some words tickled his friend 

                              he was like a little kid hearingsnickering when penis or vagina was said 

                                                                                                         the snickeringlikely an attempt to cover his mortification his family churchy

can take a boy out of church but not the church out of the boy 

                                                                 Ohwhell  wha the hell  his issue he thought not mine 

not that he wasnt sacrificed 

Why am I the only kid goin 

his parents looked at him asif he had two heads 

                                                    You’re the eldest. 

he got that as often as he got Because. 

Im the eldestbecause of your actions 

                                        I really don think I ought to be paying for your sins not that they sinned  the accusation however put a knotbunched up their panties 

crude retribution 

                 which he knew if they didnt he was smarter than he looked or acted

   what sent his friend this afternoon

if he wanted to offer a defencehe didnt he could say he was high

when he was high he dumbed waay down 

                                            frankly infantilised  a fart would set him off eyes buggedHARharharhaar  hand clasped over his mouthspeaking through it You farted!

   biology

            everyone farts

hed rip off enormous fartsbe the suddencenter of attentionderision How uncouth. Fuck you an simply say Excuse me were they too uncouth to excuse him 

                                    they fart 

Really

What?

Banal triggers you 

                   Lacking in originality  as to be obviousboring 

It’s a funny word.

Howso

An invitation.

   Remember the cocksucker is high he counseled himself inside his head  unfortunately he knew where this was going right up Lovecrafts alley La Farges Nether Gulfs

Be anal. 

TADUM 

            How fuckin banal 

But ah  stoned men tell no tales

1836,  Monday,  30  1. 23

1213,  Sunday,  5  2. 23

"And then there were two." 

                              Paul McCartney

recorded during the filming of The Beatles: Get Back  televised by Disney Season1 Episode2: Days 8 – 16 (9:36 minute-mark)

the Beatles the documentary film crew may have been the first to strike gold a vein that messily continues to bleed out today  Reality television 

                            though of course its not

as soon as the cameras startpeople on their marks immediately the acting begins  the only thing real is the recording of set circumstances happenstances

unless filmed surreptitiously clandestinely underhandedly  the product is aware  people performative 

                                                                                                               the only thing it lackedhe mused to anyone who would listen but didnt because he wasnt saying what they wanted to hear was the barking of circus seals while balancing on big striped balls on their nose 

                                                                     doing other tricks 

   tricks 

             tricks swung opens all sorts of doors inside his head immediatelyhe thought of prostitutes wondered if they could bark and balance balls 

he held up his whisky  To Paul and Ringo! 

   . . . then there were two.

2036,  Saturday,  4  2. 23

0924,  Sunday,  5  2. 23

Beatles  Fire Interlude Abby Road  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jq7VkBUQ2Xg&list=PLT8CkhThdRZkT5Dxyf2XN2mwt9n_WtOjs&index=3

her pieces arrested his attentionthough he was keenly attentive 

                                                                  he dreamed

he all of himhis dreamed-self dreaming-self

kept an eye outan eye peeled Obrother

                                          truly paid out dividends earlier this morning

   the only way he could explain it after huddling with his dream cohorts was artful

she was artful 

soulful

   she was his 

shed never come to him this way before  she was delectable

                                                                came in tidbits pieces

they descended into a massive collapsedelastic brick chimney on iron ladder rungs he went first

 

   in its very belly ovenlike its face had given waycrumbled beyond it they saw lush greenfoliage woven with scented colouredflowers that in turnabove their bobbingheads revealed a rustsandyellow beach a paleblue whitesurficing sea

the softearth under their feet was madeup of blownsand cinder driedpetals slivers of fretted seagrass flinteddeaddry leaves

       they could smelled the tart saltwater mingling with the flowers 

they undressed

naked  he turned her to the iron rungs

she placed a foot on one held another with both hands 

                                                          leaning forwardhe leaned over her rump against her smelled her neck through her jetblack hair

                                reaching downforward to her leg on the iron he gentlytouched her behind the knee

art happened

  he could only see her through his hand asif an eye grew there 

for his eyes went black

the blindness was erotic

slowly deliberately he ran his fingers across her skin  tickling her

he saw her in segments frames

a slow montage 

collage 

          decollage  unstuck 

affiches lecerees

   she disassembled as he touched her 

a sensual unmade quilt 

                         the insides of her thighs 

stem of her spine 

her hollowsVenus dimples armpits collarbones 

the plump sides of her breasts underbreast brushed her aureoles teased her nipples 

gingerlytouched her lips her nose brow 

felt the insides of her elbows

                                he placed his hands on top of herstheir fingers laced

   mergingthey became one      

b 4 7AM,  Saturday,  4  2. 23

1352,  Saturday

Beatles  Something  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNavPZ8GA6I

Theres a difference

he shrugged

Donshrug A difference

You know, often I have a hard time following you . . but . I don’t see it.  Dead’s dead.

