30.8.23


first day of schoolgrade school 
                                 teachers are going to want them to write a paper on their summer vacation 
he coudnt wait


it didnt happen until the following week
                                           Class.  This morning until lunch we’ll write a paper about our summer. 
about time
           he flipped open his wood desk opened a notebook took out several pieces of lined white paper closed the notebook closed his desk
                           he had a pencil behind his ear
his teacher didnt like that she asked him several times to remove it
he accommodated her in the moment
it found its way back
she quit asking


he wrote a dialogue between two boys on a playground on swings swinging in unison

when his teacher graded the papers he got an A he usually did on things he wrote  the other stuff  not so much  placing his down on his desk before him she asked when school let out that afternoon if he would please come up and see her
Yes. Of Course.


Let Out bell rang

she required the class to leave the room quietly their classroom was one of the very few that did usually the school shook beneath the cacophony of end-of-the-day I’m-out-of-here voices yells howls more than a thousand feet in halls feet stomping down steps

approaching her shed placed his desk immediately in front of hers 
                                                                 Mrs. Thompson.
something was on her mind  she silenced him holding up her handher index finger pointing to the ceiling brow softly furrowed
           everything was soft about her not fatsoft deliberatelysoft

he stood before her quietly


Joseph. 
Joe.

Excuse me. Yes. Joe.

Yes Mrs. Thompson.

I wanted to talk to you about your paper.

Yes.

Could you take it out of your notebook, please.

Yes Mrs. Thompson.


You can have it facing you I can read my writing upside down I’ll be able to follow you.

Very good. Your cursive is distinct, yet very legible.

I practise a lot.

And your practise shows, very good.

Thank you.

You’re welcome.
                      So the boys swinging together are talking about the other boy’s Mother.
Yes.

He said to the other boy, you I assumed . .
. . Excuse me Mrs. Thompson, a character I assumed, not really me.

Not you?

No.

The assignment was your Summer vacation.

Yes.

So this is not your Summer?

It is part of my Summer that I thought about.

Is there a grain of truth in your paper.

Of course. Fiction is made up of truth.

 Yes.  So.
                The other boy's Mom is an influencer.
Yes.

And you know what that is?

Yes.

What is it?

An influencer influences. I’m not really into that computer stuff. She influences people on-line.

Okay. Thank you.
                    And . . . she’s a cosplayer, and you know what a cosplayer is. 

It’s like dressing for . . er Halloween, dressing for Halloween . a lot.

Do you know what she dresses up as?

Japanese anime characters. I think manga characters too I might find them to be more interesting if I could read Japanese.
            I think.

And all of it, their conversation, while they’re swinging.

They’re swinging in unison, playing, yes.


And you’re going to share your paper with your parents this evening?
Right after dinnerare you kidding me? I got an A. 
                                                     My older brothers and sisters get As all the time.
I got to show-off when I can.

1057,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23

dark matters -- consequences


dark matter
             “How to seek a substance that has mass and therefore exerts gravity, but that does not emit light, reflect it, or blocks it.”  physicist Fritz Zwicky determined

evidence by inference

its presumed influence on observable objects

to perceive dark matter that casts no shadows

one must search not for its presence but for its consequence
                                                                                         consequence
consequences

excuse him all the way to Hell and back
                                           dark matter in many ways reminded him of the fat former  
“Stand back and stand by.”

“I am your retribution.”
                              to what violent grim consequences

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1325,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23

retribution  (noun. Punishment inflicted on someone as vengeance for a (perceived) wrong or criminal act)  REVENGE https://www.youtube.com/shorts/zqW2wBJu1eM


You’ll have to explain, why mariachis?

Settin yourself up mahn

Up?

   Why not

Why not, that’s ridiculous.

Is it

Come on, they’re decidedly, well, they’re, mariachis, are Mexican.

You got something against Mexicans

No.
No

No. 

   Maybe ya do

I told you I don’t.

Ought to see your faceaint got a poker face
                                             I say Mexicans see a subtle squirm like when I say faggots fags niggers  Pronouns recently  For whaever reason those descriptors throw ya for a loop  despite   you insisting otherwise  

That’s not language I use.

