So did you look up the word I texted you?

No I told you I wasnt since you already knew 

                                                  Then you didnt say

I wanted you to look it up.

Me  Im gonna guess it showed up on your Word a Day app on your cellphone

You think that’s where? I couldn’t have found it while I was reading? 

You don read anything thad have dithyramb written in it

You don’t know that.

Ahdon get butthurt Thinkbout it 

                                    I usually feed you books 

You’re so sure.

   Im absolutely sure

Nothing’s absolute.

Nothing

Nothing.

Did dithyramb showup on your cellphone app

hemmed and hawed

Did it

It did.

Thus an example of absolute thank you for playing

Goddammit.

Thank you for not lying

                           Because I woudnt have believed you So whadoes it mean

I’ll have to look it up on my phone. I forget.

Chant Dionysus  Enthusiastic

he looked at him cockeyed You look it up.

I didnt  I knew it

You knew? he was looking at his phone

Yes 

     Im a fan of Dionysus things tha celebrate him Bacchanalia  Greek Dionysia

   Goddammit.

Right

A wild choral hymn . .

. . Chant . ..

. . of Ancient Greece . . especially he eyeballed him especially one dedicated to Dionysus. A passionate or inflated . .

. . Enthused . .

. . speech or poem or other writing.

Correct

he shook his head Why would you know that?

I read

          Know wha Id like to hear

No. shaking his head I don’t know what you’d like to hear.

I’d like to hear someone sing he started snappin his fingersbobbin his head  I got dithyramb I got music I got my man Who coud ask for anything more 

                                            stopped leered like a hyena 

Jaysus.

Don know if he coud carry a tune I want me a real songbird to belt it out Dorothy Dandridge

                                                                                                 O brother

Oh brother?

Oyah  Ya got your phone look her up

1411,  Twosday,  1  8. 23

1234,  Thursday,  3  8. 23

Dorothy Dandridge  I Got Rhythm  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1MFIHCzqoY

Spirit  I Got a Line on You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0eOHu0rMqMI

Lemme see tha coin before you flip it

What?  You don’t trust me?

   I don trust anyone

                         Call it a tic a personality flaw

Alright. Take a look.

                      he handed him the coin

he looked on one side turned it   looked at the other   severely 

                                                                     handing it back  Thank you

What the hell?

Wha wha the hell

What are you looking for?

I believe its been minted anif it truly hasnt been it ought to be 

                                                                 I wanna see it first hand

First hand?  Minted? 

                       What are you looking for?

The coin coins 

                 Democracy on one side Autocracy on the other

4ishness,  Twosday,  1  8. 23

1349,  Thursday,  3  8. 23

https://www.justice.gov/storage/US_v_Trump_23_cr_257.pdf

Jeez. Uncomfortable question.  he pulled at his collar

Quit with the theatrics

You don’t think your question is . . ridiculous . untoward?

No Not given our conversation

they were discussing Darkness at Noon written by Arthur Koestler

                                                                       buddy cant resist an opportunity to go to his everpresent iPhone

Quit

     Put it down  I think I remember him, I just want to confirm . .

. . I can confirm whaya like to know   His wife’s name.   Now yare being a pain in the ass   You don’t know.   I don know her name we were discussing him   I know her name.   Good for you   You see then, how valuable . .

. . No  I understand its immediacy an how it compels an undergirds your impatience  If somethings important I can go home later an look it up on my PC

Later.

Yes Later

Do you want to know?

Her name

Yes.

No

   NoId rather you answer the question  Quit dancinround the maypole

An because I don pose questions I woudnt answer first so you understand where Im coming from  No one

                                                                                                                 You

I’m thinking.

                Cynthia, in case he caught the look he gave him in case you wanted to know.

Thank you

Still thinkin 

             Pretty much a kneejerk reflex reaction

Who would I leave with.

Correct

It’s kind of like you dance with the one who brought you.

