Mama Cass Elliot  . . . dream a little dream of me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZ0PZRYin2s

                                                                                                            howbout  dream

with me

would have

but Mama couldnt tarry had places to go people to see things to do

                                                                         left

he preferred places to go things to see people to do

thought that said a lot for him

                                spoke for him to him

dream  dreams

                Jaysus

bawdy

       but thats the reason why he went to sleep  to break on through to the other side

not Morrisons

                          https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFeUko-lQHg

not Death

shit waited for him

                     dared him to take the wheel  be lucid

he could do krazy with the best of them

                                            but sometimes

he wanted to be a passive passenger

an amusement park rider

didnt have to worry how tall he was

                                       rather

how in command of his senses he was

                                          because

like any real good carnival car operator sketchy at best they intended to scatter his marbles

                                                                                                   Take your best shot

the best had attempted

                          wounded him

but not shotdead in the head

approximately 6AMish,  2sday,  14  5. 24

0830,  day-between-2-Ts,  15  5. 24

Tears For Fears  Head Over Heels  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sn6gVWJn9r8

leftie couldnt find the right spot

he slept on his back

                    occasionally turned to one side or the other but not for long shoulder surgeries had put the kibosh on that

   kibosh

             ask a Yid they smile demurely but don say

he knew better

                 he asks only to confirm his understandingbelief   belief  understanding which   he doesnt accept thinkhe believes

                    belief

fellow Kretins are opportunists whod rather lazily take accept   than create

big brains afford that

                       when he asked  the Yid wily accepted credit  when its wasnt due

kibosh sounds Yiddish

                         not Irish

its believed Irish early Nineteenth Century   derived in a London neighbourhood

when he looked in the dictionary its described of unknown origin

                                                                       just like the Irish race

if Jews can be a race

Whynot

          by the bye colloquial evidence kibosh may have been a derivative of caip bais  cap  death

leftie couldnt find the right spot

she slept between his legstucked up against his balls

like her mother used to

where she was born

second of three

between his legs

                 he had a deep abiding affection for her mother and siblings

for her restlessness he slept lightly episodically

                                                   anwhile he did he roiled in the realm of hypnagogia where visions dreams werent a narrative rather miredadmired  a mishmash of disconnectedstrange personalities uproarious imagery that bordered on phantasmagoric

                                   truly Escherish flirting with Irish again

tobogganing on a sleeve of corrugated cardboard down a steep empty rotting concrete parking lot that terminated in multiple alleyways which entering one sluicingnavigating hed be disgorged at the top of the lot to give it a go again

playing strip poker sitting across from a fat man who lost the hand and struggling finally got his tshirt over his head and tossed it aside sat barechested  he groanedblinkedSUDDENLY was across from a young woman who lost a hand and like a seal slipped off her ribbed tank sat barebreasted

sitting across from a stereotypical gypsy woman headwrapped baublesbangles candles flickered incense moldered who after he shuffled the tarot cards spread them in a Celtic Cross but before beginning she shook her head said No, that’s not right. Shuffle them again.

and more and different and sorted and on and on and on until he finally threw in the towel

Leftie

she sat up crawled up his body

he rubbed petted her

                        Whadaya say grrl Time to rise an shine get the show on the road  she answered a plaintive mew hopped off the bed ahead of him as he tossed the sheet and blanket aside and got out on the right side  literally

6AMish,  2sday,  14  5. 24

1046,  2sday

pull-quote:

           “‘Kibosh,’ (Joseph) Conboy (a railroad man whose hobby is Gaelic culture) . . . “comes from ‘caip,’ which means cap, and ‘bais,’ which means death. It originated in Ireland about the time of Judge Norbury, who was called the ‘hanging judge.’ When the people would see him reaching for the black cap he wore when giving the death sentence, they would say: ‘The prisoner is “finished. The judge is putting on the caip bais” – kibosh. Thus when we say we ‘out the kibosh on something,’ we mean we have disposed of it.” 