Cold

We’re talking leaves, right?

Yah

Leaves.

Yah

Your point?

Theres a difference between dead leaves and killed leaves

You said.  

            Dead’s dead.

Leaves come off a tree fall on their own  dead 

                                                 A tree is cut down limbs removed for aesthetic reasons not for the health of the plant those are killed leaves no tellin whas living among them the term collateral damage the fact tha we can carelessly toss it aroundnot mention create it have coined it speaks volumes to the lack of consideration or compassion we have for fellow earthlings

Earthlings? Trees?

You don think so

I don’t.

The fucking planets lungs Ya don

That’s a lot of trees, man . .

. . Until theyre not 

                   Too many species all kingdoms some possibly never known are extinct under our care husbandry  Job King James version some chapter some lines                                                                                                                              But ask now the beasts an they shall teach thee an the fowls of the air an they shall tell thee or speak to the earth an it shall teach thee an the fishes of the sea shall declare unto thee

See wha nuns kneeling me on broomsticks taught me

 

The difference 

Oneish PM,  Twosday,  31  1. 23 

1118,  Saturday,  4  2. 23 

Zeppelin  Nobody’s Fault But Mine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=la-zf2TgCjw 

You Shook Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aywXuljytH0

aerosol arousal

was in the marketcaught it out of the corner of his eye 

                                                        Whaddat say a mariachi asked

Damn yare quick

Yasaw

I did I did

Whadyasee

Exactly whayasaw

Which was

Arousal

Yah 

But it wasnt

   No Think not too

No he slightly shook his head in disappointment  Too bad 

Yasaid it 

             Do we wanna look closer            

Don think we have to

Were passin through cosmetics

Ya think it was a perfume

Arousal in the aisle

Thad be sumptinhuh Get kicked out of the store

Probably banned for Frolicking

   Frolicking

Knowin us Frolicking   Definitely  

                                            Yare not stoppin goin back

No

You know its not Arousal

We know its not Well keep going

Pleease

Ya believe in magick  I don

Pleeease 

Don beg its unbecoming 

Im not going back 

                      It said Aerosol 

FUCK

Yah

With a little imagination . .

. . Yah

         An we got plenty        Gotta admit I dug your froLicking

Thought ya might

0931,  Thursday,  2  2. 23

0959,  Saturday,  4  2. 23

Mogwai  Old Poisons  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DK6yw2xQ4y4

had to hand it to emhadnt expected to see such an advertisement at a literary website

   but then writing fiction literature nonfiction is erotic

Get 25% off Crescendo at MysteryVibe!

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he did have to admit text enticing accompanying photograph were a sweet roll he enjoyed with his black cup of Joe

not knowing who to thank 

                            he cried THANK YOU put it out into the Universe

0836,  Saturday,  4  2. 23

Peter Tosh  Mystic Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8od_UP0omg

he tries to resist but often gets caught up in loopscoils ropes spoils  hocus pocus  razzmatazz  not razzledazzle not abracadabra 

               hocus pocus got its hooks in him

 

a magicians conjuring 

Nope 

      magic hadnt any appeal he refused to be confounded by sleight offhand sleight of body seen it once once was more than enoughCREEPED him out 

   hocus pocus happening

looked it up page 803 New Oxford American Dictionary hocus-pocus appears on the righthand corner opposite hoagie – he wasnt surprisedhad expected as much  Ho Chi Minhs picture also appears on the page never had a chance to meet him  though killed his soldiers who tried to kill him not an enviable time at the time he thought it was better than going to prison he was wrong in prison he only would have had to kill time  

hocus pocus presented him to dog Latin cod Latin jargon imitating Latin hax pax max Deus adimax pseudo Latin  who knew there were so many Latins

wasnt buyin hax pax max jaxshit

although he could buy hoc est corpus meum  This is my body 

                                                                   would make a fine tattoo

 

1059,  Thursday,  2  2. 23

1131,  Reggaefriday,  3  2. 23

not wisehe knew better

                        he grew up with television

When it’s least expected, you’re elected, you’re the star today. Smile! You’re on Candid Camera.

he came into the house to use the bathroom  left his buddy at the rail with their beers  wee an outside cat was in the habit of jumping up on it for pets affection and on a couple of occasions had toppled beers into the bushes below

had he known buddy had to take a leak hed have being a good host let him go first  he wasnt aware buddy brought the beers in and was standing at the edge of the hall not six feet off the bathroom door

he washed his handsdried them opening the doorgoing into the hall he said Soft stool Glad I got tha off my chest

buddys expression  priceless

0922,  Reggaefriday,  3  2. 23

Other 1

        drives him nuts 

blog management creates a list of those who read him

China 38

United States 23

Germany 8

France 7

Philippines 2

Netherlands 1

Italy 1

Other 1

 

Netherlands Italy 1 Other 1 

                              but doesnt name Other 1 

hes been firm about the Other as long as he can remember

not like the matter who Individual-1 is

just say What Who

  as he admits

               drives him loco

 

just say

1732,  Thursday,  2  2. 23

Sto-lat

       his Polish heritage prefers it to where Polands gone since his grandparents crossed on steamers to the United States in the early 1900s

a song to celebrate birthdays wishing a hunred years of health and happiness 

That’s very cool, you’ve sung that to me since I've known you, though you've never said before what it means.

