6.10.24

entering following her into the bedroom  Nice comforter Duvet  Which

Duvet. Sounds extravagant doesn’t it?

It does he winked at her

she smiled giggledsoftly Thank you, I’m happy you approve.

he smiled I didnt say tha
                              Eiderdown

It is.  her expression mussed
                                 It’s one of the very few . extravagant things I’ve afforded myself for when fall and winter descend.

it was snowing

Yes I can understand it is comforting

    But you don’t care for it?

I do not 

she walked oversat on the edge of the bed seductivelynot once looking away from his eyes undid the scarf at her throat unbuttoned several buttons of her dress
                                           humored smiled   Now?
Annow howbout we go to my place
                                      Ill throw some blankets down in front of the fireplace we can watch the snow fall through the windows talk you can sip wine Ill sip whisky
A fine ending to our delicious dinner date

she ran her hands her long exquisite fingers across the bed
                                                                 I should bundleup she leaned forward go back out into the cold again?

she was enticing

she was seriously a sharp cookie
                                       Yes you should
firmly You’re joking.
Im not


You have a reason? she was becoming irritated  it wasnt becoming on her

I do

Would you care to say?

he chuckled
            Remains a sore spot all these years later
Understand I appreciate how much you enjoydare say relish  your quilt I do
                                                                                   Im not fond
Will you say?

Of course I will
                 As you know my wife died

She bought our girls eiderdown comforters They thought them the cats pajamascoudnt wait for the cold to come over the years that ensued
Yes.
      As do I.

As do you
            I was happy for them Im happy for you 
I made no bones
I do not like them


And.
My wife bought one for our bed
                                  Which was entirely fairshe liked it as much or more than the girlswoudnt have bought them in the first place if not

So during cold weather I threw blankets down in front of the fireplace an slept there

    You didnt sleep with your wife.

Not with eiderdown on the bed no

So you’r . .
. . Obviously

0700,  2sday,  17  9. 24
1032,  Sunday, 6  10. 24

5.10.24


Aby Warburg
                     Ever
he hadnt

twice in two days now

    why now


his picture atlas Bilderatlas begun in the final years of his life incomplete at his death 1929 represents the origins of modern Western art history

some found the work “symptomatic of his ‘crimes’”


art

crime
Yafuckin kiddin me

somebody would have to flesh out how art crime relate
                                                               or are even relatedNo
No

blew his mind

hed be a carnival barker
                            Ladies an gentlemen young ladies in particular Step right up step right up Only twentyfivecents a slim quarter Step right upstep right up an blow me
truly
      somebody try and knot tie a red ribbon bow around art and crime insist theyre similar either they or he would find themselves picking themselves up off a sawdust floor among tossed peanut shells
scent of tequila
                     that kind of bar is art 
  
0700,  2sday,  17  9. 24
1522,  Saturday,  5  10. 24

he called his Dad
                     talked       Ya don sound right
I’m alright
No
     You forget we spend an entire year talkin on the phone couple times a week before I see you again
Ya don sound right   Whasup

Nothing, son, really.
Bullshit
         Whas happened

    Fine. I fell.
Where

In the backyard.
On the grass

Yes. Yes.

No bruises no scrapes

None.  Hurt my pride more.

You trip

No. Like my leg failed.  Was up then down, pitched forward.

Didnt strike your face your head

No.
     As I said, more embarrassing than anything else.

Not shitting me

No.
      I’m fine.


You wearing a belt

laughed  Holds up my pants.

Metal buckle

Yes.

So you know wha happened

Happened?
Yah

No.

Mother Earth Gravity  Magnetic center
                                         A little reverence Dad  She hauled you down
Stop.

No really

I think not.

Youre not being reverent

Please, son.

Paw  Imagine ifya werent wearin a belt

If I wasn’t?

Correct

What?

Shedve pantsed ya Pants down around your ankles Neighbours  Ohmy
                                                                                Maybe called the cops for indecent exposure

Still wrappin your cock around your waist like an anaconda

0700,  2sday,  17  9. 24
1355,  Saturday, 5  10. 24

Google makes things too easy

made a face What are you talking about? It’s what computers do.

