blessed is a poignant word

    he wouldnt use it in a religious context

                                                         thinking about it

he couldnt remember a time he had

Whadaya think about the word blessed

Blessed? You mean religiously?

No

        Think youve ever used it

I’m sure I have . . casually . . . Thanksgiving . . it’s certainly a blessing to have and enjoy family gathered together . Christmas.

                Yeah.

Why?

I um  I  cant think of a time I have I  tread  lightly where connotations might be assumed religious   Like yourself

The reason why I asked you

Can you think of a tim . .

. . I cant

                     Lemme think    I got take a leak

Be back

You can do two things at once?

I can

       Im an extraordinary man  chuckled

walked away from the patio the picnic table they were sitting at over to trimmedback dormant roses at the planked fenceline

             relieving himself he thought

  then

he knew

he returnedhad tears in his eyes

his voice was remarkably stable  committed

                                                     I know

You know?

Blessed

That was quick.

When I put my considerable mind to something invariably something in the neighbourhood shakes out

    Considerable?

Youre listeninconsiderable  yes

Alright.  What?

I was blessed to have leftie in my life

                                           Without me being aware she  she was  consoling  loving    an attentive companion

She was a cat.

She was unlike any cat Ive ever hadever had the joy   to care for

                                                                         Annow tha shes homeher ashes  over this quiet Christmas I realised the perfect place to keep her when I am not holding her

You hol . .

. . Yes I do

               You underestimate how deep a cut her death was

I hold her while I write read  watch a program

    She comforts me  even now

That’s disturbing.

    For someone who doesnt visit his parents gravesnot fifteen minutes away on any array of special days birthdays anniversaries holidays  you might appreciateunderstand your disturbed is very  slight

I am blessed leftie was in my life

after 3PM,  Saturday,  29  12. 24

1525,  Monday,  30  12. 24

Warren Zevon  Knockin' on Heaven's Doors  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euBuVh_BUe4

day late dollar short

his mother said of him

too many to count teachers said of him

                                          he had done something too late without enough effort

missed opportunities because he was late lacked resourcesBULLSHIT

his Maw teachers didnt take kindly to it

he didnt apologise

                    his resources were abundanttoo abundant yes he was late better late than never

because he refused to do something hafass refused to turn in a lesser product for some adulation or better LETTER grade

         cost him one grade every day late

he usually received Cs with the caustic printed note at the end of the paper Had you turned this in on time you have earned an A.FUCK YOU he earned an A according to him and that was all that was important

his mother

             Wait till your father gets home.

as a boy the bareass spankings hurt

                                        but

her threats his punishments fell away by the time he was a high school sophomore  physicallybuilt by the hard labor he did to earn money

                    he wanted something he asked no one  bought it himself

day late dollar short

                      meant yesterday   sixthousandninehunred sixtynines

there was an excellent chance he would have knocked the tar out of eighteenyearstwenty days had he accumulated tabulated into it the four scathing months with Chris

he overlooked her skinny chicken legs for her stunninglyhuge breasts delectable aureoles nipples

not two weeks into their torrid affair he knew he made the right decisionend of the first week her mother returned to Maryland for three weeks leaving Chris alone in their apartmentAMEN

                                                                           and

her thinthighs not hamthighs granted him amazing access to her sweet pussy clit  ass

muffled Tryin to break my nosesuffocate me

                                                  laughinggayly holding his cock like a saddle horn

No baby, aintnever felt a mouthtongueteeth like yourscant  get enough of a good thing yaknow?

never answered

                  was too busy gulpin compoundedbreaths to avert unconsciousness while she lappedsuckeddevoured his cock

    Shoudakept tally

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1314,  Monday,  30  12. 24

sometimes he had a hard time getting off certain subject matters

                                                                     949 this morning

bent at the waistmade a deft snatch

                                       pickedup a beer bottle cap that had fallen from a bookshelf when two cats bangedup against it during a kerfuffle between them  brother sister spat

got siblings

understand that

the cap Coors Banquet from a commemorative 1936 Stubby bottle

inside the cap a message is inscribed

                                         LUCK IS HARD WORK RESIDUE

he has a second at his desk

                               WHAT YOU’RE MADE OF MATTERS

obviously they spoke to him

 

 

certain subject matters

A deft snatch

                he commented after picking it up

bypassing his usual manner thumb index finger opting instead for index middle finger

setting the cap back on the bookcase  he chuckled

                                                         his comment reminded him of Chris

a certain old girlfriend Miami teenager whose chicken legs he overlooked because mama had awesome mammarieshow she didnt topple was beyond him

                                     You know physics

No.

Excellent

Why?

Because baby youre defying it

                                 Comere he said as he scooped one out from her scoopedneck looseknit tshirt

    double entendre

Monday,  30  12. 24

1143,  Monday

Neil Young  Cinnamon Girl  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ck_MfAdmTeg

You got to go dark?