Im prompting you

You mean you’re try . .
. . No  Got

Got?

Under your skin
                 Make no mistake  The difference between us is tha I appreciate Im entitled I was born a white male as you however  raised entitled I wasnt privileged unlike you

And for that you’re jealous.

I appreciate you not denying your privilege Im not jealous  Im honest
                                                                        Just the facts maam just the facts
But we digress
Mariachis
Theyre the array in my head tha Im fortunate to have attend me An I prefer it to callin em a band they don circle in my head as you indicaterepeatedly despite my corrections There are not nine Theyre too numerous to count hence array rather motes or cosmoses cosplaying Moses Moseses 
Individual personalities    

eyes go round an round You mean of course . your personality . . or personalities. tips his head

Not at all Consiglieres 
                         But perhaps since their musics like polkasMexico is closer Ive not been to Italy or intend to go . .
. . You don’t intend to go to Mexico.

I don I said closer
                     I used it once an it stuck Been usinit since
You’re crazy, man.
You shoudbe so lucky
                        They keep me on my toes
   
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1016,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23


I’ll need your driver’s license, I have to scan it.

Whell nuts
            If I don have it you cant sell me whisky

No. Every liquor purchase now must be accompanied by a driver’s license.

You remember meselling me whisky before   This feels a before an after

Yes, I do, but that’s beside the point.

Lets use your license

he rolled his eyes

You don have your license on you

eyes still scribbling Not on me, that’s not how this works.  Do you have yours or not?

I have mine
             I was tryin to get away with bein a teenager

Twentyone years old correct

To buy liquor, yes.

Have laws been amended the military cant signup anyone until theyre twentyone
I don know
Which is nuts
You can die for your country but you cant have a drink 
Vietnam hangover
Bullshit

   Can I scan your license?

Thanks for not asking to see it for being uberspecific 

1420,  2sday,  29  8. 23
0936,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23
The Who  Won’t Be Fooled Again  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jtb10ZwbReY


kindergarteners were losing their mindsSCHOOL FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL  at least most  excited to be at schoolmeet new kidsmake new friends
                            up the road is the University of North Carolina – Chapel Hill 
a shooter
         SHOOTER LOCKDOWN   the University   the Grade schools

kindergarteners first  DAY


the newspaper fell from his hands onto the kitchen table  

bringing their coffee to the table she had no place to set them down
                                                                       What’s happened?
Hunting Seasons begun

1726,  2sday,  29  8. 23

29.8.23


eyes arent whathey used to be
                                    or so he thought

years ago he participated in a drug trial at Jackson Memorial an came away with 20/15 visiondamn near able to see through womens clothing
                              he was the only participant who did 
was considered an anomaly

wasnt the first time



was in New Awleans
Mardi Gras 
             in a theatre housed in an old building jerryrigged to show a movie on a compromisedscreen
reminded him of some of the smuthouses in Chicago  rolling past he thoughtyuck thoughtwoudntwannabe caught dead in one  if somebodys got a hankeringwere smart  they woudnt attend without a raincoat an hatNOT YELLOWno beggin targeting
            but then

different strokes for different folks

Nicholson Keseys One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest was playing

he wanted to see it in the worst way

matinee

hed been stoned cokedup drunk hashished twoanahaf days
                                                                   the price was right 
a realrummy Hurricane was included with admission

he sat on ricketywood Missionstyle dining chair 

before sitting he tried it 
                        hand at the front of the seat hand on its back pushed realhard
didnt collapse

couple of rows ahead of him somebodys did

he HARHARed coudnt help himselfwoudnt if he coudave

whoever gotup off their back tossed it to the side tookup another chair played Russian roulette  sat 
                                                                                                        it didnt collapse


firedup a crumble of hashish hafway through


fuckin Indian  Chief  Will Sampson escapes through a chainlinked secured window

The End

he applauded as he always didalways does if a film is worthwhile he only went to worthwhile films

when the credits stoppedreel stopped 
                                        as people came upstream he went through them downstream towards a redlighted  EXI    No  thadidnt say tha   EVIL
hed beenup awhile

rubbed his eyes hard
EVIL        
        fuck
like he coud resist tha
                       checked it out  went through the door entered a darkerred hallwayalleyway made him think of developing 35mms shadows loitered ahead he slipped knuckles on that he carried in his jacketNEVER CAN TELL for ballast he carried a blackjack in the other you can take the boy out of Chicago but not Chicago out of the boy
suddenly they rushed him 
                               they didnt KNOW he was leaving Cuckoo  bloodup  out came the sap too


sign was right

   anesthetised bloodied hisantheirs spatting blood he emerged onto a night street thick with haleanhearty costumed people having some fun