I don know whatha is

                        I preferhave preferred  leave the dance with the one who brought you  I cant remember a dance I went to that I didnt dance with other women

Why would you do that?

My date  we danced with other peopleyare makin a face   Because you always only danced with the gal you brought

Don’t say it like that, only.

Virtually you said it  I only encapsulated the obvious 

                                                         No matter  Yawanna answer the question Whod you leave with

Double suicide.

Yes

   You ask strange questions.

1411,  Twosday,  1  8. 23

1059,  Thursday,  3  8. 23

there is protocol 

                 isnt there 

for every scrap of minutiae

that wrack the skulls 

split hairs

of attorneys  pitching fevered arguments 

debating

          baiting

pure  unadulterated  fantasies

protocol for adultery

protocol

         interrupted virginity

misplaced virginity

protocol

         for back alley blow jobs

protocol

         for an upscale four-figure finger

   Exceeding protocol: Bound. 

“Please enter your credit card number now.”

1457,  Friday,  11  3. 11

0944,  Thursday,  3  8. 23

Octopus Diver  Soul Healer  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NCeM_UpfwmA

   It’s all make believe, isn’t it? 

                                     Marilyn Monroe

suicides say the darnedest thing

                                  

Wiggle Room

              Lane Dean, Jr.  the character in David Foster Wallaces book The Pale King relates “It was the first time he contemplated suicide.”

                        comme ci comme ca like this like that

Wallace didnt leave himself any Wiggle Room

it was the final story he wrote

                               his wife discovered his body at their Claremont California home  he hung himself

12 September 2008

Wallace was 46

in his short story When I Look at a Strawberry, I Think of a Tongue Edouard Leve wrote The best day of my life may already be behind me.

he agreed to meet with his editor on 18 October 2007 regarding the publication of his proposed book

                                                                                                          Suicide

17 October 2007 he hung himself in his Parisian apartment

Leve was 42

in a creative frenzy Vincent Van Gogh painted more than 70 canvases in 70 days in Auvers-sur-Oise France

one oil in particular Wheat Fields Under Threatening Skies is suggested to have portend his suicide

La tristesse durera toujour. The sadness will never die. were his last words conveyed to his brother Theo as he lay in a bed at Auberge Ravoux after mortally wounding himself in the chest

Vincent died two days later  29 July 1890

he was 37

Marilyn

Americas blonde goddess

the story goes

It’s all make believe, isn’t it?

was suspected of a Nembutal overdose

or so Dr. Thomas Noguchi believed

                                      The Coroner to the Stars

he said  It’s folly to shrink in fear, if this is dying. For death looked lovely in her lovely face. quoting Italian Renaissance poet Petrarch

5 August 1962

she was 36 her psychiatrist Dr. Ralph Greenson insisted she was not suicidal

then theres Hunter S. Thompson

whose Gonzo journalism making himself the story was published in Rolling Stone The Kentucky Derby is Decadent and Depraved 

          was written under duress he insisted                                                       

he left in his typewriter centered on the page his last word 

                                                               counselor

while talking on the telephone to his wife Anita he shot himself in the head

his son Juan and grandson were in the house 

                                                had to wonder why hedidnt take himself out behind the woodshed instead

bad reception

20 February 2005  Aspen Colorado

Hunter was 67 

                he said That is seventeen years past fifty. Seventeen years more than I needed or wanted.

last but not least

                  earnestly Ernest Hemingway who President Kennedy remarked when learning of his death  . . . he almost single-handedly transformed . . . literature . . . For Whom the Bell Toll

leaving no suicide note his wife Mary made a statement  Mr. Hemingway accidently killed himself while cleaning his gun at 7:30 a.m. 

                   this after he discharged from the Mayo Clinic in Rochester Minnesota after two months of treatment for hypertension

bad hypertension

2 July 1961  Ketchum Idaho 

                                 . . . clad in a robe and pajamas and was found in the foyer near the gun rack in his modern concrete home.

he was 61

 

Above is poetry.

