she came upleaned on the top of his cubicle

                                                Alright you, you’re attending, get up.

Get up Christ whayawant from me briskly eyed her breasts plumped against the cubicle edge

    Wha does get up mean  We literal or figurative

Leave it to you.  Literally would be trouble for us under her breath not that I’d mind so let’s opt for the flipside of the coin, shall we?

If we shall I don see how Im needed Not my department or my responsibilities

You’re not aware but most everyone attends.  You’re the glaring exception.   And since you work for me now and since you’re a reflection of me . . . you’ll neverever have to guess what these meetings entail . . because you’ll be there.

Screw brisk he thought  eyeballed her breasts  sighed   I suppose bossDD

she blushed

colour looked good on her

                            not tha hed say

 

seated at an enormous conference pleasantries exchanged down to business  brass tacks an all

his clipboard paper red BIC pen was out

upper left corner he wrote Thursday and the date and the time

                                                                  the room quieted

without lookingup he said Im listenin  I don need to look at anyone to hear them

Agree

the speaker cleared his throat

                                  I . . I just want to be clear . I want your attention.

Got it  though I might hear more than I need to know

                                                        Careful where you tread  Might possibly  inadvertently  open a can of worms

Which is my expertise

                          Plumbing whamight not want to be plumbed

Certainly thas in my personnel file

    You were sayin

he lookedup

              his bossDD sat across from him arms crossed over her chest  he thought BOO  smiled amicably

she didnt

he expected words afterwards

 

as the gentleman from a different department than his spoke he wrote haltingly asif making detailed notes

I sit in on meetings    that have nothing to do with me                                                                                                                                     I sit  because      Im part of a hole

misspelled it on purpose    that somehow Im believed an intrinsic part                   but apart    from

it comes under my sense of not wanting          to belong          to a group that would have me as part of it

Groucho

 

    AFTERWARDS   AFTERWORDS

                                           I want to see you in my office.

Im getting a cup of coffee Can I get you one

I don’t know it’ll be that long.

Oh

     Its gonnabe tha long

Two creams two sugarcubes

                                  I pay attention bossDD 

the harassment begins

one side of the coin or the other

27  7. 06

1129,  Tuesday,  17  12. 24

   Wanna try   again

                          taunting himcunt tha he was 

Yahfuck

           Whynaught

Then try

 

   High

           Whawe tryin 

Youre fuckedup

Fuckedup

Mee  too

    Nahshit

No  Shit

    Whell

            Wha da fuck ya   know 

Regarding

              

Whaever

Whaever  

No holds barred

Fucknah

    Girlfriend

Not for years

Not

Not physical

              Notagreed   Agreed

Ive been with her

I think not

Whell he chuckled   Yah

                            Yah Drugged her

Fine piece of ass

 

    You donknow haf of it

                              She were in the game shedve turnedya inside out spit in your face

Call yourself a man

Handed you your sorry ass

    I love her

                 Nothins changin tha

Yagonna want retribution  pussy

    A failed seductionfuck    Rape

 

Retribution

Keep an eye out keep watch over your shoulder 

                                                        Revenge

Promise  

    Best served cold

2237,  Monday,  16  12. 24

DISGRACE

Rittenhouse

               was just another MAGA bad Penny

1800,  Monday, 16  12. 24

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Youre gonna tell me not to do wha I do

                                              Wha do you do

Donbe critical of me because Im unlike you

Social butterfly

Yaneed tha

I don

Aint a demarcation of anythingyet seems to perturb you

    I’m not perturbed.

Then why bring it up

                         Ive been at this for years

There.  You said it.

                      Years.

Whaofit

 

Years.

        You’ve cut yourself off of . .

. . Yes

        Off of wha    Exactly

Other peopl . .

. . Don needem

Certainly you'd admit there’s other ideas other ways of thinking.

Which you think only present in social situations

Whell . . it’s nice getting it from the horse’s mouth.

Their   explicit  written words don count

It’s not the same it’s not the same . . it’s not the same.

    It is   Actually better

                             Theyve committed in blackanwhite

Therefore utterly thoughtful  Utterly present

                                                     Some people can shoot from the hip

Others  Not so unfortunately

                                 Disagree

I don’t disagree.

   Fine then

                I do wha I do because if I didnt it woudnt get done

Pretty   Fuckin    Simple

2341,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

1333,  Monday,  16  12. 24

he went between parcels people  gaggles  finance  business  beauty  sports  computers

wandered back to Elle

                        Theyre killin me  Im gonna hafta stop accepting your invites

I’ll kill you. You need to mix.

