when he got baked he had a habit

                                       the habit wasntwas getting baked

less than once a weekdefinitely not enough to develop a tolerance

                                                                        easier said  a cheap date

it didnt take much to toss him

                                that it didnt was wholly dependent on him

while others rushing forwardleading the charge wanted him to follow he demurred

they engaged in the inevitable play of fools which he deemed childish  peerpressure

No thanks I like being high a couplethree hours enjoy its tailend  the residuals

they loved to blaze

                       which wasnt to say he hadnt on occasion

however when he got high now

                                 he had an ulterior motive

he really shouldnt insist now

                                now had been awhile since college

Poetry professor was Irish could speak Gaelic had hundreds and hundreds of classic an not so classic poems memorised stood at the head of every class and began by reciting one exquisitely emotionally

                                                                                       he wouldnt miss a one  was in awe

professor also introduced them to his writing

                                                as exquisite  terribly more emotional

ending  often wiped tears from eyes with a handkerchief

he taughtloved poetry

                         he demanded his students write poetry which was not in the course description

fashion them like their grade depended upon it

                                                   it did

he always sat at the front of the class if threefour rows back he could guarantee something would distract him

didnt take much

                   sitting upfront nearest professor the man never let him down emanated booze

which he thought was kindakrazy

                                    class was TenAM the man was loadedSO GOT MILK?

therefore when poetry was assignedrequired he got stoned

at quarters end one by one students filed to the front of the room stood before his desk where their final grades pronounceddisseminated

                            it one of the few college As he earned

Professor Cillian O’Connor asked him if he would kindly stay after

Of course

Young man, your poetry was consistently excellent, consistently.

Thank you sir

Your imagery astonishing.

Thank you However sir your poems provided outstanding examples anhow coud I not try to  to compete with you

Ohmy, thank you very much, although if I may, and you needn’t share if you don’t wish, might you elaborate on your method . . your he rolled his hands over and over each other before his chest preparation, situation . . . how where you’re able to write?

he chuckled warmly

                       If you’ll excuse me I actually followed your method

My method?

I presume

Yes.  You presume what?

I presume you sit with a bottle of whiskey  oillubricate your vivid imagination

                                                                                     I got high

High?

   Stoned Fired up a joint hit a bong sometimes indulged a sweetsliver of hashishwish I had access to absinthe I have felt the wind on the wing of madness Baudelair . .

. . Les Fleurs du Mal.

Yah

Hmm. I should like to try your method someday.

Funny you should say

                           he went to his breastpocket retrieved a joint I twisted one up for you holding it on end pointing up at the fluorescent lighting fixtures white plastered ceiling he held it out to him  Sir I am grateful to have experienced your class

it wasnt really an ulterior motive

                                    an obsession

high hed split  get some distance between him the carelesscarousers  pen paper clipboard  muse

                                                                                                          readily snatched soundbites  reels

they pestered him

felt it was their job

What are you writing now?

Ive no idea yet

                Just making notes Ideating

Ideating?

           Sounds like that hurts.

Best possible hurt

last week two of rovers moseyed over came up behind him

                                                               You haven’t scribbled yet?should have been a tagger . .

. . Who says Im not

                      Should have been a doctor

Nothing?

          I've seen you flushed with pages.

Unmoved today  Though no worries I have ideas at home

We haven’t moved you?

Not todaynope

               slightly it irritated himslightly  that the bevy falling on their face hadnt interestedpiqued him once

Fuckin voyeur shehe heshe muttered

inwardly he chided them Keep it to yourself I don wanna hear

they shrugged

DON

     Not a word

they drifted away

he made his goodbyes

went home fixed dinner let the silent white page keep to itself

next morning he sat black cup of Joe in righthand pen in left digesting three raw eggs they never made it to be boiled scrambled fried frittataed omeletteed waste of time and energy  looked at the empty page

                                                                                          Whawas tha about

then

      at the bottom of the page

upsidedown

reverseside of a bank statement

looked again

he laughed deeplywholeheartedly

small font all caps

                                        THIS PAGE INTENTIONALLY LEFT BLANK

approximately0830,  Memorial Day – commemorating those who died protecting our Democracy,  27  5. 24

