cats and ants

               if not pluralised   wouldnt be fourletter words  for lots of people

he liked catsloved cats

                         they were one in the same

could be affectionate

                       werent

he tolerated ants when he could

                                  but when they crossed him he was a Titan as when Titans swept mankind away savaged them

ants that people were

they surrounded Roberts empty plate at the foot to the porch

                                                                  a few kibble lay on the concrete apron

to their credit ants  are exploitive

imagined in their world waste not want not wasnt an axiom

                                                                 a dogma

he appreciated that

                       however   appreciative

he still took a broom to themswept them aside flipped them with his flipflops

                                                                                 THERE   then GONE

holocaust

satisfied like a vanquishing God

                                     he stepped back into the house

sat at his desk to write letters he had to

    his three cats became a barrage at his feeta knot under the desk at his flipflops

                                                                                       Whadafuck

he tried to pushed them away with his feethands  they were having no part of it

finally

        rolled back  kicked his flipflops aside

they were on them

oblivious of him

What The Fuck

cats

ants

       an attraction

THEM  a 50s film crept into his head

                                         formic acid

Googled

                 https://sites.psu.edu/ecologistsnotebook/2014/06/03/signs-of-spring-13-ants-cats-acids-and-aspartame/

kind of a catnip silvervine

absolutely blew him away

                                  following morning

they were still amused by his shoes

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Steel Pulse  Door of No Return  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KlWzKjTc0zg

he walked out of the house

                             standing on the porch he looked over the estates back grounds hard to call it a yard dominated by an artful deep swimming poolsurrounded by varied patios  stripgardens   trellises

one particular trellis attracted his attention

                                              was backed by a blunt freestanding slagbrick wall  once part a dairy barn  otherwise  the whole razed

it was streaked by flickering wall torches

their backs to him  

                     a clutch  an arc of men

he was curious what their focus was

he went down the porch steps to flagstone pavers pebbles between  strode to the knot

looking between headsshe happened to look past the men nearest her to where he was

                                                                            Well look at you.

laughing he slipped through her admirers

                                            Look at you  stepped facetoface  not really

It has been awhile.

My pixie with big tits men suddenly discombobulated as if her tits werent big   werent a presence

Aww. she mewed  Wish I could say the same.

No yacant But you preferred my dandy loquaciousness   lapping cream

she didnt blink

                  As charming as ever.

he said to the surrounding mensuddenlyneutered  desexualised   shit out of luck

                                                                                          Churmed her 

one muttered better than a forebodingsigh  Churmed?

watching her  she was amusedenjoying their tit for tat

                                                           Churmed  Yes   Christ  to her You

she laughed gayly

Those fuckinhuge dimples  nice to realeyes again

                         Churmed.  Churned.

Yes I did

            Churmed the cream to savory sweetbutter

My pixie with big tits

    the knot untwisted from around them

                                            Nice to see you again Joe.  Haven’t changed a bit.

Neither have you kiddo

                         Love your outfit dressed in lemonyellow edged in icywhite  Look good enough to eat

Again

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1306,  Saturday

Funny  he thought to himself

                                it wasnt

Not funny

    Curious

                he felt more comfortable in tacky motel rooms with her than he ever did in any place she rented  called home

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if that wasnt rich

                        occurred to him   Cream Rising

cream always rises to the top

    Youre laughing

Yah

Tickled

Ohfuckyah

Wanna share

I think if you an yours hunkerdown put your numerousilluminous skulls together you can ferret my humour

Friend Easy for you to say

                                Much of your humour an thoughts are impenetrable indecipherable wed need Turings Bombe to break your Enigma code

You know tha

Because you know tha

                          Your sudden occurrences  their surfaces are slick oiledglass  within is   obscure

    Obscure  Perhaps better thaway

We think youd rather say inform us

                                         Explain as you explicitlyexplained to your children so they werent ignorant  in the dark   regarding so many sensitivesubjects tha even your wife was hesitant to say  reveal

Helps to be brazen brusque

Not care wha others think

Not ever    Awright

                        Ill confess

Thank you

    Cream Rising

                              Masturbation

Yes

Imagination

Yes

The pair coupled are dynamic

                                  Dynamic to the extent tha fleshsanblood women cannot compete  gymnasticagile bendability  contortions   simply defy physics

                                                      The emergent blending of bodies  utterly impossible

Except . . .

