25.7.24

dizzy

                dizzy

                                dizzzy

                                                  space

                                                                     staring

                                                                                             downUp

                                                                     staring

                                       

                                       SHOCKED!

                                        TO SEE!

                                                                     dizzzy

shocked to see . . .

he didnt fallon   his  face

Saturday,  26  4. 08
1117,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24

24.7.24


A man walks into the spare bedroom to gather his winter coat


Sounds like the beginning of a joke, a guy walks into a bar.

 

What of it?

You can see tha

Yes.

Some guy with his back to him is getting a blowjob on the edge of the bed can make out her long blonde hair past his hip

See

Okay. I’m uncomfortable.

You stay or do you go
Stay or go?

Stick around

 

Im sticking around

   You’d stay?wouldn’t quietly step back step out?

You woud

I wouldwhy would you stay?

Im looking at a guys back catching a wisp of hair I don know who they are

Maybe they wante . .
. . Privacy

Yeah. Sure.
Didnt lock the bedroom door  
                               Some people dig the possibilitythrill of getting caught in the act in a compromised position
Youd leave while a guys getting a blowjob
Possibly a blowjob for you
                               The voyeurisitic element

   I’d leav . .
. . Because youre a prude

I’m . .
. . Save it Im stickinround

1700ish,  Monday,  22  4. 24
1234,  say-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24

  deliberated

an exquisite liar

a sacred coolstone death that dreamed and dreamed and dreamed of warmmulched earth
                                                                                                  tall yellowgreen grass
   air

unbroken
              whips of long unbrushed maiden hair

Saturday,  26  4. 08
1102,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24


he rarely wrote I   pronoun theyre certainly taking a lap these days   rarely wrote in first person


I smelled these mangy stone and mortar walls their thicksweat blackexcrescence mold  degenerate rot
                                                                                                             and waondered bluethoughts

   angst
rogue aberations amberrations   capture

ambition
aberration

deliberation


   I waondered

Saturday,  26  4. 08
1029,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24

page among a sheaf 
                     things that occur he sees them in his mind  they occularcur

once seen he tries his damnedest to arrest them but like vapour most tend to shimmer  ease away

some things unseen are thoughts sharplightning against black night
                                                                           what of expectations
what he had to do to have them

   he couldnt say

majority of his life the things that mattered most had been unexpected
                                                                            therefore
to relish the truly unexpected he tries to live without expectations 

   without   anticipations


career which hes eluded manage expectations
                                                when they fail they breed disappointment disillusionment distemper  breed unhappiness
while on the other hand
                          to not expect helps foster happiness which hes enjoyed abundantly



he wrote he was heading to work rode the bus thought of Dickens Great Expectations which he hadnt read and taking a seat beside Monty a rider acquaintance he mentioned Dickens Monty said Chapter Twentytwo.

Don tell me you know the verse too

got ruffled a little was a religious cat  dryly drolly  No.
                                                            ChapterTwentytwo “I wavered again, and began to think there were greater expectations than my own.”

You know this why

he laughed
             Aside from the synopsi . .
. . Which is whaIve not read it

It’s a classic.

It is
     Tha Ive not read

The synopsis. Pip. An orphan. Rises to Wealth. Deserts his true friends. Then becomes humbled by his arrogance. Monty was a college science librarian

Thank you        

You’re welcome.



Monty got off the bus
                        his greater expectations stayed  unexpectedly

he thought great is abused  few farfew things people are great falling from great can kill

he thought I think Id be aware if I was in the presence of greatness or for that matter inclined to greatness or declining ordeal
OR

Ya gotta say

I do Thas why we hang around
                                      May I
Knock yourself out

Or youve simply lead your life on a small stage few actors few characters

I coud
        I can say I havent been around  he chuckled
Wha

When I was younger I expected   choicehuh
                                                I expected Id have been around much much more My stage could have been larger unexpectedly  but didnt
Im not disappointed

You are not
             We are not

he nodded gently A good team

    Is tha praise

We don need praise  

0550 – in the shower,  Monday,  7  4. 08
0948,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  7. 24