1611,  Memorial Day

he was grateful for the bumpy flight

                                     but he loved rollercoaster rides

he wasnt keen it was going to Dallas  intermediary   terminating in Chicago

                                                                                  but had he flown direct he would have missed this air

and her

when he reached his middleseat she was at the window

                                                             Good morning he said

she just noddedsmiled large

                             maybe she didnt understand English or maybe since it was very early she either wanted to sleep or did not want to risk engaging him if he was one of those passengers who  if given permission  talked on and on an on

in the air she reclined her seat

                               her breasts trembledjiggled under her yellow thin cotton sweater that went ohso terribly well with her milkcoffee complexion  flawless like a caramel apple

                                                                        her nipples  hinting

however

          she could have taken the red blanket sprawled in her lap and covered herself

rather

        she seemed unconcerned comfortable  her large brown eyes knowing  radiating confidence  epicanthal folds  inviting

       made him want to faintfall deep into them

her demeanor  warm

                      her lips ever-so-slightly parted the tip of her tongue played between the edges of her teeth

the flight attendants cautiouslyserved beverages as the jetliner continued on bumpy air

she asked for ginger ale and water

he for a halfcup black coffee an water

                                       it was cool  sipping it he held it in his mouth to better appreciate the air currents  it played with his tongue tickled the roof of his mouth

    she spoke Would you excuse me, please? and placing the blanket on the armrest beneath the porthole she stood

Of course he went to stand to enter the aisle the unencumbered woman who had the aisle seat had gotten up before the beverage service and not returned

                                       but she stayed him firmly touched his forearm  No, you’re fine, you needn’t get up. as she effortlessly lifted her leg over hisher back to him straddling him

the aircraft hit a updraft

                         unexpectedunprepared for its suddenness she dropped into his lap

the violence increased

he held her by the hip and ribs

a wild vibration going through them

he was stirredfelt himself despite himself  grow   press against her

she felt him leaned rightlooked over her shoulder  let the strength go out of her legs

the plane continued to bounceskitter

                                     over the intercom the pilot instructed the flight attendants to immediately take their seats the passengers to remain seated until he said otherwise

she then looked straight ahead sat upright

this was mutual a one-of-a-kind opportunity

                                              unlikely to be recreated by two strangers for a long long time

they were enjoying it for all strangers

                                       he took his hand from her hip placed on her ribs where he felt the weight of her breasts jiggle on his fingers the light weight of her body in his lap

an inadvertentunexpected lap dance

an expected Happy Ending

                               was INSANE

               

archival  Saturday,  6  3. 04

1126,  Sunday,  26  5. 24

Edison Lighthouse  Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FvJp907_l_4 

Cicada

Tastes like chicken because everything tastes like chicken

                                                            except fish now plant-based f!sh

Right

How do you get past their beady red eyes?

I close mine

               Or snap their noggin off wings an legs got to go too unlike chicken

Eat ‘em raw?

Have Although I like them roasted

                                        Theres one other thing however I have to add to this discussion

Disgustion.

Goodness  How clever are you

                                   I take it Ill not convince you to join me

No. Emphatically no.

I can appreciate that

                        But afterall youve not been an adventurous soul

I’ve had my adventures. I’ve tried your pig’s feet.

Trust me  Not really tha adventurous

                                           Rocky Mountain oysters

Noway.

   I rest my case

                    Concluding as I had begun to conclude earlier

Yes.

Thank you

             When one says cicada tastes like chicken  Ive taken it up with a loquacious cock an he tipped his comb to a passing hen an said No. I ate her and she tasted nothing like cicada.

stonefaced Really?  You really going there?

Yes Really   Why youre not adventurous

                                             Tellinya man  Youre really missin out

1710,  Reggaefriday,  24  5. 24

0859,  Sunday,  26  5. 24

bon appetit  https://www.bonappetit.com/uncategorized/article/how-to-cook-cicadas-according-to-3-richmond-va-chefs

hustle

he was hustlinghad a habit to feed

Mrs Bayer called  left a message

                                   she cancelled the patio pour tomorrow

he called back

                Mrs Bayer.

Billy.

Yes.

How can I help you?