    . . . In ones imagination

In mine

We thank you

Youre welcome

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https://www.bbc.com/news/science-environment-18561092

Emerson, Lake & Palmer  Karn Evil 9  1st Impression Part 2  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cc6ymS4NGxg

I read what you wrote. a little venom

    Where

Where else?

                    Let her obvious other bigness go.

Anal’s easy. as venom said he fashioned in his head analseasy analsleasy  eyed analyses was how his mind workedeverythings a moving target a cog  one thing leads to another and another an . . . 

Id pretend you were asleep an try not to wake you.

 

 

    soaked in a hot bath

                          lookingup at the large showerhead  its shadow on the wall into the corner

the shadow moved subtly

Curious he thought

                    Hmmm    took a deep breath  blew up into the corner

it moved

spider web  shadow cast on it

                                    hadnt seen the spider in a weekweekanahaf   appleseed on occasion went missing tendays twoweeks then returned

hed give this one a few more days before taking it downhe braked

for a thought

              you dont want to hit a thought

be thoughtless

                not to mention  a thoughts sometimes just the tip of the icebergcould fuckin ruin you  come through the windshield centipedemillipede legs thrashing in its death throes

                                                                    shredding you

if not killinya outright with its bulk

    the thought  was about the web

was about a web networkwere the spiderwebs throughout the house   interconnected  nerves  axonwired neuronweb to neuronweb

               maybemaybe  the spider abandoned its abovethetub web for the new art he hung on his livingroom wall that had caused consternation among the very few with who he shared it

                                                                               its halo  aura

he had said

               Im excited for spiders to come

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It’s A Beautiful Day  Girl With No Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DL_6_AmQp9s

he liked  dark

                 spent youthful years taming it in his basement  hunred year old farmhouse  brick foundation  shit dont get spookier than that

                     even despite today  with what the dayevery year  brought

Some people are just born to be buried.

                                          movie  The Devil All The Time  certainly was grim

sinister

          as the ad said

was a startling line

                     its delivery  terse   morose

a scratching at the back of his skullbit concerned they may be considering graffiti  black spraypaint  red highlights

like some young women were wearing their hair

he said into the ether

                       I wont forget

Youre sure

You remember who youre talking to

    Good point

                      felt them set the aerosol cans back into the wood fruit crate

We good

Wes good

            Name of the film

Again  The Devil All The Time

We don believe in the devil

We don believe in god

Evil

No Very bad

               Screenplay written by film directed by Antonio Campos  Also did Afterschool Simon Killer Martha Marcy May Marlene  Addresses issues of media obsession timelyhuh  image  cultural rise of voyeurism scopophilia

Whas tha

    Scopophilia

Yah

    Break it down

Awright    Scope  View

Yes

Philia

          Love 

Right on

            Literally love of looking

Pleasure in looking at other peoples bodies as erotic objects without being seen by those on the screen or by members of an audience

Did not know tha

Broke it down  Learned all by your lonesome

                                                      To be sure  his work is intense

Youre intense

I got my moments kiddo

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    lenticular

cloud

       hadnt ever seen Mount Rainier without it placidly keeping over its peak

shaped like a lentil

biconvex

there be biconcave

there be bisexual

                   but not in the cloudsTho

If one coud make it in the clouds hed have to give it a go

Youd give it a go

In the clouds  Yakiddin me

I woudnt think itd be warmancuddly in the troposphere

    Ah    Good  point

Yah

        We think so

Tally in the column

Two

       Things being bi as they are

Then two

Kind of you

Kinds of youse

Thank you

Youre welcome

   Where lenticular come from

Trinh T Minh-ha

Oh Clarity quote  Remember

                                   Ideology  Reality adaptive

You pay attention

Bet youd wish people woud pay attention like we do

    Nah

           Thad be pushing buttonsexpectin too much  Competing dialogues

Yours against theirs in their heads

Astute

          No competition

Though I do like the donutglazed eyeballs when I callem out

                                                                 So whadaya think

    Bout what?