23.7.24


howbout something simple
                           he needed to unwind unknot straighten his spine

something awfully simple
stand it on its two legs


I always have whiskey on handnever truer words

thats –E Y –E Y –E Y oh whiskey  Irish twelveyear Redbreast  --Y whisky  American

he had whiskey around to sip

had it as an antiseptic

kept it in lieu a styptic pen  to stop bleeding

simple
easy to follow


best joke of the day

likely hed be the only one to enjoy it
skin in the game

no skin

couldnt give a fuck no matter who they were because
                                                         had no skin in the game

it was that simple knowledge that made him an outstanding intermediary  negotiator

made a good living

allround him Skins freaking out which was perfectly understandableperfectly human

he was the quiet handsomewrapped bundle of patience and sanity


best joke he toldhad told in some time

I always have whiskey on hand

his huge tom a tabbySTARTED nextdoor neighbour firedup something mechanical had been lying on his lap as he sat at his desk reading an on-line article about Mieville Reeves book Book of Elsewhere hed bet money hypnagogic not that he was a betting man tom tornup his arm chewedup his thumb gouged his thigh belly opposite arm
                                                                             punch line whiskey on hand

poured some into a Hazel Atlas fourounce Say When frosted shotglass and stuck his damaged bleeding thumb in it

On hand


    Simple

1302,  2sday,  23  7. 24

if not a gymnast go near bottom of the piece without the gymnastics

  

from a reef of pages emerging like a red volcanic island boiledup from the seabed
                                                                                       five
first page  simple
                    1  2. 08  1February

smackdab middle he printed               
                                                inspired by R. Crumb video . . .


second page righthand corner he reiterated the date

angling down from the lefthand corner
                                      I gradually felt I was becoming UNHINGED
So I took drugs
became hinged

angling left from midpage halfway down
                                       The screws twisted tight the shackles lost a link When I looked away the slackshackles became

below the fold the page was empty


page three the same date in the upper left albeit EVENING added
                                                                       immediately hardright He blew his descending letter by letter one beneath the other S T A C K slipright a space A C K slipright a space A C K antiaircraft fire
                                                                                                              midpage right descending like/he had a/hope in hell/of/knocking/anything an arrow arcsleft descends and immediately across from the prior words he wrote OUT
beneath it  of the sky
beneath it  save an occasional dumb bird
that inadvertently
waondered
into
     words descend one under the other   the   line   of   fire

tuckedright bottom of the page  Your goose is cooked he didnt mean the bird


page four
          angling down from the lefthand corner word under word NOT   EVERYTHING   IS   FOR   EVERYONE
an arrow arcsright ascendsdescends points at AND WHY NOT? beneath that an arrow arcsup to middle of the page and plummetspoints midpage ISN’T   EVERY   THING   FOR   EVERY   ONE? beneath that an arrow arcsup hooksdown at the edge of the page angling left OR beneath it IS EVERYTHING beneath it TOO MUCH? beneath it IS EVERYTHING AN OVERSTIMULATION beneath it THAT THEIR SIMPLE MINDS CAN’T centered beneath it MANAGE, centered beneath it AND THEN MIND?


fifth page
           angling down from the lefthand corner each parcel under the other I   PAINT   WITH A BIC PEN   AND   WORDS   AND WHILE I’LL SEE COLOUR   IN THE WORDS   THEY MAY NOT BE THE SAME COLOUR   THE READERS RENDERS
                       arrow doubles back arcsleft hooks down  AND NEITHER   I   NOR   THEY   SHOULD BE OFFENDED   BY   THE   DIFFERENCE
                                             arrow rollsup right rollsdown points to words angling left down each under the other from the edge of the page THE BEAUTY   OF   LIFE   LIES   IN   OUR   DIFFERENCES   OUR DIFFERFENCES   BOUNDARIES,   MAN,   IT   ALL   COMES   DOWN   TO   BOUNDARIES. 



without the gymnastics

I gradually felt I was becoming UNHINGED So I took drugs became hinged The screws twisted tight the shackles lost a link When I looked away the slackshackles became       

He blew his STACKACKACK antiaircraft fire like he had a hope in hell of knocking anything OUT of the sky save an occasional dumb bird that inadvertently waondered into the line of fire

Your goose is cooked

he didnt mean the bird

NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR EVERYONE  AND WHY NOT?  ISN’T EVERY THING FOR EVERY ONE?  OR  IS EVERYTHING TOO MUCH?  IS EVERYTHING AN OVERSTIMULATION THAT THEIR SIMPLE MINDS CAN’T MANAGE, AND THEN MIND?

I PAINT WITH A BIC PEN AND WORDS AND WHILE I’LL SEE COLOUR IN THE WORDS THEY MAY NOT BE THE SAME COLOUR THE READER RENDERS AND NEITHER I NOR THEY SHOULD BE OFFENDED BY THE DIFFERENCE  THE BEAUTY OF LIFE LIES IN OUR DIFFERENCES OUR DIFFERFENCES  BOUNDARIES, MAN, IT ALL COMES DOWN TO BOUNDARIES.