Wouldya lemme pour tomorrow, bitch. he didnt say that

                                                            If I may, I’ve a schedule to keep, if I can’t pour tomorrow that will affect my projects timeline and I can’t say when I’ll be able to work you back in.  I would be negligent if I didn’t remind you . . our contract.

Oh no, I understand, we have a contract, whenever you’d be able to work me back in is fine, however not for the next six weeks.

Whadafuck! he didnt say

                             Not for six weeks. cash now May I ask why?

The cicada.

The bug?

Yes. They’re everywhere. I can’t walk on my lawn without stepping on them. I certainly don’t want them on or entombed in my freshnew patio.

                        I imagine you can understand.

MONEY

         Mrs Bayer. You expressly asked that while I’m finishing off the patio I leave the southwest corner wet so you could write in it.

Yes.

Dating it, likely, your name, likely.

Yes.

Have you thought about this? MONEY The cicada happen only every thirteen seventeen years. Their tiny footprints would be, well, kinda historic, and you may be, I don’t know about other contractors, but you may be the only one who would have permanent evidence of this time.

                                         Really kinda historic.

I didn’t think of that.

I did bitch MONEY

                   I’m just saying.  Or.

   Or?

You can enter a venture with me. We can take advantage of these bugs. You said you have lots?

Yes, disgusting, you wouldn’t believe it, can’t walk anywhere without stepping on them.

Perfect. Ground floor. Novelty item. MONEY Chocolate-covered cicada. And I’ve no problem eating a few in front of people to sell ‘em. I remember the chocolate-covered peanutbutter balls you shared with me when we poured the pad for your storage.

         Delicious. 

MONEY I’ve looked it up.

Oh my goodness, my gosh . .

. . No no listen, I’ve looked it up.

                                  They contain twentyonepointfour grams of crude protein per onehundred grams, which is onepointsix percent more than that found in pork and eggs, and in contrast with, and much less than pork and beef, its crude fat content is awfully low, twopointsix grams per onehundred grams.

I looked it up. I’m not jiving you. MONEY

I’ll tell you what, Billy.

                       If you come today, collect all the cicada you can and can minimise them on my patio, I can suffer a few footprints for posterity. I’d also cover that time, we’ll call it a bonus, and pay half of tomorrow’s pour upfront too.

MONEY

       You’re a goddess, Mrs Bayer, an absolute goddess.

she giggled

             Mr Bayer called me that while we were dating. Thank you.

No, thank you. I’ll be right over.

Billy hustled

2006,  Reggaefriday,  24  5. 24

1023,  Saturday,  25  5. 24

ttps://site.extension.uga.edu/foodscienceandtechnology/add-a-little-crunch-to-your-diet-with-cicadas-how-to-harvest-store-and-prepare-food-from-brood-xix-emergence-in-georgia/#:~:text=Nutritionally%2C%20cicadas%20are%20quite%20valuable,that%20of%20pork%20and%20beef.

interesting  AMbiguous    says nothing at all

                                                 however  nothing resides in formers head

nothingNADA

had to put in tempting his two cents

formers a cunt

                 a terribly easy target  wished someone would take it

eejits

        the former the state of Louisianahe liked N‘awlins attended Mardi Gras  almost feltup a preop trans with really fuckin amazing tits

                    but he was xtremelyhigh on hash

great excuse

               would have suck her tits but not his cock

interesting

“Do you support any restrictions on a person’s right to contraception?”

former dildo  “We’re looking at that. he got a mouse in his trousers We’re going to have a policy on that very shortly, and I think it’ll be something you find interesting. And I’d say that’s another issue you’ll find interesting. But, you will find it, very smart. I think it’s a smart decision.”

                                            hmmm  not a damn thing smart this failing-of-a-man has ever done

  

1601,  Saturday,  25  5. 24

https://www.msnbc.com/all-in/watch/trump-says-he-s-looking-at-restricting-birth-control-access-211503685938

he was an idea guy

shared them liberally

asked for a small percentage of the profits in perpetuity

                                                           they could also pickup the taxes

What?

Makes sense

Audacious.

Imaginative You have the infrastructure in place

                                                    Tip a patient back hygienist cleans their teeth theyre lulled theyre ready to bare their souls stop the torture tone down the lighting play soft ambient music have the psychologist psychiatrist glide in noiselessly on a wheeled chair session begins

Its seamless

A dentist psychiatric practise

Improvement  Restoration  Baby

Don’t call me, baby.