We know

           We love ya letem twist like a worm on a hook

Seems yad feel more badly for the worm than them

    Am I tha apparent

No

    Yaplay your cards close

Thenya return to the fray without sighinwish we knew how ya did tha

                                                                             We sigh

I know Like putting my ear to a seashell

                                            I take solaceconsolation from your breaths

Helps me through their obliviousness

Selfishness

No

     Were born selfishinnately selfish

Sppose got patience goin for ya

                                    Remember how hard thawas won

Yah  Cost a pretty penny too

                                Years   Lost wages

Ya bearedup well

No sense bitchin

No  Noneatall

                    Lenticular

Yah

       Certainly caught my eye

   

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hadnt been a good day to be alone

which was to say to be with anyone

                                          be around  anyone      okay

Okay then he said to himself  This is why bars were made

he took a shower

used Q-Tips

brushed his hair

brushed his teeth

dressed

took a walk

place was only a mileanahaf off

ordered a doubleIPA on tap threefingers of Redbreast

                                                          Start a tab bartender askedthen hedged seeing him produce cash

there was a tall café table two chairs under a weathered 48-star America flag should have been burned

took the seat facing the door

had brought Whitmans Leaves of Grass paper folded inside it a pen
                                                                          also James Varieties of Religious Experience

Sto-Lat baby

sipped the whiskey

                     sighed  began reading Rise O Days From Your Fathomless Deeps

lookingup not that he knew

                                but it seemed a particularly busy night

bartenders expression informed him

employee

           if an owner  theyd be grinning

returned to reading and scribbling page numbers stanzas where on the page threefour word tipoffs

went to sip againEMPTY

                         had to remedy that  readied cash  fourth in line to transact

returning to his look at him being possessive table

                                                    saw a young woman had slipped into the empty seat at least she was that smart was leafing through James smarter

Evenin

Hello. Have you read this book?it’s awesome. she was sipping liquor too

                                                                                     she reminded him how cats slipunexpectedly into someones lap

attractive

she could pull it off

                    I have

I saw Whitman was open crazy handwriting man . halfexpected you to be Asian.

No you didnt

    No I didn’t.

I glancedsaw you entered a while back  Alone

Saw you sitting . alone.

                            Who comes to a bar alone?

We do

Could I buy you a drink for interrupting your aloneness?

aloneness  she got it   awfully smart

                                      I woudnt say no

a quick bright smile dimples Great.

                                      Redbreast. Sippin’ the same. I overheard.

My wha big ears you have Grandma

she slapped the table openpalmed

                                      Big eyes too. her smile got goin to grin  dimples deepening

let her other obvious bigness go

for someone alone to acquiesceconcede their aloneness

                                                             he wasnt familiar

this would be different

I’m baack. she said sweepingin like an enthused raptor ifpossible grin bigger yet

                                                                                     I thought I wanted to be alone this evening. Thank you for indulging me.

Indulging Not frequently heard

Not one I usually use.

                             I’d really have to think . I . . I can’t remember . . . anytime . I was going to say recentlybut . . I think I’ve only read it.

no lie in her wide eyes

he heldup the glass she bought

                                  To indulgence

Indulging indulgence.

Here here

they tapped rims  sipped

    slick conversation ensued suddenturns switchbacksREVERSE streaks brakes heavilydlaced with outrageous humour

          frank

invariably sex roiledup

                         after another whiskey and beer    she had walked too

Who walks

We do.

What’s your take on anal?

whiskey on its way to his mouth pulled up short

                                                Good thing you hadnt asked when I had whiskey in my mouth

Would you have lost it?

Id choke before Id lose it

Hmm. Choke.   Lose it.

    Im getting a virginy vibe

looking him dead in the eyes

                                 My anus is virgin.

Not a finger

You?

Ohyah

        Mighty enjoyable coupled with a blowjob

I wouldn’t know.

No

     Though I can vouch its good when giving head to a gal

    Really?

Yah  Sppose youll have to take my word for it

People take you at your word?

If they don they ought to

You’re truthful?

Truthfull with two Ls

Two Ls?

Brutally honest

    Brutally?

Fraid so

           Donwanna know  Donask

    But I have.

Anal

Yes.

Lemme say thisbout tha  Anals easy

                                             If it were you an me

Id pretend you were asleep an try not to wake you

That gentle?

Tha gentle

That patient?

Long on patience

    Hmmm.

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hard numbers

In memoriam

ONE

two

three

four

five

six

seven

eight

nine

ten

eleven

twelve

thirteen

fourteen

fifteen

sixteen

seventeen

eighteen

nineteen

twenty

twentyone

twentytwo

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Elton John  Funeral for a Friend/Love Lies Bleeding https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REfKNbNndzo