he stumbled onto Peters et al. Delusions Inventory while consideringcontemplating a waxed Premium soda cracker wrapper

           waxed cracker wrapper spun him up  phonaesthetics

a straw to lay across Tolkiens camels back

erode cellar door

he was unfolding it gently cajoling it to come apart without tearing ohso fixed an deliberate

                                                                                                 an out of nowhere

corner of his eye

PDI appearedgrew PDI PDI PDI PDI

                             hated here hed allow hate rather than his usual detest with extreme prejudice or the wonderful shorthand of abhor second syllable emphasised acronyms  an since he owned it it was in his eye he had to discover what it was before it blotted out the vision in that eye

ogled Google

found an Abstract

                    “Purpose: The Peters et al. Inventory (PDI – there it is!) is a commonly used instrument to measure delusion proneness in the general population and includes dimensions that measure distress, preoccupations, and convictions of unusual beliefs.”

    convicted of unusual beliefs

                                    America was crawlingmaggot-infested social media devotees who sucked up disinformation misinformation propaganda like a babe at a tit

believed the drivel

believed before vetting

woeful eejits

               an proud of it

they seem to celebrate the ignorant an their own

                                                   Christ

made him retch

    “. . . delusion proneness in the general population . . .”

Fool me once shame on you  fool me twice shame on me

he was hard to fool

                      someone would have to manically work rational arguments in to support their horseshit

sceptical

          he could smell its scent a mile off

an his nose had been broken four times

   

2134,  Saturday,  19  3. 22

1524,  Saturday,  9  11. 24

Peters et al. Delusions Inventory  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/10478789/ & https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/10212739/ & https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7659601/

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21861160/#:~:text=Purpose%3A%20The%20Peters%20et%20al,been%20translated%20into%20several%20languages.

https://www.pewresearch.org/short-reads/2024/10/16/republicans-young-adults-now-nearly-as-likely-to-trust-info-from-social-media-as-from-national-news-outlets/

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4778911/

Bush’s fool  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hl7FKfl3O2Y

Moody Blues  The Story In Your Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-9Zr440nXe8

    Rebecca Wilkin

he was going to pilfer her words which were incited by Madame Louise Dupin a wealthy French feminist philosopher of the Eighteenth Century who hired Jean-Jacques Rousseau as her secretary for six years

“Masculine vanity builds a world according to its fantasies, then rewrites the past to its specifications.”

Madame Dupin popped a pretty red cherry atop that disgusting sundae  her thesis “. . . what subsists now against women is the accumulated injustice of several centuries” committed her to an analysis of that process

Rousseau after his employment wrote                                        

                                         “Such was, or must have been, the origin of society and laws, which gave new fetters to the weak and new forces to the rich, destroyed natural freedom for all time, established forever the law of property and inequality,” and “changed a clever usurpation into an irrevocable right.”

he chose these words expounded them separately to help family and friends through letters emails to sharpen hone understand the farce this recent stoked scrounging masculinity was

                                                                       rarely meeting one he liked

they brayed flexed were overt to attract attention they were desperate for

true masculine is authentic

                              it simply is

it needs no glossing heralding it is an assured quietude distinct by its appearance  its presence alone

masculinity cannot be conferred

                                   rather inborn  cultivated    either got it or you dont

morning,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

1155,  Saturday,  9  11. 24

https://aeon.co/essays/inequality-was-a-feminist-idea-before-it-was-rousseaus

Again please whadyasay

Marfan’s.

Marfads

No. Marfan’s.

Spell it

M A R F A N apostrophe S.

An N not a D

Correct.

Ah  I also heardtripped off on marzipan zip however is one of three syllables anya only uttered two

                                                                                                          Marzipan hungup in my ears botching whaya actually said

And

And?

I don know wha it is

You don’t know Marfan’s?

Never heard of it

You’re kiddin’ me.

If its some family ailment tha informed you my family is bound by heart disease an cancer

                                                                                               Wha is it

It’s a genetic disorder.

Inherited

Correct. It changes proteins that help make healthy connective tissue which support organs, muscles, bones, tissues.

Tha sounds fucked up

                          Somebody didnt choose their parents well

What?

Wha  Now you cant hear me correctly

                                         Choose their parents

Choose their parents?

Yah

You didn’t choose your parents.

Evidently you didnt if marzipan runs in your family

                                                      Too sweet for me  Tha an pralines didnt like how they presented nibbled spat Christ Gawdawful

Jesus, would you keep to the point.