https://scholarsmine.mst.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1198&context=artlan_phil_facwork

https://www.learnreligions.com/tarot-card-spreads-2562807

heard the shrubjay

                        saw himherherhim in the twistinleafy boughs of the live oak above him

sounded mischievous

reminded him of he in his youth

had to get the last word inhad to fuckprovoke whomever raised his ire

didnt take much

   was always spoiling for a fight

                                     but

hed pocketed what few would have imagined he had

   training

a Golden Gloves boxer

                          a little shit

but who knew how to box

anwasnt keen on takin prisoners

shrubjay cawed

                   understood its advantage

No ya don

CAW

Donya dare

like thawas a threat

in startlinquicksuccession it dropped limb to limbworked its way to the least obstructed perch above him

Whacha gonna dobout it

fair question

   they did

nothing he could dobout itcouldnt even avoid its hotbullet trajectory

                                                                          hit him in the throat

sheheheshe cackled as they flew off

1240,  Sunday – Mother’s Day,  12  5. 24

2234,  Monday,  13  5. 24

James Gang  Funk #49  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_qHU_6Ofc0

. . . movies are stories he could never write

                                                 but he could write a movie . . .

1949,  Monday,  13  5. 24

Willie Nelson  The Scientist  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZKa0ZjvTjo 

FILE  #17

   not ITEM #17 not PORTFOLIO though wouldnt be portfolio or folio neither in his vernacular

                                                                                                      file

anwhy #17

not 17

       17 is a number   why reiterate

   his why was legit

it was his dream

the tyranny of dreamingUnless  like him

                                           one can manipulate it  lucid dreaming

which hes had down pat since his early 20s

worked like a dog

                    its paid off

but last night he went with it

seemed a dare

FILE #17 remained static on the back of his eyelids for a long time

he thought You started this

his patience after years of doctors waiting rooms surgeries recoveries had patience

                                                                                   nearly indomitable

helped to be an Other as perceived by majority fearful Whitey

                                                                  wasnt racist

race is like pornography

                            ya know it when ya see it

an most cant hide it

though they dearly believe they are

FILE #17 turned out to be an oversized 3-ring binder

                                                                Aah 3-ring circus

an it was

it wanted to come across like a dossier about him

                                                     but for a dream it should have been more accurate

it was frustrated

evidently dreams havent long memories

                                              forgot

   he was lucid

                  an distorted every page as it was turned

he dampened some HOT shit

                                    he knew it

but he was Authority

dreams  often they believe they are    think Freud think Jung think psychotherapists

NO

     had the reins firmly in his hands

good try though

                 nice try

have to see if it – they would remain diligent

6AMish,  Monday  13  5. 24

Eurythmics  Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cp58INalLYQ

Woudya quit   Please

                         Quit

Ya remind me of a chick

An youre neither cute or silly

I like ‘em . . and because I like to yank your chain.

Not yanked  An irritant

                          To add a little more fuel to the fire tell me the last time I yanked your chain  Something I dondo

I think you do.

Im all ears

            Tell me when an why

   I’m sure you have.

Positive I havent

                   Not in my wheelhouse

Also  I find emojis emoticons tedious

Why I rarely use them

                         Sometimes to humour  my favourite the semicolon followed by the concluding parenthesis

Which iswas an early emoji endeavor an to my mind should have been the extent of them

They’re playful . .

. . Irritating

             Save the keystrokes

Save em for someone ya wanna be cute an silly with

                                                         Also words nomenclature I rarely use

Save em for someone else   Please

I think they’re humorous.

Okay  Ive asked nice

                        Tell me the last timesince you were unable to cite when last I yanked your chain the last I recommended a comedy movie or told you of one I watched

 

  Yacant

Also

       Because Im rarely moved to harhar

I like witty I like grim

Also

Which you unfortunately fail at

You’re awfully cut and dry.

