31.1.23


Pro lego men  on.  he stumbled through the word  Have you ever heard it before?

I cant say Im not quite sure you pronounced it correctlycan you spell it

I think I’m close.

Im not sure Coudya can you spell it

he cleared his throat he was irritated It’s spelled P R O L E  G O M E  N O N.  I remember by thinking prole game on

Innarestin game Id imagine Your spellings closer than your saying  Pro le gom e non I believe

Whatever . . can’t take me at my word.

Saying it incorrectly  No I cant

I was close.

Yawere 
         No  Ive not heard it before  Wha is it

An intro to a book. Like a prologue, different though.

Perhaps a matter of formality more formal

Hoity-toity?

Exactly Where did you find it

Book on intellectuals.

When in Rome

You think, huh?

I do stands to reason They have their code code as all who specialise must

What do you mean?

Code vocabulary  To include exclude

How do you mean?

Extract a sense of belonging An belonging a niche therefore separate Its language You don know French you woudnt know what French speakers are saying It transcends foreign languages imparts informs those specialists experts lawyers mathematicians physicists an on  Hell reggae hiphop 
                                                                   Don know the lingo take another bus 
You think?

Wha do you think

I don’t know.

But ya havent troubled yourself to think either  Think

   No.  I’ll take you word for it.

You shoudnt

You usually know what you’re talking about, or you don't say.

Coud be blowin smoke up your ass

I could be liking it.

   Yes  I know I woud

Jesus.

Noonish,  Saturday,  14  1. 23
1213,  Twosday,  31  1. 23


a whispering woke him
not someone 

   whispering  inside his dreamthe satinsound of a slow leak 
                                                                   love long lone glove  melodious 
love long lone glove love long lone glove love long lone glove love long loneglove love longloneglove lovelongloneglove   

he had long since quit wonderingasking why
was 
      he knew 
was untroubled

he turnedwas sleeping on his side a cat asleep behind his bent knees warming them  he liked that 

he said to himself  Love  Long   Lone  Glove 
                                                chuckled   made sense
no sooner than he chuckled
the whispering ceased 
the cat shifted 
still slept

still
      very still 
early  birds outside hadnt sounded 
they and the sun were his alarm  poor word choice  nothing alarming
                                                                              waking him as a boy his mother or father would say Time to rise and shine son tickled them it never got old

he said out loud himself to the cat or two three four 
                                                      AWEright  time to get this show on the road

6AMish,  Twosday,  31  1. 23
0939,  Twosday
Michael Stanley  Let’s Get the Show on the Road  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jlz_dLcYPQw

30.1.23


   after thinking that  he was wonderingnow trying to ascertain how sociopathic he might be


driving through a remote moneyed conclave via French from Latin lockable roomlockable  estate  he saw a filthy brown dogwhite saddle standing in wet mud inside a yard contained by barbwire 
                                                                                his tail was down ears were down he looked like the kind of dog not that he knew much about dogshe favoured cats that if attended or kept with another dog his tail and ears would be up

he genuinely felt bad for the dog  his circumstance predicament   being alone 


having passed he turned the dogs circumstance onto a man a woman either alone   and that he couldnt care less 
   genuinely

he had more sympathy for the dog than he had for a human being 


   sociopath

socio -- pathetic 
                  or that a human being should be able to get along fine by themselves 


fine by themselves
1315,  Saturday,  28  1. 23
1600,  Monday,  30  1. 23


ZERO SUM game theory

military theory

football theory

social theory

economic theory 


Americans let them run their course  hands up  surrender 
                                                               Way its always been 
You owe me.

   debt  
         who is you typically a bloodless entity  corporation (Dracula) looks ‘as if his youth (had) been half renewed.’ The reason is clear. He has been renewed by blood. On his lips thick blotches of fresh blood which trickled from the corners of his mouth and run over his chin and neck. Dracula is gorged with blood, ‘like filthy leech.’  Bram Stoker 

theyre not entitled to a risk-free environment make shitty loans theyre obligated to suffer their bad business practise

he didnt casually remember the 2009 financial crisis doesnt suffer American amnesia

illegal deriatives  trading

bank bailouts

banks unchecked  not busted up  

CEOs didnt lose their jobs received shameless bonuses


10 million people lost their homes

 

Where’s this animosity coming from?

Accurate Good for you it is animosity  Its disgust 
                                                     At the beginning of the play-offs I happened to see a military flyover  Years nowas you know Ive watched game highlights on the computer  I saw football celebrate the military  I see their obscene bondrecognise their shared zero-sum mentality

Zero-sum. I think you’re reaching, going too far . . I think you're wrong.