Seems self-explanatory due diligence

                                         I did you didnt

How?

Where is more appropriate

                            Standing in line before conception saw if I chose my folks Id be first born an have all the topshelf merchandise I wanted    Ill admit thawas the first an only time Ive been greedy

I hogged it

            Cant say why my siblings choseem Maybe they saw the folks were very attractive an at least theyd be attractive too they are

                          Were all goodlookin kids

Me goodlookin widda goods

You‘re so full of shit.

    An you have marzipan

approaching 5PM,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

0959,  Saturday,  9  11. 24

https://www.niams.nih.gov/health-topics/marfan-syndrome#:~:text=Marfan%20syndrome%20is%20a%20genetic,and%20tissues%20in%20your%20body.

You cant

I can.

    Ought to quit while youre ahead

You disagree?

Vehemently

             You cant spend ten days straight in your house without seeing somebody elseya cant

I can.

       I can do it, but I don’t want to.

If you don want to you cant

                             Whas so hard bout tha  a common sense equation

What are you talking about?

                              You make no sense.

If you don want to you cant

                              If you were striving to make sense you shoud have said I coud but I don want to Can Coud

Theyre not the same

You’re full of shit.

Can is used to talk of real abilities likely possibilities

                                                         Coud talks of possibilities one considers unreal  hypothetical

I do not contend with hypotheticals

You’re splitting hairs, parsin . .

. . I say what I mean You dick around

                                         I called your son a fool you reply hes foolish but not a foolChrist  if fooled  whaelse woudya callim

Thas an aside

                  Fact remains  you cant

4PMish,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

1421,  reggaefriday,  8  11. 24

he met Gabrielle Suchon a philosopher  1632 – 1703

                                                          Whereya been all my life

“All things in nature know no more deadly effects then when they are constrained, which is to say, when they are removed from their centre of gravity.  . . . when wind is confined in a subterranean place . . . it causes strange disturbances and inflicts severe convulsions on earth.  . . . the agitation that constraint produces in the human mind is incomparably more malignant and dangerous than wind.  . . . Constraint brings changes and trouble to families . . . and is more frightful than all the reversals of nature and the contrariness of the elements.”

freedom versus constraint

                              a kind word euphemism   hed use shackled

“Women would surmount some aspects of their constraint if they knew how to resist and how not to be so pliable and blind in helping to forge their own chains. But far from striving to acquire this sacred freedom, women invent a thousand ways every day that serve to imprison them further.”

                                                        keeping in mind Gabrielle Suchon wrote during the Seventeenth Century the fact that she could read and write was due to her incarceration in a convent she was instructed so she knew the Bible the Word of God

his favourite quote of hers to date  very timely

                                                 “Since all the evils committed in the world originate from ignorance, it should not come as a surprise that ignorance engenders dimness, weakness, dissoluteness and corruption of their principal parts of a rational being.”

he disagreed with the evil bit she wasafter all a sister during her confinement

                                                                                     hed say bad acts

Rock on bros who resent others who committed fourfive years of their lives to attain their undergraduate degree  and many persevered years and dollars more  

                                               Rock on

what are they committed to

he found Gabrielle while reading Jean-Jacques Rousseau

                                                             from Discourse on the Origin and Foundations of Inequality Among Men (1755)  this quote warmed the cockles of his heart

                                                                   “Man in the state of nature was a solitary creature. Primitive social organisation brought various forms of natural inequality to light. Civilisation progressed, usurpers invented laws to protect their ill-gotten gains, and inequality between the haves and the have-nots became legal and binding. The day will come when tyranny will make us equal again – in our wretchedness.”

1350,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

1256,  reggaefriday,  8  11. 24

the shit he found scribbled on papers he kept

rereading them made him as curious as he was when he wrote

                                                                        leuk plaatje

                                                                        Oblivously

not English

    he didnt indicate where he found it

                                            lacked context

the only thing sharing the page were instructions his daughter gave him over the telephone to help him make operable on his cellphone “Block This Caller”

it didnt work

sometimes one has to learn to negotiate unfortunate things

                                                              phone rings  number isnt in his phonebook  he lets it go

fortunately he tolerated noise

                                wasnt really tolerance  more an ability to turn it off in his head

a survival skill honed in a large family home

twelve

        if he couldnt turn them off he would have gone mad

as it was

           slightly   touched

leuk plaatje

plaatje -s plural

                  Dutch  picture  something adorable  that was OOC  out of character for him

but he dug how the word looked

                                    attracted him

leuk  white  but also means fun

                                    thereby the whole made entire sense to him

digging deeper  found gezellig lekker  they were synonymous to leuk  fun  pleasantly sociable/friendly

                                                                                                                  wondered

if it was legit in Dutch to say gezellig plaatje lekker plaatje

                                                                no matter

if he met a woman named either shed be hot

                                               Lekker or gezellig me.  not kosher

she could bet her bottom dollarguildereuro hed lekker or gezellig her

she wouldnt have to ask him Again. 