I only sing it to you on your birthday Happy birthday Whaelse woud I be wanting for you 

   I don’t know . . didn’t cross my mind until you explained

Howbout this 

               When was the last time you wished someone ill will 

In a song

Ill will?

Yahsure hexed them

Never.

Now thas an idea Grin be celebratory belt it out  I wish you ill will I wish you ill will day in an day out till the day you drop 

      Of course rendered in a Slavic languagecant be Frenchie or guttural German Mebbe Oriental Japanese Chinese Korean  Has to be translated be melodic enough so to pull it off with a smile on your face

That’s a little dark.

Oh come on  answer the question thas begged to be asked

Begged? What’s begging?

Is there someone you disliked enough to wish ill will 

                                                       An I mean truly   I havent 

Come on, you got plenty of political animus, how many times have I heard you go off during an interview on television or something you’re reading Eat shit or mutter fuck you.

I like mutter fuck youlike how you stumbled onto it  Id pluck an eye out of em before hexing someone Cant tell where witchy shit might come down Or the curve of space-time or the universe slings it back on you

Plucking an eye out wouldn’t come back on you.

Not ethereally unseen in the ether descending wrapping you suffocatingstrangling youya cant pull the hands from your throat or clear the thickening choking gauze mucus out of your throat

Jesus.

   Grimhuh

Yeah.

So as Ive said no I wouldnt wish ill will on anyone

                                                            You havent said

Well after your harangue, rant . . I wouldn’t even if it crossed my mind.

Yah Stick to good wishes an plucking out eyes  Im leaving em one Erasmus Proverb  From Adagia

Erasmus?

In regione caecorum rex est luscus  duhLatin

What?

Deduce

Deduce? Aw come on.

Ya realeyes thas the second time in this conversation yave said tha 

Pleease.

Donwanna deduce

I don’t. 

       Please.

Leave them with an eye  In regione caecorum rex est luscus  In  the country  of the blind one-eyed man is king 

How’d we get here? 

Sto-lat

1403,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1209,  Thursaday,  2  2. 23

lets return to the worry some US government officials have expressed towards providing Ukraine with “money, guns and lawyers” fearing corruption failed transparency say three pages between McCarthy and his opponents that salted away his speakership

now the United States is expanding its presence in the Philippines huum  President Bongbong Marcos 

Why does that name sound familiar 

   AH his father kleptocrat was overthrown by the people and spirited away to Hawaii by America

so some worry Ukrainian corruption

any Philippines worries

                         where corruption under peaceful circumstances might be provided warm fertile soil for it to seed and spawn 

Alfred E. Newman  What, Me Worry?

1505,  Thursday,  2  2. 23

https://www.dodig.mil/Ukraine/Oversight-Updates/Article/3282912/defense-state-and-usaid-inspectors-general-visit-kyiv/ 

Warren Zevon  Lawyers, Guns and Money  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2HH7J-Sx80

https://apnews.com/article/taiwan-politics-united-states-government-ferdinand-marcos-jr-lloyd-austin-149f981290f849c62a684bea5d0d276b?utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Sentences%202/2/23&utm_term=Sentences 

https://www.npr.org/2022/06/30/1108841337/ferdinand-marcos-jr-takes-oath-philippine-president 

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-64479712?utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Sentences%202/2/23&utm_term=Sentences 

pull-quote:  “Mr. Marcos Sr., his wife Imelda and their cronies plundered and estimated $10bn of public money while in power, when millions of Filipinos were living in extremepoverty. Only $4bn of this has ever been recovered.”

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-61379915

I wanna see the Zen Sureha  The Zen-Venn diagram on that

Zen diagram? There’s no such thing.

There is now Ive named it isnt that wha people do best attach names to things create words Dictionary Encyclopedia Those texts are compendiums of words names They can spread out for a Zen-Venn diagram satori quietude through circles Oxford American Dictionary only has six pages of words under Z cant hurt to have a new entry to stretch Z

                                 Besides  I like its sound and look

So hocus pocus, it’s a thing?

Nah more like razzamatazz

                             Whenever I wonder if somethings a thing my daughter reminds me tha likely it is  Im runnin with tha

Tha said Canya draw tha for me  

Draw? excuse me  I’m drawing a blank on our point of departure.    

