can remember

                             CATS

not CAT   CATS

WHY

two benefits

              agility    balance

CATS get underfoot

                      stealthily like fucking electric cars suddenlytheyrethere

                                                                                 youre poached

anifya havent kept up maintained your agility and balance

theyll drop you

                youre down

on the floor

could break something 

which he believes  is called incentive

with CATS

            also comes companionship which comes with fine print

responsibility

obligation

   but

       they help retain agility balance vigour

he knew itknew if he dragged his feet long enough the second would come to him 

                                                                                      flipflops

how are flipflops not toegies or thongs a band across the foot how are they decidelydarker

hed bet odds-on if someone gifted an elderly person flipflops

                                                                the gifter is probably in the Will

1349,  Reggaefriday,  29  12. 23

1305,  Monday,  1  1. 24

cat ate a canary grin on his puss

   Whacha smilin about

My sisters. My brother. Several people who I’ve befriended through them are going to get me into Heaven.

                                                                                                               his grin twisting more

Woudyastop yalook ridiculous

Can't help myself.   I’m In.

   In

Yabetcha.

shook his head  

                  Youre In as much as me which means a cold day in Hell Although Ive renounced it loudly more virulent than you

Yeah, I’d think you’d temper that just in case.

In case of wha

In case.

Fuckyou pullin your agnostic card again  Commit

I’m just sayin they’re believers, true believers.

                                                   I’m In.

Praytell

         he didnt laugh though it coudave been a joke

I will.

All ears

They tell me they’re plus one.

Plus one

            Like a wedding plus one

   Yeah. Exactly.

Then you an they are full of shit  Plus one my ass

1537,  Saturday,  30  12. 23

1612,  Sunday,  123123

She woudnt accept me wishing her a Merry Christmas I coudnt she said because I don believepissed me off

You let her go.

I did not She made a production about it an I don take shit off anyone

She’s mother-in-law.

Motherinlaw

               I don take shit off my Mom   Nobody

Well. You don’t believe.

Careful

   You don’t.

I told her I celebrate Christmas  Tradition

                                            She laughedsnorted literally spat tradition  An I went after her God her loving benevolent God  Yah tell me Maw tell me about God in the MiddleEast twentyone to one dead Gazans to Jews Palestinians to Israeli some real proportionality Bibi clutching to power somebody ought to make him a statistic  Yahtell me about God  Slaughtering each other over religion a religion like yours

You didn’t.

Donbe an asshole Im telling ya

                                    A religious war whastha called  Im heated I cant think

Yeah. I know what you mean gimme a second . . on the tip of my tongue.  On the ti . . oxymoron . .

. . Thasit thas right oxymoron

                                 he laughed

You’re laughing?

I am

What’s funny? You were brutal with Mom.

Oxymoron

   What?  Oxymoron.

I tend to think humblebrag

Humblebrag?

An oxymoron   

1504,  Saturday,  30   12. 23

1129,  Sunday,  123123

he laughednearly choking on his coffee Muthafucker thawas hilarious

Yathink? his eyes eager

Yah I think

             But because youre so rarely funny

Hey!

Truth

        Ill give ya credit ya try But youll have to admit you usually fall flat

   begrudgingly  Crazy. Funny when I don’t intend to be.

A scream

he had drawn a line on paper  labeled pseudointellectual left at the extreme right intellectual

                                                                                                     Thalook right to you

he nodded

I coud make it more extreme turn the paper longwise

No. It doesn’t strike me there’s that much room between them.

Why the page upright struck me as reasonable

I agree. Reasonable. We are talking intellect.

Good he chuckledno pun in intended  Were on the same page

Choice. No pun intended.he laughed  That’s funny yeah, I made a joke.

   No

buddy deflated

Question

Let me recover, wouldya?

Wasnt tha far a fall

                      Rally

No. Not so far.

                   dejected sighed  What’s your question?

What is the gulf between pseudo and intellectual called sipped coffee

   Purgatory.

almost blew coffee through his nose

1500,  Saturday,  30  12. 23

1014,  Sunday,  123123

. . . Oh fuck you Mom

You said that on the phone to your mother?

I did she was full of shit

                            I had to bring my argument home an she wasnt listening

Got her attention

So you said Oh fuck you Mom.

he noddeddisliked redundancy sayin again

That’s unbelievable.

Believe it

             Its the freight of fuck

Nothing comparable Nothing approaches its ardor nothing can replace it

      The freight of fuck

1531,  Saturday,  30  12. 23

0011,  Sunday,  123123

turned off the music

he was sober

the year was ending

                       the next year was going to be like those   2020  an after

on his heels  a relentless bloodhound trying to tree him

Fuck tha dog

tomorrow was New Years Eve

123123

          a friend texted him

he was usually on numbers like a blowfly on raw meat

he texted his thanks complemented them on beating him to the punch but to be honest  he was horribly honest

honest to a fault

   honest

             unsparingly unsympathetically  brutally    honest

he couldnt point that at someone unless he could pointed it at himself

                                                                           and he did

pressed the barrel upward under the crook of his chin aimed out the top of his skull like a tortured  tormented   suicide

  12 31 23

              The End

Beginning Again 

1621,  Reggaefriday,  29  12. 23

2320,  Saturday,  30  12. 23

Listen  do not watch  Beatles  Golden Slumbers/Carry That Weight/In the End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYHPH2LEKiI