                                         Lemme take a minute or two massage my jaw relax my tongue

labour of love

    loved pussy

1155,  day-between-2-Ts,  22  9. 21

1315,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

they called him Hafway Always

                                 HA  for short  Obviously   Of course  OOC

no matter what the gang was up to

                                      he couldnt keep up

not that he wasnt committeddidnt want to

was just slow on the uptake

                               anthen   less enthusiastic

because he was late to the game

yet when the gang let him call the terms

                                          they werent inconsiderate  he was one of them

he found the ground under his feet turn to sand  slipped  lost ground 

they arrived

     he was hafway

they waited for him

                      although

less and less he was invited around

upset  begrudgingly he learned to accept that

                                                 he recognised he wasnt fire on all cylinders 

HOWEVER

              when the gang needed something worked out  something sedentary

HA was the man

maybe not a man of action

                            rather  a plodder a plotter    patience

hence how he discoveredthey discovered how he really fit in

                                                                  a cog to their gear

Say gang . . think we could change my nickname?

a chorus  Nope.    

1155,  day-between-2-Ts,  22  9. 21

1104,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

he wrote pensees to distract himself he needed that

they are a thought or reflection in literary form composed of lines of syllables

the title or subject has two

the description is four

action seven

setting eight

a final thought  six

Rubber

fit my wallet

fumbling for it went off

in the backseat of her Moms car

vinyl cleans up easy

1111,  reggaefriday,  27  1. 23

Nose Muff

my nose was cold

called When can I see you

thrusted it deep between her thighs

Why was I late to this

1206,  reggaefriday,  27  1. 23

0853,  Thursday,  7  11. 24

what when brown people who voted for expresident are rounded up for mass deportation rounded up  confinedinterred in concentrations camps

                                What

1711,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  11. 24

Drumpf wants to bring Guantanamo home  https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/new-trump-admin-rule-to-detain-migrant-families-indefinitely-66903621803

indefinite internment of families OR lets call it what it is  concentration camps

2314,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  21  8. 19

https://www.msnbc.com/the-beat-with-ari/watch/trump-seizing-unilateral-powers-to-detain-people-indefinitely-66915909768 

Oh by the way  nationalise Americas private for-profit prisons

a cutup of his own

. . . his daughters . . .

. . . phone feature matrixes

. . . licked the end of his pinkie . . .

Thas nice but unnecessary . . .

. . . his work was peerless

Since were fresh you shoud know you can say anything you like . . .

He’s a fan of three.

Why do you have them?keep them?

I don’t agree.

. . . my wife isnt here . . .

. . . their last words

. . . frantic way down

1313, day-between-2-Ts,  6  11. 24

the muck on the bottom of the lake felt like cold raw liver on his feet

December 8, 1980

1243,  day-between-2-T,  6  11. 24

Beatles  A Day in the Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYeV7jLBXvA

the telephone rang

he picked up

on the other end

                         So . . . . what do you think?

he chuckled darkly

                     Just texted my grrl Time for Biden to pull the trigger, utilise his Supreme Court presidential immunity clause

Jesus.

Ya caught the laugh

    Still.

Yah

       I am profoundly disappointed

                                       But

Theyre gonna get wha they deserve

You . .

. . No  Not me not you not most people I know an love  Ive not befriended a single fearful person not a single aggrieved person I woud not soil myselfwaste my time

                                                 Theyre gonna get exactly wha they wanted

What about us?

Well witness them debauched They voted against their interests as historically  white sharecroppers did when they went against black sharecroppers thinking their white skin made them better more like the wealthy white landowners

They debased themselves

They only think they won

I think you have more to say.

Perceptive  Youre perceptive                      

Hate  I don hate

                    I do however  detest him with extreme prejudice

I hear ya. I like abhor.