Clever

        Your point

   My point.

             Whawas my point?

An expert the expert

                      You prompted the diagram conversation

confusion shook his head more than he did

Dazed and confused

he nodded weakly

was time to put a bullet in his headput him out of his misery

Awright You said an expert is someone who knows more and more about less and less until his bobblehead went off he knew everything about nothing

Yes.  I did.

Draw it for me

A Zen-Venn diagram?

You remembered

Obviously more memorable than expert.

1447,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1038,  Thursday,  2  2. 23

Quincey Jones  Razzamatazz  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYnV6w-oKmw 

Zeppelin  Dazed and Confused  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w772GXG5LnE

refuting intellectuals were geniuses and genuises intellectuals he posed this simple equation 

                                                                                                  intellectual = passionate

his cohort tacitly accepted his premise not that his acceptance or even agreement would enthuse him

but looking at the equation he said No

cohort asked No?

My equation is unacceptable I shouldnt have written it with an equal sign

If not an equal sign, what? 

This 

     and between the words he slashedstacked four equal signs one atop the other so that between the words it looked like a frenzied spider lashed the l and p with parallel hatching 

                                                                  Intellectuals are enthusiastically passionate

Equal just doesnt cut it

   You’re ridiculous. 

Am I 

      Im not an intellectual but I craveIm curious about things I need them like a junkie needs heroin Id suggest look at this he wrote the equation junkie = heroin  it doesnt emphatically reveal the tipped scale

You don’t think it is queer equating intellectuals with junkies, passion with heroin? 

No  not at all  

              No   Milk blood

noonish,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1202,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 1  2. 23

Neil Young  Needle and the Damage Done  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYY87VEQtRM

Obiter dictum by his expression he was pleased

   Its Latin few use it   Ya resurrecting it

he only knew it because he readreading one comes across all sorts of shit 

                                                                             shit sorties is not Latin 

You always got to step on my toes?

Do I  always

Feels like it. 

             You know what it means?

I do 

  And?

And

What does it mean?

Arya doubting me Stands a Doubting Thomas before me a reluctant sceptic he who refuses to believe without his direct personal experience who has repeatedly he sighed ridiculous repeatedly disregarded wha hes experienced over his lifetimelemme lemme quote ya correct me if Im wrong he cleared his throat I don know tha 

                                                                                              Ya do

Go on go ahead talk a blue streak, but before you do I’d still like to hear your defin . .

. . An incidental or passing remark Theres also a legal aspect which I did not dwell on Im not familiar  Pleading Wittgenstein whereof thereof 

                               Wha light breaks yon window It is the east an Juliet is the sun wha light through yon window breaks Break rules An incidental passing remark

Though Ill admit originally I was tempted an obit about a dick orbit round ones rectum Farcical yes Absurdyes   Tremulous in my mouth

                          I am loathed to suffer fools  Saint Pauls tipped his shiny halo For ye suffer fools gladly seeing ye yourselves are wise  Ye plural of thou thous is not acceptable Thousands and thous and thous end 

Ya gonna step up step in stop me 

Im high

Your high?

I am though I don need to be altered to be alteredgo spiralingspinning off into the far reachesoff like a Roman candle Fortunately mebbe my natural statenatural way of beingwhich if Im uncareful don tamp down will firepercolate through every little hole seam fissure wholesome fissure 

                                                    So be it I am resignedaccepting I am redundant recombinant elastic plastic Gumby though never cared for Pokey Art Clokeys critters originally aired in ’55 on Howdy Doody  Awpleease whadafuck was America thinking

Orbiter dictum?

   Yah

noonish,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

0919,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  2. 23

Boards of Canada  Northern Plastics 31:57 timestamp  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0D5ArpBlCe4

tacit threats

https://www.dodig.mil/Ukraine/Oversight-Updates/Article/3282912/defense-state-and-usaid-inspectors-general-visit-kyiv/

a pull-quote “It is critical for the American people to have confidence in the integrity of taxpayer dollars sent to support Ukraine and its people.”

American Amnesia (AA) 

                         too bad there arent AA meetings for peoplepoliticiansparticularly Republicans to attend

he remembers pallets of shrink-wrapped onehunred dollar bills sent to Iraq remembers Bush/Bremers Coalition Provisional Government in Iraq remembers cash handed to warlord  bribes as US military strategy 

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2007/feb/08/usa.iraq1

fiscal responsibility

suddenly Republicans care mightily

despite giving themselves a pass after September 11  pass: the War on Terror – enhanced interrogation  pass: You are either with US or against US  tacit threat

1004,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 1  2. 23

https://www.jstor.org/stable/10.7249/mg847cc 

$8 trillion  https://watson.brown.edu/costsofwar/costs/economic