3.7.22


Chaise . . I’m I saying it right?

Lounge?  she giggled 
                      You don’t mean chaste?chaste lounge. 
Chaste, not chaise?

she looked she was toeing the edge of apoplectic
                                                    It couldbe both . I mean . . chaste in your chaise lounge.

Yare searching for chaise lounge 
                                  he looked over at her  We a little stoned
she did a little dance step in one spot
                                        A wee bit.  He’s funny. 

he turned to Moby She thinks yare funny 
                                            In your chaste lounge

apoplectic is Janusfaced humoured  slipping towards anger

Chill Babettes havin a little fun

I am. she giggled  Moby’s funny.

I’m funny?

I’d think you’d know the proper pronunciation.
                                                 Chaise. 
It is . chaise . lounge.

It is. Now tell me what you understand chaste to mean.

I’d rather not.

Havin too much fun

I am. Chaste Moby.

It’s chaste comma Moby.

Are you talkin in third person

Chaste, Moby, lemme hear it.

Abstaining . .
. . YES! Moby Monk!

OhJaysus She gets a little stoned an pulls no punches

Pulling no punches.

Abbess Babette. You abstain.

she threw her head back By choice. I can laid if I want, I’m a woman, you can’t, women are gatekeepers . .
. . The keyholders chastity belt keepers
                                           Moby no sex for you
You two ganging up on me?

Yes. she smiled widely  I’m teasing, are you teasing?

Im teasing
            Moby  Ya didthough bring the subject up inadvertently

Chaise is a hard word.

Because yare high too


Maybe.

Horseshit. You look like a blind man walking with a cane down a strange street . . really unfamiliar.

Wasnt a good look
                    If yare gonna err err loud and strong confidently  Otherwise yaint chaste yare incel

He's incel! Babette sang

Babette please
                Just hit a dry patch

Spit on it! Babette threw her head back laughing


maybe it was possible to be an ugly stoner
                                             no matter she was having a ball Moby was slipping towards misery he didnt know which was worse  an ugly or miserable stoner

he was neither
                he was a thinking stoner an examiner miner spelunker unearther pryer he liked deepdives sets subsets liked pulling through people cotton through a cotton gin panning experiences for elements  for Gold


Babette was laughing so hard she cried

Moby was as somber as a crank monk

Im gonna get a beer Anyone need anything 
                                           albeit he saidasked as he stood turned pivoted his back to them he needed blurred words they couldnt have heard right to escape

figured he let them sort it out

then return
             pull through their ruin or ashes for gold from their teeth

1716,  ReggaeFriday,  17  6. 22
227preferred,  Sunnyday,  3  7. 22
James Gang  Ashes the Rain and I  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUr1wVf29b8


they didnt kill each other

when he left they were seeking hehoped contrition  divining it in their mighty little vacuum out of doors  

returning it seemed they breathed colourless ether that may have clung to the downwelling from the brightblue whitecloud dappled ether overhead


You two cool

Babette looked up We are, I apologised.

She apologised, said she was having a little fun at my expense.

Ya opened the door Moby

I did.  I did.
             You didn’t bring me a beer.

You didnt say when I asked as I went in

I didn’t hear what you said.

Take mine Ill get another Babette your vodka tonic need replenishing

Maybe a little ice.

Ill be right back


he returned with a fresh bottle of beer icecubes in a plastic cup 
                                                                   Im reading this scifi Walkaway by Doctorow The first chapter describes a party like a rave theyre sipping urine beer 
                                                                 he tapped the neck of his bottle to Mobys Prost  Zum Wohl
Huh?

Babette said Cheers. To your health.

Why would you know that, Joe?

Had family survived the war the camps they made their way to America I understand they overheard guards as they had their beer rations 

I know because my family is German.

Moby nodded to her wordslooked sideways at Joe You did say urine beer?

I did

Piss.

Please I hate that term Now  quickly turn it into an acronym and say wha it means
Probably isnt something safe. Babette said

Whoa

What?

I was thinking Perhaps is something sour

What?

It’s your turn, Moby. 

What?

Acronym Moby
               That was excellent Babette was barely off my lips

Yours was really quick too.

Thank you
           Moby Weve bought all the time we coud Whas the meaning of your acronym


I don’t know.

Slow on the uptake

Shaming me ain’t helping.

Isnt shaming
              Ya have to admit your norm isnt dabbling excelling in wit being clever

And you are?

