No where, man.

sifting through the last of his notes three pages front an back on his desk he realised he wasnt prepared to share any of those stories not the fourteen year old rump up the priests prowling for passionFreuds  Roman Catholic Church Mother Father Sister Brother Ohman  Holy Ghost  Amen  lots there to splice an dice

                                                                                     he wasnt in the mood

Wha type of mood is tha

You understand mood  state of mind   emotion

Cowed

   Ya tryin to be clever

Didnt find tha funny

Don give up your day job

Tough audience

Yah

   So wha will it be

Whaya want from me

I know tha P!nk

                   Tryin to slip one past me

No Hasnt ever occurred to me Id be able to

                                               Given our intimate connection  An all the others

We shoppedround before committing

I must have been havin a rummage sale

No

     Actually sale wasnt on your sign It said rummage   Two different thingsyah

Really

Really

            Youll have to take my word for it We didnt take a picture  Though we converged  commingled

Conspired

No

   Certainly were a lot of you

You recognised after   wha cohabiting

   Sure

          Why not

Cohabiting

              Scads more have rallied to you

You consider yourselves scads

Think scabs

You think wha I think

                         Yathink

Scads  Cohorts

As for me

             Your cowhore

Cowed again

Mooed

Were getting nowhere

Man

Beatles

0900,  2sday,  7  5. 24

P!nk  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iL25Njr8xFA

Beatles  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8scSwaKbE64

was meaningwanted   definitely wanted to have a parlez avec moi ce soir not Lady Marmalade Voulez-vous coucher avec moi ce soir  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQa7SvVCdZk

   No

with Ken Bruen

                  joust with his assessment

The only difference between

A grave

And a rut

Is the dimension.

Xcuse me all to hell  Ken

                             Lets take me for example

he imagined him to say Praytell

Thank you

              Ill be cremated

therefore

a rut in the earth woud do nicely

                                   if

I were to be buried

   However  frankly

                        I intend to have my ashes tossed into the aerosol whipped by a savage Pacific storm

   

Yacan appreciate my dimensional argument

                                                Cantya

   didnt care what Ken had to say    

1415,  Monday,  6  5. 24

2033,  Monday

Dave Matthews  Gravedigger  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=70imAxvE2wM

his mind harped him on an on an on

                                      bounced his ass conscious like a gorilla hired for a highend nightclub

Be a good boy, unzip me.

                            he used to zip up his mother when she had a date with his Dad and he was busy downstairs with his siblings

Are my seams straight? she asked

then nylons had seams

Straight as arrows Maw Yalook great

he would babysit while his parents had their date

                                                       his Dad Unlikely we’ll be back by midnight.

then curfews for kids

Know where your parents are?

he did

        they were out on the town

Be a good boy, unzip me.

she was fleshy

                the top of the zipper was buried under her hair at the nape of her neck

she was taller than he

he got on his tiptoes

hand on her shoulder

she smelled like freshbaked bread

Got it?

   I do

In one long motion, don’t be herkyjerky with it.

Am I ever

   No.  You’re not.

I know whaya want

he unzipped her

                  nape to her cluneal cleft

she tilted her head forward

                             shrugged

her flesh casuallyslipped from her

sleeves

shaking her hands they fellaway

leggings

         raised a foot shook fleshfree then the other

Aaah. That's better.

she turned

             faced him

shapelymolded cups

xylophone ribs

serpentine spine

hips cradle

bivalve lust

              looked good enough to eat  or hang beautifully in a butchers cooler 

she pointed out the window

                              Look.

a red sun was bleeding through the trees

entered through the window

                               anointed her

he imagined crimson waterballoons

                                      when they broke they threw light

Be a good boy, unzip me.

                           her words still in his ears                                                                 

0358   0618   0653,  Saturday,  27  4. 24

1255,  Monday,  6  5. 24

he was supposed to meet his girlfriend at a girlfriends of hers Debbie

                                                                           plans changed

he was to bring Debbie out

he rapped at the screen door it clattered in its jamb

                                                       HELLO

   Hello! returned to him

DEBBIE

Joe!

YAH

I was expecting you come in the door’s unlocked!

COMIN IN

he came to the back door as he was told  entered the kitchen

                                                                   like walking into the 50s

he was also told to expect that

Debbie his girlfriend said is a throwback.

                                             She refurbished, financially she can afford it, redid her entire bungalow like LA after the war.  Think Eisenhower.

You say Eisenhower

I’ve heard of him.

                   You've mentioned him during your rants against the Military Industrial Complex.

He warned America you said, America didn’t listen.

Youre correctyah  Youve heard of him

she laughed gayly

                    Aw don’t say it like that. I love the things that come out of your mouth.

You make me sharper, smarter, more informed.

Youre sweet

You know it.

   he did

           she was the best thing that ever happened to him

he wouldnt jeopardise their relationship for a gawddamn thing

IM IN

he heard her heels approach on a wood floor

                                                You don’t have to yell, I’m almost to you.

Awright

she strutted into the kitchen extended her hand  Obviously I’m Debbie.