I am

      Im also someone who doesnt entertain or wishes to be entertained

My hands are full with me alone

Hence my zeal my pleasure surrounding my solitude

1419,  2sday,  7  5. 24

1205,  Sunday – Mother’s Day,  12  5. 24

he couldnt say

                    if he looked in a mirror it was because he didnt want to cut his throat shaving with a straight razor

old habits die hard it was his grandfathers

that said

           he read in Bruens Galway Girl Jack Taylor dresses to go out and takes a gander and what he sees

I had the look of a failed accountant who moonlighted as a morgue attendant.

   hmmm

even if he looked  but because he wasnt going anywhere and whenever hes invited out he declines  preferring his own company   solitude

   maybe his cats had an opinion what he looked like

Wittgenstein

Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent.

he loved the quote for its whereof and thereof

that he cited two quotes made him smile

                                             also  something else he wouldnt see in a mirror

he was unable to describe his “look”

at least he was able to say that he was grateful he wasnt a vampire

face all nickedup  those fresh an those healingscabbing

                                                             an not one unaided by a styptic pencil or a liberal scintillatingsplash of Pinaud Lilac Vegetal

 NO 

       ones scent is not their look

DAMMIT

   if he had to say hed say  I look like I smell after shaving without a mirror

Thursday afternoon,  9  5. 24

1103,  Sunday – Mother’s Day,  12  5. 24

Uriah Heap  Look at Yourself  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMMrazRIdx4

due diligence

   his eyeballs had incitedhumoured him

                                            then

they challengedinspired him  Think

                                       Ya think a blind person sees in their dreams

he hadnt thought about that

Think

   he did

           rubbed off on him

waking this morning the first thing he wonderedstill wiping sleep out of his eyes he wondered what a blind person would have made of his dream

                           waylaid sexually tagteamed ravaged by two boorishly garishly drawn cartoon women

not that they werent attractive

not that they werent favourable composed

not that he didnt thoroughly enjoy them

   their lines

               thick hasty  black oil pastel

                                              peach rosered othercoloured pastels enhancedembellished them

genuinely spoke to revealed their attentiveintense enthusiasm

   they were he was the linens were

                                         smeared

anhe somewhere in the midst of their cummings and goingons thought to hang the flatsheet as wall art

it   was   outrageous

                       

   what would the blind think

                                 if they could see in their dreams

6AMish,  Sunday – Mother’s Day,  12  5. 24

a-ha  Take On Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djV11Xbc914

Gotye  Somebody That I Used To Know  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UVNT4wvIGY

texted  :  :  Come. Coffee. Get high.

                                       Have food shoot pool, enjoy being Polish.

a Johnny-come-lately according to Nat Geo genetic testing

                                                              but that was only the frontend of the offering

friend on the backend

a girl friend

             which texter had a hard time comprehending  not girlfriend   I don’t know that.

he knew it two weeks in

maybe texter hadnt dated much as a teen  in college

                                                        COLLEGE

Get Out of Nam Free card                  

he didnt go

             however given his low Draft number he won better than threehunred buddies parked dough in a pot for the miscreant who had the misfortune to be drawn first TADUM aside from a sewing machinegave it to his sisters it was only fuckin thing he ever won in his life

                              he didnt stick around after high school to let the machinery of the Draft influence or find him

hit the road like Kerouac

spent time with a lot of women before STDs became a thing

                                                                     though made a point of wearing a condom

Don fuck without one

                        nearly the slogan popularised by American Express

he wouldnt

   girl friend

               lead texter round by the nose

galled him

he politely declined

had letters he wanted to write get out

Who writes letters anymore?

                                   texter had moments of assholism

  :  :  Texting with a who

  :  :  Write them some other time.

  :  :  No thank you

   However  Thank you

  :  :  She’s going to be disappointed.

  :  :  Not my problem

  :  :  You’re cold, man.

  :  :  Thoroughly imbued steeled by Reality

  :  :  So what am I supposed to say, you’ll hurt her feelings.

  :  :  I don’t care. You could make something up but I’d tell her the truth: I had something better to do

  :  :  Better?  Really?

