Isnt this kinda weird

his brother standing beside him arms loose hands crossed at his groin turned his head he was already looking at him looked him in the eyes

                         Is it anymore weird than standing in Sula at the cemetery above the confluence of the two valleys where Lewis and Clark first entered what would become known as Montana where you intend to have your ashes scattered?

Yes

Why yes? That’s to be your resting place.

Ashes don rest Scattered Ill be as close to the earth as I coudever be playing in the sun an moon wind an rain among wildflowers grasses weeds harassing insects an ants until I dissolve

                                                                           Am absorbed

You wont be Not entombed here

                                   he stirred the grass with his toe at the foot of what would be his brothers grave someday

inevitably

I don't know that.

                    his brother walked across his grave taboo  once he was buried

he laughed

              shivered farcically  Ooooh felt like someone just walked across my grave.

Christ

        Seriously

Brother, I don’t think we’ve ever been serious except for wakes and funerals.

                                                                                  Have we? I didn’t know?

    No

               No   Cant say tha I remember a timeNo  The night before I got married and you took me to bed held me in your arms  said You love her. Relax. A whole new world for you today.  You chuckled  A whole new adventure.

Then you kissed the back of my head  said Go to sleep.

                                                             An I did

I don’t remember that.

                                        he chuckled

reminiscing early this AM before falling asleep,  Monday,  21  10. 24

0927,  Monday

he loved holes

                  his grandmother mentioned to him he loved dinosaurs Did you know there may be dinosaur bones buried in the backyard?

NO

Yes.

        Did you want to look?

Do I

Shovel’s downstairs in the basement.

Where do you think in the backyard Gramma

Beside the garage, near the alley.

that was where they planted a small garden

he went nuts

              was either was coming away with a bone or a Chinaman

Joe!  Time to come in, wash up, time for dinner.

                                                        No no, fill in the hole. You can try again tomorrow.

he tried every day for weeks on end

his grandmother finally stopped him

                                        she was beginning to believe he wasnt bright

a rabbit hole

               shibboleth sent him down it

he kinda  had an idea but went to the dictionary to confirm custom or principle or belief distinguishing a particular class or group of people

he thought catchwords passwords codes vocabularies used by professionals doctors attorneys dominatrixes tricks

shibboleth lead him to Homer struggling with hapax hegomena

                                                                  what the fuck

hapax once

               hegomen  being said

a word or term that appears only once within a document or corpus

he saw Be still my beating heart he said out loud Honorificabilitudinitatibus  from Shakespeares Loves Labor Lost

the state of being able to achieve honours

                                             it did nothowever better supercalifragilisticexpialidocious  extraordinarily good wonderful   letterwise

Shakespeare also volleyed outvenoms to surpass in venomousness  and pajock  savage degenerate  or peacockHmm 

holes

       loved to find them loved to find what was in them

early October, ’24

1317,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

Mary Poppins  Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rihNRTTcztQ

cant help myself

                  The Four Tops https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s3bksUSPB4c

rocked

        listenin to radio

it plays Zeppelin  Your Time is Going to Come  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cvEVivHVsU

                                                                                                          Sorry boys youd be on my side  had to dedicate your awesome song to the  forever   former

459preferred,  Sunday,  20 10. 24

2015,  Sunday

What are you going to do with that?

Howbout them apples

she laughed

               Should have expected nothing less from you, you should have been a politician.  Don’t answer questions. Seek plausible deniability.

My Dad was briefly

A politician?

Yah Precinct captain

                       Was actually wooed by a senator and a congressman to convince him to run  They came to the house

No kiddin’?

No He declined because he was married raising five children

But politicians . .

. . Now

          Now politicians mysteriously become wealthy while serving Not then  But he remained well-connected kept askingsaying if I wanted to go to West Point the Naval Academy Annapolis the Air Force Academy Colorado Springs he could get me in

You? In the military?

As incredulous as you just said  thashow I replied

                                                       He said he could also have gotten me to Washington as a Congressional page

Should have pulled the trigger on that.