I believe its difficult to make the blind see the ignorant learn  Bread and circuses Ironic isnt it attributed to Juvenal late first an early second century C E 
                                  CE  See   Si
 
1506,  Saturday,  28  1. 23
1029,  Monday,  30  1. 23


Do ya hear yourself

he irritated him 
                 Of course I hear myself.

Wha did yasay

What did I say.

Wha did ya just say why Im pushing back hard on you why AI isnt the solution tha we must be tha we have experience and by it from it our decisions mineyours ought to be made OUGHT based experientially not through data culled by some fuckin machine

You got a hard-on for AI . .
. . I do Unnecessary but stay on pointdon divert distract digress Wha did you just say

Regarding what?

This Our experiences versus AI

What did I say?

Regarding corporate greed corporate gouging Pricesthe last fuckin time you got a thirty percent raise
                                                                                                          Your experience ought to be tellin ya OUGHT 

So what did I say that tipped you?

   Tipped me  Understatement enraged me

I enraged you?
Yes  Wha did you  say

I have no idea how I enraged youwhat I said that would.

Are listenin to meevidently ya have trouble hearin yourself

I’m listening.

Thank you he took a breath  I don know tha You sure as fuck do

Know what?

Were being gouged An government isnt doin shit

I don know tha. 
AGAIN 
       You do so You fuckin do so

I’m telling you I don’t know that.

You do Wha did you pay for a Snickers bar as a kid

A nickel.

Yes anwhile you don know I know it weighed twopointfive ounces

I . .
. . Don give me tha take me at my word or put a hunred dollars down against me  I dare yaI fuckin dare ya 
Any idea wha it weighs now

I haven’t bought one recently. 
Quit woudya Don obscure the question ya don knowsay you don know excuse me  say I don know tha

No. I don’t know.

Good We can agree It weighs onepointeightsix ounces difference is wha

Difference?

Flash cards Two five zero minus one eight six fourteen to two fifty to two fifty Sixtyfour Yawanna do the math on the percent difference between when we were kids to now

I think not. You seem to have things well in hand.

Twentysix percent a quarter smaller 
                                      Whadoes our not-five cent Snickers bar cost today 
I haven’t I ah . don’t know.

Thank you 
           One dollar and sixtynine cents  I aint doin the math to know that corporate is gouging us  My experience tells me so

You Older than me 
                      Obviously have no experience
Monday afternoon,  23  1. 23
1152,  Monday,  30  1. 23
Peter Tosh  The Day the Dollar Die  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W33LC4Lch1w


perplexed shrugging within Im flummoxed  Yare telling me a woman hasnt ever turned you down when youve asked her out

No, I can’t think . . I can’t think of a time.

Not once

No . . no. Not that I can recall.

Ya cant recall 
               Whell thas horseshit

No I’m telling you, I can’t recall.

We can agree yare memorys for shit

I just saying I can’t recall. 
Because  your memorys for shit

I can’t remember being turned down. 


So then one might assume  you were playin it safe

Safe?  No I don’t think so.

I think so  hard to believe yawerent intimidated  Not to where ya didnt askwoudnt ask
Have you . .
. . Cant begin to tell ya how many times Ive been turned downtold no

You readily admit that?

   Ya deaf

Why?

Why wha

Why did they turn you downwhat did they say?
Say 
     I didnt askwhy woud I ask

I’d’ve asked. 
Horseshit 
           Women who intimidated youya didnt ask out
I said I don’t remember.
No
    Not in possession of tha faultless memory of yoursof course not


Why wouldn’t you ask?

I no why

You knew why. his face pinchedmissed his innuendo  Why?

They said no 
               A woman says no she means no wha do ya mean when you say no

1524,  Saturday,  28  1. 23
0939,  Monday,  30  1. 23

29.1.23


they vied back and forth semantics intellectuals not-geniuses geniuses rumours gossip lies Venn diagrams Zen diagrams gamechangers dealbreakers 
                               Yay  Stoned

he mused Whabout etchings

Etchings?

Ever think tha was a line  Woudya like to come up an see my etchings  

   Etchings?

Yah comon  once upon a time photography posters didnt exist  hence etchings paintings 

That’s stupid.
Ya kiddin 
           If you were alive thenmake a historicalcultural leap  how ya gonna get a woman up to your place

Not to see my etchings.             

Wha

I don’t know.

Comon think  gets a little old being the lone storyteller balls in your court  How you getting her up the stairs to your tenement 
Tenement?