THERE
saloon 
          he needed a drink

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when a things a thing

Dad.   Hear me outdon’t interrupt.
                                     When you wonder if something’s a thing . . likely it’s a thingokay?  Maybe use that as your default . . please ?

Thas tough baby 
No.  Trust me.
                Not as tough as getting texts, emails, telephone calls entertaining your seemingly . . . endlessly . questioning . . Is that a thing?

Im a curious sort

Kudos.
         Anybody else you can pick on?

Im not pickin

   I’ve an idea.

Whastha

I know you have a calendarcalendars beside you at your studio desk.

Yes

How many?

Calendar calendar or perpetual spiralbound calendar

Jesus. Either. Or.

Four

Four?
Don say it like tha

   I don’t have any.
No  On your phone
                     I preferlike  redundancy
Lose your damn phone where you at

DON’T . . don't put that out into the ether.

Lose your damn phone where you at

Whispering it won't stop it from entering the ether.

My apologeezs

Accepted.

I have chopsticks BIC pens sharpened #2 Ticonderoga pencils to jabdeep into ethers ears Im okay with violence

Chopsticks. Pens. Pencils.
                             What a sweet guy.        
Anything for you babe


1515,  2sday,  29  8. 23


everything serves a purpose
                             we serve a purpose
anwhen weve fullfilled it

were dispensable

   an dispensed
                  he thought of sheds tools vanquished crippledup carpenters machinists  of kitchen drawer castoffs Whastha thing do
                    I don know  displaced by newfangled utensils

he thought of a lot of things


but he wasnt going to say

because it hurtjust thinking of them

   just thinking


hurt

0651,  2sday,  29  8. 23


Georgia District Attorney Fani . . . . dare I . . GA DA  GADA Ogod   GADA Fani Willis   in a GADA Da Vida baby
Yah Iesdare
              has all her docs in a row for trying RICO Racketeer Influenced and Corrupt Organisations defendants who have requested speedy trials
Yareally gonna do this

You know me Ofcourse

GADA has all her docs in a row

 

DOC

DUCK
        hmhmm  GOwid it
DOC

DUCK

DOC

DOC

GOOSE!
          Id bet they aint gonna go ring around the rosiemake it back before Fanishell be sittin in their spot smilin at em

1614,  Monday,  28  8. 23
0909,  2sday,  29  8. 23
Iron Butterfly  In A Gadda Da Vida  https://www.youtube.com/watch?wHoNGA

28.8.23


he wasthey were almost asleep

Woudya shut it down  they urged
You were there

When you get high we don get high
NO

YES
NOyare kiddin me
Woudnt kid ya
                  Yes                     

   Thasadrag

Tha thas a drag 
                   Keepin us up is a drag 
Close your ey . .
. . It doesnt work like tha
                           Quiet your mind  Then we can catch some winks
How many ya think
SHADDUP Shut it down 
                                 You need your rest as much as we Cant be clever ifya aint well rested

Lemme have this last one then Ill delve into the deepblack in my eyes black an blackernothing aswirl nothing pulsating  Void
         Where prohibited by lawtough to say void without the rest

Yasaid it  Now say the last one

Dementia did I mention

   Phonaesthetics
A Tolkien token   Toking
Which
I donknow
Then three

Three
    
Yahappy

Yah

Shuttinup an go to sleep

Gonna try real hard

Yah
      Mariachis are tryin to sleep
 
midnight,  Sunday/Monday,  28  8. 23
1425,  Monday
Guess Who  No Sugar Tonight/New Mother Nature  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzjfw6I78jI


Im tellinya This shit just falls into my lap

she sneered  It doesn’t. You only like to think it does.