Tell me about it

                  Although we woudnt have met

Maybe we still would have.

You going to soulmate me

Nah. Pure raw animal magnetism.

he laughed  

               Youre sweet as honey buckwheat

You know it.

they grinned like hyenas at each other

But back to . . what are you going to do with that?

Clade clods

                 First  Phonaesthetics knock off Tolkiens cellar door

You get as much a hard-on for that as you do for me.

Astute

Stud.

Yawanna fuck

After you explain.

                    You understand, I’m trying to incentivise you.

undid the top three buttons of her blouse

Yeesh  Distracting me babe

Think. Concentrate.

My dicks winning out

Remind your dick your brain is in your head.

Clade Primates  Humans apes new world old world monkeys lorises lemurs  Clods  Ohwha the fuck

                                                                                                              MAGA

Decrepit clods

Good

undoing the rest of her buttons she stoodup from the couch and headed down the hall to the bedroom

                                                                                                           Bring ice cubes.

On it

early October, ’24

1139,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

sacrilegious  if religioushe wasnt

                                    make no mistake    one  does not degradate the other

a cathedral

a roadside motel

they are the same

listen to their wallsshaddup for a moment  listen

                                                      to sacred whispers  devout intimacies ecstatic joy heartbreak sorrow elation mindnumbing depression jubilation

                                                      despondence

elements conferred making up human beings

    their society

                   their loneliness

listen to silent spiders weave their webs in unseen corners  remote

                                                                         striving   living

tears holy  filling carved stone stoups

holy tears washed away in ironstained bathroom sinks

intimately  they are the same

                                      Motel Cathedral

after 1840,  reggaefriday,  18  10. 24

1014,  Sunday,  20  10. 24

I believe youll agree with me

                               When you die youll die with your life unfinished

0916,  Sunday,  20 10. 24

Beatles  Now and Then  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AW55J2zE3N4

she told him she was a dancer

he chuckled then

                    told her that before he finally introduced himself he nicknamed her legs  told his daughters how he kept running into this beautiful woman as he walked around town if he wasnt down by the creek writing

I ran into legs again

You seem interested.

Fascinated  Shes out of my league

You awed me  Legs kept things doable intriguing until finally I had to say something to you

I’m happy you did.

Me too

he met her for dinner  seafood place he knew  had a drink before dinner  conversed  dined  she had dessert  they had a drink afterwards  walked her to her car

when he got home he called thanked her for the nice evening

How would you like a homecooked meal next weekend?

Ohwow Sure   Of course

Saturday?

Nothing on my schedule he did hed kill it Yes please

Four o’clock?

Yes  Wha can I bring

Nothing.

          Dinner this evening was generous.

I have to bring something or I cant make it

Fine. I appreciate that. 

                         You bring you.  she laughed it was awfully full and musically

he laughed

             You drive a hard bargain

Professional hazard. I’m looking forward to seeing you Saturday.

Me too Wont come soon enough

he rapped on her door  her place overlooked the bay

                                                        pricey neck of the woods

walking in it smelled wonderful

she gave him a huge hug

he hugged back

Aw, finally, someone who knows how to hug.

                                                Come in. Shot an a beer?

You reading my mind kiddo  he winked

No. But maybe later.

These are for you he said as he handed her a box of chocolates

I said . .

. . Me bring me

                 He happened to have a box of chocolates

she winked

              Thank you.

Youre welcome

                What smells so good

Its breaded milanesa. I madeup a small portion to confirm I was on top of my game.  I am.

Breaded wha

Milanesa. Italian.  Like a better portion of me.

Breaded Hell  To share corn dogs with you would have been satisfying

Mustard?

Only

When you invite me for dinner we can have corn dogs.

                                                         Okay?

he almost fainted Okay

last week, evening,  October, ’24

1504,  Saturday,  19  10. 24

it pained him he had to say

                              Man either sit still or don pour yourself so much coffee youre sloppin all over ya

Niechlujna osoba

What?