My best side  Profile

Really? rolling his eyes

Really  Its not a dark question

                                     Woudnt ask if it wasnt evident    A simple ask

    You’d ask someone that?

Id rather they admit it on their own

                                          Lotsa of unhappy people who are just biddin time playin out string not seekin happinesswhich  to me  is a crimelifes too short

So they should take your opinion? A monk.

Ascetic My choice

                      You don think Im happy with my lifecomin an goin as I please go to bed when I want wake when I want nobody lordintryin to lord over me answer to no one but myself

                                                                          Im peachy keen an then some

Id ask in a heartbeat

                          Because  if me  Id say    Lemmesay this about my marriage my spouse I tolerate themWoo

We get along to get along  Why woud I pursue happiness

You think it’s like that out there?

You tell me you have experience

                                     You tolerated a bad marriage for better than four years until you didnt

To your credit

Which is why people ought to date for a long while

If month after month the relationship is ticking down  apparent trend   Why marry early

Keep track  Each person 

I found someone.

Ya can loseem as easy

                            This just aint workin out

THEN  But I love you.

Love

       Harbor   Drydock For wha oncewere seagoing vessels

Tide lappin their hulls

Not blue whitetopped waves

No wind in their sails

    Settling

You’re not a romantic.

Oh

     But I am  I am

But I refuse to be landlocked cocklocked or women cuntlocked

                                                                             Ever sail

approaching 3PM,  Saturday,  29  12. 24

1502,  Sunday,  29  12. 24

Christopher Cross  Sailing  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEO6gYCFbr0 

Big Head Todd and the Monsters  Bittersweet  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RuUNfC3tTI8

a nifty excuse

an eHarmony email

unsolicited

              he hadnt askedwasnt interested made him chuckle  same as clown cars elicit   arrived

evidently though worded differently is what one of numerous had to believe websites think

                                                                                                      if they think  cant believeUnlikely

Live life to the fullest, find Love.

    love

           is living life to the fullest

a feeling 

          is living life to the fullest

a behavior

set of emotions

virtue

vice

a physiological drive

                        facilitator of relationships

a theme in creative arts

    a feeling that can be used in different contexts

feeling

            that can mean different things to different people

whaif one gets tiedup with another whose idea of love meshes with theirs only occasionally

So whaya thinking

                      a shehe heshe pulledup  parked their ass

Thinking

    Yah Wha guidance ya offering

Cant love yourselfplease yourself  travel the path less travelled    Frost

    Loves demands are extraordinary

Most havent the talent or intellect to manage it

                                                          Seems an awfully nifty excuse

  

0939,  Sunday,  29  12. 24

1258,  Sunday

America  Lonely People  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whYwRtpj3kU

    Yah    Said sixthousandsixhunred sixtynines    

Not tha yaever brought your face anywhere near pussy  Wha a miserableterrible loss

For you

I disagree.

Ya donhaf to say yes you don I know

                                                Sixthousandsixhunred sounds a lot    But it aint

Simple lovers math . .

. . Simple math.

Lovers

         Which yaint    Im not exactly sure whaya are

Simple math

You’re gonna bore me.

Likely

        Yet for everyone else who partakes Im running the math for those soulsfor me  Because it aint really much

Sixthousandsixhunred

Threehunredsixtyfive days sixtysix on Leap Year every four years is threesixtyfive twice seventhirty next two years are seventhirty one are fourteensixtyone

                                          Correct

Correct.

Fourteensixtyone four times  But sixteen years    Is fivethousandeighthunredfortyfour

    Correct

By my mat . .

. . Your damn near sterile math is correct

                                             Balance due is sevenhunredfiftysix  a tad over two more years  twentydays long of two yearsnot a month

Which is plausible

Which can be achieved by insatiable lovers

Eighteen years twenty days

Quit blowing smoke up my ass.

                                   That’d be every day, eighteen years twenty days.

    Not necessarily   Only if once a day

Ive made love threefour five times in one day  Havent kept track    Ive been with my girl since I was twentyone

Wish I kept track

You’re tellin’ me your repertoir . .

. . NOT

          Good lovers good partners havent repertoires   Fiftyfifty

Not even in a bed

    Were awfully rambunctious

 

Wish I kept a tally

                      Tally-ho  Got me a fox

Saturday evening sometime,  28  12. 24

1018,  Sunday,  29  12. 24

not his

         from the associated papers that accompanied the page hed assumed the quote was by Robert Penn Warren 

All the King’s Men

. . . and all times are one time, and all those dead in the past never lived before our definition gives them life, and out of the shadow their eyes implore us.