Oil  Water   Unlikely baby

                               Least I got you

They are interesting people.

Elle

Comon interesting

Thas ambivalent

                   he pointed Tha clutch there Computers  Tekkies  Love technology

I mentioned its dark side

                            Like I had two heads 

Over there

              Sold on better living through chemistry

There Hadnt conceived  Men an women

                                              Benefits of plastic surgery

All told For me  Palaver

                            Id say walkingtalking sandwich boards

Hawkin whaevers gotem by the balls by the clit

Clit?

Equal opportunity offender

So that’s why you’ve doubledback to me?

I tried  Youre hosting youre on the move no one woud dare mire you

                                                                            I can be your sidekick

Tonto  Poncho  Wills Robbie

You can call me Al

Paul Simon.

Yes Betty  Music  We relate

                               Books  Literature  Art

Snobs.

OhHellno

            I like to think deeper puddles  Fuckem

Jo . .

. . Elle

        Fuck the Fountain of Youth

Fuck?

I said softly no one overheard  just you an me

                                                  Buy into artifice  artificial   Disengage

Their realities are separate from ours

You really think their reality?

Yaoughta linger  listen

I’m hosting.

Youre smart

Im a waft

Waft?

A waif of a waft

                    Grateful

Ah Joe, have a beer, a Redbreast, go out to the pool, not a soul out there all evening.

Ive your permission

My job is to see my guests are happy.

Your guests

               Youll join me

After I walk another circuit.

Theyre not your guests Your husbands

                                                Hes late  Again

Sunday,  19  11. 06

1216,  Monday,  16  12. 24

Paul Simon  You Can Call Me Al  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9UcXl6lQgE

    walking up to a knot clot appropriate toohad to stop accepting Elles invitations means well  knot of handsomehumanity fingering cocktail glasses wine goblets he a bottle of beer overheard a woman knew her say  . . . met a man.

he thought Thankgawd  How fortunate

hed come off her list

What’s wrong with you?  Elle asked

You know me  Nothing wrong

You hafta liked when shed slip into their vernacular as kids drive a hard bargain.

Im no bargain

                Ya know tha

She can be a very nice person.

Nice  Shes not pursuing you

                                  Im struggling not to be rude Appreciate shes your friend

Just go out with her once.

Ohno No  Not encouraging her

                                     Though kindafunny

Funny?

    I know what it means when a woman says No

Women have different rules

No.

I didnt think so

She’s enjoyed superwealth her whole life; doesn’t take No for an answer.

No  she doesnt

 

 

Wastha a brazen announcement or something else

                                                       I had just walkedup

Announcement?

Thaya met a man

                    almost appeared he stunned her her wineglass tipped sharply forwardshe recovered it without spilling a drop  I met a man?

he turned his head like a bird might at an approaching sound

                                                                   I misheard

Correct.

Nuts he thought  Im not wading in

                                        Please excuse my misunderstanding

I was talking about you.

Me

      Virtually behind my back

You said you overheard. Not behind your back.

I went for a beer

You went for a bottle of beer.

                                  A bottle.

You could have poured it into a glass.

Its in   glass

    Sometimes . . you’re such a bore.

I am a bore

    You overheardif you like . . behind your back . . . calling you a metaman.

Your selfawareness is intimidating.

Metaman  

             Ill take tha as a compliment

It also means you’re self-referential.

Yes

      Happens when one hangs out virtually by themselves

Elles my exception

Shes my human

    Your human?

Yes

        And a wonderful host  

0948,  Monday,  16  12. 24

What do you do?

    Thas not original

Original.

I hope your making friends

                               Yawont with me

I won’t?

              Because I asked what you do?

Precisely

           Was there anything I said as we talked tha suggested I had any interest in whaya did rather than whaya liked to do read like to watch film  like art like museums  aquariums planetariums   he chuckled

                                                                                                            Walks in the rain

You’re throwing me a lifeline . . . aren’t you?

                                                       Aren’t you?

Youre a sharp cookie

                        Im attracted to intelligence friend calls me sapiosexual

Anif tha aint enough he describes me to others as a sigma male

                                                                     Which maybe a knock

Also calls me antisocial  Which is incorrect

                                                  Im an introvert                                                                                          

    Isnt this nicer than wha I do

2105,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

I have a frien . .

. . End   End     The end

                              Not interested

Hear me out, don’t be a prick.