Polish Sloppy person

                       Look at your shirt pants

he looked leaned forward  set his cup down on the picnic table across from the folding chair he sat in

                                                                                                             I wouldn’t have messed myself if you didnt agitate me.

Agitate you thas rich

                       Ya think ya have to be old to die The homeless irritate you yetYET when was the last time you interacted with someone homelesstheyre everywhere everywhere  Theyre not where you are

Theyre not

You may see them from your car but youre not walkin where they are where you see em  Correct me if Im wrong

At a bus stop         You don ride the bus  When was the last time you rode a bus   Inside Disneyland

Ive not spilled my coffee

 

 

Do I get a word in edgewise?

 

What?

Speak

        Edgewise

First off, we’re older, nearer death.

Everyone is

My point, being older . .

. . Is a poor point

You gonna keep interrupting?

Weve beaten older and death to death  Lets just disagree

                                                             Have a sip of coffee muse over homelessness

he scooted forward picking his cup off the table he spilled it

                                                               Christ!

he ignored he had

How I let you get under my skin.

he ignored that

he sipped It’s cold.

Nuke it

I will, I’ll be right back.   You good?

I am thank you By the time I get to my coffee usually its lukewarm  Thank you

he went up the steps to the shallow porch and into the house through sliding glass doors

while he was gone he went to the clipboard paper took the red Bic pen from over his ear and started a letter to his father noting at the lead the date day time where he was  if he was listening to music hed write that too

                                                                                                         Paw –

his father often asked him why he called him Paw he was curious why it didnt stick Maw and Paw Kettle Paw  Why do you call me son Rarely Joe

You’re my son.

Youre my Paw

Paw – 

         How’s it hangin’? Bright blue day here. Jawing with George at his place. He thinks Death finds old people. Go hide in a closest. Take provisions and a bucket. I’ll let you know when you can come out.

ssssh of the glass doors

                           Had to hit my coffee twice.  Refilled.

he spilled walking down the steps

                                    Goddammit.

Set it on the table when you get over here Havent learned shit

I don’t have to listen to you.

                             he sat holding his cup

Ya spilled niechlujna osoba

                                    

used the back of his hand to sweep away the spill on his thigh  his Cargo pants water-repellent

Homeless  Go

    Go.  he set the cup on the table  picked it up  sipped set it down the table again  Go.  Why always an order out of your mouth?

Not an order  Im reminding you

                                  You need reminding an don try an defend that ya don

Ya know better

he harrumphed

                 What about the homeless?

If they werent called homeless maybe youd viewem differently

How?  What?

A euphemism

What? Bum?  Beggar?

No no Was thinkin Jack London

                                   Hobo tramp drifter   Vagabonds a real beaut

    You don go by George an I cant blame ya

1545,  day-between-2-Ts,  2  10. 24

1147,  Saturday,  19  10. 24

Ma & Pa Kettle  Math  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bfq5kju627c

she was the cats pajamas

                             they were having coffee sitting at the kitchen table a linoleum table that had been his parents it was too Sixties to let it go they thought it oldwanted something new

Look here buckwheat

What’s that?

he turned the paper to her had written 1:60

                                               Whastha mean to you

One colon sixty. Mean to you.

No  To you

One whole equals sixty parts.        she chuckled amused  To you . . . two o’clock.

I love you he leaned to her and kissed hershe kissed back

                                                             leaning back  Antha is the sweet in my coffee she used honey

when they first moved in togethershe moved into his place his complex had swimming pools and whirlpools and dry saunas an object of discussion was on whose side of the bed would the alarm clock be placed on

she was adamantbrusque

                             Yours.

Why my side

You’re more responsible than me.

Don blow smoke up my ass

I’m telling you.  It goes off I kill it, I ain’t hittin’ snooze.

