she outstripped him with her
moniker
while professing her inner child
Mad Soul Child(otherwise known as
Choi Jin-sil)
he was content(or so he thought)
with his copycatted manchild Rousseaus happily
took direction from his nature and was unconcerned whether it fit the society
he was born into
Patience is bitter but its fruit
is sweet
while not an astonishing or noble
Rousseauian quote it served his demeanor long before he learned of its
existence
Mad Soul Child might possibly be a
thing of fable
though her blatant genius
enraptured him
unfortunately it didnt
hold
it
peeled like snakeskin as he learned of her life its emergent suspicious and sorted and
terrible facts
he didnt find Jin-sil until after her death
he found one of her songs on the
soundtrack to The Man from Nowhere
he was
ever a sucker for revenge films and decidedly had proclivity for foreign films
American cinema seemed as its
doped culture and audience mired in sequels of tried-and-true seeds CG effects
and splashy violent comicbook flicks
pure fantasy
as he saw it the Fantasy vs
Realism was spurred by a Generation and more of 24/7 Reality television vs straightforward
Reality(never the twain shall meet)
it wasnt to say he didnt enjoy a
dose of fantasy however he dosed intermittently
to an endgame of keeping it fresh and vital
dessert was never meant a main
course
and
what sufficed and entertained disguised the reality turning in the atmosphere
around and about everyone
he couldnt put his finger on when
the disconnect occurred when the fraying turned into a unforgiving run
It is too difficult to think
nobly when one thinks only of earning a living(and paying the bills) -- also
Rousseau
if to assign blame he would blame
it on being possessed by Living
though he took satisfaction
he often rested his finger on its pulse and was aware more often than not of
the things that cajoled him
he simply didnt have the time to
commit and thereby act against them
Mad Soul Child
fable
Choi Jin-sil committed suicide 2
October 2008
she hung herself in her home with a rope made of medical bandages(committed)
Jin-sil was dubbed “the Nations” South
Koreas actress and following her death more than seven hundred people committed
suicide
many were believed heartbroken by
her death and sympathetic they succumb
while authorities tried to debunk
the spike in suicides the radical statistic remains and is otherwise unexplained
the more he read of Jin-sils life he
realised two things
she was either part of a deeply flawed
and tragic family(he was not prone to coincidence) or perhaps South Koreans have
a mythology of their own and it rivals an American myth
what if their deaths at 39 years
old were comparative to those revered deaths at 27 years old that Americans perceive
as mythic
our Hendrix Morrison Joplin though their deaths were presumed accidental
overdoses
Jin-sil committed suicide in 2008
at 39
at 39 her brother Choi Jin-young committed
suicide in 2010 as did her ex-husband Jo Seong-min in 2013
they all took their lives by hanging
preceding Jin-sils death in 2008 was
another prominent suicide by actor Ahn Jae-hwan
he died by carbon monoxide
poisoning caused by charcoal briquettes(a real thing*) in his car(straight out of a J
G Ballard story of urban dystopia and death)
Jin-sil was accused of pressuring
Ahn Jae-hwan to repay her a two million dollar loan and overwhelmingly the attack
was levied via social media who determined she acted as an unscrupulous loan
shark(can you say Book of Faces)
oh well sometimes a simple curiosity can lead
one to standing in shit up to their knees
nevertheless
fable cautionary tale
Mad
Soul Child was inspiring
and
despite what he learned hed put it up against what he believed for a very
long time
ones life is their sole
possession
it is theirs to do with exactly as they want barring anyone
elses belief or commentary and braying
like an ass would fall deaf on his ears
afternoon, Monday,
8 8. 16
1743, Twosday,
9 8. 16
Mad Soul Child Breath
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CmeIWZub6y8&list=PLidtgDZVR_poUpbzTPGEVBXXXSiq5ju2Y&index=9