Dramatic, poetic investment

in our Humanity

for the choice

between Living or Dying,

whether we have the right,

or that we should assume how others might feel about a suicide,

as they are often reviled for their diecisionreviled by those left behind.

A terrible determination by those who remain.

Look.  Very.  Hard.

Suicide is self-annihilation.

 

but if “It’s all make believe” then it should not raise anyones ire

we are either waking from a dream or our part in the play is ended and were onto a new part 

                                                                                                   perhaps our next consternation

                 a new part  or just the next part

Thursday,  17  3. 23

1540,  day-between-2-Ts,  2  8. 23

Murder by Death  End of the Line  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tm1jiEWlyJk

inspired by an errorhe was often inspired

                                                      he made a lot of errors

though his mind tricked him

it did tricks

wasnt a prude

money didnt even have to be right

   it convinced him his errors were no more than him assimilating eros

                                                                             passion   physical desire

how could he not be subliminially tempted

his latest botch

                 writing 365 days of zeal and death

he wrote zealand death

                          missed a space 

though triggered new zeal land death

                                           Whawoud tha be    Brain

Don look to me Your eros

Youre continuously at tha reinforcing tha

I am If I don youll accept your errorseros an we certainlyI certainly cant have you doin tha

                                                                                                 Goebbels andon roll your eyesya know  If you tell a lie big enough and keep repeating it, people will eventually come to believe it.

I don play follow the leader

Not his orange his fatty

No

Woud you have followed Churchill

Hypothetical Im loathed to play hypotheticals Were surrounded by plenty enough reality an its precedents Shakespeares Tempest What’s past is prologue. than to play with artifice  Hypoer Theatrics

Goebbels also wrote in ’41 Churchill’s Lie Factory The English followthe principle thatwhen one lies, one should lie big, and stick to it. They keep up their lies, even at the risk of looking ridiculous.

   Sounds like Republicanswho arent the other side of the political coin have taken a page from the playbook

How inspirational

Thasaid

         Whas your intention towards your eros your new zeal land death

I don know  Its pregnant with possibilities 

                                                Ill let it gestate

Fester

Those are two different things

I don know

You do know Youre trying to provoke me  Anya know better than tha

I woudnt say provoke  Id say prod

Goad

Thas an annoying word

Youre annoying

                   Sometimes

Im annoyed all the time

                          Im stuck with you

Till Death Do We Part

Maybe youll work out something different in new zeal land death

  Maybe

I prefer perhaps

My error

   Eros

Nah

0901, Sunday,  30  7. 23

https://www.jewishvirtuallibrary.org/joseph-goebbels-on-the-quot-big-lie-quot

a calendar

if you think about itreally  think about it 

                                               terror lives inside a calendar 

it is an numbered prettified assembly of tombstones

365 days366 on Leap Yearsleap of zeal and death innocuously gathered and stitched together

amassedproduced

listen to the whispers and cries from the death camps and killing grounds  the days dates didnt matter Soviet Union Germany Poland China Cambodia Americas Revolutionary East and Wild West Australia Africa Anywhere – it seems – wherever human beings were they slaughtered other human beings their common denominator: being a human being

We are impervious to this death concept

   CALENDARS

  Hallmark  the Cub Scouts Brownies Boy Scouts Girl Scouts 

lest it be declared with grave dirt or gray mortuary ash soiling the wall it hangs on sifting onto the floor beneath

fixing Its

fastening Its

fixating Its

Reality

it occurred to him as he wrote on calendar  scheduled times dates todays and dates to occur or as he timestamped dated his scribbled words letters poems stories  demonstrated his labor evenif only exercising

he slipped tags over their toes to anNOUNce them VERBalise them SUBJECTed them to their own lives which thenif desired could be etched in stone

they are visceral reminders of our own tombstones 

                                                      gaudy with all the days between our Insurrection and Deaddate and how callous and frequent we simply ignore our lives as they pass away 

were so damn sure

dailymonthly guides anoint us

                                 a Friday at 7:37 p. m. in three weeks

insidious year-long calendars purloining January 31 next year

NEXT YEARS

we really thinkwithout thinking

                                Shit. Aint a goddamnthing to worry about. I’ll seal the deal real clever now, I’ll buy me next year’s calendar or mebbe one of those perpetual ones.  Ahnuts, they got static pictures on ‘em. Month after month. Year after year.