Werent called apartments not even cold water flats  tenements  maybe maybeheated with stoves braziers maybe fireplaces my point  get her off the street up to your abode  Better 
                                                                      Certainly not incumbent on your sterling personality humour neither sufficient  To suggest etchings might fetch her up  suggests taste wealth sweetens the pot

You’re kidding me.

Know me to kid  Straight shooter babe

You don’t think I’m prize enough? 
Oh hell no

   No? 
No nope  Then as now yaneed all the help ya can get 
                                                        Me  Id definite chime etchings  Think inducement  Helps me seduce  Induce seduce  Fun  Clever   Give her a giggle if nothing else

Giggle. 
        No I don’t think so.

Ah  Abstinence 
                 Theres tha
No. 
How are you getting her upstairs cuz ya aint alltha not much of a lure friend

I would.

Lemme guess
               Wishful thinkingmagical thinking  How

I just know I would.

   Suppose thas half the battle   Nother toke

1453,  Saturday,  28  1. 23
1233,  Sunday,  29  1. 23


No nono  yare AI falls on its face 
                                   Human beings must be in control of themselves not submit to dictates of machinery

How do you figure?

Simple Youll arrive at it as I say it 
                                      You insist AI coud vetweed out racists white supremacists bigots National Christians from police departments the military  Christ even government

Yes.

So why isnt AI employed to deviseutilitse such tests 


   Because if it did . . we couldn’t find enough good people to fill the ranks, serve. 
BINGO 
          Particularly police  To serve and protect
 
1506,  Saturday,  28  1. 23


he and his mother-in-law jawed

they were often at odds

she was a FOX News Republican

Christ FOX  Nothing but propaganda   Crap Maw

she was also very religious called tithes she provided church bills  payments

Tryin to buy your way into Heaven

No.  fixed him with an earnest Japanese look  seppuku serious

Awright 


she fell New Years Day on her laminate foyer banged up her hips elbow shoulderslapped her face  got a black eye
bruised but didnt break 

Jesus Maw  Please be careful

Japanese people have strong bones.

Thickskulled 
Japanese people have strong bones.

   when she didnt understand him she ignored what he said

noonish,  Friday,  27  1. 23
1014,  Sunday,  29  1. 23

one elite SCORPION unit loved lovedloved clever cops  was being facetious  an acronymCHRIST  Street Crimes Operation to Restore Peace in Our Neighborhoods  got to be a bitter pill to swallow 

   Tyre Nichols

he didnt watch the beating video Mr Nichols family released

hed rather watch people fuck than violence against each other                                                                                                                               Comon man Memphis sits virtually on the corner of Tennessee Arkansas Mississippi OHJOY

So what are you saying?

Last time you were in those states

Ive never been.

Visiting any time soon

Unlikely.

Rest my case Five Memphis black officers were involvedhave been charged

Yes. What’s your issue?
Don call black officers elite Could go to their headsobviously went to their heads Cops tend to think themselves above the lawtheyre party to the state represent the state Shit like tha can go to ones head

So why not call them elite?

For the very reason Mr Nichols is dead Call someone elite theyll buy into it 
                                                                              Lemme ask you You were a teacher If the School Board called you an elite teacher woud you buy into tha or woudya push backwoudya push back yare just doing your job 


Maybe yare the wrong person to ask I woudif anyone dare label me elite while I was working Id be in their face like white on rice  unless I was wild or brown rice  DON NEED NO LABELS  Just doing my fuckin job

You think elite may have gone to the officers heads?

   Something did 
                  Lemme put it this way One doesnt have to call white police officers elite Whether they are or not they believe they are Calling white officers elite is redundant

You got a fucked up way at looking at things.

No not necessarily 
                    More than a thousand people over each of the last three years have been shot to death by police  Excluded are beatings or people who commit suicide while in police custody

The state the police kill people execute people extrajudicially I mean outside being arrested charged tried by their peers 
Thas fucked up
1258,  Sunday,  29  1. 23


his friends friends complained bitterly to him that his texts were awful werent cogent  they lacked continuity were littered with misspellings and used acronyms they werent familiar with  thought he was being clever  
he nodded as his friend explained

You agree?

You write shitty texts

Shitty.

Yes and for all the reason theyre complaining about I follow

You don’t complain. 
   Maybe Im more patient
                           You have to admit I rivet you with question after question Ya have a habit shooting from the hip which makes them uncoordinated fail linearly   

How do you mean?