We areweve already said 
                           But we grew up in the same neck of the woods not the West Coast I believe guile is a Midwest East property  being snappy   last to the table doesnt eat

Eat what?

He’s hopeless.

Not hopeless Hes just not a horse to bet on

You’re doing it again . . making me the butt of your jokes.

No butt The acronym is P I S S
                                   Whadaya got


NothingGoddammit.

No sweat its okay

Correct, you’re the misfortunate product of a lesser God, not your fault.

I wish I said that

I’m quicker than you.

I concede
          One last shot Moby   P I S S

I thought we quit playing.

We didnt say that were tryin to buy ya more timeenable you
                                                                 Yacoudve dug in gained some standing instead you disassociated squandered it

I can’t think.

Clearly.

Babette Im really beginning to think yare a mean stoner

She is.

Moby Don
            Yer out of your league


she didnt kill him when he went inside
                                         he could suppose her intention was torture

1800ish,  ReggaeFriday,  17  6. 22
423preferred,  Sunnyday,  3  7. 22


Now wait up a second.

they were walking around the lake in townmile an a half second lap there was a clutch of young women walking in the opposite direction and they decidedagreed they needed a second lap threefour gals were buxom jaunty attractive here they come  yah threefour
                         they nodded to each other laughedloudly it was obvious while passing

  Oohshit.
             If it looks like their going around again you game?
DUH goes without saying
                              You were saying
Saying?

Their jiggling heaving jelly erase your memory


Couldbe think so . was one hell of a straightaway towards ‘emgot lost in my thoughts.

Wicked games

I should say.
                You said?

I said you were saying

What did I say?

he sighed Ive been reminding you a lot passed without comment Ya said Now wait up a second

Now . . . wait up a second wait up . a second . . . a second second secondYEAH  got it.

Firmly

Yes. In my grasp.

Well then say before it eludes youslithers away again

Ain’t going nowhere.

Save it  Say

Awright.  So when you and your daughter disagree . . strenuously sometimes . .
. . No doubt we have strong personalities
Yeah I’ve heard you.
                        Did you just say that during disagreements you’ll tell the other to fuck off fuck you?

Yes

Do you actually say fuck?

I woudnt say fuck if we didnt say fuck

Not screw you?

No shook his head Not screw you

That’s got to be uncomfortable.

It isnt

I’ve never said it to my parents, my siblings, or people, maybe during a fight, but haven’t had many . a handful . maybe . . tosses gas on a fire.

Might
         Whas your point

That you use it on each other.

Use it when were angry at each other when were jokingoften lots when joking

Why?


Whynot

It’s a fighting wordcan cause a fight inflame someone . .
. . Because it is not part of your vocabulary

It’s crude.

Yes Daddy
                Fuck you
Why fuck me?

Because yacoud use it with family but you choose to remain tightlipped Ive said as much about your brothers and youve said quote You can say that again, fuck ‘em.
                                                But you don say it to them
No.
     We don’t use that kind of lang . .
. . English  Ya don speak English

I was saying . language.

I know you were Daddy

Would you quit with Daddy?

Thas who influenced you  Its only a word 
                                            I talk to my kids like adults I talked to my kids when they were kids like adults  Fuck is part of our vernacular The majority of my relationship with my children will be as adults far longer rather than they were children  Agreed

Yes.

Adults speak of matters frankly
                                    Fuck is mighty frank Expeditious  Pounds down sharp edges blunts chills  yahprovocative captures ones attention In my family beyond humour fun fuck gives one pause
                                                                                                     During heated arguments Fuck is the safe word

Safe word?

Ohmygawd  Dadd . .
. . I said quit with that!

he spat it outrolling his eyes up in his headuttering rote  lectured  A safe word serves as a prearranged an unambiguous signal to end an activity such as between a dominant and submissive sexual couple
                                                                                                        Dig   Safe word

I’m just saying in my family we don’t use it.

Ive acknowledged that My family does


I don’t know what to say.