Joe he took her hand

a firm handshake

someone taught her the correct way to shake

Now that’s a handshake, Joe.

Likewise

           she was something to behold

his girlfriend said she was a knockout

                                         she knew a bit about knockouts  she was one

Debbie smiled I’ve heard a lot about you.

woman had canines

she turned around

the back of her dress was open

she was naked beneath it

Be a good boy, zip me up.

                            she turned sidewise a bit

looked over her shoulder at him  large green eyes   freckles

he placed her smile

Im not a good boy

                   Youre gonna hafta figure tha out think yahave in the past

Ill wait in the car

walking along the house he glanced up at her through the kitchen windows she hadnt moved  was watching him

Debbie his girlfriend said is a successful flirt.

Successful

   Yeah. Usually gets what she wants.

early Saturday morning,  27  4. 24

1104,  Monday,  6  5. 24

peripherals working

                     counted on them as he walked and read  sides ahead behind behind was more a creepprickliness on his neckBEHINDYA BUB  didnt mind he called himself Bub

hed take it from himself

right peripheral winkedblinked

eyes came out of the book turned his head

an alcove formed before a secretedscreened screenedyah doorway a disabled car sloppyshrouded right tall untrimmed hedge left a figure between

                              man

black durag fedora

                    fedora

strands shiny black hair hanging

thick Poncho Villa moustache

cheeks beard sparse

Hispanic Mexican

black jeans

blackfabric jacket

toking a joint

quietly lighting it deepinhale triggered fired his peripheralLOOK

he choked as he exhaledcoughed

Howya doin

through his choking Guud. choked more

he laughed

choker chuckled

   Hang in there man

Yah.

walking off he continued to laugh

                                    thawas hilarious  nyuknyuknyuk

day-between-2-Ts afternoon,  1  5. 24

0912,  Monday,  6  5. 24

Stooges  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AKtwlHV1-O8

and then theres real fear

                             which reacts asif blinkeredblinded  acts irrational

hed say immoral

I wouldn’t say that.

                      father defending his adult son

No  Whawoudya say

   I’d say . . I’d say he’s responding . emotionally.

Want to put a finer point on tha

                                    Ill give you the opportunity before I do

Opportunity?

Hes your son Youre being defensive for him

                                               Almost asif youre defending yourself  You raised him

You’re steppin . .

. . Out of line

               No  Hes an adult

My daughters are utterly responsible for their thoughts an actions an wha they think an do reflects on them not me

If they were to ask an I thought theyre full of shit I tell em

Yeah. Well.  You’re brutally honest.

As a parent ought be as any contemporary fellow adult ought to be

You overuse ough . .

. . Ya think it ought to be shoud

Should. Yes.

Which implies a subjective view

                                  Ought is objective  It recommends tha akin to law duty regulation

Know better

Ought to know better

You’re regimented that way.

Anal

      Look at you being emotional for me

Thasaid

          Wha about your son

Have a finer point

   No . .

. . Fear

He’s not . .

. . He is

          He acted wholly out of fear

Jesus man, it was a black widow spider.

Did it threaten him

He has kids . .

. . Was the spider in his house

He was defending . .

. . I told him Lets leave the spider be move our conversation into the backyard If it followed us in to attack us then he had REASON                                                  

   Fear

Plain an simple

I disagree.

You prefer euphemisms Enhanced interrogation not torture

                                                                 A spades a spade                            

1506,  Saturday,  4  5. 24

1622,  Sunday,  5  5. 24

No Fear huh

              an AMERICAN lifestyle clothing brand created in ’89

whose consumers were leading their parents around by the nose

young people

               WHO

lets say for arguments sake then  recognise they were junior high students likely grade school cohorts too say twelve to thirteen years old and as full of shit as twelve to thirteen year olds are

their eldest now are approximately 35

                                          spoonfed fat on NO FEAR

former strolls in in ’15 a crap television show preceding him

                                                               then the NO FEARers are twentysix 

anyet despite the Bush years theyre not political animals as he was in his youth 9/11 the catastrophic invasionoccupation of Iraq Neocons ongoing white evangelical racism & bullshite

                                                                                            theyre still at the tit of NO FEAR

bout time they learn FEAR

                               learn Republicans no longer a party havent their best interests at heart  learn that selfinterest powerlust are what motivates them

   Republican politicians know better

                                        but becoming an oligarch is just within reach

they can smell it

                      but so can he

so can he

1156,  Sunday, 5  5. 24

Scott Galloway  The Algebra of Wealth  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEC2Nq7Z6lc

US Destroying Young People’s Future  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qEJ4hkpQW8E

Simon Sinek  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u4ZoJKF_VuA

Anxious Generation  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tcr0yg7Mvg8

You’ll love this I know you like words. While reading I read siliceous sinter.

   Good thing I was listening to you not just hearing your words

What?  Why would you say that?

Otherwise it woud have sounded like you were dissin my sister

                                                                  Antha woudnt stand no matter who you are

No one disses a mans womanfolk not Mammas babushka coicias not sisters or cousins Theyre off limits

What the hell are you talking about?