Till the plugs pulled

Plugs pulled?
               Ya going off on that all things electric are marriedjoined a single wireline leads to a single plug stuck in a wall . . somewhere . remot . .
. . An gets cut yah

Never going to happen.

Brothers electricity was off for three days this summer hundred degrees Chicago lotsa old people died an were spoiling
If three daysgranted an exception  but is also a window

Take natural disaster Helene Plot against Republicans Marjorie Taylor Greenecheese in her head said  Think how long some of tha electricity is going to be out or if ever restored to some devastated parts of towns
Can happen

Too easy

So what are you doing to make things hard for yourself cause that’s what you do?

Use the dictionary to lookup words encyclopedia for historical facts

OhChrist, you slay me, really? You think of the time you’ll be wasting.

Forget the time we wasted  Ya kiddin me

That was then this is now.

I belong to the Fraternal Order of NeoLuddites no acronym
                                                              You forget about all the other words you find an read while lookinup the one  Its great fun

No thank you.

Howbout this
               I keep a New Oxford American Dictionary Second Edition on floor beside my left foot as I sit at the desk

Looked down

Saw a distinct split between pages

Slipped a bookmarker in it so not to lose the page when I picked it up

Is there a point to this?

Bear with me bear with me

Feels like you’re wasting my time.

This time is well spent
                         Set the dictionary in my lap opened it I wont quiz you on wha yamight think I opened to because you have the imagination of an illiterate miteopened it to pages threehunredninetyfour an five top left  cradle-robber opposite page top right  crave

Cradle-robber crave wha

Young women.

Ohgood youre not as dumb as you look
Didnt mean to step on your line

1612,  Monday,  30  9. 24
1131,  Saturday,  5  10. 24

Use the pan on the stove

Which? she asked

Rear right

Alright. 
         Sheeswoof . . whahappened to that?
Tha

The pan.

    Ah  Tha
               Ever boil eggs for seven hours
Thaswha happened to tha

Seven hours? Might be awfully happy it’s an electric range.

Ecstatic

How’d that happen.

Was late was hungry thought softboiled eggs easily digestible putem on went to the bedroom on the nightstand was a book I thought I returned to the library glad I hadnt physics threw pillows against the wall read nodded out woke set the book aside turned out the light went to sleep

During an intermission break between dreams saw a simmering pot of boiled eggswoke  Tadum

Scorchedblack eggshells one explodedtossed a chalky crayonish yolk onto the range

The pan looks destroyed inside.

It functions

You’re not going to toss it?

No  Functions

Awfully unsightly inside.

Exactly
          Yet it functions       Functions best as a reminder
I anticipate since I caught a break Ill not ever do tha again

Like string tied around someone’s finger.

Precisely


Alright. I’ll reheat the chili in it for the dogs.

Ill slice tomato dice onions got pepperoncini celery salt side of Claussen spears potato salad homemade by moi bought pretzelbread rolls

We’re feasting!

We is we certainly is

0621,  Saturday,  5  10. 24
1036,  Saturday
It’s A Wonderful Life  Uncle Billy squirrel and string  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UpMfp-SsRXg

Where’s my hat?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mu2YEBCU76U

4.10.24

hes had it

there were 385,000 American deaths from Trumpvirus in 2020
                                                                   then there was January6 2021

then the next day was January6 the next day was January6 the next day January6

every day since


January6 insurrectionists shit in the Capitol

formers been shitting on American democracy every day since

1621, reggaefriday,  4 10. 24

Gottago errrans to run

Errands.

Errrans

Am I . are you . . . am I misunderstanding your pronunciation?

If you think Im saying errands yah
                                      Errrans  Made a mistake an now I gotta runem back
Had I not Id have no errands to run


How are you spelling it?

How woud you spell it

E  R  Rcorrect?

Yah

E R R . . . R?
An

. . R A N Sno D.

Perfect
        You can spellan before you say it isnt a wordcuz youre dyin to I just made it a word so it is

air went out of his perturbed tires out of his expression
                                                         You saw . .
. . Thacoming  Arya kiddin me
                                 Yaoughta exercise your liberties more oftenyoure stiff rigid  rules aint laws theyre meant to be broken


But they’re rules.