Like how

People who know you.

Yah You know me

Yes. Your reputation precedes you. They have no other choice than to share air quotes this shit air quotes with you.

Iee donknow bout tha

Yawanna think?

Ya think
I think.
        What was the latest gambit, latest shit?
Its a doozy
she shook her head   When is it not?

Something called hentai Japanese porn  porn   Anime

Nooo.  nor was she blinking

Your eyes are gonna dry out

Oh I expect you’ll wetten them.  Carry on.

Something called Rainbow Gate Believe its played on-line  Female characters differentcoloured lipsticks colourclosest to the pubic bone on the bone wins  Sayah a colourful schemeplay on deepthroat

What did you say to bring that on?

   I cant think of anything overtly sexual
                                                        Banana bread
Banana bread?

Yah
       As opposed to a freshfruit plate

There had to be more to it.

We were discussing film

What films?

Wide variety of films  Share recommendations

What did you share?

Woudsay my usual eclectic selections 
                                        Eclectic selection like tha Tolkien pound sand yet another phonaesthetic in my column  Yutz 
               Note I didnt say putz

What films did you recommend?

A slewseveral

Remember any title? 
Remember any titles
                     Mildred Pierce by Cain Dick Powell Murder My Sweet theyre noir The Big Sleep Bogart Bacall Killing Them Softly Pitt Monkey Business Grant Monroe Elvira Bliss She’s still got my putter. Dangerous Beauty Portrait of a Woman on Fire

I know Dangerous Beauty.

Good film  Venetian courtesan midlate Sixteenth Century 

Sexual.

Its a film
About a courtesan.

Not porn

Banana.
Oooh theres tha  but plenty  
                              A woman empowering herselfplaying with the mens at their games

Banana.

Whellshit 
No other choice given it’s you. 

   Perhaps
No.

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1210,  Monday,  28  8. 23


You got fired from the smoothie place too?

I did

Starbucks. Now.
                      Do I want to know?

Do you wanna know

I don’t know if I wanna to know.

Comon
        Live dangerously

Lemme think . . . if I want to know.

You havin a good day

I was.

You look perturbedconfused

Perturbed’s accurate.

   By me . .
. . You.

Really me . .
. . Yes.

Because I refuse to knuckledownComon Theyre part-time jobs  I take em to entertain myself make a little extra money

Do you think maybe you entertain yourself too much?

I cant cant leave it to other people
                                     So many  a droll pathetic sense of humourlike they don know how to laugh outloud let go  I wanna shake emup
                               It aint Is That All There Is song by Peggy Lee 
I remember it.

Good
      Dark humour noirish  but they wont even break out the booze an have a ball  he heldup his hands before him parallel  apart  made short synchronised karatechopsBREAK OUT  Laugh it up
                                                                                     Lifes a joke said Dylan said Hendrix
Maybe that’s your problem.
Tell me 
         I love when people tell me my problem
It’s not funn . .
. . Its a scream

LIVID Yaspit in somebody’s smoothie?
Better

AwJesus. 
More
What’s more than better?

   Yaknow Had a vasectomy  Had my sample for that afternoon for the clinic a real prick treating a female coworker a real prick drooled it into his smoothie
Awmygod . .
. . Manager realised my sample wasnt in the refrigerator My coworker was weeping  I was smiling 
                                                                                                           Extrapolated  Good manager

AwJesus.
I didnt admit 
              Edible  Protein   Zinc lotsazinc  Woudnt kill himfrankly  he deserved a knuckle sandwich but I woudave been fired
You were fired.
Nobody got hurt he got a free boost
                                     Made it to the clinic early  Provided anotherTHEREs more where tha came from

Jesus.

Woudya give im a break awready

1717,  Reggaefriday,  25  8. 23
1033,  Monday,  28  8. 23
Jimi Hendrix  All Along the Watchtower  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLV4_xaYynY

 
   Trumpvirus arithmetic

as of today 1,173,394 Americans have died 

of 10August 1,171,276 had died
                                     2118 deaths over 18 days or 117.6666666 lives

which is UP from the earlier average 113 a day 

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