1151,  2SDAY,  23  7. 24

The Dramatics  Whatcha See Is Whatcha Get   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MlNSpyyj1U4

22.7.24


still off an runnin
                     he wondered if he could catch himself saddle the clown running amok
                                                                                                  fingerscrossed
Thas stupid  fingers crossed ya cant grab him by the mane

Good point
Youre welcome shook hisher herhis head in disbelief  Canya believe this guy   No the others agreed

Thank you
            Now ahright ahright break it up move it along
Nothing to see here
My line
Wes stepped on it
Whadaya want from me
A little restraint
No can do not my nature as you know
Ya don try
I leave try for things I can try
Youre tryin us
Ya know where the door is don let it hit ya in the ass on the way out
Just like tha Youd let us go
I didnt extend invites ya showed I didnt evict


he didnt

they hung in
              shehes heshes conceded things wouldnt be as fascinating in the O . .
. . Donyadare

Fuckinguys brutal
                    Awright  The outanbeyond

Thank you
           he disliked with extreme prejudice acronyms  they were going to utter OAB cut em off at the knees

Yah Us at our knees while in the meantime youre still off an running
                                                                          Priorities

Eventually Ill tire get hungry an return Yaoughta runaway sometime
                                                                         When I did my folks didnt come lookin for me  They knew I knew I had it good not the best  but good



imaginengine

dreamer dreamist
                     d-reamer
An were off

Buckleup

D-reamer  finest cut to create a fitting piece from an all-ready fashioned piece
                                                                                   an extantexact tapper

A reamer reamist reaper reapist a rapierer rapiererist  alas   raper rapist

Jesus

An evoker elicitor

Full of shit

Not a revoker
               An evoykeur   Blended  an evokervoyeur

   Sooo full of shit  

Tuesday – Christmas,  25  12. 07
1239,  Monday,  22  7. 24

fetish

his ethics
          he just realised how similar their spellingsletters were only off by an f an a c
tic twitched his cheek while writing f an a c tic
                                                         fanatic matriculated  Marvelous
associations

socialisations

feel Jung



among a sheaf of papers he found a page hed written not stellar
                                                                     the pair of ls careful parallels  fascinated him

hed been a carpenter

he happened into a neighbourhood where two houses were being framed side by side

he walked through them
was terribly proud of one            

disgusted by the other
                          it was  not stellar

he wrote
           There is building and buillding.

Buillding compromises one’s ethics.

Build ethically.

Builld unethically.

Each was devised.

Only one no one could point fingers at afterwards.

You built it – you buillt it – you own it.


the next night he returned with a nearfilled five gallon Blitz gas can splashed it around then fused with a lit cigarette wedged in a matchbook he torched the ill structure
                                    
6-ish-ness,  Tuesday – Christmas,  25  12. 07
1117,  Monday,  22  7. 24


ire

his ire
my ire

myired

mired in ire


malaise

myalaise

malease  French mal

malady

myalady

myaladriot  French adriot



curiously conjugated  
                               conjurer



the things we have are the things we accept
                                               he shruggednodded    smiled wrily
The thing I am is what I accept.
                                 smiled more wry

The thing I am is that what I except.


     was having too much fun

6PM-ish-ness,  Tuesday – Xmas,  25  12. 07
1001,  Monday,  22  7. 24

A weak piece  shrugged   Weak

Cant all be strong
                     Think of music albums
How many sensational Top Ten hits versus fillers despite many of them finding affection

   Thas true

Howbout this


   Im listening

Even when youre least compelling
                                     Youre compelling

I shoud take your word for it  An example
                                             Convince me because your thoughtprocess isn . .
. . Is  Is yoursours  is yours
                                 Prognosticators  Recall

Prognosticators earning paychecks Baby needs new shoes
                                                                Even if she don

Speculation
              Thas not medias job their job is to report out the facts

Yes I recall  Pro-gnostic-actors

Gnostic  Relating to knowledge

Exactly wha I said

Off the cuff
           At a sudden on the tip of your tongue

Careful
          No tellin where it was last  at last smiled

Please  We know exactly
                           You forget a lot  who youre talking to
nodded  hapless
                  Maybe therell be a time when our circumstances are reversed

You don mean tha
                    You think we enjoy this

Well you certainly have at me  I honestly don kno . .
. . NO
        Our situation in situ  woud drive you nuts insane   How she said                                                                                                                                Innnnnnnnnsannnnnnnnne
We got the right number of ns

Ya did

Is tha shit youd want to weigh in on  respond to
                                                         Or rather create

2336,  Sunday,  21  7. 24
0903,  Monday,  22  7. 24
Zappa  Help, I’m a Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAOClxd8UJE

Simon and Garfunkel  I Am A Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2nN-Yrt1EU