Too  fuckin   staid
                     Lemme lemming
pickedup his iPhone punched keys  Lookinup rule noun  punched a few more    Here we are  listenin
                                                                                                             rule  “one set of explicit or understood regulations or principles I disagree governing disagree conduct disagree within a particular particular particular activity or sphere I disagree”

It didn’t say particular three times.

I did
      I woud have preferred  within an anal activity or sphere give me a fuckin break   A rule is ought to be perceived as a nicety a courtesy an I find those who might typically  seems typical to me  cite rules  often clandestinely are breakinem have some farcical selfheld belief they are better than others their  shit don stink
It do

Were miles from errrans
                              I disgress


That was quite a definition, recital, diatribe.

Yare getting the hang of it

   Are you angry?

No

You sound angry.

You havent heard me angry
                              Decidedly a decisive difference   I do not deign
Had to  Ds
              Or dese
Dese?

In your coastal vernacular these
                                   Dese
Dem  Dere  Dose  Dese
                            Can take the boy out of the city but not the city outadaboy
Dig

I suppose I do.
                     I honor rules.

Of course you do Its made you who you are




What do you mean by that?

Wha I said
             Know the song with the lyric of Oh sweet mystery of life at last Ive found you
Naughty Marietta  Shes got a legup on you
                                                  Yaint ever been naughty

1030,  reggaefriday,  4  10. 24
1123,  reggaefriday


what would he make of that

 

he woke used the bathroom walked into the kitchenwas probably the first time he had during the middle of the night during the time hed lived there fourteen years
the illuminated range clock
                             2:32 which was fine by him because the night before he didnt sleep well he went to bed after a cool shower not 9:00slept


woke again

his body hurting

got out of bed wentup the hall into the kitchen again
second time in fourteen years
tickled him
              6:16
was intrigued by the :16 and :32

returned to bed

despite pain he found a comfortableenough position that he fell back to sleep wondering of numerology

232 equaled 7

616 equaled 13 equaled 4

were 7 and 4 related


when he woke for good in the morning
for only the third time in fourteen years
he went to the kitchen again shits an giggles
third times a charm

power was out

no time showed on the range
                     THA  tickled him

  

was there a relationship between 7 and 4

Pythagoreans Riight whasa Pythagorean a follower of Pythagoras teaching and beliefs a Greek philosopher and mathematician

they believed particular numbers were invested with spiritual properties 

7 consists of the union of the physical 4 with the spiritual 3  7 means spirituality on a roll

obviously 4 was incorporated in 7

standalone  4 physical energetic knowledgeable clever confident can keep secrets are creative have sharp memory  rebellious sometimes overconfidentYah

    between the night the range perhaps  they suggestedurgedencouraged him to split differences

perhaps

if his assertiveness aggressiveness allowed him
                                                      ah Socrates  Know Thyself 

maxim inscribed upon the Temple of Apollo in the ancient Greek precinct of Delphi


past two nights 

piece of work
               pieces

he hoped the rest of the world that could slept like babies

reggaefriday,  4  10. 24
1009,  reggaefriday
sleep
                      he wasnt sure what that washe sleptdreamed twothree hours  woke  wouldnt open his eyesknew it was still dark  and let hypnopompic and hypnagogic fight a tug-of-war over him
bizarre
         though uncommonly delicious visuals                                                                                                   

when he gotup out of bed he couldnt say he was rested
                                                             couldnt say what he was
except
        entertained

153preferred to 1353hrs,  Thursday, 3  10. 24
0912,  Friday,  4  10. 24

3.10.24


they gobbled sativa edibles 7.5mg poured some coffee his black bros with French Vanilla creamer   Cant do milk  
No.   went outside under shade trees to solve all the problems of the world discuss politics science an inevitablyexorbitantly bros high school Glory Days
CHRIST
         when he went off hed think Somebody shoot me
                                                                 Ive heard this before no brakes  evidently it was important he hear it again

when he finally ends  retold beautifully immaculately same details hed ask him  Why don’t you talk about high school?