Ive handed you a treasure trove

                                  Ill call you whaever I want

an inspired Kahler apptment, approximately 0940,  Thursday,  23  5. 24

1222,  Reggaefriday,  24  5. 24

Zappa  The Torture Never Stops  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvTyL_Sbyn8

inside the room it looked like filament

                                         perhaps because a coppery undulatinglight emanated from it

but it was too largenot overtly large but too large to fit inside a standard lightbulb

it hung suspended midair  at the rooms center

he could not determine a power source

it seemed twodimensional

                             however no matter the angle he tried to view it from it turned to face him

wary

over time walking around it he was able to visuallyuntangle what he had construed as contiguous winding

                                                                                                                 he did not know if one overlaid the other or if they were woven for whenever he stepped towards it too see better it retreated

it seemed to be a slightly larger questionmark and a dollar sign  two vertical strokes  the tail of the questionmark between the verticals its disconnected period  mirrorballish  slightly under the whole

                                                                                           and given its undulatinglight the mark and sign subtly traded prominence but never for too long and often strobed

he discovered the room as he cast about inside a multistorey office building looking for a group of people he had arrived with who suddenlysilently were gone

one moment raucous

although separate  parcels

                               then disappeared

he did not feel abandoned  disassociated   though he did not feel a particular belonging to them either

it felt odd

discovering the filament made it odder

making neither hide nor hair in situ he retreatedbacked his way through the door he entered

the filament recentered itself as it was when he met it

                                               met

was accurate

descending a broad central staircase to the lobby suddenlyraucously the group he was with spun in through the revolving doors How did you get in?When? You were just outside with us.

when he couldnt sayhe didnt

                                 he shrugged

6AMish,  Reggaefriday,  24  5. 24

1124,  Reggaefriday

Ethereal City  Uncover The Secret Base  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCn0JawGuSY 

Sonofabitch

                  his shit came in

Its ship Your shi . .

. . NO  Tha lines  your ships come in

                                          Mines shitcoudnt precede my shower hasta show up afterwards

Great

My bodys bustin my chops

Sorry  Im not following ya

No

    Youre in synch with my brain emotions  my bodily functions slip yourshout out to Murderbot  slip your governor module

Now Im really confused

Kinda fun aint it  not to be in control or have something thahappens an is utterly beyond your control Im being facetious  However you havent a choice Ya gotta go with the flow despite disagreeing to a T with virtually everything about it

Thawas no help

The hint

          Bodily functions

Shit

Yah

   Ohshit

Correct

Ya just took a shower were squeaky clean then you had to shit

Correct

No bidet

Not this late in the day Ive used leaves to wipe my ass

                                                             Toilet papers just fine

Remember whaya told your mother about Cottonelle

Gentle Care Enriched with aloe and Vitamin E

                                                     I do

Brother  Thabugged her eyes

It certainly did it certainly did

0901,  day-between-2-Ts,  22  5. 24

0919,  Reggaefriday,  24  5. 24

Cat Stevens  Longer Boats  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRC8lqtBXCA 

rubbers

condoms

prophylactics thats sterile

    what he dug

                     reservoirs

when they were kept behind the pharmacists counter anparticularly when they were a woman  really tickled him to stroll up anask for a hafdozen reservoirs

theyd play it cool professional as they should her job

                                                        What brand, please?

Wha brand you prefer

theyd shit

             either sternly  or humoured

the humoured were a pip  several drugstores became his favourites because of them

they werent in hed go to another

    reservoirs

                 what they suggested inspired  incentivised   wasnt like hed comeNo

more like he was surf

anwho didnt like to play in the foam an surf

0858,  day-between-2-Ts,  22  5. 24

1219,  Thursday,  23  5. 24

Beach Boys  Surfin’ USA  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KcZn05qxVgg

 

NO TRUER WORDS ARE STRUCK DOWN by House Republicans

McGovern has his way with them unflatteringly he klieglighted the formers adjudicated losses and reminded the House of his 88 pending felony charges