  :  :  Then lie

he disliked people trying to hang things around his neck

                                                            Church of Brutal Beyond Belief

he was a charter member

2024,  Saturday,  11  5. 24

Glenn Frey  You Belong to the City  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4ueaD22hg8

   funny eyes

                 aqueous vitreous humor fill them

Whywoudnt they try standup

RESILIENT PARKING

                        saw as his pheripheral teased himglanced right as he walked in the street beside the curb  read

Tha made no sense

Better take another gander

 looked

RESIDENT

Aww

        Tha made sense  Thasbetter

he felt a hitch in his gittyup relax

EYES

they tried to muffle their laughter Yeah

Just fuckinround wid me

Yeah

          We thought it funny

Don quit your day job

 

Our twentyfour hours a day

Not twentyfour

                 Im asleep sixhours or more

Ya think a blind person sees in their dreams

   I donknow

                Ive never thought about it

Think

approximately 1415, Thursday,  9  5. 24

1624,  Saturday,  11  5. 24

It’s A Beautiful Day  Girl With No Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ceMres1EuE

on a handfashioned blackedged framed black font sign

1ST CHURCH OF CHRIST SCIENTIST

   somebodyd have to explain tha one to him

                                                  Christ  Faith

Scientist  meticulous fact  evidence

a setup  Bible is Science

                            a text beginning with Codex Sinaiticus it incomplete written fourhundred years after the man Jesus Christ was crucified

                              Science

No mind nevermind

at the roadside before the building was a glassenclosed bulletin board

BE GLAD

GIVE THANKS

REJOICE!

he thought  Save it

DON WORRY, BE HAPPY!

flipside of the bulletin board

nothing invigorating or stirring

JOIN US 

CELEBRATION   SUNDAY  10AM

 

they really needed to sexup their message

approximately 1345,  Thursday,  9  5. 24

1541,  Saturday,  11  5. 24

https://codexsinaiticus.org/en/

Bobby McFerrin  Don’t Worry Be Happy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjOKm28hUXk

Pharrell Williams  Happy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbZSe6N_BXs

Ive been here all of three days yave taken me around showed me the sights the ocean mountains  Thank you

You’re welcome.

Yes

       The single thing tha sticks out to me

One thing?

Seems obsessive

Obsessive?  That’s . . .

Stringent

Stringent. Obsessive.   Yeah.

                                What?

Whas with Californians an their cars

Their cars?

Yah Obsessive

                   They really like em clean spickanspan  an usually a spick a Mexican cleanin em I cant say Ive seen a soul wash their car in their driveway  Carwashes as plentiful as fastfood joints

Ya don notice

I . . I suppose I do.  There’s a lot of carwashes . .

. . An they aint inexpensive

                              Californians willing to pay an arm a leg foreskin give a blowjob to have their cars as shiny an bright as the sun at High Noon

Not that you’re hyperbolic.

Details  Detailed

                  No streaks   Glass like theres no glass there  Pristine  Brandspankin clean as a newborns butt

No grit

You like grit?

To germophobic mysophobic  freakin O C D

                                                     Lotsa crazies in Cali

I wouldn’t say there were more than in any other urban state, landscape.

he nodded

What?

Cant say

           When yacant yashoudnt

1330,  Thursday,  9  5. 24

1251,  Saturday,  11  5. 24

Rose Royce  Car Wash  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB0aROCl530

scarcely cloud scratch in the sky

                                   NO WORDS  for the wise       the idiotic

who  which    was she

Careful

          Not wise to put tha into the ether

Yasayin Im an idiot

NO

     Was referring to putting thoughts into the ether

An idiomatic expression

Used metaphorically

Yah

she nodded

             Well played  she smiled ridiculously large

shehe heshe loved her dimples

                                  blushed a little  Thank you

Youre welcome

                  Whadaya make of the paltry chicken scratch after blanketed with textdidnt see the sun at all last two days  copiously  extensively    Excessive

Had a lot to say

Vomited

Spewed

Yamake heads or tails of it

   I didnt understand  but I certainly became thoughtful

Me too

         Me too    Kinda miss it

Old saying in regards to the weather 

                                        If youre displeased allya got to do is wait ten minutes  Wait a day

Theres tha

There IS tha

   Arya tryin to crack me up

Wasnt

         But if I did then I have the pleasure of your smile an laughter

1310,  Thursday,  9  5. 24

1217, Saturday,  11  5. 24