Aww comon, tha's a fuckin’ small price to pay.

Yeah it is. 

   small price to pay Live forever.

Reggaefriday,  18  3. 11

0946,  Sunday,  30  7. 23

Justin Hurwitz  Senor Avocado (Babylon)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGzrSd64bl0

Finale  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zoeEobVMkKA

he read David Foster Wallaces Wiggle Rooms first sentencefour lines down from its beginning

. . . Lane Dean, Jr. 

                         hit the brakes

he despised Jr.s for their given Jr.

                                    anfor them taking it

. . . Lane Dean, Jr. imagined a warm pretty beach with a mellow surf

                                                                         but

reading it aloud  imagined a warm pretty bitch with a yellow muff

rubbed his eyes 

                 their imageries wrestled

he cheered his on

   reading it again

                    again it came out imagined a warm pretty bitch with a yellow muff 

ahWallace  Wha a fine literary trick

amused he wondered if he ever wrote childrens books Primers 

                                                                   See the crabapple tree flower

Is there a bedder thing to read than a Primer a push-in-the-back to move a kid along

                                                                                          an inspirer incenser   inciter 

giving wiggle room to grow

four lines up from the end of the sentence

. . . bone after tea

Bon appetit

   Brilliant Wallace brilliant

blew the shutters off his imaginings

 

Reggaefriday AM,  11  2. 11 or 3/11/11

0834,  Sunday,  30  7. 23

Justin Hurwitz  Wild Child (Babylon)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVAChUIU0dM

his just desserts

comeuppance crumpets

stranded in a dessert

fuckin whiner 

               sounds constipatedsounds like a cartoon character  I did everything right and they indicted me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOvfXCGKXbI

Whadaya mean sounds 

                           Diaper im 

Swathe im

Yah

Recommendations

Yah 

     You first                        

You have ideas

Hell no ideas  I know

Me too

Let the volley commence Chumley

Certainly Tennessee Tuxedo

Service slap!   Abena Abri-Flex Pull-ups

Prevail Pull-ups  MAX

Nice 

      McKesson Ultra Pull-ups  Heavy

sings He aint heavy hes my brother 

                                     TENA Overnight Super Protective Incontinence Overnight Absorbency

Absorebun-cy envy 

                       McKesson again  Ultra Briefs with Tabs  HEAVY

Prevail Bariatric Briefs with Tabs Ultimate

If its the ultimate why arya shagging it out this late in the game

Who knows if its the ultimate Thas advertising

I concede

Another

I do Tranquility . .

. . Ive got a Tranquility too 

Me first 

You first

Thank you 

            ATN All-Through-the-Night . .

. . Oh wow thanks for saying wha the acronym means

Yah no sweat

               ATN Disposable Briefs with Tabs  Maximum

Tranquility Air-Plus Bariatric . .

. . Okayokay thas twice now  Youre gonna have to explain whacha mean

Excuse me Shoudve stopped me the first time Id have stopped you 

                                                                       Bariatric pertains to obesity

OHman hands down knocked it out of the park

Thank you 

            Bariatric Disposable Briefs with Tabs  Maximum 

We crushed it

We did 

        Eight yah

Yah Eight

           Theres probably more but my head hurts    Idve thought one of us woudve had an Pampers entry

I don think there is a Pampers 

                                Thasaid  have you taken a gander on-line at the male advertisements  Trim guys sixpak abs wearing incontinency briefs 

No

Yah

Nah

  Yaaah

Well shit Ill have to take a look  

1704,  day-between-2-Ts,  14  6. 23

1408,  Saturday,  29  7. 23

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDm90r3hVQo