Didnt care for it
                  I liked competing in sportsreally  really liked the nude showers said tha to fuck with him he was a bit of a homophobe although vehemently denied it  YOU ARE  he also forgot that the house he grewup in only had a bathtub  as teenager he was partial to showers  now typically he bathed than showered
Jesus. disdain Nude showers.

Jesus didnt shower
                      Suppose I was like Jesus until junior high
Please.



Would you slow down?

Cant keep up

No.
     You’re hard to follow.

Then say
           Wha didnt ya follow
All of it.

Jesus man Why didnt you interrupt earlier

I couldn’t think how.

Open your mouth  Transition too quick expositions are legit cogen . .
. . I couldn’t follo . .
. . Not like Im bleating Tourette whelps
                                         Introduced the next thingmaybe not twothree maybe twofourthree but even out of order theyre relatable
To you to you.
                Like Jack and Jill tumbling down the hill.

Id help you up Jill  help pushdown your skirt so youre not exposedembarrassed

I’m not Jill.

Actually no Jill would be able to keep up
                                           Nonetheless  Id help you push your skirt down so you werent too embarrassedexposed

his sigh said it all

Tellya wha
            Lets go inside shoot some pool  You can practise your geometry annot think about your poor sense of fashion
stood was walking to the door before bro could get a word out

felt bad

usually he let ladies go first

0650,  2sday, 17  9. 24
1209,  Thursday,  3  10. 24

a windingcurvy no-shoulder tree- brush-lined road coming down out of the hills after dark  wildlife aplenty

he should have left before dark
                                       knew betterWHA



called the police on his cell then AAA to tow  the vehicle was badly damagedhe was okay grateful he didnt have airbags



he explained to the officer
                            Appeared in front of me had virtually no time to react despite covering my brake

It . . jumped out?

No   As I said earlier

You didnt see it . . leave . run off?

    Run off  Yakiddin me
                                It appeared in the road disappeared from the road
Saw chrome yellow

Chrome yellow.

Know your fire hydrants

I do.

Shimmy up that embankment  Take a real good look at the one up there
                                                                              I did while waiting for you
Really?


    Take a good look
he picked up a painted piece of his vehicle
Take this with you

You want me to scale that embankment?

Investigation is part of your job I want yourexcuse me sumptuous report so Im not dancin goin roundanround with insurance Got out of the vehicle an called Everything is as was




the cop returned
                   I’ll be a sonofabitch. 
Crazy huh
Nuts.
         Whodathought?

So much for inanimate

I also took photos which Ill share with you
                                               Sawya scrap paint off it into an evidence envelope
I did. Compared ‘em.
                       I’ve no doubt.

Nor explanation

None.

Me neither
              Crazy

737preferred to 1937hrs, day-between-2-Ts,  3  10. 24
0954,  Thursday,  3  10. 24

    smutty
               reminds him of rummy
which he hasnt read since early Hemingway or heard since Humphrey Bogart called Walter Brennan one in To Have or Have Not
  
Ken Bruens character Jack Taylor reminded him referred to Ems – Emeralds – mother as a rummy
                                                                                                         sounds better than a drunk

rummy needs no discourse  selfevident    smutty follows in kind
                                                                     though hed question Whakind porn smutty

smut porn

   smut homophone BANG! POW! ZAP! Same Bat-time same Bat-channelSMUT!
where are Warhol Peter Max Roy Lichtenstein when he needs them
                                                                        what would they have done with the earnip a bullet gave cunt
thin threads of blood on his fat cheeks or   OR  the nonexistent second attempt
                                                                                     cant duck a punch not thrown
though difficult to representPOP art
                                       perhaps a coweringcringing crybaby
perhaps fluttering eyelids
                          FLINCH
left hand up openpalm protecting himself from a righthanded blow like a beat child
                                                                                       maybe like a beat dog who believes hes due

whaever
          would have been a treat


a simmering alkaline hydrolysis since he wasnt an alky
                                                             a rummy
full circle

0630,  2sday,  17  9. 24
1302,  day-between-2-Ts,  2  10. 23