When you don know wha to say don say
                                              Free advice
515preferred,  Reggaefriday,  17  6. 22
1141,  Sunnyday,  3  7. 22
Chris Isaak  Wicked Games  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tm2q5KsVt8


it had gone back and forthfuriously enough times that people around them were getting very uncomfortable 

but they didnt know what their relationship was

their wordsargument didnt tip their hands

one doesnt jump off a cliff into an abandoned waterfilled quarry without trying to determine if rocks are unseen under the surface 
            snapped ankles compoundfractured shins femurs dislocated knees spinal injuries  irrevocable trauma

he stood out of reach behind her over her left shoulder
                                                           he had been sitting in an upholstered chair across a coffee table from her but his rising ire forced him up and away he didnt want to touch her  she was really pushing his buttons 
Fuck you Dinah   

lavalivid she lolled her headlaid it over the back sofa cushion
                                                                  Fuck you Dad
the room went cold  blue
                           people stopped drinking their coffees lattes chewing their sweet rolls breakfast burritos gum

Dinah twitchedstood she went to the restroom

outnumbered eyeballed he backpedaled went to the Mens room

the bathrooms could be exited into a parallel concourse

they came out there within seconds of each other
                                                     embraced  We’re getting really good at this, Dad  Dinah said

2331,  Saturday,  3  7. 22

2.7.22


he used to look forward to writing highwrote high in high school collegemythology poetry Shakespeare one art class proved his junior high F was unwarrantedwas fomented by the uncheckedunquestioned authority of a plebeian cunt he saw coming a mile off  Why didnt the administration   he dropped out twice  performed for professors who when provoked confused their academic standingstature with superiority  vigor  and ended up on their backs with a raw kid standing over them calmly telling them to stay down or hed really hurt them
                                                                               unchecked righteousness  scars to prove it
he was high now a fatty smouldering between his fingers


a different kind of high accompanies Age  accompanies a life of unexpected pleasures  accompanies desperate losses 
    but
         consistently he keeps writing  divulging  lying 

using honest words steepedproficient in social interactions  nonfiction is fiction and fiction is nonfiction

looking in a mirror to shave which is which
                                                 who is who
whichwho did he like most


he still didnt know

2039,  Saturday,  2  7. 22
Blind Faith  Can’t Find My Way Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jlLBs6YawM


He's F K A. 

he said it like hed know what the fuck it meant
                                                    Are you talkin to me a DeNiro Taxi Driver moment  I know you know I havent a clue what yare talking about 

Oh . excuse me crappy exaggeration . . you hate acronyms.

Despise acronyms Abhor  Dislike

 Right. disdain frosted his face because he didnt side with him he believed him a contrarian  contrary just to cross peoples popular opinion practises 
                 Hate’s tucked up alongside evilnothing’s evil to you.

Not a damn thing yare correct

Because he rolled his eyes evil smacks of religion.

Ya know it

Man, you’re full of shit. a shiver perceptibly ran his spine
                                                                  rightly so

he eyed him steely shrugged theyve danced around this before
                                                                     Yare welcome to your opinion everyone is Yare welcome to your right to express it  Yare also welcome to risk getting beat for saying

You’d really pop me . .
. . For disrespecting menot taking me at my word   I choose my words carefully  You know Im not loose with them


I apologise. he taught him to use apologise not say Im sorry Im sorry is horseshit shorthand   I apologise.

Thank you I accept your apology 
                                            F K A
You really havent . . . 
                       he eyed him

Man . . you live under a rock?

Yes Edjamacate me   Im keen on learning things I don know

F K A. Fucking know it all.

Good to know but youll please remember Im gonna forget it   Acronym
                                                                            How do you know

How do I know him?

Yes  Fuckin know it all   F K A Idve thought formerly known as

He’s a friend.


he might reevaluate their friendship

if he remembered correctly,  Sunday,  12  6. 22
1204, Saturday,  2  7. 22


Is it  hopeless apparitions guided by musicians  or magiciansguided by magicians

What are you talking about?

Comon  Creedence Clearwater Revival
                                         Doo doo doo lookin out my back door  Im sure of tha
Doo doo I'm sure too . et cetera.

An prior

he shook his head  I don't remember them being hopeless.

Woudnt an apparition be hopeless I mean  theyre apparitions   not much to aspire to if ones an apparition is there

I don’t know.

Who knows

Mikey.

  Mikey he likes it
                     Tha Mikey

Yeahright . he’s sitting just over therehas a smartphone.

Does everything have to come down to a gawddamn smartphone
                                                                       Weve become dolts dullards and dotards Were doomed  Whawoudya put your money on

My money?

A friendly bet

Depends on what you think is friendly.

Five bucks

he groaned  Five bucks  Why not a gentleman’s bet . .
. . Were no gentlemen comon  put a little skin in the game

What are we betting on?

Musicians  magicians
                        You choose first
Musicians.
            I can see apparitions dancing to musicians.