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yg7ABFA28v4

1724,  Thursday,  23  5. 24

he saw

        thought  Righteous  Right on lil guy

if he had his cellphone on himdidnt damn thing stayed putwas a home phone occasionally texted rarely photographed but that allowed people to send him images

                                                              if he had it on him

he still wouldnt have called 9 1 1

couldnt offer First Aid

wasnt qualified

anyone ever call 9 1 1 for animals hit on the roadhe didnt think so this week pickedup a second dead squirrel off the street

Righteous

           motorcycle flying down the street TwentyFives posted  not no way in hell little squirrel dashed into the road gotup on its hind legs not slowing the biker went left squirrel shuffled right bikerright squirrelleft then lunged toward the rider startledcut his wheel too tight squirrel streaked to safety ugly tumble over the handlebars appeared his arms broke bounced slid twentyfive there you have it  speed limit twentyfivethirtyfeet or more

roadkill

he didnt think so  though definitely fuckedup

but if it was

somebody else could cleanup the mess

1440,  2sday,  21  5. 24

1347,  day-beytween-2-Ts,  22  5. 24

he couldnt believe it

                    Whydidya do tha

It was a black widow.

Thas not a why

That it was was plenty reason enough for me. They’re dangerous and I have to think about my children.

You stomped it because of your kids They arent herewhere are they

They’re at home.

Thasbout eight miles away

What’s your point?

You believe tha widoweight miles from your children was a threat to them

It was a widow. That’s sufficient.

    Sufficient

                 Though abundant fear

I wouldn’t . .

. . I did

          Ill ratchet it up a notch   Irrational fear

If the widow was in your home thas another story

                                                     Were standing at the edge of a gravel drive seventy metres from any access into your fathers house

Hell

     It was going out into the field  Headin in a whole nother direction

Anya kill it

   I told you. It was a widow.

I heard you

            Though over your excuse I heard screamed

I have an irrational fear of a spider

If I didnt knowan maybe I don 

                                   Id say you were a Republican

That's mean to say.

Not as mean as destroying a living creature who  who   yeswho wasnt threatin you

1834,  Monday,  20  5. 24

1246,  2sday,  21  5. 24

they liked to play games

he didnt

he did like puzzles

That’s a game.

Perhaps by your definition

    You ought to play. We built a character for you.

Which doesnt obligate me

                           Shoudave asked first I coudave saved you timeChrist I hope you didnt spend money

If we did, would that make a difference?

No

No.

      Are you really that cut and dry?

If you built a character for me youd know

So what am I supposed to tell the others?you understand you’ll be the odd man out, the only one in the house not playing.

You asked I declined Simple

                               Ill give you a reason to tender not an excuse The groups fine without me

she turned and walked awayshoulders slouched

she wasthey were wellintended

                                  though should have asked first not try and leverage him

in an afternoon they a group effort built him a character

hed spent a lifetime developing his

their surmise misssized was appropriate he didnt want to witness

they knew better

he didnt play video games last century he dabbled with Tetris on his girls handheld Game Boys he wouldnt play on-line or interactive games

                         they knew better                    

he didnt feel bad

6AMish,  16  5. 24

1127,  2sday,  21  5. 24

Sunday he wrote

what was with GOOGLE

        * Create theme with AI  obsequiously tucked in the lower righthand corner of the screen

    theme?

The Me

        didnt think so

wasnt going into syndication

GOOGLE must have gotten its signals crossed  lousy info   faulty algorithms  outofrhythm wishful thinking

now he knows 

https://www.theverge.com/24158374/google-ceo-sundar-pichai-ai-search-gemini-future-of-the-internet-web-openai-decoder-interview?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e

good to know  misstroked  wrote god to know   kinda

                                                         knowledge is power

credited to Thomas Jefferson

attributed to Francis Bacon his 1597 Meditationes Sacrae

but neither wrote god to know

                               hed own itBUTFURST  GOOGLE search

Survey says  “To Know God”

but not god to know

     His

0914,  2sday,  21  5. 24

Bacon  https://www.historyofinformation.com/detail.php?id=5253

OpenAI  https://www.vox.com/future-perfect/2024/5/17/24158403/openai-resignations-ai-safety-ilya-sutskever-jan-leike-artificial-intelligence?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e