Its possible they don wanna take the time to contend try an read decipher them You fail to give them how to say   critical  not critical thas not the word tha is a word however  Im lookin for another   Not clinical though easily a descriptor too  but not the word Im looking forFACK 
                                                      Temporarily Ill say critical other word uses many of the same letters
Ill come up with it 

Your texts are stilteddifficult difficult to comprehend Theyre supposed to be easy an excuse me for saying  Whayave told me  They tend towards gossip
We don’t gossip.
Ya do  Ya talkbout other people behind their backs

   They probably talk behind ours.

he rolled his eyes You don know tha shook his head I gotta spring Wittgenstein on you again

You best . . I never remember.

No ya don  Whereof one cannot speak thereof one must be silent 
                                                                   Ya don so shaddup
AH  Intricate

Intricate?

Yes the word Your texts arent intricatelack intricacy critical wording  background 
                                                                                       Knew Id remember 
Suppose Im saying compose your texts  Quit with shooting from the hip ya know wha yare talking about they don  Preface them provide grounding

friend shook his head dismally 

   Lemme guess 
                    Ya don wanna work tha hard

No not really.

Then quit texting them Save up for face to face gossip

1540,  Saturday,  28  1. 23
0909, Sunday,  29  1. 23
Murray Head  Say I Ain’t So, Joe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GbYMkh3GYM

28.1.23

comma

another night spent dreaming of a wordseemed all night  he couldnt recall any interruptions commercial breaks alleviations 
            a flash card turned  COMMA  hed say Comma  the card was placed face down  the next card turned  COMMA  he said it again  card was placed face down  next one turned  COMMA  and thats how the night went the dream passed until his bladder gave him an excuse to excuse himself and wake 

he took a leak and returning to the bedroomthe bed beckoning  he declined   to his cats he asked Whadasay Time to get the show on the road 
                          he cheatedsmacked his lips  over the years it had been his way of informing them they were going to eat 
cats like humans are creature of habit  routine 
                                                 they also knew theyd eat after he made his bed 

his bed wanted to be made like he wanted to be made 
                                                         Sorrybabe  Make you tonight

making her  thinking about COMMA  he found that after readingrepeating COMMA in his mind Bring up the dead occurred to him  Bring up the dead 
                                    now his dreaming influencing his consciousness 

after feeding the cats he went to his dictionary 
COMMA
         via Latin from Greek komma  ‘piece cut off also short clause piece cut off’ from koptein ‘cut’

Bring up the dead

Piece cut off 
            pretty fuckin accurate

recently too many pieces were being cut off in his life 
                                                        like he needed his dreamed-self and dreaming-self to remind him 
Workin overtime boys 
Knock yourselves out 
Don pay overtime
                
0700ish,  Saturday,  28  1. 23
1233,  Saturday
Bruce Springstein  Working on a Highway   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5OEA9_Gtims


if he was patientdidnt have to wait long not really  his father always presented him with an opportunity for a joke 

they just occurred to him parked their fat asses on his lap so he couldnt ignore them
                                                                                      had to get them off his chest
YUP  lap to chest 
he joked quickly
                 didnt want them to straddle his face 


his dadthey were talking on the telephone said he went outside to shovel the walk they received threefour inches

his dad  older  was recently prone to stumbling
                                                  slipping part and parcel of stumbling 
Wha you wearing on your feet

Shoes, what do you think?

Wha shoes Dad 
My shoes.

Your shoes rubbersoled shoes your shoes leathersoled shoes your shoes inside galoshes

   I didnt go down into the basement for my boots.

So what shoes

My dressmy leathersoled shoes.

Ya slip

I did a bit and then your sister knocked ferociously and yelled What the hell are you thinking? STOP. GET INSIDE. 
She was mad.

Understandable Shes afraid yare going to fall anya cant afford to fall because she wont be able to help you since her foots in a cast   Dad

I stopped and went inside.

Good Why are your boots your galoshes in the basement and not the garage yare months into winter

Haven’t had much snow to speak of son, and if it’s snowed the sun melts it before too long.

Ah So are you talking galoshes tha latch up the front or rubbers that virtually just cover your shoes

Galoshes.

Good Never cared much for rubbers

Me neither.

Why

Deeper snow get inside your shoes . wet feet.  You?

I didnt care for them because I had a hell of a time foldinem gettinem to fit inside my wallet 


took a bit for his fathers chuckle to percolate 
                                               his mother would have told him he was BAD  he wouldnt have spared her the joke

1111,  Reggaefriday,  27  1. 23
1127,  Saturday,  28  1. 23