Awright I get magicians Wheres your five bucks he rifled his pocketpulled out some crumpled bills straightened them out Heres my fiver

he opened his wallet took out a clean sharp fivespot from among bigger bills

he looked into his billfold  I should have bet bigger . .
. . You didn’t have bigger.

I coudve bet eight bucks

I could have raised you.

Were not playing poker

I know, I’m just saying.

    Yasaid
             Well   Lets go ask Mikey 

You understand we’ll be interrupting his tweets or Facebook dating apps other apps. He won’t be happy.

I aint happy with him Dude always has his nose in his phone asif it smells like pussy
                                                                                          Awshit marketing idea Hell  Id buy me a new phone

You’re so droll, so freakin obvious.

Yababe droll  Thas a helluva poker handfour of a kind  Droll Dolts Dullards Dotards  alliteration

Alliteration.  Really?
                      Ya can’t remember if it’s musicians or magicians.  You better not have set me up.

Wha if I did An actually I alliterated earlier  doomed

he clapped his hands Doomed.  I’m just saying.

    Yasaid


they approached Mikey


neither won
              it was magicians but it wasnt hopeless  wond'rous

skin went back in their pockets

turned out they were gentlemen after all
                                           Doo doo doo lookin out their back doors



Prior  our incel convo got me all lathered up

he chuckled Involuntary celebates?

    Yah  Abstemious Church an Incels    Same damn thing

You might have something there.

Oh I do
       I doo doo doo

if he had to guess,  Sunday,  12  6. 22
555preferred,  Reggaefriday,  1  7. 22
CCR  Lookin’ Out My Back Door  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GeJuUqDqY00

1.7.22


he took a night off to recharge restore refill his gonads had sex nine days running
                                                                                          if he had a partner their imagined gymnastics implausibleimpossible positions would have hurtkilled them wasnt he thoughtful                 
                                                                                               they  his partners  he couldnt say definitively  might have cheated on their husbands boyfriends  some on their samesex partners

he was an equalopportunity ambidextrous masturbator

1456,  Thursday,  30  6. 22


  old menmost white
                       if they were consideratethey werent he could name more than a few if they were considerate they would take leave of the planet they ran their terror but it seems it must be impossible to get enough of a great thing by their reckoningtheir standpoint  their standing roving over others    particularly women holes  meant to be filled whores   assisted by handfuls of sildenafil they wouldnt know what that was  doctors orders  maybe Aronix Nauh Liberize Nauh 
                       Throw em a bone  Viagra Yah   it happens his alltime favorite is Grandipam Grandpa!  Whadafuck  Why nothuh    Money keeps in the family

1532,  Thursday,  30  6. 22
1129,  Reggafriday,  1  7. 22

old men hiding behind executive privilege anonymity  intimidation

Cheney: "Men are running the world and it is really not going that well."


Yah it was midmorning Sowha it was unlikely hed ever find himself in his folks old neighbourhood again
                                                                                                              the first thing he saw as he walked into a corner tavern was a decrepit old man seated at a table by himself before him was a halfbottle of rye a shotglass turned upsidedown and a nearlydrained glass stein it looked warm a ruinous head stretched down inside it like cobwebs 
                                          he looked sedate like a snakenecked crane before it struck

he would make a point to sit facing the door the old man occupying half of his vision

at the bar he ordered a neat double Redbreast a pint of Guinness paid what was duetipped then walking off grabbed the back a worn wood armchair and dragged it to a table without any chairs around it
                                                                                          nobody lookedsaid a word as he dragged it across the sawdusted wood floor


men sitting at the bar three across loudly animatedly argued the Supreme Court

two were of a mind that it needed to be expanded it had been illegally comprised Two wrongs they barked would finally make a right. 
                     the third was busting his britches tickled to the tits at its composition About fuckin’ time!A Bout fuckin’ time!
              he repeated himself over the wrongs making a right
                                                                   

halfway through his Guinness sipping Irish he saw the old man shake a wee bit like a fart exited but he wasnt able to lift his leg to make it sound 
                             it was the first he saw him move the three goons yammered louder repeating themselves

the old crane stabbed he blewhe BELLOWED 
                                                  Fuckin idiots woudya shaddup! Ya donneed expand the fuckin’ courtNO. as he yelled he gestured with his armselbows bentwrists not coming above them they moved like they were brokemoved like he was being manipulated by a lousy marionettist Awhell NO! Ya empty it like filthy pool water, lose the turds then refill the goddamn thing. he concluded snapping his wrists at the floor

That would work he mused

2257,  Thursday,  30  6. 22