See   See how easy you IDd me

                                    Crushed it

Really?

   Reallys are so terribly useful

                                       Drives me nuts

Really

   Won’t you hear me out?

Catchin my drift

So you’re pulling yourself out of the game?

Game

        Hear yourself

        

Its not a game Ive no interest

                                Strikes me curious whaya think love is

Ive said timeanagain many times  Im in love with my girlfriend

But you haven’ . .

. . Which is none of your business

If I understoo . .

. . All you need to know understand

                                          Its none of your business

2008,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

Doors  The End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXqPNlng6uI

where does he go from here

                                his sighs have lessenedbut he still  sighs   deeply

hes not one to sigh

                        which means

hes done something right

he chuckled

                  out loud Inadvertently

wished he had a mirror to see his expressionreflection

                                                           despite mirrors not kind to him

    Mirrors

Yah  You heard me

Mirrors

           Really

Yah

    Youre not kind to yourself

                                 Then when you arelike right now  this past week

You struggle to treat yourself  well

You are worth it                           

Can you admit tha

                       Youre worth it

Im afraid youll have to take tha up with someone elseconvince someone else

You are worth it

Wellsee

            I play the long game

The long game

Its too early to call

    Ifya get to the end

                          At least the end you imagine

You coud come up short

I like you

           Cold comfort

I like you too

2027,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

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                                                                      Canadian whisky was thereCrown

swinganamiss bagels

                        days old wouldnt shell out $5.79 for 5 yakiddin mewhos gettin pinched   a buck a bagel

its a fuckin bagel

    almost threw himself a curveOrganic Greens blend of organic baby spinach baby chard & baby kale $5

eleven ounces

                 almost

first rule of Fight Club

                         Never fuck yourself

boychoy .72 lb  $1.43

.72 lb  12cents an ounce

Organic Greens 

                  46cents an ounceA FUCKIN OUNCE

Fight Club

if he looked ridiculous at CheckOut

                                     booze zipbagels bokchoy  so be it

would have considered frozen edamame but there wasnt the shelled one pound  $1.99

there was a frozen package  $4.99/lb

                                           cleared his throat  muttered Somebody blow me

1454,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

What do you mean by that?

    Wha I said

Thrilled by a stairwell.

Arya kiddin meOh fuck youve probably not had the opportunity to enjoy one

                                                                                 Never been urbannever been to a sixthfloor walkup

Bro

        You havent lived

Your lifes been nothing but sunnysunny rural California

This isn’t rura . .

. . It aint urban

                 Got to go to San Jose LA before buildings grow tall Anmost ofem three storeys have elevators

Theyre amazing

Can be artful

                I love a good one

    Like admiring an attractive woman her curves  lines

                                                                 Purpose 

You’re likening a stairwell to a woman?

    Built

           Care to refute me

Tellinya    Cant beat a good stairwell

                                         Youve missed out

2106,  Saturday,  14  12. 24

1310,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

Sorrow Dark Ambient Music  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9r68r3V-GIo

. . . best intentions

shy jumped up in his lap

he asked her Whas the sayin

she nudged his chin with her foreheadpurred

                                                 otherwise mute

as cats can be

                  silent their middle name

their last name

                 unlike they who keep them insist cats take on their surnames like wives are put upon  until they flashanbare their hyphen

                             is stealth

    The road to Hell is paved with good intentions

                                                     hes sure there are others

this was the one he was thinking of

Whadaya think shy                                             

she jumped down off his lap without remark

she said

          she knew he take her on circuit carnival circus freak shows late night television

monetise her

thought There wasnt enough salmon catnip silvervine in the world.

the full Cold Moons best illumination was at One0two Sunday morning

he set an alarm on a travel clock hes had since he was a paperboy  EATON  QUARTZ

manufacturer probably now long gone

                                               any one that makes a superior product has to go away

alarm set

went to bed still dressed in sweats

high Thirties that time of the morning

hed see Her

would spend ten minutes with Her

back in hed undress

slept naked

hasnt understood pajamas since junior high

told Santa to return them

alarm went off

                rolled up on his right shoulder reached across his body depressed the button on top it

ALARM off

shouldnt have rolled back on his back

two deep leftie sighsLights Out

woke in the middle of the night

dejected

undressed

back in beddidnt masturbate

                                hadnt earned it

some lucky imagined woman would have to wait

    had the best intentions

woke in the middle of the night,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

1036,  Sunday

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