Ohyah didnt think of tha

                           Abhor   An awfully nice word handsome five letters

Yes.  Emphasis second syllable.

I hear ya brother

                    I hear ya

0940,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  11. 24

closing her eyes again  she stared into the darkness that undulated stirred  simmered to boiling

                                                                                                       there was something there  beyond that film

                           daresay  a room   vault

suspended in her eyes

as if underwater

                   gazing up into the bluepurpling depth of the sea

a chamber

              trove

that collapses in on its origami-self

                                         dreams

did they seep from there  were the sharp architectures that could put her eyes out  forged there  were strangers she saw or conversed with

                          assembled there

rare times she knew someone

                                 were they kept there to play hideanseek

there  was   something

                           Present    Presence

which deepened

                   fell up

away

       then

disintegrated

dissolved

                softlysilvered

became?

            the siftingquivering veil

she cast her dreams on

0410,  Saturday,  19  8. 23

1251,  Monday,  4  11. 24

Youre the perfect lass to ask

Lass?

If you were younger Id say lassie

                                    Youre of Irish descent

Mmmk. 

         My red hair freckles give me away?

O’Toole  Kind of a dead ringer

she laughed deeply didnt cover her mouth   both attracted him

                                                                       Kind of.

Yah

       So you know wha circumcision is

Where’s this going?

                       Not the nurse?

The nurse

Yes.

Nah  Wha nurse

    She says, she works in a circumcision ward, pays not good but the tips are great.  Wah wah wahhh.

he laughed  high in his throat

                                  A comedian

Actually my Da. He toltha at the dinner table.

I like your old man

He’d have liked you.

he nodded

               her father contracted Trumpvirus  died                                                              

 

    Yes. breaking the silence  Yes I know circumcision. I know you.

I wasnt goin there

That’s out of character.

Lemme get this out anthen Ill get into character

                                                   If you have time

she rolled her wrist looked at her watch shook her head

                                                            Aww.     But I could make time.

that beautiful musical laughter again

he hadnt intended going there but  aww  wha the hell   he loved the constellations across her chest an breasts  naming them   everywhere

                                

So weve established circumcision

Yes.

Ever hear of hibernicised

    Couldn’t say could you spell it?

Of course  H I B E R N I C I S E D

she repeated the spelling

Correct

she repeated it again

                             No.   Could I guess?

made him smile

I’d guess, since you commenced with circumcision, freezing penis tips?

burst out laughingshe joined in

                                      Howdya get there

Hibernate. Freeze ‘em.

For wha purpose

I don’t know. I guessed.

                           What would you do with frozen penis tips? Or or or . . . hi- . error . cut tips too high?

Jesus

Then answer my question.

Thawem to nosh on later

Really?

Flesh

       Ever eat duck feet chicken feet  Flesh

Jesus.

Duelin Jesuses

Come now I’m on the clock. I wanna get there.  What is hibernicised?

To make Irish in character

I didn’t know that.

I hadnt either

Suppose we’ll not forget.

Nah

    Motel nearby.

Read my mind

1143,  Saturday,  2  11. 24

1034,  Monday,  4  11. 24

You say rumor monger I say rumour mongrel Lets call the whole thing off

facetiously You’re a funny guy. 

he knew the inflection Don mean to be

                                          Butwha youre spewin friend youve earned mongrel

You didn’t see the picture if you did you’d agree with me.

                                                               He shit in his pants.

He didnt

He did it was shot from behind while he was getting out of his golf cart. You could see a huge shit stain, was going down the back of his legs.

    Who took the photograph

I don’t know.

Where did you see it

A site on social media.

Wha site

I don’t know.

Static  not moving

A picture.

    Im callin horseshit callin fake callin photoshop youve seen deepfakes

                                                                               Phony  Rumour

Yeahwell, I believe this is true.

Anthas how rumours start spread are fed  ignorant people want to believe

                                                                                Step right up yes step right up Ladies and Gentlemen you wont believe your eyesHell the huckster hawker peddler monger mongrel  hes even tellinya wont believe your eyes

Pay a dime a quarter they believe their eyes

An the while ya bitch about political rumours against candidates we prefer

friend slowly shook his head the entire time he was speaking

                                                                No. No. No.   I believe the rumor is true.           

motherfucker ninetyninepointnine percent of the time he says I think

1729,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

0920,  Monday,  4  11. 24

Ella Fitzgerald/Louie Armstrong  Let’s Call the Whole Thing Off  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2oEmPP5dTM