Well be late to work

We’ll be late to work.

he conceded

they were late to work

not because of the clock

                           their shower

he woke

the room was bathed by the full moon

he turned his head looked into her face in the shadow she slept on her right

                                                                                 he watched her sleep a good five minutes

turned his head right

her digital alarm clock beady red numbers at night

                                                2:68

Awright  Gonna give me twosixtynine

 

    2:69

he was intrigued

 

 

3:10

they were going to have a ball over coffee

                                            it was Saturday theyd sleep in  wake  make love  hed get out of the shower first warm a bathtowel in the dryer grind beans she handed him her hair wrap over the curtain rod he  her towel  return to the kitchen finish making coffee

                                            Saturday  French press

1400,  day-between-2-Ts,  2  10. 24

0927,  Saturday,  19  10. 24

Chicago  25 or 6 to 4  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8A3HZvGN0qs

Ohyesplease I beg of you   Let me birth my rapists baby my violation and then care for them nurture them for the twentyyears and more . . .

for that crime

                 women serve a life sentence

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQfJpTUYr2Q

2152,  Thursday,  17  10. 24

1024, reggaefriday,  18  10. 24

https://www.kxan.com/news/texas-abortion/researchers-claim-texas-leads-country-in-rape-related-pregnancies-after-dobbs-decision/

https://tennesseelookout.com/2024/01/30/rapes-high-infant-mortality-high-maternal-mortality-and-a-measure-lacking-in-compassion/

https://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/the-legitimate-children-of-rape

“Firm fleshed ripe fruit . . .”  Sartre knocks at the cellar door Orphee Noir  “. . . somber ecstasies of black wine, and our whiteness seems . . . to be a strange livid varnish . . .”  still knocking  “. . . varnish that keeps our skin from breathing.”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMjwb13TFCo *

I hear you knockin’  Tolkien giggles

Yareally got a hard-on for cellar door

I do

Why

Because I must say to my ear  it is not the most beautiful sound in the world an for some reason it got legs an Ive had more than one English teacher agree with TolkienWHY  because he uttered it because he was well thought of

                                                                                                                   BECAUSE

Because   It don fly I didnt take it from my parents I didnt serve it to my children

Ya also got a real hard-on for because

    Tacenda

Tacenda

Yes

    Goes without saying  If I say I wont shaddup      Suffice to say  An aggravation

    From the expression on your face aggravating you now

Very perceptive

Do you know where tha comes from

I do not

From turning roundanround bathed in the mire tha is called your brain

I ad-mire tha

               Whacha sellin

Nada  Saw the No Solicitation sign you have as a doormat

Observant

Yes  very perceptive as you said

So arya gonna go an leave me in peace

    In piece

Piece  I E

You catch on quick

I wrote the book

We suppose you did

                       Later

Don let the door hit ya in the ass

                                   he thought Mariachi If they have an ass he had a tendency to anthropomorphise  even inanimate objects

2230,  reggaefriday,  11  10. 24

1104,  reggaefriday,  18  10. 24

* Dave Edmunds  I Hear you Knocking

In Bruges  inanimate object:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzrxiY_gMiw

Lets dance

couldnt help himself

                      though if he sought defencenot that he would  hed fingerhe was prompted by Charlie Sykes who was being interviewed by Alicia Menendez on Nicolle Wallaces Deadline: White House

Charlie began that former was decom . . .

                                            he leapt to decomposing

Charlie concluded . . . pensating decompensating

                                          FACK

Charlie yalet me down   Yah Ill agree fuckinconcur decompensating  but decomposing is more accurate

                                                                                                                 orange manbaby is coming apartdissolving like raspberryflavoured Alka-Seltzer

will have to find a toxic dump to toss away his remains

                                                          which unfortunately   isnt going to liftclean the stain out of Americas body politics white cotton briefs

Say it aint so Charlie say it aint so

With me nowI like decompensating

                                     With me   decomposing

Before our very eyes

Lets dance

1411,  reggaefriday,  18  10. 24

David Bowie  Let’s Dance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZoC9_udLNeU