You said sinter

                 Sounded like sister

But I sai . .

. . I was listening

                    Siliceous sounded like salacious

You need to enunciate better donbe lazy when yare talkin to me

But you understood what I said.

   I did No matter  I coud easily have mistaken your words for salacious sinter sister sinner chert chippie riffin which  on a lighted marque   woud be a great name for a stripper

How the hell you can go from geology to sex . .

. . Rocks  Capeesh   You said not me

                                         Be grateful I listen when you talk

1506,  Saturday,  4  5. 24

1031,  Sunday,  5  5. 24

Gotta tellya  

              Beach Boys Woudnt It Be Nice  Friends theme   they sound similar to me

Wouldn’t It Be Nice  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Vv_dkDwZeQ

The Rembrandts  I’ll Be There For You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2TyVQGoCYo

Not to me.

You can recall them in your head  Both bubblegummy

                                                            Though youre a huge fan

I like bubblegum music?

Ya do

        Archies  Sugar Sugar  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nwgbfriHWt8

Ive heard you hum it

    Have not.

Hesitated

              Ya do

So . . . so is there something wrong with that?

I didnt say tha

You’re implying.

Yare projecting

                 I made an observation  Nothing to get defensive about

Or a bug up your ass

                          We coud be married we coud be married  and then wed be happy

Woudnt it be nice

                     Married

Yare nice

folded his arms across his chest Why you picking on me?

he motioned bigemphatically with his hands Im not pickin on ya

                                                                  You were raised in California  Me Chicago   Motown

Big fuckin difference friend

There was.

There was

             Faggot he burst out laughing as outrage posted on his face  Yacant take a joke

Ya kill me

You’re not funny.

Yare easy to tease

                     Kindalike a chick thaway

Would you quit?

Its just you an me

Well . . . you’re offending me.

Thinskinned  Toughenup

                             My neighbourhood youd have been eatenup an spitout

Laugh at yourself 

OR

     Have a comeback a counterpunch  yaknow

1438,  2sday,  30  4. 24

1257,  Saturday,  4  5. 24

theyd been discussing a while

on occasion fraught  they were his fault

                                            he was brutally honest  she didnt want to hurt feelings

they heal

Is to

        now he was being lacksaidaisical lackadaisical

Is to  what?

Yagonna finish that? 

                       she was becoming irate again was exceptionally good at it

Is to

       Its tilde its grapheme if you will

Are you trying to piss me off? Speak English.

I am

      Theres a symbol which means is to  Such as  knowledge is to wisdom   as

   As?

Yah

What?

You fill in the wha

What the hell are you talking about?

Awright  Ill play first . .

. . You usually say first don’t you?

I do usually I do

                   I say so youre someones aware of where Im coming from

Less confrontational

Which you also do well.

Yah

Assertive.

I am yah

           Maybe now youd like to play first

   No. she looked dour

Awright Knowledge is to wisdom as genius or geniuses are to intellects or intellectuals

                                                                                            Yasee

You’re corresponding knowledge to genius and wisdom to intellect?

I am

I see.

Good

       Whadaya say

I . . I really got nothing.

   Nothing

             Something  please

Awright.

           As a screwdriver is to a Swiss Army knife.

A bit obscure

But you get it?

I do I do ya don have to explain

A Swiss Army knife has a screwdriver among other tools.

Yah

      I followed

I just wanted to make sure.

Satisfied

I am.

As a girlfriend is to a hooker or a hooker to a girlfriend

                                                         Depending on their considered attributes

Or a boyfriend to a piece of shit. drily

Attagrrl

         As the missionary position is to doggiestyle or anal or a blowjob

   Cat got your tongue

                         Not mine

No. Never yours.

                   Not ever.

Thank you

1454,  2sday,  30  4. 24

1144,  Saturday,  4  5. 24

tildes  https://www.thesaurus.com/e/grammar/tildes/

six is to seven 6 7 as seven is to eight 7 8 as eight is to nine 8 9 as nine is to ten 9 10 anif he thought his cats would allow him to get away with nine is to ten hed have another thought coming they were hungry  and that thought happened to be condom root canal

but maybe he misunderstood

                                common root canal

NO

     when he thought that his dreaming mind went jetblack and then in whiteetched letters burned this in his eyes

CONDOM ROOT CANAL

                                             Got it  Buddy

when he started calling himself Buddy like Boss he knew he was in trouble with himself

Whastha mean

Not my problem  I shot from the hip

I think it went wide yamissed

I missed

              Really

Therestha

           We missed

Whawas our aim

Donknow I was asleep at the wheel

                                        Assumed then youre our autopilot

Im the entertainment portion of our flight

Into the beyondBeyond

Behold Children feast your eyes

                                   Isnt thawha Maw woud say

She did She was always right

I think it was   no  I believe    it was to quiet the gang down  See    Shut your mouths

Be silence

                Theres a lot to be said in silence

   Yes  It screams

 

 

six to seven,  Saturday,  4  5. 24