                                             Whell fuck him  Him   Not Warren

a breathtaking quote

hearttug

           he WARREN  slyshinyeyed him

he tried to ignore his look

                            had been goofying off with words

    e l a t e d

    r e v e r e d

    o     a

    d     s

  d e n o t e d

    d     d

elated revered denoted eroded erased

                                           he was missing words  was puzzled

let the puzzlement continue

would give him something to do later

                                          slyshinyeyed him reminded him    Doncha dare      Dare wha

What I see shapingup wanting to slip up through the bars of Vietnamese tiger cages

The French built them

Sly shiny eye

                Slope eyed

Yellow  Asian

You daring

    Believe we did   Implored us

Where from there

Wha do you imagine

Youre the one with imagination

                                 We hang on  Wild ride  Whiteknuckle it

Implore us

Implode us

Explore us

Explode us

Floor us

    Thoughts rise up out of us an sink back into us

You

     Not us

We are us

           Cant sidestep tha fact  Its evident

You buy tha

    A long time ago Since the first

Did you know thered be many

When theres one there will be others

                                         Is axiomatic

Has always served me well despite wha others thought  think

Tuesday,  12  7. 05

1303,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

https://www.lonelyplanet.com/vietnam/con-son/attractions/tiger-cages/a/poi-sig/1391605/1340214

. . . fresh off drugs

what would appropriately follow

everyone is welcome to their own idea

                                            his

raw eggs

           a bigJUMBO organic brownshell egg that his daughters turned him onto years ago

AwChrist yatwo  youve bought into organic products

his eldest You don’t know what you’re talking about.

It says organic on the carto . .

. . Have you ever tried one? the youngest asked

    No

Then you can’t possibly know what you’re talking about can you?

FUCK hated when they pulled that shit on him

Well? asked the eldest

had to suck it up

                 No  I have not

Then. they became a fuckin choral duo  Try it.

I do youll gag

still choiring Worth it no problem.

    Awright  Stepup to the sink shoudya spew he wanted to set expectationstheir eyes were already beginning to water

took a large knife from the wood Chicago cutlery block cracked the JUMBO egg inserted his thumb nailstilting his head backsplit the shelldumped the raw egg in his mouth overtlyenthusiastically thicklyswished it in his mouth

                                                                                                               eldest retched

youngests eyes teared more

    no vomit couldnt say he wasnt disappointed

swallowedsmacked his lips

Whell?

    You are correct The large white regular store eggs cant hold a candle to thisFuck

youngest We spotted you two dozen.

eldest cleared her throat  We believe they’re worth what they cost . . . particularly after seeing the pleasure on your face.

How come you guys are so smart he was fishing

together Maw.

2017,  Saturday,  21  12. 24

1146,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

Nuplazid

           if he wanted to be crass which wasnt beneath him hed say Gesundheit means health in German

a drug

        one of many drugs that drag Americans around as he was sure around the world world markets   world sufferers

Really

           Stop hallucinations

he took drugs to have hallucinationsSO

                                           if naturally hallucinating ALL ABOARD! cries the conductor them  themselves  take that fuckin train El bus wherever its going because the trip is homemade homebrewed homebling humbling

           cross any entities theyre of their own devise

he always dug walkin passed himself who was going in the opposite directionansometimes at a crossroad yielding the Right-of-Way all four of him going in opposites directions

                                                              Been there  Not much to see

Maybe you didnt look hard enough asshole

Asshole

                he could take that from himself

2334,  Saturday,  21  12. 24

1049,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

The retail price of Nuplazid is $5120 (for 30 tablets/month’s supply) https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/drugs-nuplazid-cost 

walking up behind him as he finished pouring coffee he overheard him thank the coffeemaker Shank you

Are you talking to the coffee machine?

I was

You thanked it?

I did

        Whydya say it like tha

I was enunciating. The word is spelled T H A N K not S H A N K.

handed him a mugmotioned with his head to the fridge if he wanted milk

                                                                              Whas your point

My point opened the fridge poured milk from the halffull gallon container closed it is that your pronunciations are often lazy, and who talks to inanimate objects?

The machine made your coffee I am grateful when something is provided me

                                                                                  End of the day Ive earned points

For what?

For whaever may come

This is stupid.

Interesting you kicked off stupid

                                       Coffees not too stronger

No. It’s good.

It was a gifthavent had it before Light roast  I prefer medium

Who gave it to you?

Bruther Babby

Bobby.

Wha I sad

Said.  What I said.

Yah

Yes.

Nah  Yah              

                 Ya tak your way Ill tak mine

A myna or ifya rather mynah bird N A H coud fallow me

                                                                Sharper than crows an theyre sharp

he crossed out of the kitchen into the livingroom out onto the front porch held the door for him held his cats at bay

they sat in the sun at a decorativelyperforated white metal café table

Why are you being so lazy with your speech?

Its Saturday Spend every week on the phone talkin perfectly clear  Enunciating  Pronouncing  Part of the gig

                                                                                                                     Relaxin

Anya can fallow me

Yah

Yes.

Yah  Right

woke composing 7AMish,  Saturday,  28  12. 24

0958, Saturday